everything to lose

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"Over his shoulder I saw a star fall. It was me."
Falling Angels by Tracy Chevalier
i'm soooo stressed that i think my headiness and being nauseated last night is because of work and not wanting to be working for a banana republicy place anymore.
called in sick. ohGod.ihatebeinghere.
dichee's phone call was the longest phone call i've had in months. i did not know how much i am missing cuz am not with them. but, it'll be just half a year of waiting, and then dich and i might try our entrepreneurial chakras :)..
i've a bad tummy today. i think i over ate. i had soooo much rice and chicken and then gelo and i dated again today, and had lunch at yellow cab and i placed that chili oil aplenty and now i've to go to the loo 1 million times.
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oh, we saw kung fu panda. :) i'm glad gelo liked it.
when we were walking to work under a shared tiny tiny umbrella, he said, "mas grabeh pa ang ulan tong gatraining kami kung fu.." i'd reply with: "nge hambal mo sa siberia ka before gaswimming" he'd put in: "amo gani ga kung fu ko sa siberia.."

and it was nonstop talk about cougars, puma, jaguars, cheetah, and leopard. :)
today i want: scented candles, tons of them cuz we are running out
sharp kitchen knives
small ceramic mortar and pestle
a couch
:)
i've been thinking, if i lost this job anytime this year, i would prolly not have shopping money, but, i wouldn't have to deal with OA and exag peoplets.
rot.
debetaw. :)
:)