when the rainbow is enuf

ntozake shange's "for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf"

i want you to know
this waz an experiment
to see how selfish i cd be
if i wd really carry on to snare a possible lover
if i waz capable of debasing my self for love of another
if i cd stand not being wanted
when i wanted to be wanted
& i cannot
so
with no further assistance & no guidance from you
i am endin this affair