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Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit: Jeanette Winterson
"I have a theory that every time you make an important choice, the part of you left behind continues the other life you could have had. Some people's emanations are very strong, some people create themselves afresh outside of their own body. This is not fancy. If a potter has an idea, she makes it into a pot, and it exists beyond her, beyond its own separate life. She uses a physical substance to display her thoughts. If I use a metaphysical substance to display my thoughts, I might be anywhere at one time, influencing a number of different things, just as the potter and her pottery can exert influence in different places. There's a chance that I'm not here at all, that all the parts of me, running along all the choices I did and didn't make, for a moment brush against each other."



i've been tearful the whole afternoon and slept on the guestroom without linens cuz i was furious at angelo after our shift. at times maybe two people can really stare at one thing but would see it differently.


i had breakfast with some people from wave 1. just like how i'd put things before, maybe i should hold on to the NOW cuz the people you are with right now aren't necessarily going to stay.

workweek is almost over. my weekend ambitions:

1. convince gelo to get me a new pair of havaianas, wicked, i know.
2. finish two hampers of laundry.
3. make chicken pasta on sunday for lunch
4. show up for church
it's payday tomorrow. yipee!

i miss my sisters. it's weird how i have recurring dreams of my family.

this morning i reread one of my post from a year ago, asking how would life be if i had money. haha. in the end i realized, payday rajud diay makapahappy sa ako. :) it works like a wrinkle serum, tightens your face and turns a frown into a smile. no, really, prolly it's not about the moolah that i would earn from staying up all night, it's about the fact that you can subsist on your own keep and not on people's charity, you can create a good meal, you can buy gifts for the people that you love or for me, for the person that i love, so money or payday is somehow really good stuff.


i told gelo dut i have a boy crush. and he is poor.
he told me i am mata pobre. and mean.
he got me all wrong.
i am poor as well and needs to work, so diba, if i were to be crushing on someone, i should hit it big time nalang. crush on someone who's really wealthy?