perfect day

"Woke up with a full realisation that I had never been human in all my life. By that I mean I never reacted naturally according to my emotions. Of course, it was self-protection, which I rationalised as human: not to hurt others. Cruelty, cheapness, meanness, that is human. Human is evil. Being jealous, indiscreet, possessive, lazy and dependent, exploiting others, that is human. Having compassion and understanding, patience and helping others, all of which is considered human, is ideological goodness. Faithfulness in love is unnatural. Not only god and religion, immortality and morality, is man-made ideology, but love too. The man who acts in reality like a woman - who is a woman following her instincts, he alone is human. It is not because he is evil that the woman likes the "bad man" but because he is natural. It would be more human to throw away all therapy and to be free, not to be bad but to be human, natural. The self-denial which is necessary in order to be good, human, is denial of the bad natural self and is therefore not a sacrifice at all but self-protection, and it is the most selfish thing of all. On the other hand the seeming sacrifice for others is really domination, protection against being too human, and is still giving in to badness by still pretending one is good."

The Diary of Anais Nin, Volume Two, 1934-1939, Anais Nin

 

• she's just simply galing.. (above author), to be au naturel is to be human.. i guess..
• we did not miss the bus today.. our gameplan is to wake up at around 4:17am (5 minutes ahead of tp time) then, take a shower and get ready in just 15 minutes, by, 4:42am, we're already waiting for the bus..gelo's right, if we take the bus, we'd have more reason to not be late and be ready for work early..
• listening to perfect day of collective soul repeatedly..
• it's going to be a week before Christmas, today's 13th month payday!!! :)
• two more Christmas parties to attend to.. the dorm's and the accounts.. maka yopaks..
• well, at least during the holidays even if the air seemed a bit chilly, more and more people are trying to be warm and nice..
• one of our food concessionaires, papa giorgio serves goulash.. the dish sounds so funny i would not order it..