I don't know what to do!" cried Scrooge, laughing and crying in the same breath; and making a perfect Laocoön of himself with his stockings. "I am as light as a feather, I am as happy as an angel, I am as merry as a school-boy. I am as giddy as a drunken man. A merry Christmas to every-body! A happy New Year to all the world!
His own heart laughed: and that was quite enough for him.
-dickens
on the 24th, i told mark that he was the grinch who stole Christmas and was the bad guy in my story. in all my 26 years this was the first time that i cried my heart out and hyperventilated til i ended up sleeping.
i told him am not speaking to him again if i did hyperventilate. i did but, i still spoke to him. it was the first time that somebody boldly told me i cared & that he cared. i was blank for a moment. and then threw fits again.
i threw temper fits at him maybe twice this week.
i did care enuf that i showed up to the ball game sunday. and we had mcdo pre dinner and had another timothy-paul thingy thereafter.. it's fun when you learn things from someone lalo na if it's about faith. little did i know that i never "pugos" myself to change just so he'd see me like an angel. i did tell him i try to paint wings and halo so i'd be his angel, kaso i still have my pet sins. like swearing.
i'd never had an influence that is THIS POSITIVE. i told him that i write about him always cuz if one day memory fails me, i might know how i felt at that time..
i have the sweetest guy. haha. assumptionista.
can't help it. i'll post..
"sorry..
i like you just fine..
with the alien green eyes..
and the poopsie..
mid month PMS..
or the pimple IN your nose..
and i love your teeth.."
have a lovely new years everyone! tara na 2009 kaayo!
Monday, December 29, 2008
quite enuf.
zooey. day 12
3 installations.. maka sleep man gyd ko after reading mark's gunyt stories.. hehe..
davey and zooey returned to the village..
benaiah was waiting for her..
today is the start of the nuevo luna.. or new moon.. a one week celebration to celebrate the coming of the new year.
The festivities will be held at the village town square..
there were singing and dancing.. all kinds of food and beverages for everyone to enjoy..
music was playing.. a big band will all sorts of instruments..
wind instruments resonated the night sky.. toot.. tooorotooot.. acoustics..
percussion instruments reverberated from the trees to the ground..
dum da dum dum..
sequoia forest resounded with music from the sequoias' crest.. the music echoed thru valleys and mountains.. (12/26)
♥
dooong!
dooong!
booong!
a gong sounded amidst the festivities.. to gather the crowd's attention.. as the town watchman announced the end of today's celebration..
zooey danced and danced all night..
and she sang along with the band..
and tis the only week once a year that benaiah allowed her to drink under davey's watchful eye..
but, twas not the drunken revelry that zooey enjoyed the most but the sound of the gong..
(12/27)
♥
twas not the drinking, dancing and singing that zoeey longed for every night.. but, twas the sound of the gong..
time to rest after the festivities.. davey would lead her to benaiah.. and benaiah would carry her like a child cradled in his huge arms..
she felt secure.. peaceful.. loved.. it felt like home..
then benaiah would tuck her in..
rub her forehead..
he would gently whisper.. gud nyt macushla..
and would kiss her gud nyt..
this is wut she cherished the most..
(12/28)
tis the season
12/27
photos from the pre-Christmas dinner to Christmas morning til today, the 29th.
24th- shobe and mac arrived. did not stay up for noche buena but we had the celebration earlier. nazel and baby jo came by cuz they were on duty. adopted them for dinner.
25th- robinson's with my siblings, lunch at taters, groceries and went out for dinner at night..
26th- salon and gala with the sibs again.
27th- dich and i were in gaisano, bought desert for shobe and tmac- last dinner in the city..
28th- shobe went home..ball game with mark at taytung.
have a lovely holidays world. God bless you and keep you all..
shout out to:
kathra
kiss
tl pie
emi
mariastery and dapdap
kaith
ashley
tl karenjen
charley boy
lindee
cohnee
mareng princess batong nice
♥ amplify love. yagit mag hate. haha.
the bean and the leaf
starbucks nasad :) libre ni nazel. manol manol nagyd ko yah.
gina guess ni mark akon outfit- wrong except the white shirt. gin-guess akon drink wrong sad his guess was green tea frappe, cerek: strawberries and creme..
and where we sat.. ana sha by the fountain.. we sat under the umbrellas..
12/29/2008
the holidays
A Christmas Blessing
During this Christmas season,
May you be blessed
With the spirit of the season,
which is peace,
The gladness of the season,
which is hope,
And the heart of the season,
which is love
Somehow, not only for Christmas
But all the long year through,
The joy that you give to others
Is the joy that comes back to you.
And the more you spend in blessing
The poor and lonely and sad,
The more of your heart’s possessing
Returns to you glad.
John Greenleaf Whittier
December 25's dinner with the sibs and in laws at the old pala pala. we had shrimps, squid, and tuna. :) then they had this all bacolod experience of the lagoon. which is chaka, but, for posterity's sake we took pictures.
then off to sorento for lychee margarita and people watching. then we took some more photos in front of smore landmarks in the city.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
zooey. day 11
last piece for the year..
zooey turned and found davey smiling..
i can't believe it's still here! davey exclaimed..
hey zoinks, your dad is looking for you.. said davey..
*whapak* zoeey punches him.. *told you not to call me zoinks* exclaimed zooey..
i know.. just missed your punches.. davey teased her..
they laughed together as they went back.. talking about the good ol days.. with mojo clumsily following..
all i know is..
it's kinda odd how to feel strongly about the holidays when the person you cared about do not care about it. or maybe am just easily swayed. i don't know..
but, then again.. december is always beautiful cuz of the cold blowing of the wind during the night or early morning, a refreshing change to the normally stuffy weather we have, and well, there's a weird holiday spirit that makes everyone a bit nicer and kinder..
out of pettiness i picked on the worst excuse for a tampo tampo fit. wala ko ni mark gipatulan. hahaha. and he managed to joke about it.
i don't have a continuation of the zooey story. i told him he can make it next year.
i told him that maybe one day when am really wealthy i'd go to mexico and drink the hugest bottle of tequila with the wrinkley worms and go dancing and wear the prettiest white dress with ruffles..
am told: i'd want to go to new zealand and fish at their crystal clear streams.. drink fresh milk.. breathe in fresh air.. and eat the juiciest beef steak.. :-)
told him i'd rather be a gypsy than a hobbit.. haha..
i got two more on my list today:
raen facts: with you there is silence but not awkward silence..
more facts: you are not as boring as you think you are.. or as weird..
so much for not being weird or boring. told him in this lifetime i ate the following: frogs, dawgs-gross i know, pigeons, rabbits, grasshoppers, and well, lobsters only twice in my life.. and i want to eat the worm inside that giant bottle of tequila. ü
i told him that it would be tough to find a person who'd not question my partying and drunken tush during the past four years.. and that i did really eeejiotic things and wasn't mindful of the consequences..
maybe it's me or the Christmas woes and blues. or it's still the bad bout of pms. i quickly dissolved into tears the whole morning and slept almost whole day cuz of it. kakapagod and exhausting. i wish boys would have these as well. it's not fair.
♥
my sister is aghast at the fact that i make patol with a two year old and would not yield. ga ugtas si kenji sa ako today. i'd squeeze him tight and hug and kiss him and he'd yell and throw tantrum fits. and i'd be really happy. haha. my wonderful mind compared to a two year old!
shobe and theomarc will be in bacolod tomorrow. yey!
i hope i'd see mark during the holidays. lawig sang vacation. but, i had to wait til the 30th or 31st cuz assumptionista sad sha. he thought i'd be sleeping the whole time.
and kairi is a darling. she would wail the loudest when hungry. and maghubog og gatas.
dear cities. thanks for making this year a life-altering one. the going to washington, the seeing of the bears and the wild outdoors that i'm not so crazy about but had been a wonderful experience, the transfer of account, the meeting of sooo many people, the uncertainty of the job that i have and knowing that it doesn't necessarily make up my whole person, the new friends i've come to know, the old friends am keeping til i looked like a raisin or a prune, for angelo who will forever be mine even if he thinks he's not mine, for my whole family and the new additions tmac and kairi, for giving me a small group, for mark david and his stories out of imagination and his faith, and the feeling of being blessed in great abundance.
dear cities. no wonder people love you.
Once again we find ourselves enmeshed in the Holiday Season, that very special time of year when we join with our loved ones in sharing centuries-old traditions such as trying to find a parking space at the mall. We traditionally do this in my family by driving around the parking lot until we see a shopper emerge from the mall, then we follow her, in very much the same spirit as the Three Wise Men, who 2,000 years ago followed a star, week after week, until it led them to a parking space. ~Dave Barry
happy holidays. haha.
i think the grinch quote is more apt:
And the Grinch, with his Grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags. And he puzzled and puzzled 'till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before. What if Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store. What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more. - How the Grinch Stole Christmas, Dr. Seuss
raenyberry. ♥
babe in the straw
who is this child,
asleep in a manger?
the heaven's are bright
the stable's so cold
on this holy night,
have you come to redeem us?
little child in the straw
little child in the straw
who is this babe?
prince of the universe
a donkey is braying
angels are singing
the prophets did say
you would come to redeem the world
little child in the straw
save us all
and if we lose sight of your sweet face
at the birth of grace, at the birth of grace
light of truth shine like Bethlehem's star
lead us to where you are, show us who you are
merciful one
lover of every soul
the Father's own Son
Emmanuel
yes, we believe,
you are able to heal us
Noel, noel,
save us all
save us tonight
(caedmon's call)
happy Christmas. and a great new years with simple abundance..
God bless you Bacolod, Cebu, Davao, General Santos, Polomolok, Surallah, and Iligan. haha.
muah!
Monday, December 22, 2008
target.
fries and chicken
3am lunch at jollibee. sa dihang nagdagan dagan ko para ka apas nila. this might be the last time i'm seeing these kiddies. murag chinese school kids mi.. haha..
12/23/2008
earthling to an alien
m's weirded out with the cyan contacts.. he calls me alien.. haha..
my list tonight:
ur the first earthling to tell me you that you forgot to tell me that my checkered/plaid shorts were nice.. btw, the pair's name is forever gali. :)
his list:
1st alien 2 hug..
1st alien 2 eat pisbols with..
1st time meeting an alien..
grr the last thingy.. i'm okay with pupil grasshopper and he'd be master ant.. :)
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. undangi nako tom riddle. muwork nako.. smackaroonies!
i'm okay talking about you. who'd care anyway?
Is this what it's supposed to be like? Is this how it's supposed to feel? Like a roller coaster? Like as lifetime's emotions squeezed into a single minute? Like heaven and hell, sweet and sour, light and dark...? Like losing your mind? (kevin brooks)
potangeynang animels na pms. i got over it today. after nazelita and i took solace of our poor wrinkled selves in sm.
ang ambitiosa wala naka buyers og contact lens cuz she's got astigmatism. and was whining cuz she had to settle for a pair of glasses. bwahaha. i told her she should just be happy with the fact that her pair is from banana republic. ü
gosh. i should be over with retail therapy. i think i bought over 5 shirts for myself over the weekend. and i don't exactly need shirts. pero sige nalang.
at times when girls go together they spend on non-neccessities.. naz spent for our coffee. figaro. cuz everyone snubs it now that starbucks is here. ü
i just want a powtangeynang moccassin. yawn lang..
my world revolved around one person lately. needless to say it- klaro sa tv tv. but, tonight, i kinda noticed that i took very little time to play with the kiddies. so this morning, after laundry, i played with keken. and tonight as well. and i haven't slept all day cuz i woke up 2am monday and fixed my closet. (see, how i am digressing?)
kenji would then go hug me and butt his head on my tummy so i'd tickle him. the sweetest. these kids can somehow shoo all your 26 year old cares away.. and make you want to just be there to cuddle them.. and even in sm, each time i'd pass by a mickey mouse or barney item, i'd coo and ahh..haha.. i even hit my head when i forgot something..and realized how kenji does it too! haha..
i even wanted to buy hercules and barney sing alongs.. hay.. it's nice to have kids but, not your kids cuz you can almost afford to get them useless something-something..
sunday was a first in so many ways altho this would be the 3rd ball game that i was with him. he picked me up from home, and almost got lost and told me he's bad with directions. i told him i am too. in the most honest way. i am really bad with directions.
i have two left feet. and i'm almost blind. and i am deaf- that's why i talk loud-lyyyy. so don't ask directions from me. i can barely make lead for myself haha..
later in the day, he asked whether i felt motion sick-ly, i told him, i was okay- pero shempre mas ganahan ko if we were taking mass transit aka the jeep cuz it would mean longer rides and walks and exchanges of real talks about turtles and bears and that really long walk towards trinity church(?) and dut fruit stand is marked for life..
we were early for his game. eds' versus johnny's.. i didn't bother watching the game, it was chismis time with iza.
after which, he asked where we'd get fishballs. i asked if he's serious. and he was serious cuz we went to lopues east and bought fishballs with 2 sauces and choclit and caramel shake from jamaican patties..
the night before i told him i missed the small group(ricky told me that it'll resume next year because of the holidays..) and its Christmas party, he was nice enuf to print out a copy of their small group discussion and we talked about impatience because of foolishness, advice slash counsel of others, impatience that lead to sin. and dinosaurs. ü
it was embarrassing. i asked him to excuse me cuz i honestly write better than talk.. he told me he writes sense than talk too. he once told me that writing/texting is better cuz you can edit if need be this way you'd make sense..
m: si moses, he just sinned once and never entered the promise land.. cuz wala sha nagfollow instructions..
r: ha, cuz he was supposed to hit the rock once?
m: no wala gyd gani, hambalan nya lang dapat..(he's should only speak to it..)
r: and napatay nalang sha wala sha kasulod..
m: wala pa sha napatay, kasulod na ang mga israelites..
(kaulaw nalang nako. i almost melted.)
after our mini bible study, he took me to villa celia(?) and showed me the house his dad made/built/designed for his uncle.. ü
aaaaaaaaaaaahsome guy. ü
saturday, spent late afternoon in gaisano with dich. dami tao. nazel had an impromptu meeting with my family. and met kairi of chors! then attended her Christmas party.
i am the boringest bore in the world. kevs. i have the best people around me. ♥
happy holidays. God bless you and keep you bacolod, cebu, gensan, davao, surallah, polomolok..
Rayna.
the best showshal climbing statement of the year:
raen to nazel:: naz.. ang ang di man tah pede mag balik kung asa tah, gitaxihan baya gyud natoh padung ice..
nazel: mare, wala tah nag taxi.. nagtrisikel tah..
(kalimot ko. feel nako nag taxi mi..)
raen: sge lang, singkwenta baya atoh gibayad!
hey shorrty!
new accenture qa friends and an old murat friend. some beer. nachos. videoke. at bacobuz. nagtrisikad rami going there. i missed the trainer's party cuz i got stuck on groceries. timingan nazel texted and dragged me to go with her cuz i got nothing but domestication and m weekends.. wala na. she felt sorry for me. char char oi.
trisikel to ice// vodka/margarita/stuff with don and the rest of the gang. gi away ni jessica si pooh and pokwang. or ang mga waiters. haha. kalowka.
went home around 3 am sunday. exhausted and happy that i controlled my alcohol intake.
12/20/2008(sat night..)
all i want for Christmas is a zoo!
monday. 12/22/2008// today with the kiddies.
I suppose when you're five years old it's easier to accept the things you don't understand. You're used to it. You don't understand most things.(kevin brooks.)
sunday's ball game
inter account tournament started last sunday. ga try ko maging best cheerleader but wind up being the lousy photog. tinood, it's all about the camera and not talent. photography is over rated gyud. pati ah, hisa lang ko kay di bongga ako digi. :)
most photos na klaro sa tv tv are that of ed's team because of iza uy, altho am rooting for johnny-blue team(yza's daddy's friends..:) //
12/21/2008
Yet you still got one over on me.
Maybe it's just jealousy
Mixing up with a violent mind
A circumstance that doesn't make much sense
Or maybe i'm just dumb..
You're the cloud hanging out over my head
Hail comes crashing down, welting my face
Magic man, egocentric plastic man
Yet you still got one over on me.
chump. green day.
Friday, December 19, 2008
mumble love
my penguin's update. ken's bukels and bruises are almost better. i went to his room this morning to find him awake and somewhat happy to see me.. ü
zooey. day 10
i got two episodes cuz it's pms day..
:)
zooey shocked by mojo's reaction to her kiss.. she was dazed for a few minutes.. then davey started laughing..and zooey joined the laughter..
davey said.."mojo really likes you.."
zooey smiled blankly staring at the sky.. reminiscing the precious moments..
then she walked around.. looking for a particular tree..
"ahhh here it is" she said..
there were words carved on the massive trunk..
♥
*here it is* she said..
the carving on the trunk..
friends forever..davey and zooey.. and there was a smiley at the end.. :-)
zooey stood there for a while staring blankly at the carving..
stroking her hair..
reminiscing the old days once again..
*zooey.. i can't believe it's still here*.. someone whispered behind her.. twas davey..
sa puno ng mangga.
Things are so simple,
it seems to say. You never know, she says,
you hardly ever know. Once I was happy.
excerpt from an afternoon, halvard johnson
i got one stuff out of my wishlist.
i decided to go with the cyan contacts instead of grey.. now i looked liked a cat meow purr.. i got dich the same color too.. and it's good for a year..and it's on a bargain.. ü
this is the most insufferable pmsing of all ages.. in the ancient of days it was controllable, now, it's driving me up the wall. pity m, he's at fault with everything. and he doesn't even know why.. haha..this is totally turning me into a nutcrack.. all things that m would say, i take sooooo seriously.. as they say you can make a proverbial mountain out of a molehill.. it's like dut..
i can quickly dissolve into tears regardless if m tells me of a comforting thing or the hard truth.. wala, i'm all crayola..
wukits.. i'm tired and all is swollen inside me and my nose is lopsided. wutta wonderful day it is!
i missed my small group's Christmas party. it's hapnin tonight. sayang. :(
and mark's rest days changed. the suckiest rest days.. wednesdays and thursdays.. sighs..
i guess we're going out sunday.. but skipping the basketball game cuz oa these interim shifts they have at work..
happy weekend. and love a whole lot!
Raen
Thursday, December 18, 2008
wishlist
materyosong kabaliwan. all i want for christmas. i got books na diay. 2 from nazel. (she lemme borrow some chick lit by local writers..) and a hardcopy of angela's ashes from dich. ü
above photos are:
really grey lenses na extended wear
raspberry sorbet from hagen daz, no less
banyo. with hot water. haha and tub.
tiered black dress. ambot ah.
6 pairs of skinny jeans. bahala na passe.
minnetonka moccasin- i know this has been on my wishlist since forever.
queen bed with white linens.
where is santa claus? where is santa claus?
this time, i keep hanging around on the corner..
m's gud night is thru a verse. (God sends His love and His faithfulness.) i kinda feel so much better because at this point i am uber sensitive and felt like pmsing in the middle of the month.
--
"' One day I hate his guts and the next day I'm trying to be reasonable and even friendly. One day I'm crying at beer commercials, and the next I'm on the phone to my agent making jokes about how much better my career and life are going without him. One night I let him tuck A in, the next he walks in and I say, Hello Rasputin. And everywhere, everyone tells me to Let Go, but they don't tell me how. I'm flailing. I have good days and bad days, Cinderella and Sea Witch.'"
Split: A Memoir of Divorce - Suzanne Finnamore
i don't think anyone needs to go thru a divorce to feel this. everyone goes thru a good and bad day in the city. i think most girls my age would go thru this now..
how morbid would the day be when you tell yourself you are flailing.m describes me as the sea. the sea flounders, waves, flaps, and tumbles.. he aptly worded ME..
i'm okay now. (after having an uncontrollable crayola stint at bob's..) i come to think of this whole rigamaroo that i am in as something that should not be taken seriously.. for tomorrow it'll be better.. and the fishball treat is on.. and we have SL conversion aside from payday tomorrow. God sends His love! hehe.
kenji maoys constantly. another bukel on the nose. and kairi is pinked. i love my kids. haha.
nanny comes in at the end of the month. :)
we badly needed another washroom. hay.
gunyt world!
the sea and the fisherman,
Raen
zooey. day 9
after retiring from all his adventures.. benaiah worked with a carpenter named jules.
zooey remembered playing with davy, the carpenter's son..
and davy's cute pet squirrel, mojo..
one sunday afternoon she showed davy her secret hiding place..
and there she asked if she could kiss him..
davy agreed and she puckered her lips ready to kiss..
she leaned forward..then smmaack..
he turned red.. and started squealing.. and flinched like
he was having an epileptic seizure..
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
zooey. day 8
one lazy afternoon..after babysitting her cousins..
zooey rested at her fave spot..her own place of solitude..
here she watched sunsets and sunrises..
and observed the waxing of new moons..
shooting stars and making wishes..
she also remembered her
first kiss here 10 years ago..
whoa!
went boozing with nazel today. kay peer pressure man ang ia key word. we got booze from coco cabana, tas nag dinamak nami. haha.
dich saw me and yelled.. hoy, kinsa nibantay sa ako anak? something to that effect.. good thing si mommy of perpetual help saves the day! may tita nanny na si keken. whoo hoo!!! God is never too late.. siguro gipatilaw lang ko niya how to stay up late and be impervious to poop and booger..
and am taught some accountability to another and not just myself..
i don't like it. and masking carrying kairi is a task. she would cry when i carry her..i told m i am not ready to become a mama..
oa.
hehe. mabuang nako sa office love affairs. lingaw mag chismises. pero basig sabonon ko. so no. i'll be a spectator, gladiator. (corny.)
i blogged how i did not enjoy the helmet walk and the scuba diving chenes in boracay. and i now told m the real reason why i didn't have fun with it.. and wut prayer was i saying while underwater. ü
i reckon now that i am just being a TO BE rather than being a TO DO, i am getting more than what i've settled for. ü
i am happy. and complains less, this i've noticed as of late. :) maski pa other difficult people are still on my case and at times would go out of the way to make me look like a ditz, okay pa rin. ü it boils down to one thing.. ipises (cockroache-plural..) are a natural occurence..
i'm asked.. if 1 bite left sa cookie wud you share it with me?
i said: cookie monster. i wouldn't share.. i will let you have it.. ü
miss universe answer!
"and the elfin princess laid to rest..
on her bed of air..
she blinked once and blinked twice..
w/ birds chirping lullabies..
and her sweet prince rubbing her brows..
drifted off to lalaland.."
a needed whimsy
photos from tonight. at home and at work. 12/17/2008
And the Grinch, with his Grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags. And he puzzled and puzzled 'till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before. What if Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store. What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more.
Dr. Seuss
keebler elves' list..
petiks mode muna before ma drown sa quia and grammar quizzes. ♥
today, m made a list of his firsts with me. i almost cried. haha. i've always liked lists and surprisingly he has a list of me and him. maka kumos sang heart..(che-che lang..nag exaggerate naman ko..)
m: hey..
my list of 1sts with you..
-ur the first super kulitis..(*w/ edits)
-ur gift, 1st havaianas..ever..
-1st story telling text session..
-1st gurl i've met wearing contacts..
-1st gurl i've met, who has a sis that sucks pigs.
(told him a story how shobe saved the day. sucked some piglets' nostrils so the mucus would come out and the idiks lived to see their lechon day!)
sent him mine:
-ur the first guy who made a list about me/you
-ur the first guy who makes me read memory verses
-ur the first guy whom i gave havaianas to
-ur the first guy who would give me treats or tricks(*with edits- too corny my text)
-ur the first guy who viewed all my albums in friendster and scrutinized them throughout the night with me.. (edits..)
-ur the first guy who told me you missed me, out of the blue(am sure you don't remember, but i remembered..this was way back then)
-ur the first guy who texts me consistently
-ur the first guy whom i shared cakes with
-ur the first guy who will take me on a fishball treat!
-ur the first guy who didn't mind making our photo my primary friendster pic..
-ur the first guy who told me the nicest bed time stories..
-ur the first guy who says gud night in the nicest ways..
-and yeah you're the first guy who never kisses me back each time i say muah..
-i topped the nutbrown hare challenge cuz i came up with a longer list.. kaso he says i've two mistakes on my list..
#1- he remembered he said"hidlaw ko cmu ba.." long time ta ka wala kita sa floor// kis-a lang ko ga hambal i miss you.. so remember ko sin-o hambalan ko..
and #2.. mag kiss back ko once.. smackaroonies..
so minus two sa list ko..
good guys can do a girl well man gyd gali. haha.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
tummy ache relief
last. i can't save this on my phone for the longest time. so am typing before i'm gonna deletch this..
cuz i had a huge uncomfy tummy during the coffee and buko salad break with cee, m told me he'll help me forget about the tummy prob..
so here goes the story of the american pathfinder, the indian guide, the sick explorer, and the eagle's eggs..(taken from a movie..)
explorer: (sick with mysterious disease) he is talking in his sleep..delusional and hallucinating..
indian guide: tells american pathfinder.. i have all the herbs, all we need is the egg of an eagle..
american pathfinder: says- the last eagles we found were way back in the tree line(they are now in the summit.)..
pathfinder goes and starts descending the mountain..
finally pathfinder reaches bottom..
climbs a tall pine tree and at the very top finds an eagle's nest with 3 eggs..
he takes on then all of a sudden mother eagle swoops down and attacks..
he struggles and falls down.. luckily a series of branches breaks his fall..
tired and fatigued from the ordeal.. he forgets about his sick companion waiting for him up the summit..
he breaks and cooks the egg..
he quickly devours the egg..
then remembers his friend..
this time he does not forget about his friend..
he rushes towards the summit..
after a while he grows tired and hungry from all the bruises..
resting, he spots a buffalo.. he shoots it and cuts himself a nice strip of bacon..
while eating the first piece of bacon..he feels like something is missing..
he thinks.. of course! bacon and eggs..
he breaks the egg and forgets his troubles for a moment..
and he remembers his friend..
he sighs and climbs up the tree again..
gets the 3rd egg and same thing happens.. eagle attacks..
he falls..
pheeew.. he wipes his eyebrows and pauses for a few minutes and tells himself..
this is the last egg.. meditates on this..
after that he moves on..
towards the summit.. finally he reaches the top..hurries towards the camp..
but he slips.. the egg flies high.. everyone gasps..
he slides across the snow.. he catches it!
ooohs and aaaaahs around the camp.. what a save..
the indian guide goes outside to meet him.. she smiles..
pathfinder is still lying on the snow..
both hands gent
zooey. day 7
i got two of the zooey episodes today. cuz i think m was on avail or was on training til 2pm. so i got two more gifts. :)
i told him i liked the elves. i sometimes feel like an elf or a fairy cuz i have long ears. :) (time out sa from checking the online quiz cuz nalibat ko na..)
18 years old.. and 18 years w/out a mother.. finally zooey is a woman.. benaiah, confused and troubled on how to deal with her suitors.. or maybe not for zooey was an odd one.. for she never entertained her suitors.. and could not be swooned..
no seranade sung with angels' lips, luxurious gifts, or prestigious title could tame her wild heart..
♥
captivated by her father's stories.. of far kingdoms over mountains across or under oceans and seas.. enchanted forests with talking treants.. centaurs and other enchanted creatures, she wanted to fish and dive..
bears and beasts//
bunnies and cuddly furry things..
fishes and turtles..
but most of all she wanted to meet the keebler elves..
keebler elves made the most delicious cookies.. :-)
(footnotes: okay mark's fave cookies are from keebler- i said this twice. and i think we've talked about turtles. told him shobe's idiota and idioto were japanese, he tells me mojo who had pneumonia is chinese as categorized by the pet shop lady.. and i told him about our vampire bunnies that we made into bunny stew..normal online programming will resume..yofaaaaaaaaaaks check ug quiz..)
love serves.
my contact lenses are expired. last night, whilst putting the right lens on, i noticed pain on my right eye, it went right up to my the top of my eye socket waaaaaaay past the iris. hehe. today, dichee told me i've to get another one cuz i might wind up with a torn cornea. ü
so tonight, i am without my "eye brighteners" & wore my old unupdated glasses w/c donya nazel borrowed. she even got the ring that mike ong gave me. haha. so i'm without my "spectacles" and without THE ring. ü
i listened to dream a little dream mike buble version. and played it over and over. i can't sing it. how can anyone sing it? ü
i totally think our pamangkins would think they have the kewlest titas in the world and they wanna live in the same city with us. haha. che-che lang. assumptionista ko. hi to kring2x and ann2x. :)
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i am not the bravest person. yesterday when i handed my gift i did not notice that i was counting 1 locomotive 1 and counted up to 25 locomotive 25 and sat on the floor teary-eyed cuz i was too nervous to even give my present. after i got over dumping the gift on the floor i ran towards the trainer's office and told myself whoo-hoo!
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i have two stories today. about keebler elves. (m's fave cookies are from keebler:)
and i have a treat sometime this week or maybe next week. all i can eat fishballs. i hope m's not serious. i can eat at least a 20php worth of pisbols but not live down a fishball buffet! sky's the limit pa gyd dawwwwwwww.
haha.
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on domestication. kairi is looking more like mommy now. and well, kenji got another lip injury.and his lower lip bled. he didn't cry. i cried. letse oi.
'My nerves are bad to-night. Yes, bad. Stay with me
'Speak to me. Why do you never speak? Speak.
'What are you thinking of? What thinking? What?
'I never know what you are thinking. Think.'
-T.S. Eliot The Wasteland
smackaroonies!
Rayna
another starbucks' date.
timingan gyd bah, naka brown tah duha. daw duha ta ka side sg toasted mamon or toasted bread.
starbucks bacolod 12/15/2008.
hugs.
Monday, December 15, 2008
me, now.
the moment i met you i saw that you were quite unconscious of what you really are, of what you really might be. there was so much in you that charmed me that i felt i must tell you something about yourself.
the picture of dorian gray- oscar wilde
che-che lang. oscar wilde is heart.
happy thoughts.
hmmm..
happy thought..
scully.. ham..
beach.. snorkel..
indiana jones.. pa.. ma..
bros..sis..dawgs.. nat portman :-)
ice cream.. cake..
shawarma..farming..
fairy goblindancer..
♥
zooey. day 6
with only her father to raise her
zooey became more interested with masculine activities..
having no son benaiah trained zooey to survive with a knife
and her wits..
she learned to hunt, fish,
devise snares..
at a young age she was familiar with the ways of a tracker and
pathfinder..
we skipped day 7. sayang.
easy like a sunday morning
dec 15, 2008
i did not take photos of the cakes or that of the ball game. phone photos. low res. haha. babysat johnny's yza (she hearts me.. cuz i am daddy's friend, tito mark is daddy's friend as well- mark tells me she said "he is daddy's friend..")
and kairi friday night before am off to work..
dream a lil dream of me.
above photos are from yesterday. with yza at the ball game and with dich at home.
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
--
i liked this song. i said i'd learn it. but, i don't think i can.
i promised to sing the cares song, kaso lang wala pa right timing to sing it. hahaha.
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weekend was Über exhausting.
saturday: i think i got the bench and it was hideous, i had to repaint it/ varnish it. haha. but, i had fun putting maple lacquer on it in the evening. dich and i went to the salon in the afternoon and bought the tree. at last mafeel najud namo gamay ang presence sa holidays. :)
small group was cancelled so i stayed up and waited for m to finish his family's small group and he sent me the stuff i should read. we wrapped up past midnight na ata.
there are some things that i find amusing and baffling about Christianity and how people interpret things differently.
i don't know how to feel about Christmas or traditions (that are kinda nice) being taken away.
i was a bit teary-eyed/emotional about it. parang if you had a fave toy and your mum dumps it, that's like the feeling of not ever celebrating the holiday.
but, i am really happy to know wut m believes in and wut i might see for myself one day.
gosh, i thought i stayed up the whole saturday.
sunday: i did not do any errands. but, in the afternoon i went with m to the finals, their team won and i got an invite for dinner at lan ten because of yza who asked"will you go with us tita?" and whom i baby sat during the afternoon. she ate cookies and drank water. and i wiped her clean- hands and face with wet wipes after the game. :)
i let her smell my cologne and moisturizer and she asked if she can smell the blush as well. told her to read the scores for me cuz i cannot see. she asks, wut happened to your eyes? i showed her my contact lenses and let her touch them. we were fast friends after. told her who daddy's friends are.. those guys in blue, she asked wut about the red ones? told her those are non friends. hahaha.
some gal asked if m was my guy, i said indi pa. i hate pakialameras. lalo na di nako kilala maayo na tao or who used to be someone whom i thought was nice pero wala diay good thing to say about you.
so i told m wut i told the gal. :)
johnny's team had dinner at lan ten-johnny's treat. and i think i also got the invite cuz i went with m. tas nazel's boy crush is there as well. and an ass-sungot!
m's treat was dessert at calea- l sea..we had shared a slice of fruity cheesecake and choclit bombe. i did not tell him i actually had fun. i only told corny jokes.
(nyoks.)
and then there's friendster. we stayed up til 1 am maybe. and he was scrutinizing my photos.
he was too sleepy with the zooey story told him to just say gnyt.
angels ga play harp
kd ga sleep ka sa bed of clouds..
tuck ta ka dayun with a blanket nga may stars..
nyt2x..
hehe. there are such people in this city diay. rephrase, there is such a person like this in this city diay..
went out with cee today. starbucks. she brought me buko salad and i ate her leftover grapes pa. met some of the pensionados who are photo hobbyists. and they took some pictures of us.
then we bought paint in robi bought some gift(m tells me he'll guess wut my gift is.. he couldn't guess Hawaiian in Brazilian, so i told him it's the city in 300 movie, he tells me it's spartan.. :) and some house stuff at sm.
she gave me a green faceshop make up base. and i got me a weasel brush at last. :) (peta will sue me..)
smsd m whole day. and i also had 1 million laundry.
happy work week. God loves a cheerful giver. (e-remember nko ni if gabagolbol ko..).
Raen
Friday, December 12, 2008
zooey. day 5
but it is more meaningful...
when death brings forth new life...
the happiest day of benaiah's life was also the saddest...
for he lost a loved one but gained someone new to love..
today's story..
gibuhat ata ni in between slicing onions or taking calls. hehe.
nyt2x..
smackaroonies.. :-)
zooey. day 4
her complexion fair like the
clouds around sequoia's crest..
but frail she was..
oh.. but what a tragedy..
what a tragedy indeed..
yesterday's story.
gunyt bbbb.
party time, enjoy.
cuz anak ko sa kabus nauna nasad ko pila sa atm late afternoon today. yay to 13th month! haha. i ran errands for the family. and totally lacked sleep. i played with keken and kairi in the morning, good thing i did not babysit full time cuz ma and nanay took turns in babysitting the kiddies.
ken's xray went well. altho he looked like baby taz the doctors told ma he looked pogi and english spaka na bata. (hehe, he would say, no no no.. oh noooooooo! wow! pank pank pank!)
dich and i got more stuff for the house. tomorrow, madeliver na ang couch lagi bench diay. yey.
fowtanginang sheyts. kadaghan bahg Christmas party na mga cheneylins attendan oi. maka yofaks magshushal climb. chris requires me to bring sushi and sushi discussions become annoying bala gyd as of late.
i wanna join the accenture qa's party.
tonight, we had the tp great grand party, theme Caribbean, but, i cannot think of anything good to wear or doesn't have anything to wear, i decided to just not be in costume at all.
do you ever feel na masking there's a certain lack in your life, example money, a complete family, an opposite sex relationship, a really good job, but, at the end of the day you are in an eccentric way happy and blessed?
ana right now. or maybe because Christmas lang. and every lil thing that you have reminds you how lucky you are to be standing in that spot right now.
and yeah. we were suppose to buy a tree today. kaso dich told me i'd be too kawawa if i'd buy the tree and decide on the decorations pa. so we are getting the tree and the decorations tomorrow. sayang, shobe could've been here. 3 unta mi magdecorate.
long conversation with m. we both liked rob thomas. ever the same. and i can't top his statement today. i can fart a monsoon from here to the bahamas. the cutest.
oh, i don't like it when gelo remembers me in the wee hours. parang sobrang wrong. dapat when a person cares for you really, dapat that person should show it correctly. (ginpublic gyd ya?) or if that person doesn't really care for you then it's not necessary to freaking tell you that you're missed or loved cuz it boils down to ka eejitan.
date with cee tomorrow. finals sa ball game sunday. rooting for johnny's team cuz didto magplay si m. :)
oh, ricky was kind enuf and offered to drive me home today. na touche ko cuz he wasn't scared of the dirt road going to my place. and am seeing the small group tomorrow. yehey!
long quote. i've always loved neil. ♥ :) haha.
Raen
"Strange.
There are a hundred things she has tried to chase away the things she won't remember and that she can't even let herself think about because that's when the birds scream and the worms crawl and somewhere in her mind it's always raining a slow and endless drizzle.
You will hear that she has left the country, that there was a gift she wanted you to have, but it is lost before it reaches you. Late one night the telephone will sign, and a voice that might be hers will say something that you cannot interpret before the connection crackles and is broken.
Several years later, from a taxi, you will see someone in a doorway who looks like her, but she will be gone by the time you persuade the driver to stop. You will never see her again.
Whenever it rains you will think of her. "
— Neil Gaiman (Fragile Things: Short Fictions and Wonders)
teleperformance holidays 2008
okay before you know it new years na.
3 Christmas parties in the company..
the past 2 years in tp had been filled with blessings, embarrassment, new learnings, realization, and knowing who your real friends are(or knowing that you are not a real friend to somebody as well. hehe.), and meeting new people and travel, and puot.
it's been beautiful altogether despite the major set-back that i've experienced along the way.
photos from tonight's party on tp grounds. bongga decor. lechon baka. and nazel na feeling hostess sa party cuz na feel ko ang presence na ia tanan ang mga pics. and after party coffee at starbucks with nazel's teammates.
coffee care of nazel's new man ron/ronnie. ginsubay sila sa likod sg suv ni jack. :)
best money ever spent
my Christmas present to self. ♥
a new copy of the NIV although m tells me to get King James.
the cutest cover. there's a bumble bee and lady bug version, but, i got the butterfly.
:)
reminder to self that being a Christian does not mean being sin-free but being less oa ka pala-away and ngil-ad batasan. (note to self- ikaw na raen..)
my beautiful family
photos from today. 12/12/2008.
the loves of my life. thank You Jesus that these bruises and bumps are just bruises and bumps. wala na happen sa insides ni keken. and his sight is okay. gablinkadoodle lang sha cuz of the bruise.
ma took him to the pedia today. thank you for helping my family with prayers for the kiddies. from kairi's pneumonia and keken's rocky road experience.
God's been great. all the kiddies are healthy and my lola too.
Merry Christmas.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
mumble love update
photos this morning. 12/11/2008
gikumot ako dughan. mas sakit pa sa break ups.
we're seeing the pedia tomorrow.
the little nutbrown hare
okay, i know it's not my business pero maki beeswax selling nasad ko. i totally think impossible gyd cmu to keep a promise. well not a promise promise per se(mao ning sakto na spelling dhay..), pero if you continue to hang out with buki people and kabayo kids gyd babe it's your call. i don't have a say na man gyd with wut happens to you no matter how badly i'd feel about things or the stuff that would happen to you.
kalain lang ma associate cmu hangin' out with kabayo kids. tas here pa, sila mana gyapon mag suya cmu how ma-oy you are when in fact sila man gainvite sa imo and make you look ats if ikaw nag invite sa imo self. so there.
hahaha. ka nice sa opening aning post oi. kabayo kids and bolingits.
mommy and kairi left cebu for bacolod today. here's the link to the photos of kairi before she left her folks na ga emotivs. you know the drill. click on the hearty.
♥
ken's bruise got to the right eye area when i got home in the morning, tas to the left eye in the afternoon. i am worried sick. i was emotional when i saw him. he hugs best and lambings best. kawawang bata. me and ma will go see a pedia tomorrow. dich is emotional as well. i think normal occurence lang man for kids to get bumps and bruises. but, kenji gets so many of them. we will start him drinking malunggay juice this weekend. haaaaaaaaay.
13th month tomorrow! yey. haha. i am not going shopping. i have to buy stuff for the apartment to make it more livable. and save.
i think i totally got over the shoppingera mode. yofaks na.
m and i have this odd game started. it was his idea though. well, i did not have anything to say to him this afternoon cuz i was too tired and was watching satc(i am passe, pardon me..) and was drooling over the apartments, new york city, the girls' jobs, shushi, and how big carrie's closet is so i wasn't concentrating on our conversation. i told him i can't think of anymore questions to ask him.
tahnight, he had this brilliant idea and told me we play nutbrown hares. i asked the most eeeejiotic question. who'd be big nutbrown hare and lil nutbrown hare? he said either.
so we'd top each other's statement. example. i love apples right to the very core. and i'd say i can eat the seeds. (i know. sorry. corny kaau.) i told him i can text him from dusk til dawn. he topped it with: i can text you from sunrise to sunrise.
:)
and so, i have a date on my 27th birthday. i'd get to choose the place and time. yeah.
so i am choosing 21. i haven't told him yet. cuz the past 2 years i've celebrated my birthday in that restaurant and it'll be great if i turned 27 there.
i wanted a christmas tree. pero ambot oi, if i put up a christmas tree hasslefeck panghipos after the holidays.
my couch gets finished tomorrow. yey. di bitaw sha couch oi, it's just a bench. but who cares.
i finished typing the ending of guess how much i ♥ you, and accidentally deleted it. letse.
okay. i can't wait for 5 am to see m and 6 am so i can see kairi.
God's been great. He had been steadfast with His love and He knows that even before i take my step, my path is already prepared. i would've been spared from more hurtings and bruises if only i learned to obey early on.
i think, sakto si carrie(am not sure if i quoted it verbatim).. you make the mistakes at 20, learn the lessons at 30, and pay the drinks at 40. maaaaaan, i cannot wait for my 40s. it'll be a blast am sure.
aside from books, i want a turtle- a japanese turtle and a jack russell. (gaya gaya to the maximum ang lola nyo.)
i got my zooey part 4 before i slept this morning. kaso my phone went lowbatt i couldn't post it tonight.
happy holidays!
eop mananjeti!
Rayna.
two quotes for today:
I'm nobody, who are you?
Emily Dickinson
and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and god help you if you are a phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying past
-Ani Difranco
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
guess how much i ♥ you.
GUESS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU
by Sam McBratney
©1994 Sam McBratney
Little Nutbrown Hare, who was going to bed, held on tight to Big Nutbrown Hare's very long ears.
He wanted to be sure that Big Nutbrown Hare was listening.
"Guess how much I love you," he said.
"Oh, I don't think I could guess that," said Big Nutbrown Hare.
"This much," said Little Nutbrown Hare, stretching out his arms as wide as they could go.
Big Nutbrown Hare had even longer arms. "But I love YOU this much," he said.
Hmm, that is a lot, thought Little Nutbrown Hare.
"I love you as high as I can reach." said Little Nutbrown Hare.
"I love you as high as I can reach," said Big Nutbrown Hare.
That is quite high, thought Little Nutbrown Hare. I wish I had arms like that.
Then Little Nutbrown Hare had a good idea. He tumbled upside down and reached up the tree trunk with his feet.
"I love you all the way up to my toes!" he said.
"And I love you all the way up to your toes," said Big Nutbrown Hare, swinging him up over his head.
"I love you as high as I can HOP!" laughed Little Nutbrown Hare, bouncing up and down.
"But I love you as high as I can hop," smiled Big Nutbrown Hare - and he hopped so high that his ears touched the branches above.
That's good hopping, thought Little Nutbrown Hare. I wish I could hop like that.
"I love you all the way down the lane as far as the river," cried Little Nutbrown Hare.
"I love you across the river and over the hills," said Big Nutbrown Hare.
That's very far, thought Little Nutbrown Hare. He was almost too sleepy to think any more. Then he looked beyond the thorn bushes, out into the big dark night. Nothing could be further than the sky.
"I love you right up to the MOON," he said, and closed his eyes.
"Oh, that's far," said Big Nutbrown Hare. "That is very, very far."
Big Nutbrown Hare settled Little Nutbrown Hare into his bed of leaves. He leaned over and kissed him good night.
Then he lay down close by and whispered with a smile, "I love you right up to the moon - AND BACK."
am on the first day of sharing a bed time story.
i hate morning shifts and evening shifts.
i wish we all had the same shift and the stories would not wait.
i hafta wait til 6 am tomorrow for the zooey thingy..
this would be a 3 part series. i typed the whole stuff on my phone.
kasakit sa kamot.
m's story might be better cuz it's original. i guess.
and am told that tonight it's bright outside..
and the sky has this red hue..
i no longer live in a building with a rooftop, so i wouldn't know..
kasapot this whole guessing game today. i thunk i guessed his birthday correctly without cheating. (i almost did. )but, i'm good at guesses.
indulge me. am yawyawing my heart out.
(eureka article # 062985)
some people in this city are beautiful lang gyd abi.
so it goes..
link to kairi's new photos from shobe's multiply.. too lazy to upload the photos myself.. click on the hearty..
♥
sayang, had been missing luna mystica and the guy already falls for luna the panget gal, cuz not all panget gals have zero personality i guess or maybe that's how it is in free tv and literature.
okies, remember the bible story when lot turned back tas nahimo sha pillar of salt? i kinda felt like it's not me when i feel bitter ocampo, and i don't think i am ever gonna be bitter ocampo, lot was just somehow am not sure wut's the word, maybe melancholic or nostalgic of wut was home to her then.
it's just that the other day, when i saw the ticket for our apartment's rent, my name was on it and not gelo's. parang it hit me hard that ako nalang gyud diay sa place and there's not a trace of anything from him there except that canister of the abercrombie store smelling cologne..
tas today, i saw his birthday posted on the wall at work. gelo- 16th.it's abit hard not to notice the loss or wutevs it is that's not there anymore.yawn lang. and i guess that's how lot turned into a pillar of salt..
my eyes got stung with salt the past few days and today.
oa-ness.
the worst! keken's bukol hurts me more than anything. my penguin is nothing short of a miracle when we got him. tas this bukol is sooooo humungouos. buti nalang he did not faint. he just cried but managed to smile when i took pictures.baby sitter's club forever.
m asked me whether my penguin was asleep.
i told him kenji slept on my tummy. he then told me we're like snoopy and woodstock. and snoopy says that having friends is hard on the tummy.
:)
and if i stayed really patient, i might actually have a date on my 27th birthday. haha. :) (late twenty's na daw ni.:)
i love my life.
grace like rain falls every day,
rayna.
hump-ty dump-ty
whilst naka sleep si tita..
nag run around si keken. nabangga. the best bukol so far..
zooey. day 3
adventurer and historian..
and her mother Lady Jenni;
a beauty like no other.
eyes as clear as the blue sky..
i told m a story of the potty monster and the kid who should not wear nappies anymore and then he says he can't sleep. so i told him the story of the nutbrown hare. (guess how much i love you..) short cut version. :)
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
december starbucks date
we weren't able to get coffee, store opens at 6a and closes at midnight. we were 1 hour late. :)
so we just took pictures. :) & grabbed lunch at jollibee. mcdo's closed too. :(
Starbucks represents something beyond a cup of coffee.
Howard Schultz
casts: janrae, nazel, rae
zooey. day 2.
in a village nestled on top of
giant sequoia trees..
sandwiched between clouds..
the village between heaven and
earth..
the epic story of zooey
starts here..
to be continued..
(tonight am told two next episodes are already done. will be sent when am ready to sleep na.:)