lovely bones

my post's title doesn't have anything to do with this entry....i wanted the book, that's all.

i have been unable to work yesterday and today, am still not going. i hated being absent. hassle submit ng med records,hassle apply for sick leave.

my throat is all time swollen. i know i am sore at this time, but i did not know that i am gonna be ill ill.

i had to wait at least two hours for my ENT. i'm not really sure whether i would take him seriously; he mentioned i've tons of lymph nodes near the neck area. i haven't been asked whether a family member was lost to cancer, until today.

i have read thru blood-related cancers, e.g. luekemia/lymphoma. the doc mentioned that if i continue to have bone fever(which i had been plagued with since childhood) and if my joints would still experience pain, and if my lymph nodes would continue to show up anywhere i had to see a cancer specialist. or a hematologist.

geezus. i never felt this helpless and pathetic at the same time.

i am uberly lost.

i can't keep all these to myself. i know this cannot be serious. i have had been frail as a child. but, damn it, i am in the pink of health.