Ranier Maria Rilke: Letters To A Young Poet

http://www.sfgoth.com/~immanis/rilke/letter1.html
idle time. to read. ♥

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nami na tani love letter may fairy pa nga la undies.. syit! double syit!

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ang reply sa ako-a uyab na sapoton sa ako love letter kunuhay na gisigned with love raen, fairy na wla undies. ü

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dear gelo,
am okay when we don't have money at times, specifically on weekends and we only have 500 pesopesoses and all we can do is impose a two day budget and cook rice and steam that beef luncheon meat and wut-have-we that's left on our kitchen sink, am okay with occassional movies, because am not exactly keen on movies- those that make me think, cuz i'm too tired of thinking at times, i'm okay when we have little, cuz at times, when you tell me that the only thing we can do for others is to pity them for the wee that they have, i am left grateful, i am okay with the little or no surprises that is totally you, i got used to that, i am okay with our terrible fights, cuz, at times, after those, it feels like summer time. we are all right.. and all cheery and have a sunnier view of what we are going to have.. i'm okay with the wishy-washy-ness that we commonly share. and how we would like to make decisions and come up with indecisions.. i am okay with saturday nights spent at home, cuz even if i wake up smelling funky and drooling in your arms, i know i will not be scared and need not reach for the night light.. i am okay with carrying a 6 litres jug of water, cuz i know you'd carry two of those at the same time, and think that we are luckier cuz water would not cost our lives every time we buy refills..i know, i embarrass you every time i do a backstreet boys dance number when we are in groceries, and you would balk each time i do something silly in public.. i love how you lemme be and how you restrict me with some things- like how you pull me away from candy stores and how you tell me to get started with cardio.. nonetheless, you'd get me ice lollies and lemme have all the cakes i want.. i love how we are.. and i am cheesy.. belch!

 

"I am certain of nothing but of the holiness of the Heart's affections and the truth of Imagination--What the imagination seizes as Beauty must be truth..."

A quote from the letters of John Keats

dropped threads

"What continues to perplex me is that all these years of existence have taught me so little.  I had hoped for wisdom, but I don't even know what wisdom is.  I hope it has something to do with putting the top of my car up when it rains hard, because I almost always do that."

-- June Calwood, "Old Age" in Dropped Threads

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shobe,

i doubt it that she even have friends.. stay away from maniacal heartbroken gals like her cuz i know her too well. she is cathy that heathcliff left wailing at the moors.. yes, she may be educated but, i don't like the way she talked.. or wrote that email.. noone in the right mind should be talking to a gal like that.. and it's the best time to stay mum and not act like all greta.. i wouldn't know who's right cuz her dear guy shattered her poor heart and she can wallow and be pathetic like i(more often than not)..then again dear sister.. stay away from the likes of her..she is sick..

♥

airplanes will take you away..

Date:	Saturday, 12 May, 2007 8:10 PM
Subject:	Re: ahay
Message:	dont worry mo balik pako next week.. sa may21.. heheÜ

 

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at times i wonder why people come into my life and then leave.. others would promise one thing tas wouldn't be able to keep their word.. i told clement am not worried.. i was just unhappy that he went away without keeping his promise; which is to tell me that he left this city.. i told him i was happy i met him in this godforsaken-lonely city.. but, i'll do just fine..

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again, airplanes can take him away.. and am not gonna be there when he comes back.. am gonna be baking in bantayan(defeating the purpose of not wanting to be morena & purchasing that darn bottle of gluthathione!)..

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blessed me.. ♥

♥ who'd care?

there's a famous diver who once said that even if he screwed his dive & the whole world wouldn't believe in his abilities anymore, he would not care a cent for..

HIS MOTHER WOULD STILL LOVE HIM..

ohwells, before today would end..

ithank God that it's sunday..

ithank God for the love-hate-love-resentment-love-love-love relationship i have with my mommy..

ithank God that He made tons of my galpals mums..

fifay

joey

kiss

kaith

magi

deedee

cathy(martinez)

marsi(hugs)

my best buddy anvi

(sorry if i missed out on anyone, it's 930pm..it's late..ü)

and my dearest little sister sheila..

happy mother's day..

He made you mothers because He knew that your touch would always heal and that thru you there'd be a great nation..

♥

lovealways..

 

 

re:: to another one bites the dust..

i forwarded my post yesterday to johnny thru email..(i am affected like that..and yknow how i get OA when i am affected..)here's his reply ..that's why ilovelove working with johnny because he doesn't necessarily agree with my opinion but, he would validate my opinion.. nyayaya..(digression:: nganu ang iya team mate na na buhat nag tech review kay labad? when i already gave up on the thought na maOK mi mag tagad tagad ug iya.. nganu naay tawng bogits? like some ppl in this city?!) here goes johnny's reply.. ü

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Well put :) Thanks for the insight Raen.... you're maturing, obeying authority?! :) amo na ya! belib na ko sa imo:) keep it up! :) Your doing a great job, you deserve to be QA :)

 

Johnny "Jun" J. Motoomull
Team Leader – Operations
Dell Technical Support - ACS Imaging

 

Teleperformance
Luxur Place Magsaysay Ave
6100 Bacolod City
Mobile: +63 9173000983

Johnny.Motoomull@teleperformance.com

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From: Rae Anne Gedorio
Sent: Thu 5/10/2007 6:36 AM
To: Johnny Motoomull
Subject: nyahahaha..

i totally understand how it feels picking up the phone and have ppl who doesn't speak your first language badger you and complain that they've been asked the same stuff several hundreds of times already..the way i see it, the recent changes in our queue's call flow should not bother the quality of the level of service we have to offer..it's really with how we say things and not with what we have to say that would weigh so much..when we are on the phones we'd have to believe that WE ARE CAPABLE AND WE ARE THE BEST PERSONS TO DO THE JOB..once we start our work grumbling and saying that the new updates are confusing, it makes work a lot more difficult to deal with.. it's like how you would deal with a friend who has this negative, heavy spirit..you wouldn't like being with this person becuz of the complaining nature..

i've had my share of biting the dust..2 years of taking calls for totally different accounts, from dial up isp to travel to outbound surveys dealing with cancer, chickens, casinos, and politics, from selling high speed and retaining those who got their isp, i could, in my opinion say, i know more than what you think you know..and had gone thru similar situations that you face on the phones now.. 

i have been confused, frustrated, i've complained, i would scream "Lord,why wasn't i born filthy rich?!" when calls got to my nerves, i'd even say, ang bobo ng TL na nasa floor ngayun, or say QA knows nothing, they cannot seem to get their acts together..and it can be true-some QA persons have undeniably bad english and would mask that by saying IAMQA.. i mask my lack of technical knowledge and troubleshooting skills by saying, well at this point i am not the one who is on the phone-w/c by the way is a lousy way of avoiding awareness or education.. i do not want to start being defensive..

i know that those on the phones are capable of doing their thing, they are best at troubleshooting and they know what they are saying or at least would pretend to know..why in the world would this job land on their laps if it's not meant to be done by them?

an agent should not expect that the client (or maybe quality even) to flex toward their this-callflow-is-ridiculous grunts.. guidelines are there so we do not go offtrack.. it's like how they say in the past.. you pay your dues to caesar..it means that we have to obey authority..the quality call flow is authority.. and it did not come from worker ants like me.. it was thought of and would have logical reasons why certain information had to go out in the manner that is written in the guidelines..that is why it's called a call flow- a call had to be fluid and coherent like that..

if we start out whining with our lil powdered noses sticking up in the air, we've to reassess whether we should stay or do we walk out and find a job that would not entail using a callflow.. this would save sanity and make QA dept's job easier cuz everyone who'd be left of the floor would be non-disgruntled technicians who are willing to make good and make do with wut was provided.. i walked out of a job that has made me unhappy too many a time.. and i wind up going back to this industry..bottomline, i'd still stick my small nose on that darn callflow if i'm still willing to answer the phone..

asthequeenbeewouldwanttoputit♥

 

Raen

RAE ANNE V. GEDORIO

DELL QUALITY ASSURANCE ANALYST

0927-617-9965

raeanne.gedorio@teleperformance.com

when you're stoned..

this afternoon i thought i should go thru jacel's old letters(i wish i'd taken the whole box of her letters thru the "growing up" phase..and i'd check how misguided our opinions were)// the ones sent the past couple of years.. am like maaaaan.. the last ones i sent her were like from 2 years ago..& i still held on to an envelope that i should have mailed by now-full of 2 year old verbal diarrhea.. and feelings that no longer exist about my sisters or my mother..(again, am always good at loving them if we were separated by buses and planes.. i guess everyone would agree.. ü) and people whom i thought meant the world at that time or jobs that choked me into unhappiness..

i got these quoted off from one of jacel's::

the meaning of prayer is that we get hold of God, not of the answer..(quoting oswald chambers)

it's because there is a God. it's because I have God in me. and i will live my life telling and showing people there is a God..(jace on charity)

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slept a few hours..woke up at 945p shift starts at 11p..i wish our sched's flexi..like we do our quota and just sleep the whole time.. ü hay, if only..

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an entry i ripped off my letter that is long delayed..(i promised a gazillion times am sending..and i will, one of these days..hehe)

july 22, 2006

i might be staying in cebu, i might have a davaoeño for a husband//pero looy sya jace, he'll marry a broken broken person na ang heart is divided or pounded, maybe what's left for him is just 1/18..kawawa..hehe..

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Hiseyesseefartherthanmine..

 

 

 

another 1 bites the dust

 

i totally understand how it feels picking up the phone and have ppl who doesn't speak your first language badger you and complain that they've been asked the same stuff several hundreds of times already..the way i see it, the recent changes in our queue's call flow should not bother the quality of the level of service we have to offer..it's really with how we say things and not with what we have to say that would weigh so much..when we are on the phones we'd have to believe that WE ARE CAPABLE AND WE ARE THE BEST PERSONS TO DO THE JOB..once we start our work grumbling and saying that the new updates are confusing, it makes work a lot more difficult to deal with.. it's like how you would deal with a friend who has this negative, heavy spirit..you wouldn't like being with this person becuz of the complaining nature..

i've had my share of biting the dust..2 years of taking calls for totally different accounts, from dial up isp to travel to outbound surveys dealing with cancer, chickens, casinos, and politics, from selling high speed and retaining those who got their isp, i could, in my opinion say, i know more than what you think you know..and had gone thru similar situations that you face on the phones now.. 

i have been confused, frustrated, i've complained, i would scream "Lord,why wasn't i born filthy rich?!" when calls got to my nerves, i'd even say, ang bobo ng TL na nasa floor ngayun, or say QA knows nothing, they cannot seem to get their acts together..and it can be true-some QA persons have undeniably bad english and would mask that by saying IAMQA.. i mask my lack of technical knowledge and troubleshooting skills by saying, well at this point i am not the one who is on the phone-w/c by the way is a lousy way of avoiding awareness or education.. i do not want to start being defensive..

i know that those on the phones are capable of doing their thing, they are best at troubleshooting and they know what they are saying or at least would pretend to know..why in the world would this job land on their laps if it's not meant to be done by them?

an agent should not expect that the client (or maybe quality even) to flex toward their this-callflow-is-ridiculous grunts.. guidelines are there so we do not go offtrack.. it's like how they say in the past.. you pay your dues to caesar..it means that we have to obey authority..the quality call flow is authority.. and it did not come from worker ants like me.. it was thought of and would have logical reasons why certain information had to go out in the manner that is written in the guidelines..that is why it's called a call flow- a call had to be fluid and coherent like that..

if we start out whining with our lil powdered noses sticking up in the air, we've to reassess whether we should stay or do we walk out and find a job that would not entail using a callflow.. this would save sanity and make QA dept's job easier cuz everyone who'd be left of the floor would be non-disgruntled technicians who are willing to make good and make do with wut was provided.. i walked out of a job that has made me unhappy too many a time.. and i wind up going back to this industry..bottomline, i'd still stick my small nose on that darn callflow if i'm still willing to answer the phone..

asthequeenbeewouldwanttoputit♥

 

;(

Virginia Woolf to her husband, Leonard.

"Dearest, I feel certain I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of these terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer, I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that — everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been."

Suicide note, to husband Leonard.
written 18march, 66 years ago.

awwwwwww

Dear Lord,

Unta dili nalang ko mugo through sa mga labad calls everyday// unta ang mga agents preho ni Antonio or maybe preho naku-hahahaha// dili yabag//kibaw mu-calls// dili maka ugtas// mayo pa tawun ako nalng mustorya sa mga irits na albino kay malooy najud ko nila//imagina gibuhat nimu silang puti pero bugo man sad sila, mao na manginahanglan sila’g tabang//man dili pa tawn matabangan sa mga bugits na technicians kay dili kibaw mag-ask for help sa tier 2//nganu mani sila? Nganu nganu nganu???? Dauban na nimu tani sila, please… =p

 

 

Love,

 

RAE ANNE

"It's easy to have faith as long as it
goes along with what you already
know."

you

dear neal,

i'm sorry if i cannot help but tell you that you're mom is beautiful cuz she is, though you'd tell me that you didn't like wut she wore yesterday cuz it's sawha and i didn't understand wut that meant. i'm sorry if i would blurt out that yer girl's elder brother would want me to meet her, and you'd ask why not and i'd tell you i just can't or when i'd ask you if niteach kag sunday school. nahappy manko to see you change. gi-prayhan nakon na. somehow i'm praying na muchange manko and TP would be easier// ka-odd na gyd mag-talk cmu. tama ka gyd ya sadto, i wish i've never met you, this way i could sleep better at night not knowing that there's someone like you out there.

kwaantikaforkparasacheesecake,

raen