Yet you still got one over on me.

Maybe it's just jealousy
Mixing up with a violent mind
A circumstance that doesn't make much sense
Or maybe i'm just dumb..

You're the cloud hanging out over my head
Hail comes crashing down, welting my face
Magic man, egocentric plastic man
Yet you still got one over on me.

chump. green day.

happy hearts.

"Do stories, apart from happening, being, have something to say? For all my skepticism, some trace of irrational superstition did survive in me, the strange conviction, for example, that everything in life that happens to me also has a sense, that it means something, that life speaks to us about itself through its story, that it gradually reveals a secret, that it takes the form of a rebus whose message must be deciphered, that the stories we live compromise the mythology of our lives and in that mythology lies the key to truth and mystery. Is it an illusion? Possibly, even probably, but I can’t rid myself of the need continually to decipher my own life."

Kundera.


it's thanksgiving in the states. low call volume tahday.

kairi went thru hell today. i talked to shobe today. she tells me kairi had 13 needle shots (all syringe is paid for) na palpak before chong hua health workers can finally get it right. kawawa. i wanted to cry but, i coudn't. tmac cried daw. am glad am not there. me and my short temper could've burned chong hua hospital down.

some people should not be in the health care industry if they do not know what they're doing.

i somehow noticed that i am pmsing. i'm pretty irritable and shallow and would cry over the littlest things and is uber elated when some things are somehow right.(according to my own perception..)

am going to dana's house this weekend. told ricky to meet me in robi cuz i think am going without mark cuz he has his own small group. yay! i have a small group, finally. :)

kulba my heart kurog my feet. and toes.

wala na si mangrove trip. nakahilak ko'g popcorn. magtanum nalang daw mi mangrove sa likod bahay ko. and am told that i'm a nami na alarm clock. so now, my newest designation is an alarm clock. :) and i'm getting the hang of it. haha.

kenji has tons of bruises. and sige sha minaldito.

my whole family will be celebrating Christmas in Bacolod. am psyched. :) i love you shobe and dich.

amplify love. makalipay. :)

down with the flu and God loves you,
Raen

edits: i asked ricky whether there's food at dana's house, he says yes. and it's dinner. so nalipay ang gamay na idik. :) i love mike tato's team. and his agents. altho i cannot memorize their names. oh well, i always liked being liked and i intend to keep it that way. :) i've always been the apple of my team mates' eyes on every call center i've been in and that's going to be it for the rest of time. bwaha.

ganahan ko sa manghod ko. the other night she told me, ats, kanawung gyud mong heart sa? i checked the boob tube and saw heart nga, but, in her luna mode with all the thick brows and stuff on her face. letse. animels ning ako manghod.

as i was listening to shobe talk today, i could hear my old bisaya speaking self. i miss that. am soooo negros provencial french now. and it's kewl with me anyway. i just miss cebu.

react. re-use. and recycle.

sorry nalang sa mag react. and sorry kang maldita gal pal. i cannot help it. i typically don't make sawsaw cuz am more interested in my life story the whole time and i hardly am a good listener. pero i saw how hasslefeck it is being your girlfriend when you're hurting, as i am equivalently a hasslefeck when i am hurting. maka suko masking ingnon pa na wala ko labot.


i wish wala ka nalang niya na friend. mayo nalang kamao ka na bati imo batasan.

at least naa ka redeeming factor kahet paano.

as for the guy. maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, get a backbone.



love,
batang hilabtanon.

re-use and re-cycle

friend. di nindot mag recycle sa exboyfriends.

ang tawag man gud ana kay..

basurera!

(okay, dili ni nako issue. it's just that boring kaau if i don't make sawsaw and since am caught in the crossfire kunohay, shege. mao nalang na ang ako ala raenism!)

undangan na.

team bang!

inay sana balang araw maging kasindami ng mga bituin ang mga barya natin..team scarlet and team katherine. From now on, I won’t settle for second best…for I am the best.

bweset am sooooo bored. natapos na ang kaguluhan ng mga taga manille last night. so wala na nag kuring kuring nako sa email run. makatiredness mag wait for action.

love,

am so hung-overed anymore

nazel brought galletas and cai cai wrapped in aji ichiban supot. naexcite ko sa thought that she brought candies from aji ichiban. di diay. nangilad lang ang gaga.

n:una kang naging akin
r: gaano kadalas ang minsan mokong saktan?

wagi na line:
p.a.: di mo ba sha kilala? sha lang naman ang pinaka bonggang bonggang boldstar ngayun!
k: HINDI AKO BOLDSTAR, ARTISTA AKO!

bwahaha. gahd, the things you get sans cable television.

yawetch nasad ako entry title. joe almost cartwheeled when he found out that my lbd with huge bow costs tumatagingting na 25 talisay pesoses! he took my picture so his sister could see. and told me my gladiators didn't work with the dress.
waah.

masarap ang buhay. sana may gambas at this hour. and although i've been feeling like i wanna throw up every sec, i've never been at my happiest just until now.

upload the timely empathy pic na naz. i want my sisters to see how (or agents to see) how visual empathy can be. ü

iisa pa lamang

kay giyofaks najud ko mag shinigles. mag mega join join ko sa bandwagon sa mga bakla sa parlor na nagmemorya sa lines sa soap ni mareng claudine at tito gabi. (i will some day watch it, they say it's good daw in such a pinoyish sappy way:)

♥

Ang ganda-ganda mo na ngayon Katherine, sarap mong patayin! - Isadora

Ikaw ba, totoong nagdadalamhati ka? Kasi napansin ko, kaya mong mag-biro. Kaya lang ang corny mo! Anyway, gusto ko lang malaman mo na lahat nang ‘to, hindi ‘to permanente. Lahat nang iyan, babawiin ko iyan sa ‘yo! - Scarlet

Sige! Maglaro tayo, agawan ng yaman! Pero kung ako sa’yo, kakabahan ako, kasi ako sanay sa hirap. Eh ikaw?

- Katherine

Luluhod ka sa harapan ko at magmamakaawa ka na tanggapin kita ulit! - Scarlet
Kumain ka na. Gutom lang yan! - Miguel 

Tingnan mo nga naman… Lagi mo kasing sinasabing “karma’s a bitch”… Haha.. Yan tuloy, na karma ka na, na knock-out bitch ka pa! Haha!–Miguel

Kapag ang tao’y nagmahal, hindi na mahalaga kung ano man ang tama, kung sino ang humingi at nagbigay, kung sinong nanalo, kung sinong talunan. Ang alam mo lang, nagmamahal ka. Ang alam ko lang, mahal ko sya. Mahal ko sya.- Katherine

weeeeeeeeener!

1 malt, 2 hop, 3 floor

This is what divorce is: taking things you no longer want from people you no longer love.
from "White Teeth" by Zadie Smith

so okay. i really want my gap beanie back.
and the navy blue abercrombie hoodie.
♥

went home 3pm. i asked nazel whether we can go boozing. i downed 3 bottles of real booze and kinda thought that am a big girl for drinking malt and hops. haha. and at her expense cuz i am broke. hehe.

and she got me pepsi and watermelon shake.

sly and janice caught up with us at around 11am.

enuf said. i don't know if anyone of us ever remembered anything we said. in the end siguro, it boiled down to amidst all the misunderstandings, we are all friends. i think that's the point that everyone is driving at.

when i got home i just crashed on the mattress on the floor and woke up with my tummy throbbing. i thought that it's about time that i eat. when i did try to eat some cookies, i ended up throwing them up involuntarily. so ayan. am not starving myself ever again.

it's nice to kiss some boy you really wanna kiss when you finally let go of the frog whom you thought is really your prince. farting words ni raeyna na makabagdamdamin. sakto ako tagalog? haha.

kenji knows his 1 to 10! big boy na baby ko.
i miss my sisters. if i were wealthier one day, i'd buy 3 bungalow houses with a front lawn for all of us. then the kids can run around. and ma can be ma. haha.

nangita kog menteryo na may pagkaon. i got a lunch date with nazel on nov 1 and ting lacson's dinner on nov 2. all at the cemetery. and am asking if anyone else can invite me to their cemetery. i've been asking exfuja pips. i might ask my fan club from hello moto if they have dead people in their family and if they will have food too.

haha. years back mark j. took me to my first cemetery and sate baboy experience and thoroughly enjoyed it. waaaaaah.

chinese cemetery would be the best i guess. kay bongga ang food. i wish hua ming guys and gal friends can remember my existence. haha. am still alive. i want a grave on weekend.


keeping my face to the sunshine,
Raenyberry

wanda the fish says..

Domestic happiness and faithful friends.

♂♀

you can almost always trust that despite of "stuff", people are almost always good deep down in the core. save some of course. :)

i saw the world spin beneath you

Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking about tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees

A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer

You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room

--
cannot wait for saturday. ♥

pagoda cold wave lotion

i'm sorry if you're miserable without me;
cuz i am not- without you.

valer kuberch

Valer kuberch
Kyohit jutay
Ang julamantrax donchi
Ay kung anek-anek
Nyongkamas at nutring
Nyogarilyas at kipay
Nyitaw nyotaw jutani
Kundol jutola
Jupo't jolabastrax
At mega join-join pa
Jobanox nyustasa
Nyubuyax nyomatis
Nyowang at luyax
& around the keme
Ay fullness ng linga!

--

para sa akong dyosa na manghud na showgirl and bombastar sama nako. and para sa mga dyosa friends ko and the easy girls in college.

♥

my daily style

http://mydailystyle.blogspot.com/
kaartehan! check! her blog's in spanish. but pictures and her sense of style are both culture fair. i wish i lived in manille to dress like her. she has belly probs too. haha.

took all except my name..

last day of tops training. i am happy to have accomplished something. in my point of view, i thunk, i am a very good observer and a very good commentator- char. commentator.
(is that someone who can make tons of comments?)

-

am happy it's friday.
yofax assist nesting.
and ops floor assistance.
makes me very hungry.
and angry at blood hounds.

kenji updates: he can now say gmorning when he wakes up. and says gmorning in the morning, noon, and at night. walang pakealaman!










There's some things in this world
You just can't change
Somethings you can't see
Until it gets too late
Baby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I'm up against out in this world
Maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something
That's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around
And come on home

i might need iloilo. i want to move cities. i hope the wall of jericho i am trying to crumble will eventually crumble.

God bless!

this song meant a city to me..

dear matthew,

you're the only song i know now.


love,
anne

streets

dear matthew,

i will leave my left cheek unwashed.
i might not be there when you are ready to come back for me. but know that it's a tragedy if we wait too long. i never knew what happened to anne and matthew in the book. but, i know real life can be sadder.

we are tragic altogether.

love,
anne

fury. scorn.

"In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hand
And ate of it.
I said, “Is it good, friend?”
“It is bitter—bitter,” he answered;
“But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart."

- Stephen Crane
"The Heart"

i realized how much provincial rut is there in this city.
pond scums
and chismosas.

kalinit.

fyi, i don't have a kid. that baby on my friendster profile is my one and only darling nephew.

suya?

TUWAD!

why.

"I do know my own mind," protested Anne. "The trouble is, my mind changes and then I have to get acquainted with it all over again."


Anne of the Island, L.M. Montgomery

 

dear matthew,

a talk is not equated to a forwarded sms cuz it'll boil down to the ancient of days when people used binalaybay to express their meaning!

anne.

 

oh well. i found my mini sd card stashed amongst some paper bills. :)

--

♥ eman gave me shopping money! (very minimal pero kahet na!)

 

like splitting your heart and waiting for fairies to come out

Mary Oliver.
The Uses of Sorrow


Someone I loved once gave me
a box full of darkness.

It took me years to understand
that this, too, was a gift.

♥ i thunk that acting like betty is not for me. i will be veronica. betty is boring and she looks like a blood hound. and i will quit acting like my whole self esteem went down the drains. i think it's still intact. some people can just go to hell. and chris tells me i should not find time for pulubis. some people are emotionally and literally pulubi. kawawa naman.

i am not insecure but, there are people in the city who can make you feel blah. and come to think of it i am not blah cuz i feed myself and i shop for myself except those times when i am too needy i ask money from angelo. pero yun lang.

i hate some eejits in this city. insipid eyjots. yawn lang.

♥ gelo brought home some lunch. rice and lechon kawali. i mused that lechon kawali is supposed to taste garlicky, he said, it's supposed to just taste good. :)

God is ♥ despite the fact that i am harboring anger in my heart these days. i have no right to be angry man gyud cuz i got away from an impending ear infection and i am not too lazy to show up for work and i haven't been ill and i got thru pmsing and my sister will give birth and gelo and i will take care of my two sisters' babies early next year. it'll be fab. galit ako sa mga yagit sa mundo. kainesh.

pero He is ♥. ü

and so para masaya eto ang repost of the photos of bradgelina's twins. here!

crash into me. hike up your skirt a lil more and show the world to me. haha. ilurve this song!

lastly, in the essence of being frugal and being paranoid that i might not have any form of livelihood in the incoming months, it's been two days since payday, i haven't bought anything made out of metal, plastic, or cotton! :) down with consumerism. haha.

and i totally thunk gelo now looks akin to pax. haha.


love,
raeyna

i miss amapola afternoons with gelo. hay.