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i wonder why i even bother to continue keeping people i shouldn't be keeping or keep up with people who wouldn't bother keeping me.

nonetheless, as i found the answer to the thought above, i also realize that months ago this crapfxck does not matter as i have a life outside of the crackhouse. and saturday nights were not meant to be spent with a 23 yr old who could not exactly tell me what he wants out of me. so there. or now had meaningfully informed me that i am not to expect to trail behind him and his buddies when we're outside taculing. people are odd that way.

my class and i are planning for a graduation luau- i hope the beach plan goes well. however, i hope i don't get harrassed in the process cuz i could just stay at home that saturday evening and could just go out with them in the morning and eat a mcdonald's. bow.

overall, some days there's meaning at work. on some days it's just darrrrrrrrrrrn catastrofxck and i wanna fml.

for what they'd said was no news. Nothing ended, nothing begun, nothing resolved.

—"Brokeback Mountain," Annie Proulx