couldn't construct real sentences...[yesterday...]
* girly girl conversation with czarina at home...
*sizzling chicken lunch with dust.
*five hour sleep before shift
*not making my quota
*the crankiest mood
*wanting to see jaez/ steffi/ joey badlee and narda too and kathra
*looking forward to weekend
*vince smsd that we go out for lunch/ i've the most incredible excuse not to go out- wala ko load.
*gawd.imissmysisters.
*calibration- a bone to pick on weekly.
It's not important to have to CERTAIN number of friends, it's more important to have a number of friends you can be CERTAIN of.
Go and leave me if you wish to,
Never let me cross your mind.
And if you think that i've proved unworthy,
Go and leave me, I don't mind.
-Grace, from the book The Mermaids Singing
happiness is self induced... Ü
| Mood: |  cranky |
| Music: | book of love |
got an “if naa ka cebu run, kita tana nag kuyog karon” sms… am like ha? Sureness mukuyog ko nimu? Yati.
On my way to work, I remembered saying that I liked
Anyhoo, this brings me to think about this character who was nice enuf to get me a gift and coffee last Christmas, I was nice for like a moment, then whenever we meet at work, I am mean and would act like i don’t see him. Again. Naguilty nasad ko. L
Today: I was uber productive, or I think I am, I changed my one month old linen na feeling ko nagka fungal spores na. Hihihi. Then cleaned my house. i already succumb to the fact that bacolod would be my home base in the next couple of years, for one reason, I do not think I’d have the heart or energy to move my stuff and my tush elsewhere. While cleaning my washroom, I remembered how steffi and joey would fondly call me magi, and how gals night out can be glam even ayala can be glam, and how I thought that I could not live without em. I’d break their hearts if I tell them am not gonna be able to move back to cebu soonest. Then there’s jaez, who smsd that he just got home and misses me. Am like, kawawa naman baby ko. L
I hate being torn.
Oh today, czar came by wit siopao asado from chowking. Marvin went to see her as well. Then I decided to buy her closet. Congratulate me, I’ve two closets na. Yehey. J
And we both wore red tonight. :)
Sunday afternoon was fun, went out with my fave ppl- czar and bryan- I was almost intruding their siblings only afternoon, but, I still went, I’ve the license to call them mine na man. ® we had lunch at robi’s food court and caught “a night in the museum”…then the rest of the afternoon we spent at her old pad in amapola. It was pixelation all weekend.
Saya.
Best quote today: nagpatupi gud xa raen, gwapo naa ua xa. Hahaha. Czar, now ask me why ilike yer brother. J
Happy to be. God Bless you guys.
Raen Gedorio
You can become blind by seeing each day as a similar one.
Each day is a different one,
each day brings a miracle of its own.
It's just a matter of paying attention to this miracle.
Shobe
Shobe’s like one of the most amusing people in my life/ she finished narnia when it wasn’t soo mainstream yet, and that’s wut she answered when asked, what’s your fave book during the sykes v-vocals. Today she smsd, hey ach, amishu. Am sooo heartbroken. I felt guilty for not being able to be there for any of my sisters in a day to day basis. :(
I just recalled one thing she did lately: after breaking up with Cris, 16 guys were sending her emails thru outlook, at the end of the shift, she created this distro list which says: o, ila-ila sa mo. And that stunned most of the wa’y ulaw guys from Accenture.
And not so long ago, when she still had a boyf, some guys were emailing her during the shift, she also made a distro and at day’s end she sent it to them w/c read: bye boy toys, uli sa ko.
Gawd.
<3
raeny: (wallowing in SPF20+++, self pity factor 20++ year old) mayo pa cebu kay pinangga ko sa ako teammates. :(
czaweena: pinangga man tika, ug ako ra man usa imo teammate man gud. :)
*****
czaweena: makalagut ning stretch marks bah.
raeny: sagdi lang gud, even paris hilton have cellulites.
czaweena: mayo man si paris kay shiney man xa.
i love love that quote.
****after being stricken with food poison [almost] last night, and being miserable and screaming :patya nalang ko with czar all week...today turned out to be one of the most hilarious, spontaneous, gush gush girly girl afternoon slash saturday night.
czar came by amapola to pack her stuff and move ummm semi-permanently with her big brother bryan(special mention-hehehe), we grabbed dinner from jollibee hacienda libertad, then we spent the rest of the afternoon talking, about plans, and relationship fixes, and people, people we regret letting go, or shall i say she regrets letting go, and i still gabbed about my favorite person, who by the way now isn't my major fave person. ang labo. and then we decided on an impromptu gals night. with tote bags, towels, and bikinis, on tees and cut-offs, we headed to TP to swim. then we met the most hilarious guys on the planet. **** 3 korean guys who actually cut our supposed weekend work out. one guy named aaron asked: who is the most handsome? hahaha. and then they asked if we had boyfriends...am like, czar has a boyfriend. i will have a boyfriend soon: her brother and pointed to the tarpouline hanging on the hallway, and said, the second shadow would be her brother. gawd. watta jawk.
pyel-star
saranghe-iloveyou
yaputa-beautiful
korean words ilearned tonight****
and so, ask us why we are staying in TP? it's the best place to head to when you're broke as a joke.
happy weekend everyone. God Bless. <3
just when i thought that the vincent-raen episodes should end, he called, and was nice enuf to take me to Aboy's for dinner. am not the hugest fan of seafood, but, i liked oysters alot that he got me a huge serving. dinner was a feast. but, i swear, am gonna be off talaba for the next three months. my tummy is in a huge blitzkrieg after dinner.
tuti smsd that he had noone to go out and have dinner with, so we decided to head to mcdo lacson. it's a small tiny tiny world after all. i saw former fave person there. vince and tuti were punishing me the whole time, they were teasing me that i might want to go after him. am like, mu-walk out jud ko unya.
gawd, i feel like puking. i'll go foodless the next two days.
meedits:
i actually ended up puking wut i had for dinner[grilled talaba/ tuna belly/ grilled squid/ spareribs] kanugon. gi-atay.
my breath smells like bad oysters. ewww.
i am depressed, one...vincent smsd, gunyt rainy...i didn't reply. nakakamiss din sha but i should not make a crutch out of people cuz i can walk. really. two...the cab driver i got when i went to work has speech impediment, at first i thought he wuz drunk, then i realised his slur is a speech defect. naawa ako. depressing, depressing. :(
however, talking about work, (that i love, by the way- masking the monitors can get to become a pain) am not gonna whine anymore, i'd say bring it on- even if i'd get confused, i'd learn...even if mali-mali ako mabuhat na invites and reports, i'd learn. so i'll do just fine... me and czar will be fine.
*** pinakadakilang quote of the day: she's a friend of ***** whom i don't like as well, murag yaya....
horrible english...
hahaha. kiss. kafunny nimu. bang bang bang.
****
oh this afternoon. czarina, jerjer, and sly came by amapola, czar is supposed to get the rest of her stuff, but, the keys wouldn't open her pad, soo...the guys ended up boozing at my place. depressant, depressant. nalingaw ko storya nila. they were teasing me about the former fave person. looking for IT at the most incredible places like my bathroom and my uber ka tiny na closet. buing. wut was funny was the guys got the kick out of eating wafer sticks na ridiculous ang taste cuz it's milk. sighs. when they left at around 5pm, i couldn't sleep, so i decided to clean the shoebox apartment.
***jer asked me if i had a bible, i said wala. toinks. i know i am breaking my God's heart big time lately. he mentioned masking bugoy sha he tries not to break God's heart. true true.
***oh, one idiotic reason to like ponkana- the drink- cuz an old girlf likes it daw. then i replied, with a more idiotic hehehe. gawd, i can be a dork at times. i coudln't stifle an OA girly giggle. ewwww....
***czar is beating herself on a guilt trip. hay, 2 year old sister pet ko, don't be too hard on yourself. mwa.
life is beautiful. :)
God bless everyone.
hay when the going gets rough, the tough goes shopping. but, am poor, am a pauper, am overwhelmed with the new things i've to learn, am technically unable. anime. kainis ka. promise. huhuhu.
czar mentioned she regrets moving to bacolod. i said amen. but, if i didn't; i'd still be taking calls. and noone would IM me for a 4am lunch boohoo. wahahaha. kilig.
and so, heads up parin.
Whenever I feel terribly down in the doleful dumps I’d hum do you know the way to TALAMBAN and would feel better. Today’s not soo terrible I’m happy today, but I was such a loser when I got home after shift cuz I ended up sleeping the whole time, and did not mind any sms that I received, woke up 1045pm and I felt like my eyes would squint towards the opposite end, they seemed heavier, and I feel more Chinese than Vincent is. Haha. Buang.
Our first QA department GA slash team building was coffee/fruit chillers at Gloria Jeans. Ka pathetic but, that’s like the most expensive coffee/ berry juice we all have purchased from
Jeremy drove me to gaisano; we had lunch at bob’s, sate-sate nalang talaga as useless. We talked about people, that included teej, haha; he seemed like my subject for discussion the whole time yesterday. I am glad Jeremy would talk to him about Christianity and faith and his Jesus. And Teej would listen. Am glad he had Jeremy to look up to, nashock ko when he said, oo, kay idol man nako si Jeremy, and he was babbling about his vista training and the stuff he shopped for malyn and trea, nakaka happy to see him happy, and mas amazing ginamus was when jer said that teej mentioned that there is something different about Jeremy. And am grateful that he actually found a friend in jer jer. And I got the cue to quit making another person’s business my business, I’ve the cue to not care anymore, cuz jer mentioned that he gets YES-YES, but, wala naga listen, mayo pa Teej, he’d listen. Murag this person won’t listen to a good good friend, ako pa kaya na imaginary friend ra and he’d say stuff differently to other people but, when ikaw kaharap he’d say otherwise, tas would blame the booze or him being drunk for saying stuff or for hurting people. Buing. So, next…
Czar is ill because my five year old pet is teething. Hehe. Told jer czar’s like a little sister to me. When I miss shobe and dich, she’s like their replacement. But, we’d never have the same sched na talaga. Grr.
Okay, today’s not gonna be soo bad. I’ll work, I’ll learn.
"I still believe, in spite of everything, that people are truly good at heart."
The Diary of a Young Girl
Anne Frank
| Mood: |  busy |
| Music: | brick |
vincent is finally talking to me. ♥ not talk talk but,
at least he wouldn't give my gnyt sms the cold shoulders.
kutaw gyapon ang vista training. thank you microsoft god,
the training will be up today. *sheer glee* <3
cee got me a bar of butterfinger first thing in the morning,
grover na sugar overload.
on some days i wanted to be bitter and spiteful like that,
and then would want to slap some ppl's fugly face
and yell...puh-lease buy veet... but, then again...
there are nicer happier things to work on...
such as looking for a new apartment. ha!
and pay day weekends. :)
and my nephew...the darlingest imp on earth...
oh i worry :(
sly mentioned he wants to go home...
ahay. pano nalang kme ni czar magpayaman? :)
quote of the day:
ms vista's activation can be a nag. - L2 Johnny Moots
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and then i realised noone will
buy me sushi, not anymore...
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dang, amish vintoy. :(
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am seeing the lil imp saturday. yehey.
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sinulog mushagit ug kusog! how dya spell
shagit anyway?
they have their own sinulog here...
♥
"laag nya ta sat nyt sinulog ha mags.
mag-pig out and pa wasted daw ta og tequila
daan at miwa's place para good nata
when we hit the club-suggests miwa..."
galenga ni fifay oi. Ü
excited!!!
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this has been eating me....
oddest sms, new year's eve...
<3 happy new year!
raeny: happy new year pod nimu.
<3 naka duty raen?
raeny: wa, nako cebu...
balik TP: dili naxa managad, dili pod mi
friends- ambot wut had they been feeding him,
tas mas worst, muhang out sya wit
my non-fave indiv. wtf?!!! murag, sa ako
pag-ila niya dili man xa ing-ana klase na tawo.
gubang balot pod diay xa....
wukits.
♥
anyone who says sunshine brings happiness...
has never danced in the rain.
oh lovely!
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chin's post made my morning. ;)
i did not have any understanding of wut has been going on the whole week thru, i've been granted with aces during the end of day assessment because i actually know how to look for answers, but, for people to ask me to explain the answers and my vista know -how.please, give me a break, am the un-techiest gal walking earth.
slept 12 hours. wow. i wanted to wake up 3am and drag my tush to go for a few laps, but, laziness would get the better part of me. haha.
ilovelove javin. he's like a pep up pill, better than a cup of espresso, he thinks siote is un-cute. hahaha. :)
i miss cee :( waaaaah.
help me pull up the preppy mabait look. i wanted to be a school girl once more. post suggestions. hahaha. (tagging lovecool :)
one day to go, vista is a pain in the tush.
nganu mga taga manille na gals kun mu-english kanang in a tinis lil voice na-hait. ambuts. ngyaw. hehehe.
anyhoo sagu, yesterday was fun, cee et moi, had lasagna et coffee- robi's tas we got ourselves purses from CLN. the whole afternoon was masaya. pero nganu dugay pa payday friday? tas we were off to fetish. sayang wala si shoti. hahaha. pero true enuf, they had new stocks, from the gorgeous pumps that would scream sooo korean. :) and dresses and tops. hurry na to fetish guys. :) haha. 2nd floor sorento. (free advertising for friends)
coming home to cebu this weekend would be bittersweet, this would be the last time i'd come home to the tiny apartment i called home the past 2 years.
and should dich move to davao, how will her life change when she reclaims the city? did it really change when she got married and had her baby? i realized how beautiful and how strong a person my sister is despite of her fragile and soft appearance.
it's that time of the month! i hate it that my tummy hurts, but, just a bit. buti nalang the zits are not all over the place. and i got over PMSing.
cee got me kitkat first thing in the morning. :)
kagwapo gyapon sko fave person. bahala mo kiligon gyapon ko nya. and am not reading too much. i can read. :)
enuf ginamus.
did you guys see celine lopez for plain and prints? ang ganda.
czar got me slippers. house slippers, the semi-fluffy one, the kind you take home from hotels. white. perfect. (shallow, shaloow, shallow)
yesterday was much more perfect for coffee, czar et moi had pizza and coffee at bob's altho, pobresa,as how kiss would put it, i thought i should go out and have sunshine because i might endup wilting when the summer sun hits me. we finished the last morsel then decided to go to robi, and looked for denim mini. czar found one from guess. such a sweet girl, kinda misunderstood or mistook for being suplada. (or mis-influenced by a person named raen-by some who should just go back to kindergarten and learn that it's best to be nice to ppl...or leave them with their business.) <3
i miss vince. :( kasalanan ko toh. panindigan ko. :(
vista=cumbersome. but, it's like a nice duplicate of the the mac. jawk fafang bill gates. hehehe/
talked to dich yesterday. imiss my sister. i wonder how i will do if she's like back in mah mindanao. two years of being an adult was with her. slowly, am realizing that as we age, geographically we will be separated,it's a bitch to be separated from them two.
ifeel guilty for not asking how acil and how vanessa is, whose mom and dad are in the hospital, ill. atay ning ill oi.
love, peace, craziness. mwah!
i can't think of a post's title. it's gonna be ginamus all month.
saturday, pobresa, czar called and told me she's buying me drink, so i dragged my tush to the washroom and changed, 11pm we were at kiosko, east with bryan and the L2(johnny,jer,kalvin plus wife)...then cee caught up with us.
gals intoxicated with alchohol can look bad. hehehe. we had 2 helpings of screwdriver/ booze-shared wit czar, cuz plastic ko, i won't take alcohol na nga. (ilad).
vincent and friends were there// suko sya nko, wa ko niya tagda. i smsd, told him am sori wako namansin, hala sa dihang mas wako gitagad sa text.// shoti said hi though. bahala na. feeling niya gibyaan nko sya, wa man naa raman ko. but, at least ryan smsd the next morning, told me we're good daw, i told him dili nako maka baligya fries when new york fries would open, he told me buy nalang ka eh. toinks. insik na inahak jud. hehehe.
then bryan, czar, jer, and i proceeded to tempo, saw dolsy.aol ;0 oh imiss the gal. then some drunken tush caught up with us, am not talking about it anymore, it's ugly. then we all took our business to MO2, czar wanted to dance. we ended up squeesing ourselves in the jammed aquarium, and found ourselves pulling each other away each time a bati'g nawung tries to dance with us. jawk.
czar crashed, we made breakfast tas marvN came by. i remembered sleeping the whole time and being unproductive unless ppl would sms, i'd answer....
he smsd how did he get home. kapuya nimu oi, gagara nalang jud ka kay pinangga tika. atay.
x0x0
oh, i told mark IT: ipakulong manghud mo, iconfiscate ia phone, paputol inyo dsl, tas paputol inyo home phone. haha. bugits najud ko.
czarina: naa daw sya gin-na? (anak)
raen: oo, dghan mana sya gin-na...kanang pactoria sa ginamus bah.
(corny...lack of better things to write)
shobe moved! her new pad is great.
verlaine called yesterday, she mentioned she is in cebu and tried to photoshop some of our pics, i told her, so ato friendship photoshopped nalang? kapathetic namu oi.
kerby's sms woke me up today, i skipped yoga to answer his texts// ana ka ka imp. kerbs. haha. ginamus.
i forgot to call acil. she's counting 2-3 days til her dad would let go. i can't imagine being in her shoes. :(
albeit want of sleep,and the scarey-looking, irits secretary of the antique shop on the ground floor, plus nosy nosy freaking neighbor, and a shatterbabe mode.... out to dinner with cee, czarina, and sly... bumped into shoti who joined us early in the evening @ pepe's. fact: pepe's sly's fave/ fact: he is SMOE on the ops floor raw(sexiest man on earth) fact: cee et moi are permanent pepe's fixtures and fact: am not going to frequent the place on weekdays because the wah-ming guys are always there. then off to bo's cuz there's nowhere to go, ry caught up wit shoti and they left, czar and sly made an early exit for class too.
sighs sighs sighs. kagamay sg piayaland. inatay. di nako maka pa kuppa/ east block at certain time of the day because, i might bump into one of his friends and they will ask, i quote (ryan): wut did you do to him? sige ako na bad guy, pati brown out sa bacolod, ako sala.... :( nicrayola btw ko while ginasend nku ang sms. so payts na.
wukits next...
vista training next week, longhorn tawun ang project name sa OS before sya na vista shobe!!!! vista=longhorn. teh.
i've spoken wit acil. hay. davao davao davao when yer love is gone who will save me from all am up against out in this world? hehehehe.
i've booked! oh Cris, who in his words already parted ways with my sister, booked the wrong departure city. dili fod danghag ang bata. :0 makauli ko sinulog, yehey.
wukits, the world is an amazing ginamus. ;0
"When it comes to relationships,
maybe we're all in glass houses
and shouldn't throw stones.
Because you can never really know...
Some people are settling down,
some people are settling,
and some people refuse to settle
for anything less
than Butterflies."
--Carrie
Sex and the City
i just realized that i will never be capable of being in a boy-gal relationship// i came up wit a positive verbiage for tomorrow night. i don't want this to eat me in the next few weeks (because alot of things has been eating me the previous weeks...i.e.: sleep or the lack thereof/ homesickness and the feeling of listlessness and unproductivity)/ i cannot hold myself guilty of any hurt that i might cause someone/ i am not wishing for mr. big right now, i realized, iam more productive and better left alone.
yay! i've done 6 calls today, 12 evals all in all, half day palang yan. ang saya. inspired to work. happy to be here. :)
makahappy makita iya bin, murag aping na murag siopao. unsa bah. hahaha.
the past couple of days...too kepoi grover kepoi to transcribe..clicky clicky
czar et moi decided to check the gymn, hahaha. we do not know how to use the silver bloated balls(do not even know its name) and the abs cruncher, wutever that is....
i just learned that there are way too many untapped potentials on the ops floor, you can see eh, however noone would tell them that THEY CAN BE AND THEY ARE. ***
love peace harmony to y'all.
i've been waking up in the middle of the afternoon and had been staring blankly for a quick second and would feel like kicking myself for ever moving here. and then i'd look at the pile of stuff that i likewise moved/shipped to and accumulated in piayaland that i would end up sighing in frustration, having to move is cumbersome, that is why am not even dreaming of getting farther to work-work.
vince took me to work early. i wanted to break in OA chinchansoo tears when he smsd that i should be up, i hate the rain. milk.
i still am ill. pakshet. i vow i'd take vitamin C. stop the rain na Lord, i plead.
joe mentioned that he wanted to swim an hour's lap before he would go to work, the pool belonged to TP he said, so employees can factually(he!) use it. shiney. :)
all right, let's BLAME IT ON THE WEATHERMAN
It's just one more day
No one said there would be rain again
Won't blame it on myself, yeah
I'll blame it on the weatherman
Get away for a while
Here I am, out on my own again
Won't blame it on myself, yeah
I'll blame it on the weatherman
Standing on the shore calling our your name
I was here before
I could see your face
Only clouds will see tears are in my eyes
Empty like my heart
Why do ya say goodbye
The rain goes on, on and on again
The rain goes on, on and on again
The rain goes on, on and on again
Alone I can hear,
Hear our song playing for me again
Won't blame it on myself, oh no
Just blame it on the weatherman
The rain goes on, on and on again
The rain goes on, on and on again
The rain goes on, on and on again
Maybe it's too late
Maybe it's too late to try again
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Maybe I can't pray
Maybe I can't wait
Maybe I can't blame the weatherman
The rain goes on, on and on again
The rain goes on, on and on again
The rain goes on, on and on again
Oh, blame it on the weatherman
wahaha!!(alisha's attic)
today's jaez' birthday. failed to call him as i slept all day. i am ill and there's another impending ear infection coming. i hope not...i've no med insurance, it would be costly if i'd get hospitalized because of an ear infection. uuuuh i hate lymph nodes and flu and fever and the like.
today's supposed to be the fourth year anniversary of ellen. we lost her to aneurysm just months before college graduation. she was running for cum laude, she had law school waiting for her, SGV was waiting for here, she is/was literally beautiful. i dreamt of her today. i knew i promised her a bunch of pink tulips and that i'd visit her grave.
why can't vince surprise me? am not complaining, i should be grateful that he would consistently drive me to work. but, i am hoping he would do nice, happy, silly surprises. :)
today's a bore. i miss cee. i'm grateful czar is around tho.
last night's conversation:
czar: mapatay gud na si (name) sa iyang suwang(not verbatim cuz she acted it out)
bryan: hehehe, oo
raen: hala ka mean, dili oi, iya baya trabaho before kay tigbuslot ug donuts.... hikhikhik....
*laughters*
then nasugat nako ang tao- wa nako gitagad. dyo think he overheard us?
laterz.
i’d still get shivers when I listen to rent’s seasons of love. It aptly worded how a year would pass a person’s life and how it can be quantified through how you loved… ganda. Tsakto.
i reckon that every 20 something around the world whatever skin color they have on, they go thru the same struggle that any other 20 plus plus would go thru. That they have issues with their folks, have the oddest way of expressing affection to their siblings or to the person they’re seeing constantly-struggling to be understood as they try to understand the other as well, feeling better about things thru booze or a shot of vodka, turning to faith or their Jesus, relying on friends to validate that they are all right, dealing with work and work being a routine, or slowing things down thru cups of coffee, trying to get rid of laziness thru a shot of espresso, going thru a period of instant noodles and soda crackers,accepting issues with self image and self consciousness, trying to be fit and healthy even if after a good round of ahem, cardio, one forgets to stretch first and would endup wit leg pains, discovering what good things a city could offer, memorizing street names so they don’t get lost, learning where to get good sushi, where to get good cheap wine and wine glasses,knowing a local language and keeping it at heart, learning how to go about mass transit, meeting shiney people, sharing his and her story and making Saturday night shorter, going thru getting an apartment that would seem livable, and having the realizations of the things one could only wish for during college, when one’s protected with the walls of the university//
it slowly sunk in that I am actually living/ that I can be anywhere I wanna be if only I am courageous enuf to say GO// that I can stay because I chose to stay and I am am not left without an option// jacel once told me about nearing med school, that as your dreams would materialized you can never be or say you are totally prepared for it//
at times I wonder how I can be the person for others that the ateneo tried to inculcate in us// when am overly consumed by the trivial things that would not really matter much 3 years from now// I always wanted to choose kind words over rash and harsh opinions that I would normally utter// I would always want the world to be a lil better// and it’s awishing too lofty and in shades of grand and purple, however, at the end of the day, I know it’s a lil bit better knowing that there are at least a couple of individuals who gave me their hearts and opted to stay.
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i am uber sick. dili oa sick but sick sick. plus the fact that andrea told me i've dermatitis. am not sure wut that is tho. atay ning wala'g maxicare/medicare...
ilove jace's 50 Thoughts this New Year Ü
anyway, i told vintoy that he is thoughtless that Cee is muchos thoughtful than he is// at times self imposed ra siguro ako hurt hurt because am being OA. ana pa si steff na makaremember sya tong sickly frail person mode ko 2 years ago, daut ug half ra ako smile ug gi-adto ko nila Joey, ug nidala sila'g apples and tuna na ginapagpilitan nila ipakaon nko. imagina.// mayo pa galpals, thoughtful. anyhoo, he knows na, so okits nako.
i spent my saturday afternoon with Czarwarma, we had late lunch at greenwich, then we had groceries tas gala with marvin alert, who wore pink, outcast si Czar, jawk, then she stayed over sa balay chikka to the max, and i learned some nasty stuff na gisulti sa gal sa guy about mi na kefoi na e-entertain// oh i got me the blue pumps i've been eyeing on sa CLN- bonus, on sale. wahihihi.
spent the evening with cee, dinner was at kuppa, dili consistent ila food, this time murag lami na murag dili, saw Ryan So with some guy friends pod nila Vincent, tas we stalked Tuti and Vince, kadiri wla mi mabuhat na lahi, tas we had Vodka Ice at M02 na according to vincent dili kaau respectable place to be in or something to that effect, twoinks, tas we had ice cream at starmart east, tas we had peppermint tea and hot choco at Bo's// kalingaw. i miss Cee, we had quite a misunderstanding the evening before saturday, we were supposed to spend the weekend in iloilo, pero krung krung ko as a person, soo... // then we stalked the guys again sa tempo, Ryan saw me, i ran, tas the moment they were in front of tempo, gitry namo ni Cee fit under the steering wheel, sya ni fit ako kalisod ko. toinks.//
i did not go out sunday, nairit kong pagka insensitive ni vincent// lahi rajud guro kung mag great expectations ko, kay di man sad ko si Gwyneth Paltrow. // kefoi kaau cuz he would fault me na dili xa ka concentrate sa ia work tungod nag inarte nasad ko// tas iya friends kay labanan xa, lagot ko kay si Cee ra mulaban nako dre, wla ko murag band of brothers or girly girl friends na magyawyaw...ako kay gitextan ni Ryan ug nangutana nganu nako gi-away ia amigo. makahilak sa ka pungot.//
but, as useless, dali rko mu-keyword YIELD, so ithink okits na.//
today, pilitan ko buy medicine sa gaisano. tas ni buy ko gamit sa house such as a liter of mouthwash(sigurado wa najud singaw na mag pop out nako) and knife and scissors, haha. balay balay galores. // the rain is pakshet maka guba ug adlaw. Lord stop it na. Sa farmlands ra ipa rain. // naghubog nalang ko gatorade para hurot ako kalintura. i miss steffi// i miss my sisters// grrr///
kabossy sa gal from HR. dili baya xa principal. HR ra baya xa. may autonomy kaya ang mga bosses from ops to do their thing. feeling nya boss sya sa everyone. atut.
525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes - how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year in the life?
How about love? How about love? How about love? Measure in love.
Seasons of love.
525,600 minutes! 525,000 journeys to plan.
525,600 minutes - how can you measure the life of a woman or man?
In truths that she learned, or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned, or the way that she died.
It's time now to sing out,
tho the story never ends let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends.
Remember the love!
Remember the love! Remember the love!
Measure in love.
Seasons of love! Seasons of love!
thank you LIFE. ♥
So An Tiong quoted: bugoy sendi ko quotes beh. indi daw kabalo mangaluyag pero nainto-an na gyd xa.
wala ko na into into noh. am in my proper senses pa. ka'g one million ka quotes naka fedex na.
kathra! amishu faetch. pero dili ka si one and only you nako ha. hehehe. loveloveyou.
gawd, am full of sap lately. it's the ultimate time of the month again.
ripped from czaraina
It took one look
And forever laid out in front of me
One smile and I died
Only to be revived by you
There i was
Thought i had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much i know
'bout the way life plays out...
I take one step away
but i find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you...
Now i know
That i know not a thing at all
Except the fact that i am yours
And that you are mine
They told me that this wouldn't be easy
And no
I'm not one to complain...
I take one step away
but i find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only...
I take one step away
but i find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you...
pero gi-annoy nya ko ganiha morning so...
ana pa ang usa ka bading sa TP na pug-is na ayu ia shirt
kabantay ko wa na ang macdonald's shoes...
ug the best. nawug siopao jud xa. hehehe.
(ka mean ui. mean man sad sya. serves him/it right)
gipatent diay nako ang white baby tee. kabantay ko naa sundugera ai.
i woke up with the heaviest head. gawd, i wanna go home or be in cebu.
i had dinner wit vincent, he took me to manokan country, the place smelled weird, murag daan na balay, maka puke, but, chicken's good. i was in a sour mood, he did not try to jolly me out of it, he was just a bit quiet and spaced out too. buti nalang it rained. i ended up not taking out my grumpy mood on him and blamed it on the rain. tweoinks.
i wanted something glittery and special and girly and nice. unta naay ing-ana, nganu mga taw dinhi ka puro murag sa ranch? (uber ka senseless na statement of the night.)
am not overdoing sleep.
my singaw hurts. can i cry?
--------------> stone stone in heaven:
i don't want to be the last person of choice, if there's noone to sms and go out with/ if life is treating you cruel, that's because you hardly appreciate THE MUCH that you have. and iwish you realize how irritating it is that you still put up wit him(annoying mongolian slash errr frog) and the other him na isang malaking (pond) scum bag of the earth- and who would only choose to remember people when he needed to borrow money or when he needed a ride---malaking MANGGA boy.
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories
'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
<3
And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses
best sms i got this month: thanks for making me happy everyday. love you.
awwww.shucks. kasappy/mushy, pero makatats. Ü
today's eduardo's 24th, had dinner at his place with czar, we made a quiet exit after we ate (hehe- hit and run), caught up with Vincent/tuti fruity minus the swollen ankles at Calea East, then Ryan So joined us, i was surprised to see him out and it's already past 11pm, and he wuz in a cheery, jolly, chit-chatty insik mode. We seemed bitten by the laugh bug that we were laughing the whole time. iam glad czar had fun. i usually would have a hard time making my friends meet my other friends. <3
czar et moi are already practicing the nichie posts. toinks.
doing yoga and leg raises religiously. by religiously i meant 10 minutes daily. ha!
*i've the most annoying blister*
The humiliation I go through
when I think of my past
can only be described as grace.
We are created by being destroyed.
- Franz Wright, from “Letter, January 1998″
jethro- for the once in a blue moon i miss you sms and asking how iam, thank you. and for the well-kept memory of college,of stalking my kinda guy, of bringing me to class...for being THE HUGEST JERK IN THE WORLD, even tho you would not read this, happy birthday. yer missed. altho YER STILL A JERK in my opinion. Hehe. <3
nice- thank you for college. for our love hate friendship. for the adult advices. for the rest of the years to come. lovelove you. amishu. hati birthday.
jaezbereny- for the long walk home// for the robi btc groceries where we would endup seeing fashion terrorists// for holding my hand- wahaha// for being the lil thug slash rusta bru that i never had// lovelovelove you. will go home soon. happiest of birthdays to ya.
smooches.
my chinese school bus is official. <3 [1030 everyday. haha. minsan masking pauper moments, one can be soo happy.]
and is not convinced about my stand on going to church and tithing... and probably will not change his mind about it.
<3
it's still sate babe and long john's night(--->mccafe and bob's) coffee and peanut butter sauce. kapunish naman, we were supposed to catch a movie tonight but, all that's on-screen were from MFF. toinks, if i were wit gal pals i'd watch even enteng kabisote, pero wit a date, maka sira ng repu na dating pang sira.
gawk, ilove gretchen barretto. one year nko nalukring lukring. it's gretadom forever. <3
vincent is the 3rd person who told me i gained. naiinis ako. call me ugly but do not tell me i am fat. it's bothersome. <3
winner si dichee:
you are invited to the funeral rites of turtle # 1, remains lie on the tabletop where kenji is currently taking a bath. dark chocolate bar donation is highly appreciated and bonna. thanks.
autistic jud ako mga manghud. atay.
some of the agents can be annoying. iwish i wore a stiffer(?) face that way they would not bother me. dili baya sila mga gwapa ug gwapo. ang lahi bati'g fashion sense, others have dirty nails, tas others have mcdonald's shoes. so if their lives were so miserable during their childhood, sana they let others be non-miserable. am not making sense. am PMSing big time. ihate it when they would make puna na parang may childhood hang up sa pagiging bully nila in high school, that is like so 10 years ago. <3
gawk now, i still cannot get over the fact that ang uyab ni tindera ng mais na nagsinaw sa ka-dark ang skin kay QA na. murag grover na ka OA ha, ako previous company, ako career path, ako expressions kay gayahun, tas ang guy kay uber ka puti ang face murag nag rice powder daw. eeeck!!! dapat e-patent najud nko ako mga ganahan or dapat copyrighted para walang makigaya.
don't get me wrong, am happy today. i just wanna blabber like greta.
homesickness big time.
x0x0
dichee and her other pet: PIGLET WAILING.
