sisters 3

kaloka tong morphthingy. i have 1 more hour to go. i tried morphing my sisters' faces and mine. and sali sa sisters si heart. haha.
me and dich came out fine and dich and shobe too. me and shobe is a bit off tangent. me and heart, wagi! sisters kami.

go.

Every time we say goodbye, I die a little

Every time we say goodbye, I wonder why a little

Why the gods above me, who must be in the know

think so little of me that they allow you go..

..to all things

"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you."

A.A. Milne


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i lulled jb to sleep tonight. sleeping next to a sleeping baby is the coziest thing on earth. and he smells so great i can eat him.

i am pms-sy touchey these days. at least i realized that i could not go thru being happy in the now without touching base with the one person i just recently hurt. but one day soon i'll snap out of the guilty mode and will prolly be okay with me and my circumstances.

oh! the bus ride of tp is a must try for all teleperformance employees who hardly use it. it takes you to half of the city then to work. that's like the second best thing i appreciated these past 10 days.

dear matthew,
i believe you. and i am holding on to wut you promised. i will not be your wife if i'm not gonna wind up just being a wife.

anne.

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dinner's great. tilapia and manok bisaya tinola. :)

--

the heart is one great strange thing too. it's amazing how people can actually be capable of love and how one can show that in the oddest ways.

--

"Perhaps you don't really grow up until you realise that you aren't the only person whose existence counts, until you become aware that others live and breathe outside your circle of perception."
- The Infernal, Kim Wilkins

edits:
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it's exfuja's pie day. 3 of my agents would've "pied" me(throw creme pies at moi) good thing only one pie per sup was allowed. it was fun.
fridays can be fun.

i love you jeremy. i still think you're a good friend. bwaha. thanks for the mini lecture. 'appreciate it.
--
joined the grad day of the miniscule(haha) wave 21. they had food. :)

like grass

It's strange how your mind plans ahead for such an eventuality while simultaneously hoping against hope that it will not happen.

i forgot where i got this quote, nonetheless it speaks the truth.

okay. i got a fancy illness and the doc calls it upper respiratory tract infection. :)
and i just got back from a 2 day sick leave(make it 3.5 days of which if i include last week's)..

and all the mean-ness in the world gets me. like being poor is not noble and nothing is cute with being frugal.

okay masama akong nilalang.

and that i will not marry s.o. if he doesn't make me a housewife. simply put noone will be my husband if i cannot be a homemaker. i don't want to be a career person or a business partner. all i want out of my life is to be a house wife.
yawn lang.

so help me Lord dapat ang prayer ni s.o.

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at first i thought i felt empty. but living alone made me realize how nice it is to have the bed to myself. bow.

--
i got all sorts of food craving these days. it's making me go crazy.
i want crabs. boiled ones. crispy crablets. i want grilled veggie pasta. i want celery and carrot sticks.
hayers.
--
i made pork tips and broccoli the other day. s.o. tells me i can cook. charmus.
--
tuesday- absent. i cooked and did some housekeeping.
wednesday- absent and almost went ballistic cuz i miss angelo big time. pero sige nalang.
--
i hate my sisters. i miss them tons. and they make me miss them tons more cuz they keep smsing me tons of maka jelly things such as lunches at ding quaqua and kenji eating his booger or tmac yaya-ing kenji and kairi not popping out of her mom's womb because she doesn't like hand me down crib/strollers/ rocker/walker.

i miss them.

i just lost a first cousin. it's sad. we're not close because of age gap. pero kahet na. it's odd how one can lose someone.

God Bless.

i think i now understand wut it means to have that God shaped vacuum in your heart. i'm awfully touched by one elderly agent who looks out to see if i'm in church during sundays. and tells me to have lunch with his family next time. that's the kindest gesture i've gotten thus far na walang halong politics.

dorkdom and being an urban hermit

It's obvious she's having a hard time sipping her coffee. No matter how delicately she raises her hand or how straight and elegant her posture, she can't help looking awkward when she drinks. Half the damn cup of coffee is trickling its way to the spreading brown stain on the front of her white blouse.

It's her fault, really.


-Jeremy Robert Johnson, Angel Dust Apocalypse

i kinda feel as above.literally and figuratively. yesterday, i smsd angelo asking what i did to us after seeing at least 5 pairs of his soiled black socks in the mini hamper. i broke down after. i couldn't help it.

tas i tried going to church in a jeepney, then realized all the restaurants in lacson street have memories of angelo. and that almost all of my food memories are with him. i did not even dare eat at shakey's or tater's because i know i might end up disprespecting whatever we had if i had someone else in tow..

ganun kalala.

and at church, his uncle spoke about his great aunt. and again i smsd him telling him his uncle is sharing a testimony.

things will not go back to how it were. i will and am leading a different life now. and somehow, i am holding someone else's heart precariously in my hand. i may not even notice it, try as i might to take good care of it, i might wind up giving it back to this person sooner or later.

tama siguro ko when i told gelo that the grass might not be greener on the other side. people are not contented. i have been with us, as far as i can remember until last month..

i kinda miss our rock and roll lifestyle. but, maybe both of us should be battling our own monsters without each other.
--

on the other hand..

friday- i've been absent because of my fever. my upper back hurts, as if i were carrying a knapsack.

saturday- stayed at home, groceries at sm, and some people mistaking me for someone's wife. kaloka.

sunday- had cbc, had medical check-up at riverside after church and the doctor ruled out influenza but, i had to watch what i eat and go back 3 days after to see if it's not dengue, lunch at pepe's..

monday- got to play with jb and then bought a new umbrella.

ayyyyyy nako, how anti-boring this life. :)


God is awesome.

please include shobe in your prayers. she's about to give birth to kairi anytime tonight, tomorrow or within the week. kairi at 31 weeks is 7++ pounds. she's a big girl.

i even dreamt that she'll look like her mommy. :)

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got back to teaching for csat. one of the managers told me, i thought mahinhin ka, ang lakas pala ng boses mo.

bwahaha.

and i got one of my boys promoted to tier 2.

and s.o. also got promoted. yipeedeedo.

hands holding out

She was still holding out for something that wasn’t going to happen. She was good at waiting. That seemed like a sad thing to be good at.

-Ann Brashares, Girls in Pants: The Third Summer of the Sisterhood






at times you don't need friends to agree with you. at times all you wanted is some concession that they're pretty much with you at times when you feel confused. hayers.




am not that miserable at all lately, kaso tonight am just feeling really pretty baaaaad. feverish kinda bad. i hate it when i go to work wanting to cry.





mcdo with S.O. today. arbie's late so we did not wait up. sayang.






i don't want to go to work seeing those hurting eyes pierced right thru me. hayers.





God's been good. the whole time. :)

make every call couwnt! go greta go!

work. work. and work.

oh well..

“I know what it is,” she said. “We aren’t in Bethesda anymore and we aren’t in high school. We aren’t really in our families and we aren’t in our houses. Those are the places we grew up and the times we spent together, but they aren’t us. If we think they are, then we’re lost, because times end and places are lost. We aren’t any place or any time.”
She thought of their Pants. She pictured them blowing off the laundry line and into the air, floating and soaring until they silently merged into sky and sea.
“That’s the thing. We are everywhere.”
-Carmen, Ann Brashares, Forever in Blue, the Fourth Summer of the Sisterhood

i needed a new apartment. my place is oddly really sad. and i cannot forever stay stuck in that state when i hafta get used to molding myself and the way i saw this city with some new souls.

postponed coffee with arbie but we got to talk during shift. oh well, some gals are just as sawi as i am. haha. isumpa ang call center at pag-ibig.

life isn't as boring as it seems to be at all, tomorrow, we'll have breakfast at mcdo with the gals and gays from exfuja.

i'm totally sleepy. God is amazingly kind.

it's payday. i miss old paydays. pero go nalang ng go.

I wanted to know how to have my cake and eat it..

"Why is money so hard to come by? There is so much of it about. If you see the man with the superfluous million do remember my name. It may be he is worried about his income tax."

Notebook - Sherwood Anderson

cuz it's payday tomorrow. i wish i wind up marrying rich or being rich before i hit 35. and i will have the hugest walk in closets for shoes and clothes and purses separately. haha. what a waste of space.

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i want a new bff. haha. i am soooo interested in getting to know one gal from exfuja. her name is arbie. i asked her on a date. :) i told her i am buying coffee tomorrow. and we can exchange chikka and ukay2x tips. she has a great sense of style and her hair is dyed copper red w/c seems to me looked like platinum brown if there's such a thing, and she had this wispy pixie crop. she wears ballet flats, skinny jeans, juicy couture velour jackets that fits her well, or cardigans that looked soooo preppy, and tank tops. i wanna be as skinny as her too.

haha. and she's same age as dich. :)
i don't know how i can also end up liking other girls that easily. but i know we will be good friends. haha. assuming.

so coffee and payday pa!

airfare has skyrocketed. i hate it.
i cannot stand a 7am bus ride to cebu. i liked 4 am ones. they're a bit more bearable.
--

i went out with the exfuja gays and gals this morning. we ate at this hole in the wall carenderia near a dead river. we walked under the scorching heat of bacolod sun. and i did not realize that we walked from tp going to gaisano area. (and i normally take a cab or a striker to go there!)..

food was great. i ordered pork adobo ata yun, and S.O. ordered pakbet and fish. i only ate the okra part of the pakbet. :)
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i wish some people would wind up with a clue. you cannot go thru life clueless. when you're like almost 30, you hafta know and be aware. wag magpaka oblivious na. i'm learning to be aware kaya.

and some guys should quit feeding their egos. yawn lang.

"I don't need the sleep as much as I need the escape. At this point in my life, nothingness is a lot better than somethingness."

"She didn't know if she was running away from something or running to something, but she admitted that deep in her heart, she wanted to go home."

- Go Ask Alice by anonymous

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oh well, i might as well date that dentist from cebu na hulog nang langit. bow.

i thought you knew this song is about you. don't you?

Up A Road Slowly, Irene Hunt

"It happens the world over- we love ourselves more than we do the one we say we love. We all want to be Number One; we've got to be Number One or nothing! We can't see that we could make ourselves loved and needed in the Number Two, or Three, or Four spot. No sir, we've got to be Number One, and if we can't make it, we'll rip and tear at the loved on till we've ruined ever smidgin of love that was ever there."

i ended a 13 month relationship with gelo last sunday. it's odd how i finally saw that living with him is over. the past year he has been family, confidante, love, and all things revolved around him. he was a city to me.


and so, wala nang gifts. wala nang hati sa rent. :( and everything i got used to when he was around will eventually change.

after he left last night, all i can do is plop on our shared mattress and sleep. i could not cry anymore. the past 2 days, i caused him to cry more than the tears i cried last year.

the apartment is left with more space. and is emptier when i looked at it today. i took time to clean and organize my things half the day.

i don't know how to be someone else's.. and i don't know who'll hold him now.

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saturday, we decided to date. we saw zohan. it was fun. we bought sour cream popcorn from taters, and had lunch at shakey's. we even played bingo and lost. :)

sunday, we talked about how i felt choked or strangled by him. i decided to spend the afternoon away from him. when i got home, i knew things would not go back to how they were. --

it's odd how my im headshot happened to be us.


-- they say regret is a bitter pill. and regret is a time-waster. i am blessed to have known angelo. in so many ways my life has been enriched by him.

i just wish he'd find the heart to forgive me one day. my heart is not with me still. he took half of it when he left.
 

morats

tuesday last week.
photo credits: nazel's phone.

took all except my name..

last day of tops training. i am happy to have accomplished something. in my point of view, i thunk, i am a very good observer and a very good commentator- char. commentator.
(is that someone who can make tons of comments?)

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am happy it's friday.
yofax assist nesting.
and ops floor assistance.
makes me very hungry.
and angry at blood hounds.

kenji updates: he can now say gmorning when he wakes up. and says gmorning in the morning, noon, and at night. walang pakealaman!










There's some things in this world
You just can't change
Somethings you can't see
Until it gets too late
Baby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I'm up against out in this world
Maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something
That's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around
And come on home

i might need iloilo. i want to move cities. i hope the wall of jericho i am trying to crumble will eventually crumble.

God bless!

being virginia

"She would not say of anyone in the world now that they were this or were that. She felt very young; at the same time unspeakably aged. She sliced like a knife through everything; at the same time was outside, looking on. She had a perpetual sense, as she watched the taxicabs, of being out, out, far out to sea and alone; she always had the feeling that it was very, very dangerous to live even on day."
Virginia Woolf, Mrs. Dalloway

  in the face of domestic violence, if you were the party involved, you can compare yourself to a goldfish swimming inside a fish bowl.

stop na.

this song meant a city to me..

dear matthew,

you're the only song i know now.


love,
anne

love and a box of choclits.

4th day of sup training. some stuff are overwhelming but, i am seeing myself laughing more often now. and not as miserable as some weeks ago.

when asked what's my reason for showing up for work, i readily answered money. so did Chris. so i guess, am not the only needy person in the world.  ü

i hate lunch times. the workplace is unbearable during lunches.

prayer life had been odd these days. i seem to be getting confusing signals from Him.

All you need is love. But a little chocolate now and then doesn’t hurt.

-Charles M. Shultz

♥

It was in a bathtub back in New York, reading Italian words aloud from a dictionary, that I first started mending my soul. My life had gone to bits and I was so unrecognizable to myself that I probably couldn't have picked me out of a police lineup. But I felt a glimmer of happiness when I started studying Italian, and when you sense a faint potentiality for happiness after such dark times you must grab onto the ankles of that happiness and not let go until it drags you face-first out of the dirt - this is not selfishness, but obligation. You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight.

-Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert


gelo got his leg leg tattoed with japanese warrior horned masks with lotus flowers. i am jealous but, he told me not to get one cuz i might not stand the pain.

i hate coaching. it's yofaks. we hafta kneel down to coach agents. kaloka.

streets

dear matthew,

i will leave my left cheek unwashed.
i might not be there when you are ready to come back for me. but know that it's a tragedy if we wait too long. i never knew what happened to anne and matthew in the book. but, i know real life can be sadder.

we are tragic altogether.

love,
anne

you know who you are.

Why do your poems comfort me, I ask myself.
Because they are upright, like straight-backed chairs.
I can sit in them and study the world as if it too
were simple and upright.

- Naomi Nye Shihab, You Know Who You Are

gelo and i saw the mummy today. ang ganda ni inay michelle! :)

it was a pretty bad service from calea. we waited around 10 minutes no servers came to take our orders. i wanted a slice of cheesecake pa naman. so i stormed out of the store. hayers.

but, bob's cafe was great. i asked angelo to remind me to get burritos next time cuz they're now serving mexican chorva chorva.

annnnnnnnnnnnnd!

my baby is getting a tattoo. another one. on his leg. he is giddy like a tambok toddler when he announced he'll get one today. i'm gonna see the whole thing tomorrow when i come home from work. our rest day sucks.

oh well. God has been awesome as always. He gives difficult people. people who can shake you and make you feel not so wonderful about yourself. people who tell you to change your hair color. kainesh. but, He gave angelo too. and my fiercely loyal sisters. and great gal pals.
who am i to ask for more?

God bless!

fury. scorn.

"In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hand
And ate of it.
I said, “Is it good, friend?”
“It is bitter—bitter,” he answered;
“But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart."

- Stephen Crane
"The Heart"

i realized how much provincial rut is there in this city.
pond scums
and chismosas.

kalinit.

fyi, i don't have a kid. that baby on my friendster profile is my one and only darling nephew.

suya?

TUWAD!

i've come undone.

It isn't shameful to admit that we cannot win. We take pride, perhaps falsely, in being the most intelligent creatures on the face of this planet, but not once in the history of mankind have we been able to rise above the workings of nature. Earthquakes and tidal waves, even the weather, are still mysteries to us. We know so much less than we ever want to admit. Only children, in their spontaneous and instinctive moments, seem able to express this fact clearly.

From Where we feel.

Gelo and i dated today. at bigby's. :p

i just realized that other people in this city are plain eejits. and i am another eejit if i make patol.

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our weekend was a disaster. saturday we slept whole day. sunday, we never talked the whole day. i realized being an adult entails accountability. i will never be no one of consequence.

kumpleto na ang shopping list, nike, giordano, even the mmmm pear's on sale. ;p

happy monday!

EDITS: tops training. i lurve. it's fun. cuz i know wut's in it for me.

floor walking galores too.

God is ♥.

i wish i were in beijing last night.

august 8, 2008.

anniemay's complete set is here:

http://anniemay.multiply.com/photos/album/109/its_8-8-8?

why.

"I do know my own mind," protested Anne. "The trouble is, my mind changes and then I have to get acquainted with it all over again."


Anne of the Island, L.M. Montgomery

 

dear matthew,

a talk is not equated to a forwarded sms cuz it'll boil down to the ancient of days when people used binalaybay to express their meaning!

anne.

 

oh well. i found my mini sd card stashed amongst some paper bills. :)

--

♥ eman gave me shopping money! (very minimal pero kahet na!)

 

*sigh*

i wanted to share one of my fave albums that i saved here. i feel slow/lagging /tired semi-miserable today. i wish i could just speak of my anger as loudly as i wanted to but, i cannot. so, to feel a bit better here are the photos (bad ones, i must say) from the holidays last year. i never felt happier, braver, more grown-up, and ever grateful..

here..

i went out with czar had lunch (with markIT) at KFC, dint know that hot wings were great. but not great great but  they were great. so okay. enuf.

i got angelo 3 shirts. 2 logo shirts from guess- identical prints, different colors- on discount-way cheap :) and then a regular priced hangten pique polo with the feet logo- white.  he told me he liked them all. he looks like a cute puppy and smiled sheepishly.
(okay, bitaw, he gave me money to use, and then i bought stuff for him so i don't feel guilty for asking him money:)

then i got me a pair of amethyst contact lenses. and it turns out that my eyes were too brown that my irises looked as if i had nothing on. czar took videos of me trying to put them on miserably and maldita pa ang opthal. kaloka. nonetheless, i successfully popped them on my eyes alone at home. ü both eyes now are -100. grovers.

so i stayed within budget and did not buy anything more. i did not see gladiators and nice smelling body butters in sm. i skipped them, i'll save them for next time..

i mentioned i wanna be veronica. i learned that out of the archie characters, lil jinxed fits me the most today..


the dress that i am wearing got ripped cuz the fabric got soaked with bleach way too much, it weakened and the upper back got torn. so i am wearing a jacket the whole time. and am thinking of turning the dress into a skirt or will i go to a custorera and have it fixed?

and then i lost my mini sd memory card, it's two gig and i got it for 19.50 dollars. my worst fear just sunk into my systems now. i know i format the card a lot, but, who knows, the person who could've found it has access to recovering old files. old crazy files. haha. leche mashado. i am afraid i'd need to buy a new one,and sayang kwarta.

i just hope it gets corrupted once someone finds it. i thunk i lost it in the cab, i hope the cab driver snaps it apart.


i fixed me my own lunch today. brought microwavable butter popcorns for sly and chris- who by the way is my bff now. nge. i only have p70 in my wallet and angelo's grad pic makes the wallet a lot grander than wut's in it(true to life!)..

lunch is bologna and cheese and lettuce and mayo and tomato sandwiched in between slices of white and wheat bread. haha.

sana friday na. shobe tells me she can catch kairi's hands when it moves. she says she kicks then another movement in her tummy takes place and she "dakops" them and tells everyone in her work place that she caught her daughter's hands.  i am envious. haha.

oh well. happy almost weekend. God's been awesome. the gift of sight is awesome. we hafta take care of our eyes. they make us see life beautifuly.

The pictures were moving, each in its turn, each for a brief minute or two.  There in the moonlight, with tiny tinkling thoughts and the distant sea voices, it seemed, each little drama was enacted.  Whether it took an hour or three hours for the dramas to finish, it would be hard to say.  I only know that I lay fascinated and did not move while the stars wheeled in the sky.

The Illustrated Man - Ray Bradbury

how dyo turn a pumpkin into a squash?

you toss it up high in the air and it smashes down into a
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SQUASH!








corny joke when my sisters and i were younger. oh i miss them. talked to them today. shobe wanted an airbed and tons of diaper creams for kairi. ü

ka-artehan!

green dress/top from kamiseta i got from czar with a gold metallic belt from cee. and my pink flower printed celine flats.

kabaliwan last sunday cuz i'm bored. bwahaha. pictures were color-altered because i took poor quality ones.

retail therapy

di bitaw nako makaya dili magshopping. haha. and i'm planning to go hit the mall in honor of those glorious days when czar and i were singletons and always had meals to our lonesome. and so later..

i plan to buy shirts for angelo i'm on a budget so i'll look for work shirts/ pique polos from memo cuz most of the time they're on sale if not, sa hangten nalang sha magtinir. (i tease him about buying shirts from penshoppe and bench- he smirks in disgust like a 3 year old would- then i'd ask, anong mali sa penshoppe or bench? hahahahaha! but, am sure he will not exactly like memo or hangten too but, who cares?)

then  perpel or grey contacts. am opting for perpel, pero mas ma-angay ata nako ang greys cuz i'm insikoi- it's about time that i buy one, cuz my spectacles(charoot word!) would make me dizzy and i still often make the mistake of saying hi to people i don't know cuz of my poor eyesight!

i want a pair of flats or maybe gladiators. eiwan. or just flats. basta anything on sale from celine cuz i am cheap.

i want a huuuuuuuuuge bottle of cheap cocoa butter but, i don't think i need it now, maybe next time.

i want the mmmmmmm pear spritz of calgon or para mi bebe (ambition ang para mi bebe, it costs double here)

and i asked alfie where i can find a stella mccartney adi jacket, he said in glorious galleria for 5krung. shucks ambition again. so X eto sa list.

i want that white flower print watch from guess. but, i don't think i am buying. it's too mahal. if i bought it i will eat packed lunch na balik2x for 10 days. kaloka!

i want a blouse either from guess, kamiseta, or bayo. but, i hafta make sure that i got gelo his shirts first. kawawa looking na mashado my boy - he looks yagit now that he is growing his hair long enuf to hold a pony tail(w/c i estimate will take us about kenji's toddler years before it'll grow)..I HOPE HE WEARS A CAP OR A BEANIE! I HOPE!

and digression: iza uy i love you. thanks for always making me feel better about myself and for always making sense for a 20 year old gal, i've never seen anyone sooo level-headed.

so far i just have to wait for emanuel to get me any preppy bags from bayo- this will take at least 2 months cuz he's still crazy over a gal in exfuja and i don't like to think of waiting for his purchase. haha.

so far, i will later go back to this list to see whether i have the heart to splurge. unta mapugngan cuz naga uros uros ako kasingkasing magasto today. (hambugera!)

photos inset: our yagit days. ü

like splitting your heart and waiting for fairies to come out

Mary Oliver.
The Uses of Sorrow


Someone I loved once gave me
a box full of darkness.

It took me years to understand
that this, too, was a gift.

♥ i thunk that acting like betty is not for me. i will be veronica. betty is boring and she looks like a blood hound. and i will quit acting like my whole self esteem went down the drains. i think it's still intact. some people can just go to hell. and chris tells me i should not find time for pulubis. some people are emotionally and literally pulubi. kawawa naman.

i am not insecure but, there are people in the city who can make you feel blah. and come to think of it i am not blah cuz i feed myself and i shop for myself except those times when i am too needy i ask money from angelo. pero yun lang.

i hate some eejits in this city. insipid eyjots. yawn lang.

♥ gelo brought home some lunch. rice and lechon kawali. i mused that lechon kawali is supposed to taste garlicky, he said, it's supposed to just taste good. :)

God is ♥ despite the fact that i am harboring anger in my heart these days. i have no right to be angry man gyud cuz i got away from an impending ear infection and i am not too lazy to show up for work and i haven't been ill and i got thru pmsing and my sister will give birth and gelo and i will take care of my two sisters' babies early next year. it'll be fab. galit ako sa mga yagit sa mundo. kainesh.

pero He is ♥. ü

and so para masaya eto ang repost of the photos of bradgelina's twins. here!

crash into me. hike up your skirt a lil more and show the world to me. haha. ilurve this song!

lastly, in the essence of being frugal and being paranoid that i might not have any form of livelihood in the incoming months, it's been two days since payday, i haven't bought anything made out of metal, plastic, or cotton! :) down with consumerism. haha.

and i totally thunk gelo now looks akin to pax. haha.


love,
raeyna

i miss amapola afternoons with gelo. hay.

middle names

..."And today's mistake is going to cure me of being too romantic. I have come to the conclusion that it is no use trying to be romantic in Avonlea. It was probably easy enough in towered Camelot hundreds of years ago, but romance is not appreciated now. I feel quite sure that you will soon see a great improvement in me in this respect..."


But Matthew, who had been sitting mutely in his corner, laid a hand on Anne's shoulder...

"Don't give up all your romance, Anne," he whispered shyly, "a little of it is a good thing--not too much, of course--but keep a little of it, Anne, keep a little of it."

L. M. Montgomery

♥

dear matthew,

i'm too angry.

anne.

shoppingeras, eye want

from the top:  multi strap multi coloured flats from shoes for lovely peole, crystal flats from emilio pucci, minnetonka mocassin-i am not sure why i want it, but i want it, a floral skirt from old navy- ilurve old navy forever, beyond paradise- mao ning the ultimate eye want shopping item, and black raspberry vanille lotion from bath and body works- eto lang ata ang viable item out of the list.

they don't call it a crush if it was easy

from 300loveletters.

big brown bag

'God is love,' she said. 'And He
respects love, whether it's between
a parent and child, a man and woman,
or friends.
...Live your
life right... Love with all your
heart. Don't hurt others, and help
those in need. That's all you need
to know.'

Burned, Ellen Hopkins

♥

gelo asked me to wake him up before i go to work today. i almost felt bad that our rest days don't fall on the same day but, i got over it thinking that we might need time for ourselves and yet, when i am at work i feel like i'm a storm wrecked ship that is not anchored. i feel more grounded knowing that he is around. (charootness!)

i hate doing groceries lalo na when when  the bill rings up and you see that you are paying at least 1/8 of your hard earned moolah and you'd get 3 plastic bags. onions cost p29 and a head of lettuce costs p28! incredulous. i asked gelo why, he said it's because of the oil price hike. sa isip ko lang baket nisasaute bah ang gulay sa gasolina?

hayers.

so to end consumerism and cut cost i decided that i'll bring lunch to work. i told gelo i'd make sandwiches and microwave them. and just bring pamasahe daily. this way i can cut my  spending on coffee from bob's/ pepsi- am addicted/and food- and most food from our concessionaires are food from the looney bin and so!!! magbabaon nalang ako. on a daily basis i can spend 100-150php on food, parang sayang when i know that i can make my own lunch.

i lacked sleep. or feel like i lacked sleep so i skipped yoga lest i fall asleep on my own mat.

dear shobe,

i wanna see kairi na gyd. and i wanna see kenji. hayers.

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wala! di nako magshopping cuz i needed to save for kairi's diaper creams. kaloka ang request ni shobe. and her onesies. but, i don't think i can afford to buy onesies for her. ü

-- i'll miss christian. i have no friend when i am not on the same sched with him. i like the fact that he is such a gentle giant and a really intelligent creature. it rubs in on me. mabright pod ko. :)

i got over the hurt hurt. i am being oa lang talaga yesterday. plus the fact that i am supposed to take calls two hours a week. all crazy things would act up.

vienna waits for you

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Tonight...

Too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong, you know
You can't always see when you're right. you're right

You've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize..Vienna waits for you?

And you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get half through
Why don't you realize, Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?