stephie madness and the peppery heat of the summer

if there was anyone going thru a post menstrual syndrome, me thinks it's i....ngyoks. i woke up in tears thinking i wouldn't be able to say goodbye to steph. drats, i hate parting. she has been the extra unknown sister i had in cebu. the same wavelength, the same interests, the same belief in almost everything about how we should go about this semicharmed life....

and yes, she has to leave and i think manille will do her good. she will come to outgrow cebu, it's about time she would say to herself; " anywhere but, here..." i wouldn't think i would be able to say that again. not after doing an inventory of the stuff i collected in cebu. parang ang hirap mag alsa balutan.

 

the past days were strange, i have had recurring headaches and a combo of advil and biogesic would not help. i've had weirder dreams pajud....the peppery heat of the season is turning me nuts. parang, andaming emotional upheavals that i wouldn't understand.

my rest days....

tuesday: islept the whole day thru. tingin ko di na ako tao. at least i've had normal home-cooked meals courtesy of the mother.Ü

wednesday: steff smsd that we meet in etel. tama xa, 5th floor is a whole lot different, malungkot na raw. oo, it seems lonely. lalo na wala na si minamahal, but, wut's more unthinkable is not having steph in cebu. i know i no longer see her on a day to day basis since she quit etel, but, her being in makati is making me more lonely.

we had lunch at east west, she had bacon, yeah, pregnancy makes nice gurls weird, i had ranch burger, i realised, low maintenance jud diay ko when it comes to meal, ma-happy naku wit a burger meal and potatoes. and after lunch, steffi and i went to the groceries, it's funny seeing her now wanting to eat fruits since she hated fruits before. and then, i suddenly freaked out when kerby smsd that i passed by him and i did not notice...buing, yun pala his friends smsd him that i were in ayala, bwisit....

 

and later in the day i saw jaez, whose gal doesn't like me muchos, then we had milkshake at east west nasad, then gumala gala, then, we thought of smoking ourselves to pieces in east west again, but, the place was packed, then, we settled to as useless, Bo's, and spent the rest of the afternoon there. not really talking, him smsing his gal, while i wasn't really doing anything but watched ppl go by...ayun....the mall was still jammed altho it's the lenten season. di man sad ko ka relate since wala namang lent wit my religion.

 

leche maghinulsol tag sala ning mga animal na kano. nag queue. paetch.

 

 

i want my life back. iwant my old holy week provencial life, either in timog cotabato watching ice2x sing all her sesame streets songs, in davao where beaches are just in reach, and just anywhere but here....

 

 

 

<3

 

ending in a quote:

“Over the course of the average lifetime
you meet a lot of people. Some of them
stick with you through thick and thin.
Some weave their way through your life
and disappear forever. But once in a
while someone comes along who earns a
permanent place in your heart”

 

 The Wonder Years