homesick.

i woke up with the heaviest head. gawd, i wanna go home or be in cebu.

i had dinner wit vincent, he took me to manokan country, the place smelled weird, murag daan na balay, maka puke, but, chicken's good. i was in a sour mood, he did not try to jolly me out of it, he was just a bit quiet and spaced out too. buti nalang it rained. i ended up not taking out my grumpy mood on him and blamed it on the rain. tweoinks.

i wanted something glittery and special and girly and nice. unta naay ing-ana, nganu mga taw dinhi ka puro murag sa ranch? (uber ka senseless na statement of the night.)

am not overdoing sleep.

my singaw hurts. can i cry?

--------------> stone stone in heaven:

i don't want to be the last person of choice, if there's noone to sms and go out with/ if life is treating you cruel, that's because you hardly appreciate THE MUCH that you have. and iwish you realize how irritating it is that you still put up wit him(annoying mongolian slash errr frog) and the other him na isang malaking (pond) scum bag of the earth- and who would only choose to remember people when he needed to borrow money or when he needed a ride---malaking MANGGA boy.

a thousand miles.

[this should be the last of the my former fave person posts... senti mode on tonight. iam letting go already.i already deleted the folderful sms that came from him.toinks.]

 

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

<3

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

 

 

 

white houses.

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

 

 

insanely happy.

best sms i got this month: thanks for making me happy everyday. love you.

awwww.shucks. kasappy/mushy, pero makatats. Ü

today's eduardo's 24th, had dinner at his place with czar, we made a quiet exit after we ate (hehe- hit and run), caught up with Vincent/tuti fruity minus the swollen ankles at Calea East, then Ryan So joined us, i was surprised to see him out and it's already past 11pm, and he wuz in a cheery, jolly, chit-chatty insik mode. We seemed bitten by the laugh bug that we were laughing the whole time. iam glad czar had fun. i usually would have a hard time making my friends meet my other friends. <3

czar et moi are already practicing the nichie posts. toinks.

doing yoga and leg raises religiously. by religiously i meant 10 minutes daily. ha!

*i've the most annoying blister*

 

 

fault

The humiliation I go through
when I think of my past
can only be described as grace.
We are created by being destroyed.


- Franz Wright, from “Letter, January 1998″

 

piece of cake.enero.

jethro- for the once in a blue moon i miss you sms and asking how iam, thank you. and for the well-kept memory of college,of stalking my kinda guy, of bringing me to class...for being THE HUGEST JERK IN THE WORLD, even tho you would not read this, happy birthday. yer missed. altho YER STILL A JERK in my opinion. Hehe. <3

nice- thank you for college. for our love hate friendship. for the adult advices. for the rest of the years to come. lovelove you. amishu. hati birthday.

jaezbereny- for the long walk home// for the robi btc groceries where we would endup seeing fashion terrorists// for holding my hand- wahaha// for being the lil thug slash rusta bru that i never had// lovelovelove you. will go home soon. happiest of birthdays to ya.

smooches.

low-cal

my chinese school bus is official. <3 [1030 everyday. haha. minsan masking pauper moments, one can be soo happy.]

and is not convinced about my stand on going to church and tithing... and probably will not change his mind about it.

<3

it's still sate babe and long john's night(--->mccafe and bob's) coffee and peanut butter sauce. kapunish naman, we were supposed to catch a movie tonight but, all that's on-screen were from MFF. toinks, if i were wit gal pals i'd watch even enteng kabisote, pero wit a date, maka sira ng repu na dating pang sira.

gawk, ilove gretchen barretto. one year nko nalukring lukring. it's gretadom forever. <3

vincent is the 3rd person who told me i gained. naiinis ako. call me ugly but do not tell me i am fat. it's bothersome. <3

winner si dichee:

you are invited to the funeral rites of turtle # 1, remains lie on the tabletop where kenji is currently taking a bath. dark chocolate bar donation is highly appreciated and bonna. thanks.

autistic jud ako mga manghud. atay.

some of the agents can be annoying. iwish i wore a stiffer(?) face that way they would not bother me. dili baya sila mga gwapa ug gwapo. ang lahi bati'g fashion sense, others have dirty nails, tas others have mcdonald's shoes. so if their lives were so miserable during their childhood, sana they let others be non-miserable. am not making sense. am PMSing big time. ihate it when they would make puna na parang may childhood hang up sa pagiging bully nila in high school, that is like so 10 years ago. <3

gawk now, i still cannot get over the fact that ang uyab ni tindera ng mais na nagsinaw sa ka-dark ang skin kay QA na. murag grover na ka OA ha, ako previous company, ako career path, ako expressions kay gayahun, tas ang guy kay uber ka puti ang face murag nag rice powder daw. eeeck!!! dapat e-patent najud nko ako mga ganahan or dapat copyrighted para walang makigaya.

don't get me wrong, am happy today. i just wanna blabber like greta.

 

homesickness big time.

x0x0

 

 dichee and her other pet: PIGLET WAILING.