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"Loving someone means taking the risk that they might fuck up your nicely ordered little life." -Mark Haddon, A Spot of Bother

bwahaha. so true.

nothing great is happening.

lousy fact number 1..that their are times when i act like a bitter prune.

lately i learned that dealing with people can be taxing. you cannot be too nice or too tough.. and of course you cannot expect everyone to like you.

today's better though. last night shift was bad cuz of post ms. i went down with it. and i almost cried during class. tas, gelo is a pain in the tush pa. and after shift as well, he was a wasted rut and i'm left at home and my phone was ringing every so often cuz he kept on calling. and made me realize that he would have a lousy time when am not with him. bleh.

one more night. my class is graduating! i wanted to have the same nurturing big sister kind of feeling towards them. kaso, am like blank. at times even if you wanted to be this loving kind of creature towards others, lack of sleep and all other factors get you and eat you. i'm a dead log in this class. but, hopefully, i inspired them in one way or another, like with the way i choose my purse or the color of my cheeks or my hair or my dress or my grey trousers. haha. but, i wish one day, i could inspire them to choose the job because they are interested in it. and also, sana, one day, i would inspire them to believe in the one thing that i believe in. syempre, it all boils down to my faith. hopefully, i can win people's hearts for Him. sana.

i want a new purse, a new dress, a new pair of flats. local. bayo. kamiseta. plains and prints. either.

sana.

i wanna go shopping.

my weekend's packed. tanang waterfalls and boondoks in negros gelo and i are trying to conquer. and i've new gal pals to go to talisay with tomorrow. and the graduation day of the new class.

am beat. i need sleep. i also have this terrible headache. aspirin.

God is ♥.