i'm not that oblivious after all...

news is...

  

Trean’s dad got promoted to team leader. Yehey!

Sobrang answered prayer siguro yun. Anyhoo teej deserved a promotion. Una, he had the experience, second, he did a 180 change. I am glad jeremy is actually his friend.

I wanted wave 1 promoted. Sana sana. Maraming untapped talents. And the promotion to another account is actually a good sign that my company(nangangkun) promotes people by their performance and not thru politicking(?? Spell check)…

Anyhoo, this brings me to someone I thought I knew in the past. Murag sayang cuz kibaw ko that this person is a potential, wa ra niya gi-prayhan ug gipaningkamutan na magtinarung sa work. Na mas nindot sya mutake calls amongst others-wa’y pabor pabor. Anogon rako niya cuz pa-wa rajud sya sa work. Diba, maganda kung ang tao may ambition? Pero ganahan man sya ma comm coach. Ipa-comm coach sya eh. Hehehe. :)

And cee. Well, she among most people is another untapped potential. Timid and seemingly meek man gud sya. But, one day soon, she’ll do well in our account. Again, wala’y pabor pabor. Bwehehehe.

Things are turning out great. :) have a great work week!!!!

God Bless.

♥

Raenyberry

"Paddling around in the alphabet soup

of one's childhood,scooping up letters,

hoping to arrange them into enlightening

sentences that would explain why

things had turned out the way they had."

 

 

Love is a Mix Tape

"I was helpless in trying to return people's kindness, but also helpless to resist it. Kindness is a scarier force than cruelty, that's for sure. Cruelty isn't that hard to understand. I had no trouble comprehending why the phone company wanted to screw me over; they just wanted to steal some money, it was nothing personal. That's the way of the world. It made me mad, but it didn't make me feel stupid. If anything, it flattered my intelligence. Accepting all that kindness, though, made me feel stupid.

Human benevolence is totally unfair. We don't live in a kind or generous world, yet we are kind and generous. We know the universe is out to burn us, and it gets us all the way it got Renee, but we don't burn each other, not always. We are kind people in an unkind world, to paraphrase Wallace Stevens. How do you pretend you don't know about it, after you see it? How do you go back to acting like you don't need it? How do you even the score and walk off a free man? You can't. I found myself forced to let go of all sorts of independence I thought I had, independence I had spent years trying to cultivate. That world was all gone, and now I was a supplicant, dependent on the mercy of other people's psychic hearts."

--from Rob Sheffield's Love is a Mix Tape: Life and Loss, One Song at a Time

unencumbered numbered words

See I'm all about them words 

Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words 

Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words 

More words than I had ever heard 

And I feel so alive 

Jason Mraz

 

 

besot   \bih-SAHT\  verb
1 : infatuate
2 : to make dull or stupid; especially : to muddle with drunkenness

The Story Behind the Word
Does the very sight of your darling leave you drunk with love this February? Consider yourself besotted. Our modern word "besot" developed from a combination of the prefix "be-" and "sot," a now obsolete word meaning "a habitual drunkard." "Sot" in turn comes from the Old English "sott," which was used as a noun meaning "fool" or "drunkard" and as a verb meaning "to stupefy." In its "infatuation" sense, "besot" is most often turned into a participial adjective, a role it is likely to play in literary musings on "besotted lovers." The first known use of "besotted" was in Sir Thomas North's 1580 translation of Plutarch's Lives, in which Antonius was described as "besotted by Cleopatra."

billet-doux  \bill-ee-DOO\  noun
: a love letter

The Story Behind the Word
The first recorded use of the French word "billet-doux" (literally, "sweet letter") in an English context occurs in John Dryden's 1673 play Marriage a-la-Mode. In the play, Dryden pokes fun at linguistic Francophiles in English society through the comic character Melanthe, who is described by her prospective lover Rodophil as follows: "No lady can be so curious of a new fashion as she is of a new French word; she's the very mint of the nation, and as fast as any bullion comes out of France, coins it immediately into our language." True to form, Melanthe describes Rodophil with the following words: "Let me die, but he's a fine man; he sings and dances en Francais and writes billets-doux to a miracle."

osculate  \AHSS-kyuh-layt\  verb
: kiss

The Story Behind the Word
"Osculate" comes from the Latin noun "osculum," meaning "kiss" or "little mouth." It was included in a dictionary of "hard" words in 1656, but we have no evidence that anyone actually used it until the 19th century (except for scientists who used it differently as a word for "contact"). Would any modern writer use "osculate"? Ben Macintyre did. In a May 2003 (London) Times piece entitled "Yes, It's True, I Kissed the Prime Minister's Wife," Macintyre wrote, "Assuming this must be someone I knew really quite well, I screeched 'How are you,' . . . and leant forward preparatory to giving her a chummy double-smacker . . . Perhaps being osculated by lunatics you have never seen before is one of the trials of being a Prime Minister's wife. She took it very well."

 

m-w.com :) ilove

love serves

march 1 na, the penguin will be off in 14 days. i've to take muchos pics. he can feed himself na. yehey.

no ginamus for today.bow.

 

At times I do not really care whether there are 2 calls or a hundred waiting to be bumped off the queue// feeling ko the QA department is an appendix(ano ba spelling ng body part na useless?)// that they can do without us// anyhoo, I still should work on mustering my courage to take calls when necessary or when needed… speaking of courage, I still am working on getting thru the white cat that makes tambay on my stairs at night// or when I already smell dogs on that dark street that I’ve to pass thru every work day. Argh.

 

Okits, I wonder why panget ppl have the attitude. Diba, panget na nga, they’ve dili pa makaon na irits na attitude// I mean okits lang maging irits if you were borne pretty.

 

It’s been two straight days that I’ve been having a hard time waking up// ganiha, I felt like not wanting to go to work, but, I do not have my boss’ number and I don’t have an excuse to be absent. Diba, people can really sense when you’re not ill? Ayun.

 

How many freaking times should we ask them to follow the call flow?

 

That’s a work-related shout out. I’ve been tired lately. I mean, I haven’t been out, wala man gne ko gatext anyone but mike ty (cuz I wanted to get my tush to davao and magpalibre niya, one sweet day) who mentioned that he is in charge of OR tonight; or mu-go out for dinner or mu-hello sa mall. Wa. Natug rako. I did not even bother babysitting kenji cuz I know ma and the neighbors would gladly do it. I slept.  But, I changed kenji’s nappy and wiped him clean before I slept. (ug gibutangan ug acete de manzanilla ug crema protective ug gi-massage ug gipulbosan… :) He is the most beautiful sleeping being there is when I took off for work tonight.

 

Good news, am not broke. Haha. One thing I learned from the camp the past weekend was to be frugal with my keep. Toinks. And mak was mentioning so many things about savings and not getting loans because it’s not going to be wise for anyone. True.

 

Make today better please. Oh, You who sees the sparrows fall. ;)

 

 

 

God bless cebu. And mactan.bow.

Raenyberry

“A fall from the third floor hurts as much as a fall from the hundredth.

 If I have to fall, may it be from a high place.” <3 Coelho

 

bff

wahihihi.suya tuwad.

dear joshua harris

if you haven't written any of yer books, some couples since college would've gotten married, would've had children, some gal would've been a bride.

nonetheless, you've saved aplenty from salt-stung eyes.

 

accm.toink.

eds congratulations. hehehe. disney character kana. toinks. sobrang losers natin, we forgot to bring a cam last weekend. am not telling ppl, but, you and mickey looked so akin. haha. :)

save us

us, today. petix mode. :)

san goken

27 feb 2007/love// nahilum sad after nako gilamba lamba//

putting it together

Eduardo’s forwarded email about the ring (it's attached) shook the, pardon my language, crap out of me…

I started my day with a difficult task because we are supposed to start a shift with something difficult, this way it would not eat up the rest of our day// then again some agent’s call would totally ruin it for me. For instance, there’s this technician whose calls are really loooong and boooring. If only I could do away with her calls. Then there’s this technician who seemed like he has learning disabilities. Parang sa iamsam na guy. At times it would get to me cuz instead of listening to their calls for 27 minutes it would take me an hour to do so. And mygawdforgiveme… they’ve been doing these calls for a hundred days, I still could not see improvement. To be fair to someone who I am not so fond of, at least her calls improved drastically, from being a totally clueless cher who could not do customer service to someone who knew her stuff. Diba? That is SOMETHING? Sighs. They should quit punishing me and czarina. Parangawa.

 

God is telling me that maybe I should just let these trivial things go though. I forgot wut I had read in my devotional before I slept. Grrr. Anyhoo, if there’s one thing that I should be reminded of, that is to pray for one person who needed to be covered in prayer the whole time. I mean, wut if april would not come to past? Oh it would…but, wut if one loses someone to the bad guys out there? Then I wouldn’t recover. Who can ever recover from losing a person to death?

 

 

Oh today, shobe smsd. She wanted those japayuki havs which I failed to get her back in December… imiss her. At times, I wish I could see her everyday, or maybe, we were living in the same city. Maybe, this is really growing up, maybe you’d eventually end up not sharing the same city, but, you’d still be grounded on the same commonalities, us, our being sisters.

 

Ayun, that brings me to asking God for more of those valid, shared moments. Haha. I could not wait for cebu. I could not wait for answered prayers. I wonder why I am so sure of everything right now. I know I thought I was certain last year because I mentioned that my keyword would be CERTAINTY for 2007 until everything about family and plans turned out to be otherwise. And yet, I know that He is the God of certainty and good acceptable perfect plans. He will deliver wut was promised.

 

Did I tell you before captain went away, he left one old tract? I INFORMED him that I’ve heard it several times already, I’ve been discipled some years back; he said, I know, but, you are a Christian feeding on milk, not on solid food. Toinks.

 

Am still not over with last weekend: I was walking with this frown when Cito Beltran asked; are you okay? The dork that I am replied with: yes, I am, thank you. Then walked away. Toinks.

 

Kenji has been colicky today; good thing the nanny of lil davey- my cute next door-i-am-batman 7 year old neighbor rocked him to sleep.

 

I’ve been really cranky since yesterday. My shoulder blades hurt big time. I’ve never felt this sore, literally. Okits, I’d still be Brea today.  

 

And to those who are adding me in as a multiply contact; am sorry if I could not add you back. I am keeping my contacts to a select few who I wanna bother with my daily posts. ;)

 

 

God Bless. :)

Raenyberry

 

This is fish number six hundred
and forty-one in a lifetime of goldfish.
My parents bought me the first one to teach me
about loving and caring for another
living breathing creature of God.
Six hundred and forty fish later,
the only thing I know is
everything you love will die."
- Chuck Palahniuk

 

Attachment: thering2.ppt

funny how

we can talk about the silliest things before,

then now, even one single topic would end in a non-sentence that is trailed by dot dot dot.

:(

atik ra oi, di na btw ko mu-emote. am gonna be on my brea(of desperate housewives') mode from now on...

 

rest day mayhem part dos

on the road to mambukal/ dich et family/ my san goken//

refresh rate.good to know.

john, ngaa may lines each time the pc screen is captured on videos and cameras?

our eyes could not catch the thousands of beeps raen, but, these gadgets can. these beeps are the refresh rate...

ditziness, go away.

 

 

how bad can it get?

like chin, my phone quit on me. so did the charger. sighs. but, the sms that i've been waiting for all day has been sent.

hay, why can't some ppl say things in a politically correct way? for instance, i mentioned that there should be no worries, i was just stressed. dili man ata tama sultion na ayyyy abi nako na-ano ka na. nge.

wukits, i told everyone am meeting Him at the mountains. and i will leave my baggages there. jeremy, who lost some 10lbs to stress, asked what's my real issue why wouldn't i bring my tush to church when he volunteered to drive me to church.

and then again, i could honestly tell jer or anyone, i left my baggages and boiled them in the sulfur springs of mambukal. hard boiled. one weekend long. so why is it that i still come to his defense when ppl would doubt his 180 degree change?

enuf said.

see you cebu. haha. see you mactan. toinks.

oh, dich and cpus came to visit last weekend. malyn and teej came by and spent almost the rest of the afternoon at my place.

mak johnny et eduardo and i had dinner at bacolod chicken house(me doubts)// we showed mak around cuz he missed the bus to cebu. he opted to take the plane.

at times ppl would not cease to amaze me. how little would it take to make someone happy. masking friendster lang. and how God can make filipinos out of malaysian and chinese//

have a great work week. He stands faithful.

God Bless everyone.

sugar coated Christianity, past forward.

i know, i've whined too much about accomodations and setting the correct expectations when i learned that i would've to be sharing the quarters with the management team of dunkin donuts cebu and i'd be sleeping on the lapag. i threw the hugest temper fit friday night, i wailed, stomped my feet, and even swore my head off saying milk, milk, milk. i even smsd vincent and told him i was having a hard time on the boondoks of mambukal, murcia. bow. however, God was actually testing how far my patience would go, and when will i snap, and how will i stand patient for Him.

i realized that most of those who claim they are Christians are actually losers...we are truly going to be losers because we will lose this gift if we do not share it, if we'd still let our own ego and selves steer our wheel. kaya nga siguro may song na Jesus take the wheel.

i am came to a fork in the road right now when i've to choose whether i've to live alone this way my mom wouldn't have a say in anything that i do with my keep or with my actions. but, i guess God wanted me to know that i needed my family near this way i'd know how a family works.

the past weekend i spent in mambukal with eds and johnny, little did i know would actually revive my relationship with my God. and how i actually belittled His ways when i thought that "these ppl are clueless of who YOU really are, some do not have a personal relationship with YOU. some might've heard of YOU, but, WHO will YOU be in their lives during this camp? when we are all expecting some machiavellian way of leadership or of maximing our influence..." yet, as always, the little that we know is an idiotic measure of the greatness of the Maker.

the speakers were a great team, pastor roy versoza, rex resurrecion, and cito beltran.

saturday, we ended up having a team building. we endured 2 hours of running, carrying ppl on our shoulders, racing back and forth to certain points in mabukal, rowing, figuring words out, and putting together our country's map.

sunday's dawn worship stirred me, when we were praying, a sudden gust of wind blew.

andoy mentioned that he thought he came just so he could be a better manager of his shop, then he learned that the bible is actually the instructional manual of our lives.

mak, refreshed me with how it is to be the salt.  (while we were waiting for the guards to let us in, after dinner at bcd chicken house, andhoping that he could find the soonest way to cebu)...

eds and johnny, iknow that out of the 500 ppl in TP. we were sent not just because, we were sent because HE works.

 

mak.

bow.

na amazed sya sa call center

love personified

maka inlove ako penguin. 22feb2007

fly away little cloud fly

oh, don't you hate pesky acquaintances whom you will bump into in the most obscure or unlikely places? if you were to endup seeing someone say, in new york, then that wouldn't be something amazing cuz everyone would want to be there, but,if you bumped into someone in edmonton,canada diba, freaky? wut more pa kaya in bacolod pilipinas? mas odd! i'd end up seeing the freak at the leadership training this weekend. i even forgot how the Freak was named.... hehehe. hala Lord oi, makasa nasad ko. atut.

yesterday was fun. BPI had the best service//you'd get to see decent looking people pod. ha!

then czar caught up with me, we had bunch of lunch, the piglets that we are...oh must try, yung OA katam-is na watermelon mint cooler from shakey's. :) maka-happy. :)

we did a lil retail therapy, then we became instant fans of the local band josiah. czar asked for their autographs. or we did. (she got the cd)... gawd. the littlest things you find here in bacolod. grabeh ka cheap thrills. maka-lipay.

my mom asked how's my luyo when i got home, i answered: okay na man guro ni ma, naka-shopping man gud ko. she gave me that puzzled look na ha?

gawd. my dichee's coming over. yey. my piglet is the most adorable pink lil biik na jud. everyday i fall in love... he'd burp and fart the loudest. magkulob tas e-eat iya ten ka fingers// sighs. i'll miss him over the weekend since am going away.

i saw kalvin's family. it's beautiful. nainggit ko. 

♥

Raenyberry

"...I shambled after as usual

as I've been doing all my life

after people that interest me,

because the only people that interest me

are the mad ones,

the ones who are mad to live,

mad to talk,

desirous of everything at the same time,

the ones that never yearn

or say the commonplace thing...

but burn, burn, burn

like roman candles across the night."

 

magi.imissyouloveyou

and her lil one. :)

my impromptu church buddy//the best reminder of patience and being quiet and kind and nice and being the girliest girl// loveloveyou. (kahilakon ko. :)

our next runway project

payat et moi were choosing between the stripes from kamiseta or the neutrals/basics from plains and prints. we both wanted the latter. :) i.e. pamburol/pankasal/pambinyag. wagi. <3
22feb2007

sunday reclaimed

gireclaim ang alcohol. :)
18-19 feb 2007, eds place then mcdo east.

it's going to be a sunday ritual.yeah.

pepe's with the best ppl around//good company and great food// 18feb2007//coffee at bob's//

i'll fly away.

dear jovel and ellen,

ihope you guys are doing okay. len, iwish we've taken tons of pics together. in case you'd say i forgot when you guys went and flew away to some place fun...here's my song for you. iwish you guys enough. be in peace. muagh. <3

icanbeserious,

rae

 

i'll fly away.mga garapon sa lapok

Some bright morning when this life is over, I'll fly away

To a home on God's celestial shore, I'll fly away

When the shadows of this life have gone, I'll fly away

Like a bird from these prison walls, I'll fly away

I'll fly away, oh glory, I'll fly away

When I die, hallelujah by and by, I'll fly away

Oh how glad and happy when we meet, I'll fly away

No more cold iron shackles on my feet, I'll fly away

I'll fly away, oh glory, I'll fly away

When I die, hallelujah by and by, I'll fly away

Just a few more weary days and then, I'll fly away

To a land where joy will never end, I'll, I'll fly away

I'll fly away, oh glory, I'll fly away

When I die, hallellujah by and by, I'll fly away
I'll fly away, I'll fly away, I'll fly away, I'll fly away

 

fine! i resolve that

on some days i look like san goku. who cares.

 

he is the cutest man sad. you jerk.

At the Crossroads

Start:	Feb 23, '07 07:00a
End:	Feb 25, '07
Location:	mambukal, negros occidental

some good stuff at work//mambukal weekend// with eds and johnny//am i lucky or am i lucky?

diw Lord

again You'd give me things that i wouldn't ask for// You even gave me this cheery disposition today. wut more can i ask but,

for You not to take it away. <3

and You know that this is the first prayer i breathed today.

 

 

when i grow up i will be HER

hehehe. baliw. the prettiest person on the planet. iloveloveher. she's witty/gregarious/really brave and her job is something that i'd want to be doing. <3



lisaling. :) google her.

ohlove.

i did the abs thingy today for TP. pakauwaw. am sooo inta. sooo ilonggo galores. hahaha. it'll be shown a day before my birthday. murag, mao nani sya ako rite of passage or something like it. toinks. hopefully i did not look soooo embarrassing. hay.

my taxes are way too much. when will the philippines quit taxing their ppl?! pag naging banana republic na siguro.

ohlove. si kenji kay muburp tas there'd be milky substance na scarey iya e-puke. nashock ko yesterday ay. i took him to the roof top, tas he would watch the cars pass by, then he would stay quiet. grabeh. my lil piglet is so mabait. tas i tried changing his diapers and cleaned him/wiped him to a squeaky clean. he stayed put. it gets taxing when he cries rajud. the whole night he would wake up then wail. i placed his diapers loose diay. bobeta.bugitsmommy.com.

i wonder why other ppl from my department have issues. it can't be that bad man siguro.

like it's not so bad seeing the jerk and telling me that my hair is like that of dragon ball. iya gani kay makita na ang sungay. aside from that nganu mu-ask man sya if si payat musimba? wahahaha. gi-ask pod nako sya kinsa ni ask. dah.

kerby would have the most unlikely way of making my day. masking para ra sa mga bugits amo mastoryahan at times. at least, i'd still have a way to recount my steps in the ateneo.

theuniverse, iwant my sisters. and fifay. help.

let's hit the road! go!

 

Raenyberry

IF IT WERE not for our conception

of weights and measures we would

stand in awe of the firefly

as we do before the sun.

 

this love

my lil penguin 21feb 2007

mush.a year after.

just so u'd know i am elated gettin' that 15 to 30 minute dash to the
convenience store at the ground floor wit you. you in that green or sometimes pink shirt.
that geeky smile. that really immature way of how you look at the world.
seeing you talk about her. and mentioning her name. you're exhilarating.
you are exhausting. you are a vice. a bad habit i'd never quit.
you and that yakisoba sauce stucked at the back of yer spoon.
yes, you.
 
xoxo

 

 

footnotes: usa ra ako masulti, pan-os na ang yakisoba

examine crimson events

wootwoot. i've an interview tomorrow. it's mass media. think ka-pamilya. sayang, it's not about korean soap and commercials. *) hehehe// it's going to be about my so-so job and my so-so work place. glamified/inta-fied.

i asked the tp PR guy to get me a copy of the vid. then i'll load it in multiply. wahihi. unsa ni//shameless self promotion? pero if i don't show up, they may get payat to do it for them. :) at least cebu gals represent. banawa et mandaue in the house. yeah. buang ka lebbeus. naka krung krung hiphop language ko kalit. peer pressure. bad influence.

i should begin making a folio for kenji. he will have THE BOOK. then will look for an agent for him. at least mapagkakwartahan ko penguin ko. yey.

 

not safe but better.

When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn't make the darkness go away.

The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking.

When we hold each other, we feel not safe, but better.

"It's all right," we whisper. "I'm here. I love you."

And we lie: "I'll never leave you."

For just a moment or two, the darkness doesn't seem so bad.

 

-- Neil Gaiman

 

 

Set up restore point

 

My bills are killing me// mas makadepressed when I think of it// plus, EPCI bank’s customer service sucked to the heavens. I loathe it that am acting timid and wouldn’t even say anything but, IT’S OKAY, because I do not know how to seriously do that inta maldita na pangasaba in ilonggo. Bull. When I got home Malyn got me to go with her to do a go see (wow, go see daw o) at the apartment that they’d want to rent. Gawd. The place is HUGE AND PRETTY AND ALL THE NICE ADJECTIVES CREATED, sayang I did not get to take pictures. Tas you can just walk to work if yer not too lazy… pero it’s 10k…and it’s all in the shades of costly and lofty. Malyn wanted me to live with them/share the place/ I get one room-to the east and they’d get the west room. We’d have two living rooms and we’d have 2 verandas, ithink and we’d have the whole place looking like a house because they’ve every piece of furniture and home appliances. I told Kerby about it, not the whole deal, but, them or Malyn wanting me there. He said kagubot ba nimu dra. Hehehe.// now, that I think of it, I am totally totally absorbed with my own daily-ness that I tend to forget that there are other people who are still alive. Read: stephie whom I miss every day, my 2 sisters, Verlaine, jacel, jaez,joey, karya, Vanessa… plus yeah, Kermit would ask me how iam at least twice or thrice a month. So I guess, I still have a life other than TP Bacolod.

 

It’s denim love yesterday, by myself. I should quit this habit, wa najud ko masave. And according to lebbeus baduy man daw ko manamit. Wahihihi. Nahurt ko mga 15 seconds then I got over it because all he knew about life and clothes are hip hop. And am not a hip hop gal. Grover! Grabeng over.  ;)

 

My shoulder blades hurt, left side. All the salonpas in the world would not help//

 

Google dysfunctional. I am slowly realizing that this word is becoming me.

Ilove ma and kenji. Ilove my mom for taking care of my laundry and my piglet and my groceries. When will our household become normal? It’s been abnormal since I learned the word puberty and sectarian. (waaaaaah, lagpas)…

Ilove my sisters. I should declare that I have a beautiful family every day. This way though loneliness gets me, am not gonna go wallow about my move here.

 

God, set up a restore point, where everything should be working well.  <3

 

Kathra smsd in the middle of the night. I don’t know how to fight the blues mareng dyosa. Ambot, depende sa mga duende na. Hihihi.

 

Ayyyy, universe, I badly wanted 500k. give! (ni haggle nko ha, I don’t need a million peso na :)

 

Kenji smells like soured milk. Hehehe. My nephew is a darling.

 

and oh! vanessa, am sorry i did not call. i remembered yer birthday. here's a wishing to yer 25th. that you may find the best life there is for you this year and that every day you'll do okay because you have been one of the finest gal pals i've had in my entire life. mwagh. love you muchos.

 

Jeremy called last night. I asked him to pray for me. I did not know that soliciting prayers would cost him a phone call. Yessss, am in dire need of prayers. Help. Pero tabangi pod ko ampo para sa 500 krung. Hehehehe.

 

See you guys. God Bless.

 

♥ the loneliest girl in piayaland,

Raenyberry

This is fish number six hundred
and forty-one in a lifetime of goldfish.
My parents bought me the first one to teach me
about loving and caring for another
living breathing creature of God.
Six hundred and forty fish later,
the only thing I know is
everything you love will die."
- Chuck Palahniuk

 

mga garapon sa lapok

 

please pass. :) sing it to me once more. and more. and still more.

Hymn

Oh refuge of my hardened heart
Oh fast pursuing lover come
As angels dance 'round Your throne
My life by captured fare You own

Not silhouette of trodden faith
Nor death shall not my steps be guide
I'll pirouette upon mine grave
For in Your path I'll run and hide


Chorus:
Oh gaze of love so melt my pride
That I may in Your house but kneel
And in my brokenness to cry
Spring worship unto Thee


When beauty breaks the spell of pain
The bludgeoned heart shall burst in vain
But not when love be pointed king
And truth shall Thee forever reign


[Chorus]


Sweet Jesus carry me away
From cold of night, and dust of day
In ragged hour or salt worn eye
Be my desire, my wellspring lie


[Chorus x 2]


Spring worship unto Thee
Spring worship unto Thee

penguin bath time

shiney wasted ppl.

2/19/2007

VISTIBLE OIL.

 

Who restarted my PC?

Labad najud ning ako mundane existence//and I kept looking back for the scraps that I might have left when all that I should be doing is to KEEP WALKING(Johnny Walker keep walking sa mga ma-oy pa)… the first day of the week’s shift is a bummer//and if I would constantly keep breaking down at the start of my work week or in the middle of it or when I feel rusty every so often…I think I should start asking Joe’s question: WADAHELLAMIDOINGHERE? Am glad Czar’s around. I could not say thank you enuf jud. I reckon that the female hormones are the best examples of eccentricity at its best. Whoopa! I was like in my perky chit-chatty mode exchanging OA over the weekend news with Javin, until I came across things posted on the worldwideweb of him and his meaningful- I found Jesus existence- oh no you cannot be included in my lil happiness and I will be forever happy without you…// and then my little 100% enthusiasm mode crashed. Plang. Plus Ed’s promotion is eating me, because he isn’t exactly the happiest animal on the planet. Plus, with his move, wala na kaming kachika/ kasama sa lunch// anonanih?

 

 

Cge lang kay payday man today! Yehey! And with our inta selves, we will shop. Although, ithink it’s a bad idea to take grief out on food and clothes.  *)

 

I feel guilty for not having taken care of my penguin over the weekend. See, Saturday, I wuz supposedly happy, thinking that things can get better or maybe some people can simply become totally totally drug-induced that their whole persona might turn around and thus affecting ppl like me as well. (wala ko nag make sense, iknow)… after my shift, malyn and teej took me to mcdonald’s where we had early lunch, then we started looking for their apartment. And malyn wanted to move in to my building, w/c I think would be great, at least, I could bug them. Ha! Although teej can be the worst, tactless being at times, he looked the cutest when he was teaching me how to carry kenji and how to make him burp and where to put his hands. Ang saya. Tatay najud sya. :) am happier cuz am friends with his wife. :)

 

Sunday afternoon, I spent with Czar and Bryan, had lunch at Pepe’s- I’m convinced that they’re becoming permanent pepe’s fixtures on weekends// they serve really really good chicken. :) then we saw ghostrider//am not an avid fan of English movies, I NEEDED SUBTITLES! Plus the whole kalaban na nagmemelt na effect is enuf to make me think that they smelled awful. Bahoo tan-awon.//then we did our groceries, I got kenji his milk and diapers… applause!// then Jeremy smsd that he is taking me to church, nakonxenxa nko big time, I dragged my tush to church sinama ko pa si Czar. Am glad I went. But, am not going, if ever I would endup fearing that I may see them there together plus diba I know I am the most selfish being, pero since I think it’s about time that I recognize the fact that some people should be happy and I should be happy nalang. Tas ako nalang mu-think na ako ni sala kay dapat wajud nako gisubject ako self sa mga ing-ani klase na taw in the first place. That since I am supposedly a Christian as I claim it to be, then I should let things be. Nganu nganu man ko?  And then again, as the speaker said, in exercise of faith: we better TAME OUR FEAR.  Now, am not gonna fear seeing him happy, I should fear that I am slowly letting God go because of my self centered belief that I should not be attending worship at his church cuz it is his church. Wala na. This blathering is pointless.// basta, people should learn another adjective to replace CUTE.

 

Kenji turned 5 months on the 17^th, and since it’s his birthday we celebrated his 5^th month at 21, Sunday evening after church, me, ma, and czar. :) we had steak, he had milk. :)

 

 

My piglet’s progress:

Feb 4,2007- nikulob si kenji! Yehey.

Feb 20, 2007- nikulob sya big time and kaya na niya iya head. Yehey some more!

 

Then we proceeded to Ed’s place, the guys imbibed way too much...and that muchos got someone wasted:

best quotes:

Bryan: hoy eds, matulog naka!

Lebbeus: alam mo raen, minsan may mga baduy kang mga damit! (wahahaha, gi question niya ako grammar!)

Some Korean freak: oh, I did not ask…(when I told him that we have singha-the thai beer)

 

So we all ended up crashing at eds’ place… good thing ma did not do another number of, where’ve you been all night?!!!

 

Slept thru my Monday. :)

 

Have the best work week guys!

 

 

 

 

Raenyberry

Growing up is full of big moments.

Some of them you can see coming from a mile away;

and some you can't see at all.

All we could do was close our eyes,

and wish that the slow song

would never end.

 

 

 

tit for tat: recall

 
 
 

atik ra bitaw tong last post before this. gikilig bitaw ko kay gitagad ko. :) pero pede pod unta sya maligsan sa pison para makibaw sya unsa ka faetch ako gina go thru na mag act okay masking di gud. ug dili ko mafinish finish aning ako aligot-got.