oh,how the years go by!

 

dichee woke me up and showed me a lil gemmed ring on her pointer finger,

she then told me, achee, "i am engaged, i've a ring"

 

am suddenly saddened by the fact that my sisters are all grown, that their hearts no longer belonged to my folks, or me, that i've to share them with someone else.

i don't want them crying over someone who might break their hearts. it's fine if it were me, i am used to crying and moping and discontinued relationships. but, it's a different story when it comes to my sisters.

 

yeah. the years went by in haste.

 

i am flabbergasted.

dear....,

i could not speak of my disappointment. i felt the need to unburden my nasty secret with you because you told me yours as well. i thought we had some non-verbal agreement, a pact of some sort of brotherhood/sisterhood. i took you for a brother that i never really had. i'm not hurt, but, i cannot continue to walk around fifth floor after shift without my head, i am there because all of my favorite people are there. and to think you are one of them. i disregarded the fact that you spoke bad things about other people who had treated you well and hasn't done anything to you.

 

i ease my way to your arms when i badly needed a hug, i tell you what was bothering me, i uncluttered my heart, i happily waited for your shift's end just so we could walk home together. and now, someone tells me you sold me out? i muster the courage to wave and still grin at you from afar, and you pretended that you did not see me.

 

no boy can break my heart now cuz it has been broken some years back. but, for someone whom i thought was a brother...i could not spell out how i am supposed to feel.

 

xoxo

 

it's been 48 years

 

 

magparamdam sana, mga toddler friends <3

drats, malungkot talaga

uber-depressing kasi:

 

magreresign ata si steph

wa japun ko miga sa account

maghawa pod sila ronski come April

nalolongkot. hehehehe

mabilis ang araw......

 

 

 

malabo mga kausap ko

 

ayoko na!

suweet!

natatawa ako everytime i hear mymp's tell me where it hurts minamahal has his own version of the song:

 

sultii ko asa ang sakit palangga

 

it's ridiculous, but, it's funny, especially when he says o langga with a nasal twang.

 

hehehe.

 

 

footnotes:

murag tanga sya sa pic. argh.

sakto.

He giveth quietness [Job 34:29] even the midst of losing our inner strength and comforts....

 

sometimes He removes them because we make too much of them.

 

<3