tristan, i'll be yer isolde. hahahaha

and another one

madayun jud ka?

manluya man ko with the thought of you going.

 

booh.....

again ngayun kapa. pero nakakatawa talaga. =) kinikilig din naman ang sira.

kwento nila

"i wish you wouldn't go.

breaks my heart."

 

<3

hahaha, prince eric you can be funny. tama si steff

hey life: you still surprise me

omg, i've been into the doctor's office several times the past week. i still do not have an answer. the punyetang tangang genmed that maxicare referred to me told me i am okay....how can one be okay when she hadn't done all of the tests yet? i wanna be okay. but, i know am not. and wut the hell is lympnotic jointus? ano yun?

 

i do not want to get near a head set. or near work. i will die. am in the crappiest mood right now. my leave wasn't approve yet. damn it. it's unpaid for heaven'ssake....am not taking calls. those assholes from the other side of the world can manage without talking to me.

 

will quit. two weeks from now.

 

yep, my only affirmation as of today is:

 

quitting doesn't mean that you're actually losing

it simply means that you have the heart to start over.

 

hahaha. charring. leche. nalulukring nako sa trabahong toh....

 

<3

at last iheard from fifay. at least i heard from my fave ppl. kakapagod na put up with ppl i do not like and yet, they find their way to make siksik to me. damn it. napaano na english ko?

and kermit smsd last nyt. arg. iwanna be in bacolod now.

 

am losing it najuds. am letting myself go narin. went to the office to file for leave on pruntong and big tee and uncomb hair. di na toh makatarungan....

 

<3

 

i wonder why i wanted to be a hermit/ or get a cave/ or live in the woods...

 

fairies live in the woods pala...hahaha..forest and fairies....

clouds and unicorns.....and mermaids and sea...gotta forget abt being princess ariel...

sino ba loveteam ni tinker belle? diko ata carry si peter pan....

 

 

DEMI DO

isn't she the prettiest buntis next to my sister?

 

keep yer tone down raen

taragis gishagitan nakog negrang tanga; mucalma pako.

wag mag aol kung tanga. malupit ang mundo sa tanga.

lalo na sa tanga at negrang walang pera.

<3

angplastic mo, kaw kaya mag calls....pag ako natuluyan ng cancer ikaw unang mumultohin ko. lecheng yawa.

off to venus then to mars

Start:	Jul 1, '06
End:	Jul 15, '06

ang pag aantay ai magsisimula/
wala na namang pera/

mush another serving

"There are a lot of things we don't want to know about the people we love."

Chuck Palahniuk

training for a new show...

us...the casts... korean moi teej jeps nards laine

sYagit Etel Casts...
leche, am echoing karen, masaya pa kami no-on. now, di na....photo credit: karen m

wishful thinking

i wish i'd wake up with a 150k contract to do kfc print

 

masking ako ang mu-dress up as the chicken.

i woke up loving my job

not!

booh/ bitch fit galores

come to think of it...am now laughing at the thought:

 

imade you eat yer crap. pinag toothbrush/ pinagshampoo at sabon/ literally.....

and i still think yer the most unoriginal gal there is.

omg, i patented pink for god'ssake!

--------

hahaha..deleting the pic na murag from matrix.. copyright infringement..haha.. her famous last sms was:: i hate you with all my strength..

grabeh ka chaka sa inenglishan!

crash into me, dmb

Youve got your ball
Youve got your chain
Tied to me tight tie me up again
Whos got their claws
In you my friend
Into your heart Ill beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
And sweet you roll
Lost for you Im so lost for you
You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream
Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
Im bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash
Into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream
If Ive gone overboard
Then Im begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When Im holding you so girl
Close to me
Oh and you come crash
Into me, baby
And I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
In a boys dream.. in a boys dream
Oh I watch you there
Through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing but you
Wear it so well
Tied up and twisted
The way Id like to be
For you, for me, come crash
Into me

 

have a lil faith in me

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me

When the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try, baby
And have a little faith, faith in me

CHORUS:
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith, faith in me

And when your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here baby
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me

And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you will see
i will catch your, i will catch your fall
Just have a little faith, have faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith, faith in me

Well, I've been loving you for such a long long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me
You see time, time is our friend
'Cause for us there is no end
And all you gotta do is have a little faith in me
I will hold you up, i will hold you up
And your love gives me strength enough to have a little faith in me
oh, have faith , oh, darling
Have a Little Faith In me
Faith

dichee

she doesn't have any buntis pic uploaded eh. sayang.

the most beautiful buntis/baliw there is in cebu. wala'y pabor pabor.

shobe.

She's frequently kind and she's suddenly cruel.... murag tinood ni billy joel... hehehe.

photos from her friendster profile

the newspapers made a big deal abt my heritage

if ani ko ka da-ot diko managad!

 

oh GOD! 100x

why weren't i born rich?

 

 

guess who came to town?

kermit. <3

didn't get to see him tho...he smsd hours too late...and he is just connecting thru mactan airport for bacolod....argh. will see you again one day.iguess. omg. imiss everyone from the ateneo.

icudn't believe how fast the years go by...ateneo was three years ago....

 

finn

her beauty is remarkable...

everyone else is drawn to beauty...it's a beacon, makes one wants to listen.

am ready to listen....

 

 

so i aimed for the fresh bruises this time

ilove it when i cannot think of the subject/post title that's coherent to wut am trying to write about...well yeah, magulo ang buhay ko, so live with it. ;)

did not make it to work last night. it's those boohoo moments when i think myself sick. the throat hurts/ the fever/ the rashes/ the mood/ the mindset/ and the fact that yer supposed to be up all night...well all these made me ill...

i finally caved in..the past 6mos while am at work, those were just lucid intervals...but, LUKA is out... whilst on call while am trying to make my caller EARN HIS CANCELLATION as my teamates would put it, i placed him on hold, then i spaced out..then i ended up in tears... goodgod am not a kid anymore....i don't get out of a situation in tears...nakakahiya talaga. sooo i got pulled out. [anyway, a tiny digression everyone else is cranky, kahit PAC namin cranky... ] a TL talked me into filing for a leave...i had a light bulb moment. will file for PLA, prolonged leave of absence...this way, i would have time to sort things out.

<3

it was raining the whole day, ilove the rain and the comfort it brings when am at home, drinking my mama's ginger ale to soothe my throat and so that i can sleep... [who discovered sikwate? i didn't know they call it sikwate...it's love. honest.]

mama offered to teach us embutido. yay. embutido/ if only this would make me filthy rich. hehehehe

i was up because of the iron chef, not that am depriving myself of food lately, cuz i have been eating chilli peppered grilled danggit and bangus the whole time---> i'd to mention this cuz ilearned one thing tonight---that fishes got different degree of LANSA/langsa and they taste differently, malay ko ba.... and am eating rice everytime, but, wut kept my interest was the fact that these ppl did pursue their passion. iwish i wud know wut's one thing that i should be passionate about so i'd die happy.aiwan.

Lord, do remember me...and get me outta here. fast...i do not know wut to do anymore.

 

this is how they do it....

crush kaau ko niya

- crush kaau naku siya

alegriha ui

- kataw-anan ui

kaon ta na

- mu-eat nata....

gihilantan ko

- gikalintura ko

cebu bisaya and davao bisaya

omg. ilovelovelove bisaya....<3

 

mush, another round....

"The person you love best, you share the world with. When that person's gone the world remains but it isn't the same thing, it's at a distance.
It isn't the same world, actually. It has so little hold on you, you could just drift away: like to the moon." Joyce Carol Oates

 

 

i saw this from another gal's Lj post

I've never loved anyone else as much as I've loved you.
Kakayanin. Kasi mahal kita.

<3

ang ganda.

 

mutubag na'g telepono

none of my teamates are present at this hour. [wukits am worried, mag isa lang ako]

all of my old teamates will be taking calls tonight for the new queue.

sobrangmatinding kaguluhan na eto. everyone's giving this godforsaken job up. point me the way to talamban najuds pls.

 

monday.

we[narda+elaine+i] were so broke we divided the coupons for mcdo amongst ourselves to have after shift lunch. again, thank God for girl scout gal pals. pointless ikotikotikot and libak session in ayala afterwards, then narda stayed in my place the whole afternoon. haven't slept a blink. i did, for an hour. truthfully... then we bought food from the nearby select, by food i mean canton from luckyme. then another round of backstabbing ppl began. bwehehehe. that made me feel better.

again myprimehrisgod am sooo broke. boooh.

we're to take calls again. paaaaanish.

and guess who i saw? again some old person from the past. why would they show up when you don't need them to show up?

best quote of the day:

b1: di najud mada mag take calls...di na naku kaya....

b2: kasabot judko sa feeling nga kapoy mag sge ininglish....

bwehehehe. paetch. Ü

meron pa:

b1: drats imishoo. paetch

b2: imissu 2...

hay dobleng paetch.

am not able to talk sense. laterz....

 

my thoughts on being uprooted from cebu, if ever

I don't want to own anything until I know I've found the place where me and things belong together. I'm not quite sure where that is yet. But I know what it's like.

-breakfast at tiffany's

 

there's no place like cebu... it's gonna be a total boo boo for me should i be relocated. am planning to. am hoping so....however the quote above did word my hesitations aptly...

iedit:

but that place is the only legitimate place where i'd get to see you...and we'd forget abt every1 else....haybuhaysheyts.

 

tinya tinyo episode two

 

guy: if you're going away this whole thing is pointless....

gal: no answer...hilom hilom hilom...nagiisip {antagal ng pointless netoh....}

my own urban legend....

according to the bbq vendor near our place, the house we're staying at is haunted. most of the occupants there would last a few months dawww...and this old house has had several ppl pass there. and inside dawww there's a well...and someone jumped/did suicide on that well [tama ba preposition ko? ] anyways, so far so good. wala pa namang nagmumulto sa two years stay ko samin. yun lang mainit ang bahay.

next tym i'd post pictures para convincing, hehehe

sisters, free french films, saturdays and sundays, and Olio

am back at work. sunday night. again in a pathetic mood. but in a much better health and state of mind. no more loose brain movement. [LBM]

i had dinner with Erin at Olios, Crossroads.[the place was an ultra chill place and sooo humot plus no annoying english speaking EUs] thank God for friends with culture. altho streetrats are my kind, it's refreshing to have another set of gal pals who'd take you out for dinner out of the blue. we had roast pork au jus with herbed potatoes, lobster fettucine, goat cheese with mixed greens. hahaha. nimemorize ko ang food! cuz i could not afford anything that i do not understand. i did not understand them. mareng erin did. Ü we then had coffee at as useless Bo's PIPC. and who did we see?!!! ALFRED BRYAN TE. hahaha. old old old high school cras, bryan tiki. i told kerby that bryan's around. he asked me to say hi for him. did not have the courage to.

and guess who's coming to visayas? syempre the best person who loves barney more that mathia.... si kermit.Ü he smsd awhile ago whether he should take the job offer. ihope he says yes...mas masaya buhay. and am crossing my fingers. ihope i could relocate to bacolod. altho, things are grey...but, am really hoping big time. the provincial life will do me well i guess. Ü

yesterday, saturday. dichee plus her tummy and cpus, shobe decided to catch the free french fim at ayala. we saw nano and he went with us. ayuns. twas an almost family affair, we had dinner at mcdo,hehehe and then we saw CLEAN of maggie chueng, i thought she was impressive, if she could really speak french,mandarinchinese, and english...and she can sing! WOW.  and then LAIZZES PASS ithink... i got upset over the second movie. twas about WWII and life of film makers in france. food was scarce. german occupation was terrible. i loathe loathe people who are anti-semitic. pra-mis. no race is better than anyone's race. not 1 lot is rotten and the other is perfect....nooooh.

basta before i thought those who speak french are hawt, ichanged my mind... mandarinchinese ala F4 sounds better sa wala'y pabor pabor....

did i say i saw tiki?

bwehehe....

 

 

 

tinya bitch tinyo bastard

tinya: would you think of me, like some time in the middle of the week?

tinyo: would i prefer going out with YOU?

WOW. wut an ego.

<3 at least he got over talking about his new car.

 

baliw....

Q: wut will make you stick to a job?

A: if my pay can make me purchase hotel food. bland hotel food. as long as it's hotel food.

Q: oic. smirks smirks.... will call you.

 

hahaha. off the fairy goes.

am walking away

walk away if you want to, it's okay, if you need to...

i didn't realize until today that everyone else is quitting. but, where will i go?  sana di ako anak ng dukhang manggagawa.

<3

not much is hapnin but, since yesterday i have had been in cloud 9.

 

 

 

 

how hard is it to cancel....

here's the link....just watch it guys. hehehehe

hehehe Ü

 

cancel cancel cancel

dyo know the way to san jose?

pam parampam...

i know you knew the song.

and you know it's old.

and even if i don't seek you out in the crowd. will still find you.

 

 

hahaha. masaya ang fairy kahit walang moolah.

someone just made someone happy

and someone just made someone happy.

say that out loud. again and again.

do you know the way to....part two

bwehehehe, i know i'd endup seeing you. and i know you're not hurting or unhappy, you are just doin' all right. and you'll walk away and you'll smoke pot(hehehe)....and you'll leave everything...but you won't leave me. you'll find a way. iknow. iknow.

will still see you. cebu is bit smaller today. cebu just has had given me a huge hug today.

 

someday you wil find me, caught beneath the landslide in a champagne supernova in the sky.... sing it again....tama ba lyrics?

today's affirmation

i envy you

 

because you have the courage to walk away from things that make you unhappy.

 

pa-ulit ulit ka nalang kung mag walk out raen.

x0x0x0x0d

good things never last/ some don't even start. hahahaha

 

26 Beautiful One-liners- repost from jacel

26 Beautiful One-liners

1. Give God what's right -- not what's left.

2. Man's way leads to a hopeless end -- God's way leads to an  endless
hope.

3. A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.

4. He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.

5. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma--but never let him
be
the period.

6. Don't put a question mark where God puts a period.

7. Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the church for a face-lift.

8. When praying, don't give God instructions - just report for duty.

9. Don't wait for six strong men to take you to church.

10 We don't change God's message -- His message changes us.

11. The church is prayer-conditioned.

12. When God ordains, He sustains.

13. WARNING: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning.

14. Plan ahead -- It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark.

15. Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.

16. Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Bible.

17. Exercise daily -- walk with the Lord.

18. Never give the devil a ride -- he will always want to drive.

19. Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.

20. Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.

21. He who angers you controls you.

22. Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.

23. Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler.

24. Be ye fishers of men -- you catch them & He'll clean them.

25. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called...

26. Read the Bible -- It will scare the hell out of you.

remember this?

dear tristan,

i am writing this letter not knowing where to send it to....

will wait forever,

suzannah

 

x0x0

iknow ang mailbox kay naa sa talamban. Ü

 

difficult ppl

now i've to deal with real life and major asungots who'll not give in to wut i'd say or would request for...

unta kaila na sila'g barang.

 

iam the unhappiest gal there is ryt now.

 

and tomorrow if i still am, i will walk away from wut's making me unhappy.

iknow i can.

 

 

but, for the meantime:

raen TRY PRAISE.

it should work.

 

 

one fine day

who knows the song? sing it to me....

i realised that since i quit smoking and taking alcohol, and quit clubbing i've become the sickliest gal there is....

 

you can go yak now. pero maiba tayo, pano pumuntang talamban? hahahaha.

 

buduuu nasad tsk tsk

unta unta!

namimiss ko na kahit ang damak courtyard slash the village days....

mingaw nako'g vudu....

 

wa naku kit-i masking asa.

tao pa ba ako?

joey and steff, miss ko na kayo.

 

do you know the way to

talamban? hehehe. baliw.

lovely bones

my post's title doesn't have anything to do with this entry....i wanted the book, that's all.

i have been unable to work yesterday and today, am still not going. i hated being absent. hassle submit ng med records,hassle apply for sick leave.

my throat is all time swollen. i know i am sore at this time, but i did not know that i am gonna be ill ill.

i had to wait at least two hours for my ENT. i'm not really sure whether i would take him seriously; he mentioned i've tons of lymph nodes near the neck area. i haven't been asked whether a family member was lost to cancer, until today.

i have read thru blood-related cancers, e.g. luekemia/lymphoma. the doc mentioned that if i continue to have bone fever(which i had been plagued with since childhood) and if my joints would still experience pain, and if my lymph nodes would continue to show up anywhere i had to see a cancer specialist. or a hematologist.

geezus. i never felt this helpless and pathetic at the same time.

i am uberly lost.

i can't keep all these to myself. i know this cannot be serious. i have had been frail as a child. but, damn it, i am in the pink of health.

atenean bitch to atenean bastard

i do not care if you have a new car. i did not ask about it.

kaya ko mag mass transpo/

kaya ko mamasahe/

 

at higit sa lahat if umulan man, kaya kong

pumara ng cab.

the lake house

How can you hold on to someone you've never met?

Jesus Take The Wheel

 

i do not recognize myself anymore. if who i were then in davao would look at who i am now, i would not know me....i'm trying to write a coherent entry but, i can't i am hurting, yet i do not know wut's hurting me. all that i've been carrying the past week had been really negative emotions that ppl around me are eaten by it too. for instance, elaine smsd that she is really gonna tender her resignation, i know/ i believe that for some reason my grumpy attitude towards work must've influenced her as well. [ wut's more pathetic than being up on a sunday nyt, clad in dreary work clothes, going to work in a mass transport? i could not complain, i prayed for this years ago. i should've been more specific. ] 

God, i am letting myself go, i try to escape church, i neglected my devotional. I were a Jesus freak before. wut happened?

 

 

all week long am bothered by work, i feel guilty for not finding time for karya when she got to cebu to see me. i just feel tired, sleepy, and unhealthy altogether.

 

<3 my rest days:

 

after shift thursday,  elaine/narda and i had breakfast at dimsum break btc/ thank God for payday weekend....we have been living on elaine's credit cards the previous week... we spent the entire morning moping and griping about work, i guess it's about time that we do something, if we do not feel like being here anymore.

 

thursday nyt, saw someone i shouldn't be seeing anymore. i guess i had to remind myself that i am not a thorn bird. and even if i say i do not hurt and i am numb and jaded, i still do.

 

friday, kermit smsd. i am amused at the thot that he's watching maalaala mo kaya on a weekend nyt.

 

saturday morning, i went with dich to the groceries. i will miss groceries and queueing with her when she leaves homes for good.

 

and i did the laundry. and slept like a pig the whole nyt thru. [kermit smsd, kenzo's with him daw, they were watching barney.....awwww]am losing it najuds.

 

sunday, did not go to church, i cannot explain the aversion, went looking for a dress for shobe. she found one, i got one for myself and dichee too. ambuts.

 

oh! HAPPY FATHER's DAY papa. and to wari and to kermit. <3

and to everyone else....

 

me edits: here's a really good song to cap wut i feel. it's been frustrating eversince mrm training/ i have been really restless, after futile trying to steer my wheel, i realized SOME1 else had to take it from moi.

 

 

Jesus Take The Wheel

 

 

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
she was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

letting it go

i love you

 

i love you

 

 i love you na!

 

halukan tika any second from now. go!

 

 

*lecheng trabaho toh, nalulukring nako big taym!

help! save my sales

can anyone tell me where i can get a new job?

 

suggestments! weeeeeh!

the day in a hurry part dos

the rain stopped/ my OA, woebegone mood hasn't/

that conversation with verlaine struck me, or ako lang ang in a mushy mode....

tama, i shud've taken time getting to know ppl from college...sayang yung 4 years....godimiss college....and davao...i am losing it na...

 

lunch was a blast, we were soooo broke today, we (elaine/narda)managed to get lunch at mcdo fuente. basta. ang odd....some couples just lose the spark diay noh? ifeeeeeelllllll for those gals stucked in that kinda relationship/

and i realized, again i cannot quit the 3 gal pals cycle.

 

magulo/malabo

t*inang buhay toh.

ayoko na maging dukha!

 

 

 

another suitcase in another hall

i know i should stop whining, but, the past week, i know i did hit rock bottom. i don't want to wake up. i take a few minutes to do that atik yoga breathe, and then

 

sighs

sighs

sighs,

then hit the shower....was even THIS desperate that i asked wari this: unta ikaw nalang magbuhi naku.

if i were to pick the best comfy wala'y libog workplace ETEL would've been the best, they have the best ppl here. promise.

screw that. i'm gone next week. i wish i wish i wish.

 

 

hsio

hsio(hee seeYO!) defined:

<3 hsio- cottage cheese

<3 tofu- ang hsio nga ni aslum.

argh.

i cannot write a decent entry. i am losing it. sana taga talamban nalang ako. (labo!)

 

 

let it rain let it rain let it rain

for the first time in my two years in cebuuu, it poured, but, not too hard, pero bumaha. it's almost ankle high. sighs cebuuu, i don't know wut happened to you.

after shift's lunch was great, angel darna and elaine had some things to say.

i cannot write a sensible entry, am still shaken by the rain/flood.

pasokan na tomorrow sa cebu doc. huhu.

 

be still

i wanna hold you high.

 

the day in a hurry

am gonna die in this god-forsaken job.

* karya is in cebu! i wish it were easy like it was in college, nothing's changed between us, just that di na kami naka choke ng mega phone while we were going thru shops in ayala and sm, which for her is so-so. hehehehe.

* lunch was with elaine in RR(red ribbon) as useless, and PP(persian palate) karya and her family, by family, i meant kuya niya and cousin nya where there. wukits. at that time i just thot that it's odd being with kai and mark. ayun. there i finally sed that.

* ohhhh, i swore off purchasing havianas, but, karya got me a pair of those lite green hibicus(? spell check- gumamela) ones....and so, am not gonna buy one of those ridiculously overpriced brazillian foam flip flops. yay to college friends who has got money!

love love love to you karen judilla/ i loved seeing you, and i'd love to be in bohol. awww. sheyts/////

 

 

call boys et call gals

i forgot when is this. i think during the transition, last day

hard of hearing gal in ER

i know i whine about the littlest things way too much however, this ear infection is eating me that i ended up in ER...

june 7, i decided that i better brave thru Chong Hua or else am not getting any better. the pain on my swollen left ear would not go away and my fever had been recurring. shobe and crs accompanied me to Chong Hua and we painfully waited for like 3 hours for a room. i loathe loathe the freaking ER. Add the fact that this is gonna be his world in five years time or so, and am not gonna be part of it. argh. that made me shudder while in there. an intern pulled my left ear,ouch, another one had this peep light poking into it, ouch, and the other one asked me if i were taking alcohol, not, smoking, i quit...quit when? yesterday, she asked...i sed, quit, quit... end of story. then some guy drew blood out of the iv, then placed the iv on a very, very uncomfy vein in my ryt hand. ayun. sorry am lost in the prepositions...  and every other time they'd poke needles in on me for patch/skin test/ for the antibiotics...which was awfully painful cuz it's potent. OA. my student nurses were the best, i've had a blast interviewing them, they kept returning to my room cuz of shobe...

me edits:

june 8- i think elaine came by. and so did jaez, ilove him. yeah, elaine stayed overnight. honey go came by, sayang, i did not take pictures with her. and we weren't able to talk as much cuz i were smsing verlainey, who i usually sms when my life is all screwed up, and i appreciate her replies when i need them.... i transferred to another room... at the old hospital building, eerie-looking washroom and no blinds. but, twas okits, i do not have to pay extra... Ü

june 9- i got discharged. princess batong orange came by with chonie..sayang kathra wasn't there. we took tons of pictures, which i hope would get uploaded the soonest possible time, i don't have cable/ blue tooth dagul(daggle/doggle/dangle- whutever it is) eh...

i think i got my ear back.or is it my hearing back? i still hear sea shores on it tho...

 

....twas full moon when i got out for work tonight. creepy. namasahe ako, am broke, uber....sana po pay day na: trabaho+sweldo=sustento sa ki-at/biga...

my tush is awfully sorry cuz i cannot make it to bohol with karya, i have had filed all the leaves possible on earth and my ear fcuked every plans i have... yet, yet, yet, am seeing her for lunch tomorrow....

of pinky promises and rings, the weekend, airborne spores

after shift last friday was another all gals ukay hunt with elaine and angel, am scared this is beginning to be an obssession, i shud stop cuz i myt endup doing a wardrobe inventory and all my clothes could be traced from its soup kitchen or salvation army roots and then my life would be a mess. OA. it's a bit sadddd. with a capital D sa dulo cuz that's the last day of the 5 week training. then after which, even if i LACKED sleep, (i've to say that out loud cuz steph myt endup reading this at maguilty...) i had to show up for lunch at SM cuz joey will be leaving us for the agusan marshes, once again, good thing the Oz relocation will take her another year. am happy! Joey got me and Steph a flower pinky ring from filigrenasia, that's supposed to seal our being intimate friends daw/kuno. ilove those gals. i cudn't be a truer friend to anybody i think.

TL Lance smsd! argh. imiss the guy. promise. his temper tantrums and kwentos. argh.

KIM CHIU won. Mikee won. go go ateneo and cebu! ;) am all grins even if my ear was starting to bother me.

 

Sunday: woke up with this huge thud thud thud. i realised that my left ear, not right ear had this poking/painful feeling that i usually get twice every year or every time i have fever. this time, it's an awfully worst poking/throbbing pain. i cud not open my mouth too wide to eat, and i cud not speak out loud, or make gara-gara cuz i wud end up in tears. it's the most pathetic situation i've ever been in in the past months. i'd trade dengue fever or some okoi lip rash for ear infection. foooootah. and so i cudn't make it to work. to make the whole thing worst, i had to look for someone who would trade places with me. i cud barely make a phone call nga, look for some call gal to take my calls pa?

monday: the whole thing went out of proportion. inutil talaga maxicare pra-mis. i had to wait 2 hours for an ent. and the ent just ended up giving me sky-rocketing-pricey pills to take. i feel like am some country rockstar who had her ear drums busted because she sang too loud. argh. screw fungus and bacteria and headsets/

am whining. i wanna come to work, but i can't. mamumulubi ako neto.

ohhh, yeah. check out the prints from mcdo i think ayala and fuente has one...the love ko'to group pic, naa ko didto. ;)

at this time of writing i cudn't sleep because of the ngulngol. fooootah. mala leche.

 

 

 

when the going gets tough/ the tougher stays(unsa to mareng misyel?)

 

sing it out loud now: when the going gets tough/ the tough gets going. aiwan. footah. this is worse than expedia....

this is not just a major confidence slash esteem issue.... i wonder when will i ever appreciate wut am doing for a living. to think all thru out after college all i wannabe is to be a call gal.... wala nang iba.

i just thot that i usually endup getting wut i wanted. that's why i don't get to appreciate wut i get in a better light. screw that! am not making sense.

 

lunchtime wus okits. may kasabay parin magchowa. but, starting nxt week, it'll boil down to eating lunch alone na naman. and logging back in on time. sheyts. we're back on the 1am shift. paaaanish.

 

 

but but but wait there's more...

TO:                   (E09436) GEDORIO, RAE ANNE

PROGRAM:       AOL RESEX

CC:                   LUMBAN, ALLAN

DATE HIRED:    November 29, 2005

RE:                   Regularization Notice

Congratulations!

Effective May 29, 2006, you are already a regular employee of Etelecare Global Solutions, Inc.

In line with this movement, please be reminded of the following guidelines which were discussed during your Foundation Skills Training:

I. Service Incentive Leave (SIL)- is Etelecare’s leave benefit entitlement for employees on regular appointment. Kindly refer to policy below regarding the filing of SILs.

                                                                       Staff                  Officer

SIL earned per month                                         1.0                    1.5

SILs that can be availed upon regularization         6.0                    9.0       

As stated above, all employees upon regularization can avail of their Service Incentive Leave (SIL)/ Leave with pay based on the earned credits per job level. Other than this, each regular employee earns an additional SIL credit every month of service.

II. Salary Loan and Scholarship Loan Program

As discussed during the Foundation Training, these can only be availed upon one year of continuous service and not upon regularization.

III. Performance Bonus

Your regularization bonus shall be equivalent to the number of months of probationary/contractual period. After which, the succeeding performance bonus would be based per quarter. Your TL shall accomplish and discuss with you the contents of your regularization performance review after which he/she should submit this to C&B.

IV. Policy Adherence  

The same rules and policies shall be applied regardless of change of employment status. A regular employee should comply with the company rules and regularization and may be subject to disciplinary sanctions in any case that these policies are violated.

We look forward to a lasting and fruitful relationship with you.

Best regards,

Compensation and Benefits Team

 

 

 

bruisedbruises

i've been thriving on tostillas and tostitos for days, and i think this has gotten much of my brain cells dry.

i feel utterly frustrated lately. and i know wut's causing it. my job. but, am not doing anything about it. wut's eating me now is that i don't get to see it from the look at the glass half full instead of half empty point of view. don't get me wrong ilove love love etel, nevertheless, i am groping thru the new queue. ang hirap maging olats parati. i feel like am thinking on my elbows everyday. and yeah, i so wish there'd be callers who'd address me with mi corazon/ mi reina, mi amor, mi precioso... hehehe

 

dear heavens,

if you could kindly send the big grown-up stork to the pacific/ or to the islands and have him/her drop someone/something who'll/that'll take me out of this pit. in bisaya: ples lang naa unta magbuhi naku. yopaks naku mag calls. parang awa.

 

xoxoxo

 

 

i'd even take mulan's mushu if mushu would take calls for me.