Thursday, February 11, 2010

She's come undone




A Woman's Shortcomings by Elizabeth Barrett Browning
She has laughed as softly as if she sighed,
She has counted six, and over,
Of a purse well filled, and a heart well tried -
Oh, each a worthy lover!
They "give her time"; for her soul must slip
Where the world has set the grooving;
She will lie to none with her fair red lip:
But love seeks truer loving.

She trembles her fan in a sweetness dumb,
As her thoughts were beyond recalling;
With a glance for one, and a glance for some,
From her eyelids rising and falling;
Speaks common words with a blushful air,
Hears bold words, unreproving;
But her silence says - what she never will swear -
And love seeks better loving.

Go, lady! lean to the night-guitar,
And drop a smile to the bringer;
Then smile as sweetly, when he is far,
At the voice of an in-door singer.
Bask tenderly beneath tender eyes;
Glance lightly, on their removing;
And join new vows to old perjuries -
But dare not call it loving!

Unless you can think, when the song is done,
No other is soft in the rhythm;
Unless you can feel, when left by One,
That all men else go with him;
Unless you can know, when unpraised by his breath,
That your beauty itself wants proving;
Unless you can swear "For life, for death!" -
Oh, fear to call it loving!

Unless you can muse in a crowd all day
On the absent face that fixed you;
Unless you can love, as the angels may,
With the breadth of heaven betwixt you;
Unless you can dream that his faith is fast,
Through behoving and unbehoving;
Unless you can die when the dream is past -
Oh, never call it loving!

TR Guimaras Jan 11, 2010 shift whilst I'm figuring out Apple Mac's TOS.

My One and Only.




For Shobe and Ma. Tambok na ayu Koko Keken.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

tweeds




last thursday's shift. i thunk.

blackberrying




cuz i happened to be very depressed lately and all i wanted is some consistency and redundancy in my life.
and that i might turn myself into jane austen or sylvia plath one day.
and that i happen to not memorize a poem by miss plath or finish a book [or even watch a film based on miss austen's writings] by miss jane.

but kever. i looked as pasty as a yema could be
and most of them work days, i stare at the pc and sigh.
and fork a slice of bob's choc'lit cake and say loudly, God I am grateful- this done very slowly and tearfully.

oh yeah, maka ba-ug najud being in piayaland.
take me away.

[from last night's shift. 2/10/2010]

Saturday, February 6, 2010

hello love




While Keken and I are both coughing our lungs out.

Saturday afternoon, January 6, 2010

Monday, February 1, 2010

cookie's birthday




jan. 25, 2010

Riverside room number 349




Crazy weekend it was. Keken had been having intermittent fever since he got back from Cebu. When I got home Friday morning, Dichee tells me we're packing for the hospital. My own flu and colds took a backseat for the little one.
It was tough to have no family in this tiny city. When we got to the hospital we were told that it could be a possible case of streps.

The next day we were asked to get blood platelets, we couldn't find a bag of platelets from red cross, we were texting people and wind up having the APO (fraternity) give us blood.

We were told that there could be leukemic processes inside Kenji or it could be ITP.

Thank God they ruled out leukemia after they got him a bone marrow test.
Riverside was very efficient, most of the staff were friendly. The hematologist whom Kenji will be seeing in the next 6 months until remission is motherly and religiously visited him.

When we got out today, most of the nurses said gbye to Kenji. Some even dropped by the room the night before just to say goodbye. One even hugged the little boy.

Oh yes, the kindness of a stranger can do so much. (:

And praise God for good friends and loved ones who saw us through prayers.

January 29 to Feb. 2, 2010