chopin

“Why?” asked her companion. “Why do you love him when you ought not to?”

Edna, with a motion or two, dragged herself on her knees before Mademoiselle Reisz, who took the glowing face between her two hands.

“Why? Because his hair is brown and grows away from his temples; because he opens and shuts his eyes, and his nose is a little out of drawing; because he has two lips and a square chin, and a little finger which he can’t straighten from having played baseball too energetically in his youth. Because—”

“Because you do, in short,” laughed Mademoiselle. “What will you do when he comes back?” she asked.

“Do? Nothing, except feel glad and happy to be alive.”

the awakening

pandamay

pucha, kahapon yung last day nya. ewan, there's no point in weeping pero grabeh. ilooked at his old station, and jaez took over. naiyak ako ng todo. mukha akong tanga. am glad i did not stay longer when i logged out cuz i could not keep a straight face while he's still there huggin' ppl goodbye.

 

 

mura ko'g buang.

 

hk tk never mk

 

awwww shucks,

i made crysse cry as well. pandamay.

daily candy

it's my last day of the work week. yipeeeee....

his last day at work, non-yipeeee....

sighs, i miss kai.

stripped

the billing calls in queue are stripping my sanity from me.

it would come to a point wherein i would dream of my billing calls and the spiels we'd have to read over and over.

 

and most of the time my lunch breaks are spent sleeping. [at times i've no energy to eat lang jud, kapoy mukaon.] at least for an hour a night i'd get to sleep. [uber-pathetic] and this week, my ppl from voip are taking their lunches earlier cuz they've a couple of hours pre-shift OT.

 

yes, i can't wish to have the days go by in languor cuz i know it will roll away as usual, and that's not gonna not gonna make him stay. (????) i have this crippling feeling. ambot, basta, i am in a state of utter helplessness right now and i do not know where to go. love woes. charness.

 

promise. billing and money-matters are the most pathetic/ depressing job anyone can get. the american poor is the worst sector one can ever face-pra-mis.

add up the annoying station katapad. nah. nightmare... picture a green mile giant wit a retard, hihihi-ikikik laughter plus a spanish speaking trance once in a while plus a perky perky call handling skill. haaay. kafaet. mao na ini!

angatch, fry it then

am supposed to write an entry that i've spoken with james FRYE,

nge, soon i realised, that the author's name is james frey....

that very same author whose memoirs were actually memoirs made up in lalaland...

nonetheless, i still love him. he writes good fiction. bleh.

*gakus* dabaw, pilipinas!!!!

 

 

 

 

fishouttawater

i slept a blink today. i missed kaith's raf-raf's birthday. i am just sooo stressed out. summer is taking it's toll, the house is as hot as a microwave, and it's in a major state of discord, we still have a week to go when everything else would settle.

 

the queue tonight does not help at all, every so often a call would come in.

 

this morning: i had breakfast wit my outbound friends, or they had breakfast at the newly-opened Chowking JY, wukits, minamahal went wit them. sat on the table behind me. ayun. they had the SUMMER, beachy, balmy theme on their ops floor, and it's packed wit agents cuz a couple of new waves had been added, ang gulo. and they had free pearl shakes from greenwich and ensaymada from red ribbon. sooo bungga their summer. ü

 

yes, it still pains me to see him resign waaay ahead of me, cuz i've nowhere to go, well nuttyitt.... ü

 

 

kai smsd this afternoon, telling me i actually did talk her into getting the jack johnson cd and she thought he was weird. i don't want kai to be compelled to sms me every day cuz she thought that i am the loneliest gal in cebu, but, i appreciate it. i just thought that the previous year i have been uber dependent on joey, then steff, then verlaine's emails and calls, then jezrel's deciphering my soul, and wut iam, and toots' emo thoughts, then sassy's and mike's bugits advices, and i have been dismembered from ppl who i used to find solace from...

and this i found true: the friends you have in college will be the friends you'll have for the rest of your life. -JULIE ANN SANTOS, unicorn collector, life teacher i once had

 

 

 

my left lymph node is swollen, it's an impending ear infection, i think, and the drops that i have is 2months expired already...argh. it's noooo fun. my uti is acting up, i learned early on that my bladder is not really in good shape. itold ppl once, my best bud's name is JOHN.... there. my hair is in absolute state of summer dry-ness, i've the parchiest parch lips there is, even TL asked me to drink smore water cuz i looked dehydrated, tama ba diay na?  and yaks, i feel like my hunger is insatiable. we're back to fast food basics at home because we haven't done the groceries yet, and i am sooooo sick of processed food.

 

soooo there.

 

fresh sheets

keep a journal faithfully- the village teacher, the road home

 

i got myself a new journal. named it missy. [heart e.'s name in g-mick, dah...] i have been really disconnected from writing on fresh sheets. i am to give it a shot. again.

 

<3

a repost from manggakahonbente hihihi

yeah, i wasn't given any of the cookie, and you'll be in a med school smock, wit a bunch of med school snubs sometime in the future; you haven't clued me in to wut you were thinking when all of it happened. you are or seem like utterly clueless of wut had transpired during that cornflower blue moon night. and i realised, i am stupid....wasting away odd prayers asking for anwsers........i know, i should have known, you do not have it in the first place. [weeeeeh, oa.....]

oprah's <3

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better!
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not supplementary.
Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other women and men (just so they know)... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her/his choices, and another woman prepare, and a man aware.

unangry, kermit, that's the riddle's answer raw

we're not moving. am not keen on extended families, dich understood that full well, i guess.  =)

 

thank you SUN cellular mobile god, that was one heck of an almost 8 hour phone call wit kai. if there was someone recording the conversation, checkan mig 100% murag correct. i miss davao, she made me trace what had been familiar then.... from sea wall, which is now called david's, ewan, to jasper stalking moments wit jethro. i miss home. drats.

 

 

oooohhhh yeah, he said his goodbyes. i hate goodbyes.

 

congrats: naa ko DA (disciplinary action) for browsing non-business related websites. anoveh, ani jud diay ko ka pasaway?

 

xoxo

eeeehaaa! the perfect picture of my prince

 

"The person you love and the person who loves you are never, ever the same."
-Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

jinxed, somehow

ooooh yeaahhh, we're moving home. changing address that is. we got an apartment huge enuf to fit the three of us plus the bro-in-law, plus the baby, and if the baby would have a nanny, then sa garahe sya, juks. yipee! relocation galores by the end of the month.

 

mishap: my fly snapped! yikes. cheap pants are sooooo unreliable. hmph!

 

 

 

* -It's like when you're little-she thought-and have a bruise and keep on pressing it to see if it still hurts even though you know it does.-"  quoted

holidays wit etel ppl

photo credits: janice ü

way pretty

"... I don't know why I want so frightfully to live. A lot of the time I haven't been very happy. And I'm afraid of having to be alone always. I don't want to be alone. But I'm afraid of having to be. I know our bodies are our only means of communication with other people, but isn't it the fact of our having separate bodies that really keeps us apart?"  quoted

auden

"The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good."

 

*depressing

30march

i miss stefania like hell. urgggg. it's unbelievable.

i ended up crying over her resignation. she has had been texting the past couple of days, am not replying. =)urggg. i miss her juds, etel is bearable wit her around. =(

 

grad day nila minamahal. i know, i know wako labot, but, grad day nila. =)

 

and i so totally hope march 30 would not come. argh. that's like the end of etel na.

 

*

all i've been getting thus far are billing calls, plus a how will i go about my email call? kalukring, tech support ba eto? my aht is sufferingggg....

 

i learned something new today: kinsinieta, that's supposed to be a debut for 15 year old girls. cute. sweet. ;)

jews, have a counterpart for boys, am not sure wut it is tho.

 

* i went to the first GA/General Assembly of the company. it was in ratsky, tsk, tsk, tingin ko lahat ng team GAs namin sa ratsky na...ngyoks. grabeh, some people could last in a call center for 5 years. that shook me, yes, this is a grown-up job. (shiverrrrs)

 

xoxo

Ever tried. Ever failed. No Matter.
Try again. Fail again. Fail better.

 

 

 

 

lemme tell you their story

<3 The anger of a moment, the thousand pictures, that's us.

<3 We can't start again.

 

 

xoxo

ooooo yaaa!

"'Why?'!" she screamed. "Are you crazy? You know the English subjunctive, you understand trigonometry, you can read Marx, and you don't know the answer to something as simple as that? Why do you even have to ask? Why do you have to make a girl say something like this? I like you more than I like him, that's all. I wish I had fallen in love with somebody a little more handsome, of course. But I didn't. I fell in love with you!"

-Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

rainy afternoon

One rainy afternoon I was driving along one of the main streets of town, taking those extra precautions necessary when the roads are wet and slick.

 

Suddenly, my daughter spoke up from her relaxed position in her seat.
"Dad, I'm thinking of something."

 

This announcement usually meant she had been pondering some fact for a while, and was now ready to expound all that her six-year-old mind had discovered. I was eager to hear.

 

"What are you thinking?" I asked. "The rain," she began, "is like sin, and the windshield wipers are like God wiping our sins away."

 

After the chill bumps raced up my arms I was able to respond. "That's really good, Aspen."

 

Then my curiosity broke in. How far would this little girl take this revelation? So I asked. "Do you notice how the rain keeps on coming?
What does that tell you?"   Aspen didn't hesitate one moment with her
answer: "We keep on sinning, and God just keeps on forgiving us."

 

I will always remember this whenever I turn my wipers on.

 

Isn't it distressing to know that when you forward this message you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.
Funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.

 

In order to see the rainbow, you must first endure the rain!!! 

 

 

interval during a sup call

agent: TL, punta tayong GA as a team?

tl: ano na naman, wag mong sasabihing sasama ka na naman sa mga kaibigan mo? kaya nga team eh. paintindi ko sayo...

 

*araguy, kapiso!

 

<3

mr. jones, counting crows

I was down at the New Amsterdam staring at this yellow-haired girl
Mr. Jones strikes up a conversation with this black-haired flamenco dancer
She dances while his father plays guitar
She's suddenly beautiful
We all want something beautiful
I wish I was beautiful
So come dance this silence down through the morning
Cut Maria! Show me some of them Spanish dances
Pass me a bottle, Mr. Jones
Believe in me
Help me believe in anything
I want to be someone who believes

Mr. Jones and me tell each other fairy tales
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Ah, no, no, she's looking at me."
Smiling in the bright lights
Coming through in stereo
When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely

I will paint my picture
Paint myself in blue and red and black and gray
All of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful
Grey is my favorite color
I felt so symbolic yesterday
If I knew Picasso
I would buy myself a gray guitar and play

Mr. Jones and me look into the future
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you.
Uh, I don't think so. She's looking at me."
Standing in the spotlight
I bought myself a gray guitar
When everybody loves me, I will never be lonely

I want to be a lion
Everybody wants to pass as cats
We all want to be big big stars, but we got different reasons for that

Believe in me because I don't believe in anything
and I want to be someone to believe

Mr. Jones and me stumbling through the barrio
Yeah we stare at the beautiful women
"She's perfect for you, Man, there's got to be somebody for me."
I want to be Bob Dylan
Mr. Jones wishes he was someone just a little more funky
When everybody loves you, son, that's just about as funky as you can be

Mr. Jones and me staring at the video
When I look at the television, I want to see me staring right back at me
We all want to be big stars, but we don't know why and we don't know how
But when everybody loves me, I'm going to be just about as happy as can be
Mr. Jones and me, we're gonna be big stars..

sa pinas!

ONLY IN THE PHILIPPINES...

Along a highway in Pampanga:
"WE MAKE MODERN ANTIQUE FURNITURE"

On a self-service restaurant in Cebu:
"PLEASE HELP OUR COMFORT ROOM CLEAN"

In a Baguio grocery:
"FRESH FROZEN CHICKEN SOLD HERE"

In Cubao:
"NONE ID NOTHING ENTRY"

Along Luneta Boulevard:
"BAWAL TUMAE SA BULEVARD"

On Jeepney and Bus signs:
"BEFORE PAY, TELL WHERE GET THE ON BEFORE GET THE OFF"

On a flower shop in Rizal Avenue:
"WE SELL ARTIFICIAL FRESH FLOWERS"

On a delivery truck:
"NOT FOR HERE"

On window of a restaurant in Baguio:
"WANTED: BOY WAITRESS"

On a street in San Juan:
"BAWAL MAGTAPON NG BINALOT NA TAE RITO"

A grafitti inside the cubicle of a ladies' C.R. in a university:
"PLEASE DON'T SIT LIKE A FROG, SIT LIKE A QUEEN."

At a men's comfort room, above a urinal:(maybe from UP Diliman dorm)
"HAWAK MO ANG KINABUKASAN NG BAYAN!!!"

At a construction site in Mandaluyong:
"BAWAL OMEHI DITO. ANG MAHOLI BOG-BOG"

Somewhere along San Andres:
"NO URINATING, ON THE OVER WALLS!"

Vacant lot near Makati Avenue:
"DON'T PARKING!!!"

At an eatery in Cebu:
"WE HAB SOPDRINK IN CAN AND IN BATOL!"

Sa pader ng Intramuros:
"MARUNONG K BANG TUMAHOL? ASO LANG ANG UMI-IHI DITO!"
And this is the best of them all...para sa mga abugado ito.... (no offends ha?)

On a building somewhere in the Philippines:
"NOTARY PUBLIC, TUMATANGGAP DIN NG LABADA KUNG LINGGO."


ISN'T IT FUN TO BE A FILIPINO???...

Actual writings on Hospital charts.

1. The patient refused autopsy.

2. The patient has no previous history of suicides.

3. Patient has left white blood cells at another hospital.

 

4. She has no rigors or shaking chills, but her husband states she was very hot in bed last night.

5. Patient has chest pain if she lies on her left side for over a year.

6. On the second day the knee was better, and on the third day it disappeared.

7. The patient is tearful and crying constantly. She also appears to be depressed.

8. The patient has been depressed since she began seeing me in 1993.

9. Discharge status: Alive but without my permission.

10. Healthy appearing decrepit 69-year old male, mentally alert but forgetful.

11. Patient had waffles for breakfast and anorexia for lunch.

12. She is numb from her toes down.

13. While in ER, she was examined, X-rated and sent home.

14. The skin was moist and dry.

15. Occasional, constant infrequent headaches.

16. Patient was alert and unresponsive.

17. Rectal examination revealed a normal size thyroid.

 

18. She stated that she had been constipated for most of her life, until she got a divorce.

19. I saw your patient today, who is still under our car for physical therapy.

20. Both breasts are equal and reactive to light and accommodation.

21. Examination of genitalia reveals that he is circus sized.

22. The lab test indicated abnormal lover function.

23. Skin: somewhat pale but present.

24. The pelvic exam will be done later on the floor.

 

25. Patient has two teenage children, but no other abnormalities.

 

26. Patient was short of breath during erection.

 

i are irate ;)

yeah, sure sir, if you don't want help sooner, then DON"T

 

wow. galenga sa english oi. ;)

usa pa ka bill

 

Love him or hate him, he sure hits the nail on the head with this!  To anyone with kids of any age, here's some advice.

 

Bill Gates recently gave a speech at a High School about 11 things they did not and will not learn in school. He talks about how feel-good, politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world.

 

Rule 1:

Life is not fair - get used to it!

 

Rule 2:

The world won't care about your self-esteem.  The world  will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

 

Rule 3:

You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school.  You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

 

Rule 4:

If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

 

Rule 5:

Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity.  Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

 

Rule 6:

If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

 

Rule 7:

Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now.  They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning  your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

 

Rule 8:

Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT.  In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right  answer.  This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

 

Rule 9:

Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF.  Do that on your own time.

 

Rule 10:

Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

 

Rule 11:

Be nice to nerds.  Chances are you'll end up working for one.

 

If you agree, pass it on.

If you can read this - Thank a teacher!

 

bill, forgive me, this made me laugh

hmmm... I think igsoon na lang sila... news, c tindera mais, nag baligya na ug sago para ma pa eat niya iyang dog named Ron! hahahaha

 

Nakig talk man xa nako Raen nya iya me e persuade to hate mona, and not to mention ikaw iya cge e balik balik ug mention na dili daw xa ma nsecure nimo kai naa niya ang guy- as if unsa na guy!!! artista??? haller artista para sa comedy! hahaha...

 

basin alien na xa Raen...

hehehe

dioscuri ;)

neruda

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.


pablo neruda.

.transferred

♥

"Where there is great love there are always miracles."

♥

"At one glance
I love you
With a thousand hearts."



— Mihri Hatun, Turkish poet

THE BIRD WITH THE THORN IN ITS BREAST, IT FOLLOWS AN IMMUTABLE LAW; IT IS DRIVEN BY IT, KNOWS NOT WHAT IMPALES ITSELF, AND ARE SINGING. AT THE VERY INSTANT THE THORN ENTERS THERE IS NO AWARENESS IN IT OF THE DYING TO COME; IT SIMPLY SINGS AND SINGS UNTIL THERE IS NOT THE LIFE IN IT TO UTTER ANOTHER NOTE. BUT WE, WHEN WE PUT THORNS IN OUR BREASTS, WE KNOW. WE UNDERSTAND. AND STILL WE DO IT.... *sigh* --------->the thorn bird

she said

am taking the time out back...guba ang phone nimu or is it you na ang gaka-guba?

subject: seafoam

it doesn't even help if you tell me am sensible, i make you happy and i make you laugh, hello,

i'm real happy when i'm doin so...ayg act like a jerk beh...pag reply sku text and don't turn off yer phone pagkalog-out.....

 

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 23:46:45 -0700 (PDT)

 

*

that explains it <3

kermit's

 

 

kerby's son. you can eat him sa ka cute.

randomosity

people from vonage are going to bantayan, how left out can one be? 

 

actual, real live persons can be annoying. do not act as if yer cute, you are sooo not....

quit the cheery-cherry attitude, it's making me puke all of the lettuce churning in my tummy.

 

geezus, he doesn't have his braces on. <3 the cutest. i wish he was buck-toothed. hehehehe

 

 

<3

 

kiss him, and hug him, wear your hair just for him.... wishing and hoping and praying, i forgot how the song would go.... she did that, and she deserved soooo much more....

 

jet, i wish you knew how you've hurt her. i finally gathered some courage to tell her what you've told me, altho you never told her pretty lies, the blatant truth hurt her, muchos, tons, heapsful.... i wish you'd realize that you could've been happier with her.... and she was the one who got away.....and i so cannot freaking believe that you would just wake up one morning and said out loud that you are no longer happy. parang awa.

 

i am not man enuf to own up to her: then grow up big boy....

 

<3

 

dichee is still possessed by her baby.

summer sunshine

 

the guys with meyen and crysse, photo credit: armand

 

 

 

 

 

 

photo credit: jangi

asan ka ng nangyare ang kaguluhan?

steff resigned. am sooo clueless, we were smsing maximus yesterday and she resigned?!!!

armand resigned, he smsd and asked if i'll go laag. it's saturday, i can't.

grabeh. uber-depressing na ito.

 

 

----->

am not eating yakisoba, praaa-missss

..3rd october, 1970..

how much is much,
how deep is deep,
is this game we play called love?
a pint of love,
a gallon?
what matters the quantity?
his cup is big,
but just a cup is what he'll give
mine is small,
but i would give it, cup and all.
how much is much,
how deep is deep,
is this game we play called love?

virginia lichauco de leon

tindera ng mais, please

one word: counseling

dili tragic version ;)

prince eric and princess ariel

aladdin and princess jasmine

kermit and it shud be me...hahaha

baliw.

tristan and isolde

nick and jessica

you and me

 

aren't you proud?

paetch. practice.

wait for me to sms first.

 

iwas na lang, miga baya mo....

 

xoxo

when i grow up....

i wanna be a dumptruck....

 

 

 

*

argh. ang pinoy nga naman. saw this on a jeepney.

same old, same old

i learned that i deliberately alienate myself from ppl who are likewise deliberately trying to be my friend because i wanted to go after ppl who doesn't care...

 

weeh, am not making sense. ang gulo ng declarasyon na iyun. ang gulo ng mga ma-love life kong mga kaibigan. i did not get enuf sound sleep, altho i had been sleeping during my whole unproductive rest days because of people. hay kapoy. kapoy deal wit my folks, wit friends back home, and keeping up wit work.

 

speaking of rest days, shobe can be the pinaka worst na bad influence there is when it comes to pay days. =( hehehe. as useless, we are the normal ayala fixtures when it's pay day.  dichee on the other hand had been taken and possessed by her baby...she had been the sickliest sick person there is. we had to wait for a couple of hours yesterday para she'd get done wit her check-up. ang sirang doctor gave her anti-bacterial for her pharyngitis...that could've killed her baby if a-anga anga kami.

 

kermit had been txting. ayun. <3

saw-saw

tinatanong nya ako, ba't di ko sinasagot tawag nya, ano naman sasabihin ko? alam mong bigla syang parang bumait, tos, tinatanong nya ko kung napaano nako, eh ang sarap naman nyang tanungin kung napaano na sya pagkatapos ninyo....

 

leche ka.

i cannot answer her phone calls because of you, gago.

raen, i am sorry i am not man enough to accept her for the person that she is.... i needed someone to make me realize that. i am no longer happy with her. i hope we let things be.

 

gago ka, if we weren't friends since we were 18, i would've sent allied bank cm recto branch a bomb.

LDR

if i were there, i'd fix you breakfast, do yer groceries, we'd share that house wit leaves crawling on that brick-walled gate.... and we'd look after each other....

 

but, am not there.

 

edited: anong brick-walled gate? hihihi

oh, sue me!

raen -- [noun]: A person who makes a living suing celebrities

sighs

nagresign na gud si armand. =( tos i hardly see ppl from voip na, wala pod naga duty si steffi, tos i've to bear wit my retard na seat mate na maka irits ang pagka special child, then, wala pod si jaez pirmi, then mingaw na maxado....

edited:

yeah, i went to fifth floor, asked him in that blue shirt what had happened; he just said yessss, nagresign na si armando sio paoko...

 

 

 

frog prince

how many times had the world stopped when breakfast at tiffany's was playing? >edited<

and how many times would you sms when i do not have prepaid credits left, and i cannot sms back?

 

but, when i try to call, how come you wouldn't answer?

 

<3

masamang nilalang

nang-iiwan ka talaga sa ere.

 

leche!

sola, stars hollow, cebu, mallorca

Q: WHOSE BED DID YOU SLEEP IN LAST NIGHT?
A: not mine, etelecare's

Q: WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
A:  distressed green

Q: WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR UNDIES RIGHT NOW?
A:  pink fleur

Q: DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
A:  yeah, seafoams, nautilus, si kermit

Q: MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?
A:  close to you with my sisters

Q: NAME 3 THINGS THAT YOU HAVE ON YOU AT ALL TIMES?
A:  rockin' rio, a watch, work clothes
 
Q: WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS?
A: hehehe, do not ask, it's in all shades of murky and scarey

Q: HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW?
A: on hand, around p200 and some change

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT?
A:  cursing and blogging

Q: HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST ARE EX'S?
A: a couple of them are

Q: WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PART OF THE CHICKEN?
A: wings...cluck cluck cluck

Q: WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TOWN/CITY?
A: stars hollow, juks...hehehe, davao syempre ü

Q: HOW DID YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP END?
A: in non-closure, pero gasgas na yung lookin' for closure eh... i realised i could never deal with another person til i know how to deal wit myself...

Q: I CAN'T WAIT TO...?
A: log out, go home, then sleep, or get a life

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR DAD?
A:  holidays 2005

Q: Who got you to join friendster?
A: ppl from sykes, the second time, first time, i sooo totally forgot

Q: How long have you been at your current job?
A:  3 months and counting

Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
A: who's tom?

Q: What was the last thing that you said out loud
A: anong invoice? lecheng indian yan...masyadong chinese....

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A:  john, my best buddy, hihihihi

Q: What is the last thing/person you spent over P1000 on?
A: a pair of yoga shoes

Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: a top from shobe, i think

Q: What web site(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: multiply, friendster, lonelyplanet

Q: If you could drink anything right now what would it be?
A: sola raspberry, leche nahurot sa convenience sa ilalom

Q: Does anything hurt on ur body right now?
A:  lower back, and my heart or ego, cuz nagkamaling process yung last call ko sa punyetang indian, tamakan ako dignidad dahil sa coaching....

 

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
A:  cebu, cebu boo

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: kabus ko, old school ako phone

Q: Admit something about yourself.
A: that i am scared of looking for a grown-up job cuz they do not pay well, i would die of starvation if i do look for one....

Q. Where is one place you would love to live right now:
A. mallorca, españa and build more light houses, hehehe

Q. What is your favorite food:
A: iloveshushi footah!

photo mosaic

 

dear dichee,

 

haven't you noticed? we've come a long way... i cannot recall wut we were back in davao, i know we have had numerous blitzkriegs and wut have we, you cannot do without a food in hand, the pictures way back can tell, y'know... =) i am glad you're here. that makes cebu home. you and shobe is home.

 

gakus and bokus,

achee

 

yawyaw.

buysit ning caller nako run murag buang wko kasabot niya hay mamatay ko maglagot ko sa mga bugo na tao sana mamatay nalang mairit najud ko aning gapareset password tos waka sabot unsa ila gusto pabuhat, imagine 2 minutes mag explain then 5 minutes bgo maka verify lami-a pang dalhan ug bomba, mao jud ga deserve jud ning mga kano ug september 11 na another like that.

vivi

 

shobe: sge lang dich, sumabagon nato ang baby kay sge ka pa puke.... <3

shobe and dichee

 

hehe, the cutest gals in barbie tops

flower flower

 

>All flowers in time bend towards the sun
I know you say that there's no one for you
But here is one

uyab ni tindera ng mais, nasalubong going to work

minsan naisip ko napaano ako nung mga panahong iyun?

 

-edited.-

 

hihi.

copy+paste

bianca2x wrote today at 4:53 PM ET

nedj said:

inspiration -- colors, words, a glance, a touch (and maybe a kiss), quiet strength, a child's laughter, tears of pain and happiness, hellos and goodbyes, the airport, art, sunsets, letters, courage, friendships, life stories, and so many other things i see everyday.

 

colors=pink+green,words=smothered,rouge,elation, a glance=ronski, a touch=ronski, quiet strength= of a woman, child's laughter= my soon to be nephew or niece, tears of pain and happiness= being in a relationship, hellos and goodbyes= when uprooted from davao, the airport= bdl, art= not applicable, hehe, sunsets= shangrila, letters= jacel's, courage= undiscovered, friendships= air we breathe, life stories= one of the many free good things, so many other things i see everyday= yeah, dami....
ü

 

 

steff, hehehe, intimate moments

ka-scarey nato last year, hehehe, haaaay, imissus =(

edited:

joey: ngeks, i found out she luvs fruit salad from thirsty

jerjoe: hay, ewan, katakot takot na embarrassing experiences meron ako dhel sau

steff: maawa, siiii mhiwaaaa, new best bud ko na

bj: hahaha, latino support japon

moi: 0

<3

pinkapinkapinkachurva

http://www.bloomcosmetics.com
fave cosmetics, that i cannot afford wit my meager salary <3

this is loooove though

kinawat nasad: boni pics

hay!!!! look wut i found! one time while we were still havin' classes in admu, we tore his pics from an old high school year book. hay, criminal. maka criminal jud ka pogi ni sya.

 

super idol, sana kamukha ko sya (not the pooch) nakaw pic...sorry

geft and my ex-sister

ex exsister ko na si shobe, when i got home may naka-magnet sa fridge na baby pink na shopping bag from precious moments and may tag na haty bertday, love shobe.... hehehe,

naguilty, after pila ka days of giving each other cold shoulders,  shobe got me a baby sister pin from precious moments, it came with a sister is a friend forever na churva card, then naa'y heart na crystal na pink. the cutest. the first precious moments thingy na walang kwenta that i've ever gotten. ü as of this writing mahal ko na naman kapatid ko. ü

cute shirts

the pix gone! sighs. october 13, 2006

 

sing it with me!

You'd be so proud of me
Now I'm finally taking a stand
Now I can dance
Clouds have all disappeared
Freedom I hope so dear
Cause nobody knows me here

 

- got thru turning 24, walang gastos, cuz the boyf soon to be brother in law brought ice cream and made me getup for dinner, on him! lingaw. [tho, ex-sister mi ni shobe ron]

- brown-out, pisti! buti, i postponed plans to have dinner at home, thinking pointless cuz naa ko duty.

- kermit, smsd first thing in the morning. ü and the rest of the morning til 2pm. kewla.

- hay, na compel ko mag load, reply to emails, answer phone calls today, thanks guys for making me stay up a bit longer than usual, thanks pagparamdam, altho i did a local broadcast that i were born some 24 years ago. ü

-and am not THAT broke. hahaha. ü

 

24 random things

 

24. 6am, time i got out of mudra's womb

23. prince eric would have to be a chinese-black prince

22. i am ambi-dextrose, turned out to be one, because of the chinese classes in gradeschool

21. i do everything wit my left hand

20. i did not have a debut- coming out party, but, most of my gal pals did, so that compensated the lack of having one, and jace sent 18 wrapped gifts in an aboitiz box

19. i practically enrolled in every churva churva summer classes there is: piano, taekwondo/aikido, voice, chenellin, and i still amounted to the being the most uncoordinated being in the planet

18. crepes, pasta, sushi, lettuce, garlic fried rice, i could eat for days, over and over again without puking

17. i've 4 god-kids =)

16. i've been smoking for 8 months, i am in denial, i would want to put it in print, so i would know that i am doing it, and i would have to quit sooner

15. i learned that a java fix of a cup a day can be addicting, i am trying to quit too

14. i don't know how to listen

13. i cannot dance, that makes minamahal a demi-god cuz he can

12. i think i would endup changing religion in 5 years, hahaha

11. ma-irits ko whenever i see caucasians as a live person, i take them as rotten lots

10. i haven't had a real grown-up job after college

9. THAT TYM OF THE MONTH is always plotted on my journal

8. i would still weep if i'd watch the road home again

7. durian is lechengyawa kamahal in cebu!

6. i find these ppl my soul mates; jace, steff, and  mark boni, hehehe

5. kermit ü

4. everyone should keep a journal faithfully

3. nakat-on rako sa real spelling sa queue sa call center, hihihihi

2. He cares.

1. anak ako ng manggagawang pinoy. =)

 

 

bad tl

 

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAEN!!!!!!!!

FROM YOUR TEAM "TEAM THOR"

 

 

 

Lance Lumban 
Team Officer In Charge

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Cebu City 6000
Cebu, Philippines
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si prince eric. kinopya ko lang toh.

> Sometimes when you think your prince went on a detour, think again. Minsan ikaw yung nawawala, di mo lang napapansin.

 

 

weeh, kaulaw

and i thought i should just say: this won't work out. pinroblema mo ako.

 

you didn't ask pala.

pipol.

miss jennings you made my night, kahit nagpatayo ka ng bahay na may swimming pool at kahit sinira mo aht ko. you were the first person who blessed me wit a God Bless You in all my call center years,  sana pinagkudos mo nalang ako. hehehe.

 

kermit, i hope to see you one of these days, btw, lingaw ka kastorya.

 

jovel, i sometimes wish i could jump as well. you rest well. <3 kabalo ka, tanang tarung na cut na dried mango, kanang strips, i would endup thinking about you, each time kita ko ana sa grocery, and watermelon-lychee nga shake, maisip tika. *yakaps*

 

jace, if growing older is such as this, i wish He would've given a plainer, easy-read instructional manual. i still haven't figured life out. this and those 24 years.....

 

xoxoxo

 

Lord, thank you for all You've given me, for all that You've taken away from me, and all You've left me.

[sana wag na scum of the earth pamigay mo, matuto sana ako mamili, hehehe]

some days last longer

shiella smsd: ronski's here wit some gal. hala bira, dretso daun ko kasadya. hay naku. wut is up wit me? he then pulled me by the elbows to say hi, i just said an awkward hi. arg. that really defeated the purpose of my, "serendipity" moment. tanga!

 

we then stayed at PIPC the whole time. cape at chikas, hurot til 7am, then went to wendy's house. grabeh. gurls. dili mahutdan.

 

am at my crappiest mood. i want sleep. i stayed up the whole day exchanging sms wit kermit. hay.

 

 

that's our difference between them, we have Him. <3

think happy thoughts tho yer sad

 

 

1.What do you read while sitting on the toilet?
< anyone's sms, other people's thoughts, my thoughts as well, deciphering and dissecting them. and wdf...wko kasabot sa ako tubag!
2.What's your favorite color?
< pink because aerosmith made a song out of it, pink because the whole world is usually flushed, pink because people looked good in/on? it, pink...and i ran out of reasons...
3.If you were a musical instrument, what would you be?

< nakakabobo, i wouldn't really know, i am music handicapped.
4.What's your favorite food?

< pasta cuz it's accessible, sushi/maki na may lata na mangga, lettuce and salt for summer, fishbols
5.Who is your favorite Hollywood director?

< ang lee cuz he's asian. nge, ka-lame.
6.Do you own any exotic lingerie?
< haha. regular cotton undies lang. a bore. hmf.
7.What is your favorite cartoon?
< ginger, she is sooo me, she goes thru so many things, sooo many insecurities, has so much mishaps, and at the end of the day tries to discover who she is. (i don't get to catch her na though...)
8.What's your favorite book?
< iloved rob fulghum's all i needed to know i learned in kindergarten not only because jace gave it, but, because it's the only book i can recall reading cover to cover, an easy read. ;)
9.Favorite romantic comedy which does not star Julia Roberts?
< serendipity at any given moment. i think/
10.Do you know Neil Gaiman, and is he your god?
< http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neil_Gaiman here's the link, i don't know who he really is. hahaha.
11.Do you agree that if anyone was going to portray Dave Matthews in a movie, it should be Tom Hanks and no one else but?

< and yet another non-entity in my uber-meaningful life...   
12.What is the biggest frustration of your life so far?
< not getting the last three letters after my name cuz that's utterly impossible, my thinking faculty could not process mathematical analysis that well. charness.
13.What gives you warm, fuzzy feelings at night?
< fck. i don't get to sleep at night, it's footah ka cold sa opisina, how fuzzy can that be?
14.Are there monsters under your bed?
< there are. they cause intermittent sleep. ai ewan.
15.What's the best advice you've ever been given?
< not to take things too seriously, to un-care, do everything you have to do, you'll never get out of this life alive anyweis, to DANCE. damn. dance daw.
16.What's the best advice you've ever given?
< keep intimacies between urselves.... hay nalang am the most useless person to ask advice from. get a college degree... i gave that to bessie's sister.
17.Do you think Legolas is a Fairy? (Trick question, ha!)
< tinker belle is.
18.What's the nicest surprise you've ever had?

< that one kiss under that cornflower blue moonlight, which i should probably remove from my system, data error yun, and come sunday a big, big birthday cake and CNT lechon por kilo from my sisters and boyfriends...ngyahahaha.
19.What is passion?

< greeks don't write obituaries, they would ask if that person had a passion. i am not sure if i quote that right; passion would have to be the one thing that you continue to go after, the one thing that you'd never give up on, the one thing that seems to elude you, the one thing that would make all the craziness worth it...