reverend green will be glad to see you when you havent got a friend

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

You know how you miss a person even when you're together? #chaka

2 minutes ago

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Amongst the series of last minute dating J and I decided to eat lunch at Greenwich earlier. I think we're gross. #fastfoodtrilogy

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blog entry: raenafrou.blogspot.com/2011/10/5-year…

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amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

What dreadful hot weather we have! It keeps one in a continual state of inelegance. #janeausten

26 minutes ago

NerudaLove pablo neruda in love

by amazingginamus

Now, you are mine. Rest with your dream inside my dream. Love, pain, and work, must sleep now. #bestof #neruda

31 minutes ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@Iamtier2Aki ahay, tuod? Where? Ayaw nya ng TP? Why? So persona non grata that gehl!

33 minutes ago

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Happy Teachers Day Training Team. From me and my fallen boots! pic.twitter.com/eJcK0SNB

1 hour ago

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Yot kanamit kay Jon Mclaughlin ah. Tani mo nalang ni bana ko ah. Hahaha.

1 hour ago

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Dear husband. Haha. If I get an annulment! pic.twitter.com/uKB1Hyl8

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Hello will you father my child beautiful man? youtube.com/watch?v=8RnJpN…

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@Iamtier2Aki kung maka it's fine. Hahahaha. Sa October 16. Subuan nagid ko yah. :(

1 hour ago

disneywords Disneywords

by amazingginamus

Little town, it's a quiet village. Everyday, like the one before. –Belle (Beauty and the Beast) #disneywords

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@Iamtier2Aki no, I'm just mourning my packing and my leaving the city. Pede lang na diba? Mga ganyang klaseng byuda moves.

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@Iamtier2Aki hu-o man. si @MyMalditaTammy yah ang maldita. Mega boga boga sg usok ng marlboro sa koreana sa starbucks. Hahahaha.

1 hour ago

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@Joelouieb evita peron or evita peroni- so what happens now, another suitcase in another hall! hahahaha.

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

So far we are so close. How could I face the faceless days. If I should lose you now?

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Ahay. Daw mahibi naman ko yah. Linti ni ah. :(

1 hour ago

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@Iamtier2Aki huo gid bala. Galing amo na yah ang #tnp!

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@Iamtier2Aki ah dito nalang ako mag commentar. Kse ikaw ai mashadong maldita.

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Listening to @JonMcLaughlin's The Way. youtube.com/watch?v=AfbN4Y… --->one of my life songs.. #citysongs #Him

1 hour ago

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@Iamtier2Aki kanta ni yah. Sige nalang kay etoh ang #tnp! Bwahahahaha.

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

They'll say what they'll say -They'll never say enough <3

1 hour ago

RickWarren Rick Warren

by amazingginamus

Your choices are far more powerful than your circumstances. See1 Kings 18:21

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Dear J, (You Are the One I Love) I would never, ever let you go All this fighting is really just a show That (cont) tl.gd/dfjt02

1 hour ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Got this off Facebook. Gave me shudders. If this has been done as stated, imagine the cruelty.. :( THE (cont) tl.gd/dfjj4k

1 hour ago

BestFilmQuotes Best Film Quotes

by amazingginamus

"You have to do the best with what God gave you." -Forrest Gump (1994)

2 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Let no man pull you low enough to hate him. #martinlutherking

2 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@alveel_kaith Ananda is a doll!

2 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

I hope J gets this baby alive before I leave: hasbro.com/babyalive/en_U…

2 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Another Beatles cover from Crosby, Still & Nash. (: Reminds me of the father I kinda lost to alcohol. youtube.com/watch?v=wORwlC…

2 hours ago

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@BelindaSuaco poor baby. :(

2 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Sarah McLachlan's version. Gosh, she's so beautiful! youtube.com/watch?v=ktXT-y…

2 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

5 years in 4 boxes. #likearollingstone

3 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

I'm the hugest fan girl but at least I got an email back! (: pic.twitter.com/FmGf76wo

3 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Happy Teachers Day fellow trainers- teachers who are paid a bit BETTER. (: #bpo

3 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

@LynetteTheQueen Queen, thank you sa dresses, I got a Carter onesie for Georgie! Sana magkasha.

3 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these broken wings and learn to fly youtube.com/watch?v=RDxfjU… #beattles #citysongs

3 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@BelindaSuaco haha. Yes, murag pareho atong pag realize nako na Lladro ni mama ang ako nabuak. Lol.

3 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@ChinPossible hahaha. I totally understand the passion for touchscreen. Lol. Thanks Chin. Hope you enjoy them.

3 hours ago

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

puga nga bente tres anyos ni kastorya q ah, daw peho!

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

una gus2 nya ma action star, nw gus2 ma farmer. hahaha. =p dipuga yah.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

cge yawyaw akung bana. #alingogngog

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

saket sa akoa tax. =(

4 Oct

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@Iamtier2Aki haha. sa dasun ta storya. =)

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@wokksy yaw mingaw2x dah.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

mongolian!

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@wokksy yehey kuyog ta! (:

4 Oct

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@ChinPossible great akoa fave a pomegranate soup and glass castle. i hope u enjoy.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@alveel_kaith ahay sa ceb nlg gd ta makit.anay. haha.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@ChinPossible oh no, chin spoiler- thats bfast w/ tiffany, dili at tiffany- you still want tat?

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” -Psalm 51:10

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

You are the ministry. (I will keep reminding myself this lalo na that I have Taffy now.) Kalesod.

4 Oct

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@alveel_kaith teh, bse kit-anay pa tah 14. Hehehe. (: Drinks?

4 Oct

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@ChinPossible hahaha. Irita jud ko ani niya! Sending the books ugma Chin!

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

“You are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing.” EE Cummings

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

I became a Christian and all I got is a lousy T-shirt. Lol. I love smart book titles.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@alveel_kaith kabudlay kay mahalia na tickets sa plane. October 16 I'll be in Cebu. Anyway diba daw mga 20ish ang masskarra. (mascara!)

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@alveel_kaith nabaligya na mega. :( Amo kasakit. Haha.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@alveel_kaith @aileensiroy @ChinPossible ahay, pag maskarra? Wala nako yah chaka ah.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

She's come undone.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Damak word bala ang marriage. When you're 29 it's still awkward to think you are. Haha.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

I might weep a little about leaving the city but really, looking at the greater scheme of things this will do my marriage well.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Autistic artist draws NYC skyline out of memory. Read more: dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1… pic.twitter.com/3fycs8UW

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Annoying na ha. Hahaha. Mag-ininta lang sana kung bagay sa fez..

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

@MyMalditaTammy I miss you!

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

It was heartbreaking to say good bye to my books.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Lami eat spareribs. (:

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

I separated the to trash, to donate, to transfer back to JJ's house. And then I realized that my own personal stuff will still cost me. Hay.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

So many things to do. Chaka ah.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@lyndie_bam2 JJ hambal yah kita-ay kamo sa M02?

4 Oct

rakstarppip Ppip Cimafranca

by amazingginamus

For some reason, a lot of people look down on the Service industry. The fact is where technology fails, Service saves. #fb

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Pa burger! 9/30 pic.twitter.com/zKsTB15s

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Batchoy date, 28 September pic.twitter.com/Xg4yOu27

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen tagalog! Hahahaha.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Each one of us have a sphere of influence, we get the opportunity to walk in a certain area of influence that God gives us. #spheres

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen text me if ma lunch na tah. Im hungerssss. Marami akong gutom!

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Maybe, papercut by Rob Ryan- visual artist/author of This is for you. pic.twitter.com/tzcIJGtD

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

J remembered how I wanted to live in a brownstone apartment. Somehow affirmed that he sometimes listens. Lol.

4 Oct

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O.K. pic.twitter.com/hLIz0z8F

4 Oct

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@Iamtier2Aki @Joelouieb pati twittering? Hahahahaha.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Judging a person does not define who they are, it defines who you are.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen buy my fridge! Or else tanan yaya makadto birthday Georgie! Hahahaha.

4 Oct

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@LynetteTheQueen hahahaha. Gatawa ko gani! So funneh.

4 Oct

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@acousticrj @LynetteTheQueen hahaha, kapit sa patalim nagid ko magbaligya!

4 Oct

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@acousticrj @LynetteTheQueen okay following.. (:

4 Oct

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@itsmetwixy kamo lang ah. Kakapoy ma 3rd wheel! (:

4 Oct

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@LynetteTheQueen NO KIDDING! Hahahahaha.

4 Oct

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@LynetteTheQueen sold na! Bahala ka!

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Echeck ang photo bomb sa likod ng pic namin ni Georgie! Hahahaha. pic.twitter.com/aQ3uusTU

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@yohannfoxx @LynetteTheQueen kapit sa patalim nalang ako. (:

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

To Write Love On Her Arms

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen SOLD na ha! Tag tah ka. Pay me sa March then! (: Or April 5 na salary!

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen @MyMalditaTammy @iamtier2aki hahahahahaha/ daw ma tambleng ko sa mga tweet mo. Sige Queen sa after nalang kay Georgie!

4 Oct

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@LynetteTheQueen sure pede pero full payment ha. Sige! Sold!

4 Oct

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@itsmetwixy sigeh. Text me! My number's on FB!

4 Oct

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@freethehikers :(

4 Oct

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@LynetteTheQueen hahahaha. Inta inta! Bakla na fridge ko! (:

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Look how pretty! pic.twitter.com/fwrtHWWf

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen @MyMalditaTammy @iamtier2aki anong noodles? Hahahaha. Damay sa thread sila Tam kad Aki.

4 Oct

sketchmedesire Ashley MacKenzie

by amazingginamus

“God is within her, she will not fall” - Psalm 46:5

23 Jul

sketchmedesire Ashley MacKenzie

by amazingginamus

Here's me...learning....a lot. Thank you Jesus.

3 Aug

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen @MyMalditaTammy @iamtier2aki hahaha. Poor you. Hahahahahaha.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

New lease on the eyesight. Although my grade rose to 125 on each eye. Happy to get a pair of Oscar de la Renta nonetheless. #yabang

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@yohannfoxx ka amazona! hahaha.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen @MyMalditaTammy @iamtier2aki may bata ka kad bana beh. Kami mga dalaga. Hahahahaha.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

I'm so happy my old books are almost sold out in just a matter of hours. (: I only have to think about the freaking fridge. :(

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@yohannfoxx hahahaha. Kachaka sg physically.

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen buy my fridge!

4 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@yohannfoxx @LynetteTheQueen @macrismprincipe drawer, painter si Mackay.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

@

@MyMalditaTammy @LynetteTheQueen hahahaha. Nanood ka kse una.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

@

@MyMalditaTammy walang echos, mahal yung lecheng burger wala pang fries at coke 95php na!

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@lyndie_bam2 hahaha. Updanay kamo lagaw gab-e ay!

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@BelindaSuaco WTO na naman kami.Working things out. Chos.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

RT @MyMalditaTammy with @iamtier2aki @amazingginamus. Lazy Sunday night... (@ Starbucks) - now lang ni retweet! Haha.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

@macrismprincipe such a drawer! #nootherwoman

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen @yohannfoxx @macrismprincipe drawing ni si Mackay yah!

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen @MyMalditaTammy @iamtier2aki hahahaha. Mayu gani nagtawag si Tam. Ga emote daan ko last night.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@MyMalditaTammy in reply to saan toh? hahahaha?

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@mrsnoodleboy hay mai. :( naglisod na ko. haha. mag mega maple, lemon, cayenne, detox nalang kaha tah!

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@rakstarppip it did. Nawa akong pagka sapot.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@stelman1983 @MyMalditaTammy mega suggest ng sundae si stelman tam! hahahaha.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen kay wala ko naman nabal-an anu himo-on ko. huy buy my fridge!

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@alveel_kaith veel, nahurot man gud sa national in sm, i had to baktas sa sakayan to robi ganiha. hahaha. thanks.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@itsmetwixy when darling?

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

RT @ThaThaTgurL Morning/bye-bye kiss ♤xoxo @amazingginamus lockerz.com/s/143245539 - love yah i look like a tilapia!

3 Oct

JasonReeves Jason Reeves

by amazingginamus

sometimes words are not the way we relate to each other. some things are said best unspoken..

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

naga sisihan na naman. damu tani tani. =( kabalalda.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

missing taffy. =<

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

letting go of my books is a bit tough.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

at luxor with the husband. #now

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

gaminango naman q. letse.

3 Oct

idillionaire Idil

by amazingginamus

The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is their power to harm us.

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

din ko ya mangita balikayan box!

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

too much negative vibes, i will upsize my drinks and fries to shoo them. #mcdo

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

finally getting a pair of new specs. #delarenta

3 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Lol. pic.twitter.com/sC1dpBFg

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Pls find time to pray for Somalia over the weekend as we go abt the normalcy of our lives: boston.com/bigpicture/201… #feed

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Those who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

@LynetteTheQueen demat demat! Daw online shopping lang!

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. -CS Lewis

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Ahay: huffingtonpost.com/2011/09/28/lio…&title=Mother_Lioness_Rescues

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen @disneywords wow kung makareply! #demat

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

freedomessenger.com - Crazy, scary world. #iran

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@yohannfoxx @LynetteTheQueen lez lunch! Taters nalang goro? Masandwich tah? Haha. See you tom!

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@yohannfoxx kit-anay tah bwas ha? At robinson's nalang tah derecho. Lunchtime crunch time! @LynetteTheQueen! 12 noon! Movie starts at 1240!

1 Oct

yohannfoxx Jun Anthony Paclibar

by amazingginamus

Kung maka liad daw wala backbone! Don't brag too much. Pinaghirapan mo buh?

1 Oct

iLoveProverbs i Love Proverbs

by amazingginamus

She is loud and defiant, her feet never stay at home...at every corner she lurks Pro. 7:11-12 http://ow.ly/5Ujsg

30 Aug

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

@LynetteTheQueen falconblanco.com/health/cleansi… Master Cleanse galores na tah!

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

RT @Iamtier2Aki Someone could break your heart twice, along the very same fault lines - My Sister’s Keeper

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@mrsnoodleboy may pag corset binder- ones na half or 1/4 sa tummy ang macover. My thighs are huge lang so my jeans dont fit me.

1 Oct

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen at least dyosa pa din! Akon version, aanhin mo maraming kaibigan kung wala ka namang kagandahan?

1 Oct

LynetteTheQueen ♔Vhon Jimenez

by amazingginamus

"Aanhin mo ang mala-diyosang kagandahan, kung wala ka namang tunay na kaibigan." #AkosiBobOng

30 Sep

stelman1983 stelman young

by amazingginamus

Where na u.. Here na me.. #awkward!haha #epic #ThingsMenShouldntTextEachOther

30 Sep

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Body cells replace themselves evry month. Evn at this very moment. Most evrything you think you know about me is nothing more than memories.

30 Sep

Joelouieb Joe B

by amazingginamus

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@LynetteTheQueen a strong girl will spend two hundred thousand on her baby's 1st bday. Hehehehehe

30 Sep

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

We had charbroiled burgers somewhere in Shopping today. J took me out on a date. Chos.

30 Sep

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@MyMalditaTammy @LynetteTheQueen e-approve mo nga si Queen kse naka private ka!

30 Sep

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

@

@LynetteTheQueen anong shoe hanger man?

30 Sep

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen hahahaha. double cropping indi clapping!

30 Sep

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

Happy 23rd birthday my young husband! pic.twitter.com/Bac0K86K

30 Sep

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@LynetteTheQueen parang walang nangyare!

30 Sep

amazingginamus Raena Chulalongkorn♔

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@BelindaSuaco maka in love no? (:

30 Sep

Bergdorfs Bergdorf Goodman

by amazingginamus

There's always a bit of magic when our doors officially open at 10am.

30 Sep

5 years in 4 boxes

I started packing. Editing. Undoing. Packing. My stuff are all over my apartment. Some of my shoes and purses are falling apart, just like I am.
I don't know if I am doing the right thing. Turning my back on my husband and my marriage for about a year or more. They've always said that you are supposed to love your spouse first so that you can give a stable foundation for your family, and then you can give your child the sense of security that both parents are always gonna stay together.
I think I am now really, really good at letting go. :(
I wonder why I hurt so much. Looking at the boxes upon boxes of clothes, of shoes, of books, of a cornucopia of little things- I wish myself simple. I wish myself happy and easy. And I wish myself detachment from the material things, from what's plastic, cotton, or wood. And still I hurt so much. Maybe because with these things I remember. That I loved, I smiled, I danced, I ached, I whined, I laughed. This transition is really, really hard. I am already a full-fledged adult and a mother. Every decisions should come with discernment and prudence. Perhaps tonight I will sigh but I will feel so much better in the morning.

“I’ve discovered Christ in a deeper way through suffering than I ever did through blessing.” - Britt Merrick

Georgie

Sometime last week of September

furious, fragile, and free

The weekend in bullets:

October 1- My husband's 23rd birthday- we decided to have baby back ribs at pepe's instead of steaks at 21. Then we had banana split at this new dessert cafe in Art District- I think it's Miren's. We had drinks at the Bekita Cantina. It was raining so we stayed in afterwards.

October 2- Our Sunday was spent partly together then J had to work. We had a freaking kadirs lunch at Mang Inasal. I caught up with Tam and Aki at Starbucks around dinner time. And we only got to go home around midnight.

October 3- Today, J and I had lunch at Mcdonald's. Then he had to work. I ended up buying myself a new pair of glasses, and reported to work on a grave yard shift. He dropped by my work place around 10pm and we got to talk. About how we would wish to proceed with our marriage.

I am in such a woebegone and at the same time all right state of my adult life. I just wish that one day J and I would have the normalcy of a real home.

"We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don’t get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won’t solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we’re called home."

Jamie Tworkowski, founder of To Write Love on Her Arms