facebook, hot potato, i don't know

i still don't understand facebook.

(but, i love these 3 photos on my desktop:)

wallet's lookin' empty

miko wants these babies..
i want them too cuz gaya gaya kow. :)


images from birkenstock usa

scars and bruises

iheart thursdays

Petula Clark - Dow...

have a safe, long weekend/holiday(s) everyone.

&

i just might have a new niece.. not certain.. but, it's still great news..

must start..

reading..

 

 

she had fallen in love so many times that she began to suspect she was not falling in love at all, but doing something much more ordinary.

- jonathan safran foer, extremely loud and incredibly close

you and your circumstance.

 

 

 

“It is a slow and painful process, this striving after true inner freedom. Growing more and more certain that there is no help or assurance or refuge in others. That the others are just as uncertain and weak and helpless as you are. You are always thrown back on your own resources. There is nothing else.

 

The rest is make-believe.

But that fact has to be recognized over and over again.

 

Especially since you are a woman. For woman always longs to lose herself in another.
But that too is a fiction, albeit a beautiful one.

 

There is no matching of lives. At least not for me. Perhaps for a few moments. But do those moments justify a lifetime together? Can those few moments cement a shared existence?

All they can do is give you a little strength, and perhaps a little happiness. God knows being alone is hard. For the world is inhospitable.

 

In the past I used to dream of giving it to one person. But it was not to be.
And when you reach such painful truths at the age of twenty-seven, you sometimes feel quite desperate and lonely and anxious, although independent and proud at the same time.

I have confidence in myself, and I shall manage myself. The only measure you have is yourself. And the only responsibility you can shoulder in life is responsibility for yourself. But you must do it with all your strength."

~ Etty Hillesum, "An Interrupted Life"

 

 

 

***Discuss this with the clingy, insecure girlfriend

Vow to save for your geriatrics years

Starve to be stick thin

Maaaaannnnn girls have issues talaga.

hooplah

nisulti ko magwatch out si gwyneth p. cuz maghula hoop sad kow. pero dili sa orchard. mas tigas ako background gheng. mga monoblocks na stools and rice cooker. :)

.................

ang pagumangkon ni gelo na kapogi nalang. :)
so nafeel na nako ang presence na pogi or gwapa sad amo anak. hehehe.





ang pagumangkon ni gelo na kapogi nalang. :)
so nafeel na nako ang presence na pogi or gwapa sad amo anak. hehehe.

...

may days na adorable si miko like today. may days lang jud na lami sha ilabay sa pakistan.

♥

happy 120th days miko gelo

Our world is no more permanent than a wave rising on the ocean. Whatever our struggles and triumphs, however we may suffer them, all too soon they bleed into a wash, just like watery ink on paper.

Memoirs of a Geisha | Arthur Golden

workweek, weekend randoms

kubo sa lawn

It is difficult to write about love: I mean to live in the presence of it. You can run towards it and perhaps bump into it and you can watch it running away; but when it is there it is like two people coming face to face on a tightrope; they have to keep moving or they will fall; they would like to pass into, through, one another; at moments this is possible! But then it is not. How much more easy it is, more natural, to be like a leaf and live and fall.
Hopeful Monsters - Nicholas Mosely

...

I am but a small voice
I am but a small dream..

it's funny when i hear miko's voice trail off as he sings this song. he sings it loudly and off-key.

hehe, kalbo brats are the cutest. (wala ko labot masking di sha kibaw muenglish na conyotiks pero, nigraduate man sad sha'g la salle and naka dean's list man sad sha masking once lang:)

♥

eye want

from lover

...

fine, i have a facebook. but, i do not know how to use it.

will start tweaking on my idle time. :)

add me.. if you can find me.. i don't even know how to find me.

--

FN::

okay, i deactivated it. hehe.

6:21am

monday morning shift can be a pain when you go to work with a bad tummy because at 11:30pm on sunday, you wake up and despite the rain, you needed to go to the nearest damak sizzlers' place and grab something to eat, then your tummy makes 100 revolutions a minute.. plus you'd hear irits ilonggo girls whining/whimpering/screeching on your first day to work..

blank stares. my excel worksheet doesn't make sense to me.

my tools do not make sense either.

haaaaay gelo. ilovethe long weekend. and i am grateful that we're on a regular day sched just like how 20 somethingssss should be.

i wish we can go home now.

--

saturday morning some guy IMd, told me i am mean and he was surprised cuz i stopped saying hello not only to him but, there are some people i don't say hi anymore to. and his operative word was actually SURPRISED.  i told him not to take it personally, he wouldn't get any richer if i still talked to them. i would not get tummy aches and there'd be no love lost if we stopped being friends.

sana they would've thought about it before they actually chose to be with other people instead of sticking with me. diba? i don't keep grudge, not my thing. pero, if i stopped being a friend, sana walang magrereact. OA ang mag-react.

:)

--

i mentioned long weekend. friday night, i was off from my work week. gelo and i found this black monoblock rack that could hold all of my curiosities that has been scattered on my bedroom floor for months now.. i realised it'll only take a hundred thirty nine pesos to tidy my room. hehehe.

saturday morning we were at pizza O again with people from work. if we weren't working in this industry, i'd think my guy has an alcohol problem. toinks.

our sunday was great, altho we had been skipping going thru our respective sunday worship..(this i am praying that we can come up with a mini resolution:) gelo received a tiny blessing this weekend. he is an uncle now.. :0 his closest first cousin just had a baby boy, and we saw the lil one. he's pink and tiny and very beautiful and just reaffirmed my fear of giving birth or ever being pregnant. haha..

lunch was at bob's riverside- chicken fetch and liempo..so-so food and mahal.. and you'll get to see families. gawd. i've been envious of a family.

i hope you all had a great weekend. and will have a fun work week ahead!

 

irits county.

whilst i find some ilonggo boys and gals french;

there are some that i cannot carry sa pagka-conyotics and irits..

some guys are sooo hanginun galores..na feeling nimu ang tanang plantacion sa victorias sa tubo kay murag ilaha

&

some gals kay irits rjud ug tingug apilan pag nah-nah-nah-ahay-ahay na mga tig-ik on an early monday morning..

i wanna scream; someone actually died and made me queen. please stop squeaking!

breathe.delight

joe got czar and i a bottle of this. gawd. ilove being filipino and the concept of pasalubong.

this one's from bath and body works..

This ultra-nourishing lotion contains a potent Moisture Complex that delivers long-lasting, deep hydration to your skin. Vitamin E, white tea and concentrated moisturizers help continuously buffer skin from the effects of dryness and daily stress for silky smooth, radiantly healthy skin, 24/7.

how it should be

"The thing is to stalk your calling in a certain skilled and supple way, to locate the most tender and live spot and plug into that pulse. This is yielding, not fighting. A weasel doesn't 'attack' anything; a weasel lives as he's meant to, yielding at every moment to the perfect freedom of single necessity."

- Annie Dillard, "Living Like Weasels"

--

keyword yield men..

& people will be shinier
--
doing the list again..

rest days-check
sched change- check
5 am work week-check
plans for next month, cebu-iloilo-check
plans for december and the next quarter- vague, but, check
tummy cramps plus paracetamol-check
laundry- check
being broke-check
housekeeping-check
crazy freakazoidal hormones-check
personal emails sent-check

*FN

alive pa ako neopet. gipalitan nako shag 11k na winter scarf. blech!

grace like rain falls

before i go to work, i would usually whisper a short short prayer for Him to prepare the place for me and that i may have enough strength to do my routine..

the difference between our schedules the past 2 weeks or so had been a bone to pick on, i would report to work 3 hours before my shift and he'd be leaving the office after staying here 12 hours. it's been cumbersome, i must say. grudgingly, we go about our weary ways to work daily.

it may seem too trivial for some, but, today, He had been sooo gracious with blessings..

i requested for a schedule change, for me to be in the real morning shift.

& for some reason, i got the shift changed.

suffice to say, i am really happy. at times, answered prayer doesn't necessarily mean material blessings, i know i some times care too much for things, nevertheless, nothing can surpass blessings that come in simple abundance, like a full night's sleep,  a good conversation with your significant other, your sister telling you that she misses you and she loves you, all these that we seemingly overlook..

so, what answered prayer have you received lately?

Matthew 10:29 (New International Version)
   
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father.

 

something to lose

"It frightened me to feel that way, as if now that I found her I'd have something to lose."

solar storms - linda hogan

 

i think tama si ariel- wut's sooo hasslefeck about your shifts? it's just a difference of 4 hours?

hay.

4 long hours. daily.

--

i would not wonder why i've had an emotional rollercoaster ride the past few days.. i have not noticed how stress and pms took their toll on me.. but, plainly, i could not take how some people would bitch about things, when i've stopped bitching about how ridiculous life here is..  cuz, it isn't so.. hehe..

okits, hindi lang naman kayo ang anak ni God. please lang.

it's that time of the month. but, i love my moisturizer. haha.

--

more good news today.. some blessings come in the softer paler shade of blue.. okay, will wait..

--

i haven't been talking about food, cuz lately, i thought that wut we had for the past week were all kinds of pizza, then nothin' more..

yes, literally, today we had all kinds of pizza from pizza O, they even served this pizza with sunny side eggs on top- that i did not try.

i had like 3 glasses of mango juice, ate two kinds of ice cream, and i did not spend a cent.. all these were from miko's team fund. haha.

yes, there are times when i miss taking calls. and i miss my old team mates. tears.

still no internet. no new photos.

suddenly bent with ease

the closest thing you have left to a soul
is the smoke from your cigarette drifting out the window
of a hotel room, number nine, and what little
you can remember of the little love you made..

from Joe Bolton's Smoke and Gold; Cedar Key 1988

--

owghadwuthaveidonetomeself? ineededalife.true,thisisyourcity,takeit-it'syours;ineveraskedittobemine.blech.

wuta low-ser

DILI NAKO MAGWONDER WHY WALA GI INCLUDE SA BIBLE ANG GOSPEL OF JUDAS.

butakal ka lowlife. ayg worry kay gi-include tika sa ako daily prayers. mayatap na tah ka.

here's a lookin' at you kid

galenga talaga ng baby ko oi. haha. show them people na kibaw ka muenglish gheng aron mapalitan na nimo ko'g pekpek shorts and di nakasapoton sa mga dsat.

*most number of commendations daw. latest report. ang top 1 kay 6, sha kay 4 kabuok. uuuuyeah!

beloved

kinawat sa friendster.

pink.and the works.

kathra. stole yer post. hehe.

eyeloveit.

cohni.paliti ko mga ing-ani. ü

 

♥

Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

stardust

a sprinkling of stardust..

saw stardust with miko.

not in my most philosophical mode today.

i thought the movie was so-so.

hehe.

sue me.

nonetheless, maybe the book is wonderfully written. will read the book if i can can get a copy.

 

“He imagined he could see the very faces of the stars; pale, they were, and smiling gently, as if they had spent so much time above the world, watching the scrambling and the joy and the pain of the people below them, that they could not help being amused every time another little human believed itself the center of its world, as each of us does.”

-Stardust, Neil Gaiman

 

harry potter series

 

continuation..

cuz multiply allows a max of 5 attachments..

Attachment: hp&the chamber of secrets.pdf
Attachment: hp&the sorcerers stone.pdf
Attachment: hp&order of phoenix.pdf

harry potter series

the complete series from shobe..completo para beybo.. yeah..

plus the book of spells

Attachment: HP& Deathly hollows.pdf
Attachment: HP&book of spells.pdf
Attachment: HP&goblet of fire.pdf

..........

wagi things first..

shobe and i made up.. she sent me the complete series of harry potter online.. love gift.. haha.. & i called her (thank you very much, boyfy's phone and post paid credit), she told me she's in banjan..told her, shob, maypa dira nindut signal, klaro.. she replied with: wala lang ka kabalo.. nikatkat ko sa coconut tree..

again, masking wala ko uyab, basta wukits mi sako mga manghud am good..

--

my godchild niccolo, happy birthday love. sorry ninang could not make it to your party.. fifay, ako ai everr present friend parin yaknow. and thank you cuz you're not like joey who makes tampo tampo fits about friendship on email. hahaha.

--

sms nila

myk ty.

&

jace. masking wa klaro ako reply. sorry.

--

and i realized, we've accessed to the adjacent floor.. hindi na hasslefeck ang life.. ug di na kaau loser ang sunday shift.. ü

haha.. and i thought ako na pinakamateryosong tao sa world.. and ang makapahappy nako kay ang payday rah. ü on the other hand..

i've the perfect dress for the supposed one year aniv party of inkjet.. it's purple royale.. from bayo.. (sakto judko, muhuwat kog sale kay naay tagp500 na dress:) it will go well with the plum wedge i got from c.f. with jakthra last tym..

 

sunday:

saw resident evil 3 with mikogelo- and the last time i saw project alice was 3 years back. [dear soy, magkita unya unta tah.]  mas wukits ang film cuz di nako magthink and makuyawkuyawan cuz joker kaau ang afaks.

our second day on pizza spree. wala ko nireklamo cuz dghan ko mapasalamatan for the past 2-3 days. promise.

(on our way out, kita mi'g 3 kids sorting plastic bottles and other curiousities outside our gate, ana si miko, kalooy sa ila. ana ko, mao gne, wala jud rason mga rich kids mag-abuso cuz wala sila gipatarbaho na ing-ana tas magdrugs drugs sila, tas dghan pa reklamo sa world. ana sha, ngnu naka-ing-ana diay ka.. magsort ug basurang plastic? nitubag ko'g oo oi, tong bata pa mi kay mag-gather mi ug mga bote't dyaryo tas sa backyard, masking init kay esort namu na, tas ibalegya balegya sa manong na naay kareton.. see?)

saturday afternoon:

laundry

groceries  

blech.

saturday night:

dinner at ksl with his team mates

maskarra galores. oa ang ppl sa sorrento but, makahappy magpeoplewatch. dghan mga beautiful people. feel nako ako gyapon ang queen. haha.

--

and ang dili kaau wagi..

i feel like i woke up from a bad dream. at times, maybe, naa rajud shitty part when people are in a relationship. but, that shitty part is not conclusive of who you are as a person.

i know, things aren't exactly put together since friday night.. tas i've been cranky since saturday early evening. i know i'm really good at fits. but, breaking down like a loony was the worst i've seen of me.. haha.. pero bottomline, i realised, i've made good friends here; who saw thru it that i got home safe and okay.. hasslefeck talaga men..

&

miko will have to live with learning how to say sorry.

again, tao lang po.

 

"It is a futile and ridiculous struggle-but then...it is human nature, I suppose, to be futile and ridiculous."

-Scaramouche by Rafael Sabatini

 

kenji.

thru the kindness of caryl. haha.
kenji turned one.these photos are a month old na.
dich oi, ngnu namayat mani imong anak? ug ang ilong. ayaw tawn ipabreathe maau. hehehe..
pero wowness. big boy na lovelove ko noh?

btw

muchange plans ako weekend.. feel nako diko mapalitan ug ergats shorts tungod nagspider webs spider webs mi today(gisapot sapot).. tas wala nasad ko pag-asa mapalitan ug white logo shirt na may rhinestones.. grr.. pero ang di nako macarry kay ang thought na hubag ako half na lower aping..

(kung sa ako HMO pa na inclusions sa mga dental chuvaness- dental coverage includes.. inflammation of the gums..)

oh crap. wa na baya ko nagsmoke smoke kay poser ra kaau ko if musmoke smoke ko.. tas mag cge nalang baya ko peppermint tea na lasaw.. ana sila tea can do that! kanang mag pa okay sa imo health.. dental/physical health.. or bseg niatik atik rani sila..

do not mind me.. gayawyaw rko cuz ako journal sa balay kay nabasa sa ulan.. if you remembered missy yatap naxa tungod galeak ako roofs. so diri nalang ko muvent out..

sooo tomorrow.. feel na feel jud nako na maglakaw lakaw look for a dentist who'll drill my teeth and suck up all that's inside my swollen/inflammed gums on my right jaw..(i'm sorry i'm repulsive..)

--

di diay ko gnahan manganak cuz the doctor will cut you daw..

tas the aneastheologist,spell check will poke a huge needle at your lower back and if they're not careful enuf you might get poked at the wrong spot tas you can't walk na daw..

so how's that? diba rational fear na?

--

happy charter day bacolod. ü

okay kick butts..

 

"I've been drunk for about a week now and I thought it might sober me up to sit in a library."

-The Great Gatsby, F. Scott Fitzgerald.

singapura

.. ana ko kay johnny na murag nauso na pagrelocate sa mga taw sa s'pore tungod sa call centers..

sulti sha okay ra daw relocate.. gi-google namu price sa round trip tkt via cebu, 9k lang.. well, that is if i booked now and fly december..

ana ko macarry ra bitaw..(ang plane tickets ra, imean) hahaha..that is if, i am an orphan ug wa ginaisip na lahing tao.. but, altho the city seemed to be somehow refreshing to work in, he said that too many a singaporean would not retire in their own country becuz it's mahal to grow old there..

so for young people, would the odds be against or for you when you move to such a cosmo city?

me muses. (maka-jelly kelly cuz cuteness bitaw magpapicture sa front sa merlion. hahaha.-okay, muchange pod ako mind tomorrow about being an ofw..)

the worker elf. ♥

me edits.. haha, karun ko pa narealize.. musuwat ko'g but although..how redundant of me! ü
 

....

 

"...there are people we treat wrong, and later, we're prepared to treat other people right. Perhaps this sounds mercenary, but I feel grateful for those trial relationships, and I would like to think it all evens out- surely, unknowingly, I have served as practice for other people."
Prep by Curtis Sittenfield.

pede pod the other way around.. ü and unta maintindihan sa lahi na ang bohemian kay taga bohemia. ü

ulan.

fireworks sa ulan.

padung work ni ulan. salamat sa trusty baratuhun hoodie.

naga-ulan.

ugma mu-ulan nasad. kwarta. haha, sweldo.

niulan ug holidays. sagunson.

my devotional says that when it rains, perhaps you might want to look at it this way..

that it's raining daffodils & roses too..

pero kay sa pilipinas man gaulan.. ayg expect of daffodils. pede santan. and sampaguita. or ylang ylang.

tears, enemies mi ni mikogelo today. sometimes, mafeel nako dili na mi ma okay, sometimes feel lang gyud nako na ani rjud pagconstruct sa amo. like hotel sheraton in cebu, built on the reclamation areas..meaning soft ground..

again, ana si reese witherspoon, half the city goes thru this, it's okay, i'm okay..haha..

di bitaw. irits lang kay gaulan tas mag-away away mo. diba dapat pagulan mag hug hug mga tao kay tugnaw?

i'd really want this. naa unta local gaya gaya version ani oi.

and tomorrow, tomorrow, the sun will come out tomorrow. :)

 

summer sunshine..

insert raen below. ü

some time ago, i thought if i marry rich i should marry in amanpulo- in palawan.. maybe it's not about marrying, maybe it's about experiencing this uber-pricey haven..

the aman resorts here..

 

flats ♥

hayers. tumbling. gwapa sila..
irits ang tech na gipaminaw nako run..kung di kibaw muenglish ayg call center please..



watch out nalang ugma. magpreho ko kay gwyneth.. haha..
images from house and garden//saks-my new fave// and tory burch..

flower power

 

in the interest of keeping awake and shaking myself like a wet dog to get rid of boredom, i found this. featured in oh joy! true. the world is an interesting place. we can eat flowers. ü

more here..

posh

haha.

wagi si mama.
images from access hollywood and omgyahoo!

on a day like today

karong adlawa before shift nako. 10/17/2007
wearing nazel's jacket. oh, i've been thinking.. i'm not gonna return it. pa as if nalang ko na ako nani. hahaha.
--
miko taking calls. orange suits him well, murag ponkan sha. hahaha.
--
thanks to francis for fixing the wireless connection for me. to butterfly for connecting the power adapter and gettin' hershey's choclit drink plus empanada for me-free, plus czar for carrying my coffee cuz am wearing a slippery footwear, plus bickay cuz she reminds me how precious kenji is & how hard is it for a mum to lose a child..
--
suffice to say, i'm happy today.
God bless the rest of the week..

more ballet slippers

 
crocheted ballet slippers from Juicy Couture//
very delicate, very girly..
images from saks.

glam

http://glam.com/
road to gorgeous.

A NOVEL IDEA.

http://community.livejournal.com/anovel_idea/
reviews. excerpts from books.

Ranier Maria Rilke: Letters To A Young Poet

http://www.sfgoth.com/~immanis/rilke/letter1.html
idle time. to read. ♥

list

(feel better on a crappy day)
1. wearing the boyfriend's jacket and not looking like letting myself go
2. chugging lots and lots of water
3. borrowing nazel's pink fitted blazer that i think she should give me..
4. browsing thru victoria's secret site; they've the loveliest new packaging now..plus they'd put what is in the scent so you'd know what you smelled like. i.e. for sweet tempation there's grapefruit and lilly of the valley, so you go around with a thought bubble saying.. hey i smell citrusy and flowery. yeah. (dammit, i can be a dork)
5. plans for the weekend. (except seeing the dentist) it's masskarra fest. am not sure if i should be giddy about it. but, it's payday.
6. cebu. next month with miko.
7. a white tee with rhinestones with guess logo-waiting for miko gelo to buy for me. waaah.

everything was beautiful, and nothing hurt.
SLAUGHTERHOUSE FIVE
kurt vonnegut

MORE, NOW, AGAIN

"for the first time in my life i understand the value of good manners: i understand that you must be polite to all people at all times because you never know what difficulties they may be struggling with at that precise moment, you never know how the slightest wrong thing that you say could be the last little iota it takes to send a person who is just barely holding it together into a complete breakdown. the one little mistake you make, bumping into someone as you walk busily across a crowded sidewalk, shoving a woman aside as you push your way into a crowded subway car, spilling red wine on someone else's white shirt because you weren't paying attention as you made your rounds through a cocktail party- you never know if that misguided gesture might not be the reason some poor lost soul ends up in the loony bin. anyone can be that delicate"

MORE, NOW, AGAIN
elizabeth wurtzel

ilove

http://lizzaeh.livejournal.com/20226.html#cutid1

copied. these are gorgeous. promise.

i♥icons

http://babaloney-w00.livejournal.com/
i stole these babies
--
others are from other communities/ credits on the photo caption.

♥

Nothing is more practical than finding God, that is, than falling in Love in a quite absolute, final way.

What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything.

It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning,
what you do with your evenings,
how you spend your weekends,
what you read,
who you know,
what breaks your heart,
and what amazes you with joy and gratitude.

Fall in love,
stay in love,
and it will decide everything.

- Fr. Pedro Arrupe, SJ