mikolot

ü mikoy came by etel. i didn't recognize him. kakahiya talaga. i asked for his first name pajud...hahahay.

ü we had the ops floor welcome..my team sang crazy for you. ang dangal nawala na before pa mag take calls.

ü they gave us pizza and candies. hehehe...murag halloween.

happy new year multiply community

a life altering year everyone.... ü

 

and yeps, the best job, best wuv, best all...

hugs hugs hugs

 

<3 <3 <3

oh hum

gamay ang sweldo...pero, pero happy new year parin Ü

oh the lil things

-ilove the fact that: steph and i can have lunch together, and reminisce PS days and be happy and sad thinking about it all at the same time.

-ienjoyed this a.m.'s breakfast club chow with shiella, bjane, steph, and armand.and sge na nga al.

-ilove my job. hehehe. an affirmation. joke only bitaw ni.

-ilove ronski. and his olive or is it tan chucks, and his green shirt, and his braceface smile. weeh

-sleep is looove.

-payday is much more loooove.

-ienvy steph's team puro gwapa and buotan and i had fun when i went with them to the crispy flower's place in mabolo...nagkakabag lang ako after the dinuguan and chirarong flower fete [ginabut]

-ienjoyed last shift's lunch with stef becuz we came by PS and circled the village, and did nothing but laughed out loud at previous mishaps of our posse.

-iam lucky. <3 <3 <3

bangalore agent.

 

hahay. my first call is screwed. imagine, ni-ana ang tiguwang nga leche i want to speak with an american agent. arg. arg. arg. kita xa.insik ko...and sana magbagong buhay na kayo mga callers. please lang.

 

 

meron pa. na star struck ko ni mark barrientos, pababa na sana ako sa sakayan when i saw him waiting for a cab there, wa nalang ko nanaog sa puj..at maling puj ang nasakyan ko. hahay.

giliks

my calls are crazed.

 

but, minamahal turned the day around..hehehehe

in simple abundance

thank you

1. for the wonderful people i've met this year....steph, joey most specially..banig and andrew and ronski....i am most blessed to have my girls and the bdl during the start of 2005, and before the year ends...i am in deep gratitude cuz you guys and gals are here.

2. for this season knowing that my family mattered more than any given thing. hehehe...

3. thank you the Lams because my thoughts would still include them once in a blue moon and i wish they were okay

4. thank you for jacelie, for anvi, for verlaine, for jezrel, these people are delightful support systems...

5. thank you for the mbc young people who kept me included in their prayers.

6. thank you for the wrong people i met these year

7. thanks for flounder cuz we're friends now.

8. thank you for magi and deedee. ilove sykes because of these two

9. thanks for new friends.

10. thanks for the past 5 months in provo.

=)

thank you: oprah winfrey

THANK YOU

By Oprah Winfrey
I live in the space of thankfulness - and I have
been rewarded a million times over for it. I
started out giving thanks for small things,
and the more thankful I became, the more my
bounty increased.
That's because what you focus on expands, and
when you focus on the goodness in your life, you
create more of it. Opportunities, relationships, even
 money flowed my way when I learned to be
grateful no matter what happened in my life.

"Say thank you!" Those words from my friend
and mentor Maya Angelou turned my life around. One day
about ten years ago, I was sitting in my bathroom with
 the door closed and the toilet lid down,
booing and ahooing on the phone so  uncontrollably
that  I was incoherent. "Stop it! Stop it right now and say thank
you!"  Maya chided. "But - you don't understand," I  sobbed.

To this day, I can't remember what it was that had
me so far gone, which only proves the point  Maya
was trying to make. "I do understand," she told me.

"I want to hear you say it now. Out loud.

'Thank you.'" Tentatively, I repeated it:
"Thank you - but what am I saying thank you
for?" "You're saying thank you," Maya said, "because
your faith is so strong that you don't doubt that
whatever the problem, you'll get through it.
You're saying thank you because you know that even
in the eye of the storm, God has put a rainbow in the
clouds.

You're saying thank you because you know  there's no
problem created that can compare to
the Creator of all things. Say thank you!"
So I did - and still do. Only now I do it
every day. I kept a gratitude journal, as Sarah Ban Breathnach

suggests in Simple Abundance, listing at least five things that I'm grateful for.

My list includes small pleasures: the feel of Kentucky bluegrass

under my feet (like damp  silk); a walk in the woods

with all nine of my dogs  and 

 my cocker spaniel Sophie trying to keep up;

 cooking fried green tomatoes with Stedman and
eating them while they're hot; reading a good book
and knowing another awaits.

My thank-you list also includes things too
important to take for granted: an "okay"
mammogram, friends who love me, 15 years at
the same job (and loving it more than the
first day I started), a chance to share my vision
for a better life, staying centered, having
financial security.

I won't kid you, having money for all the
things I want is a blessing. But as I look back over
my journals, which I've kept since I was 15
years old, 99 per cent of what brought me real joy
had nothing to do with money . (It had a lot to
do with food, however.)
It's not easy being grateful all the time.
But it's when you feel least thankful that you
are most in need of what gratitude can give you:
PERSPECTIVE. Just knowing you have that daily
list to complete allows you to look at your day
differently, with an awareness of every sweet
gesture and kind thought passed your way.
When you learn to say thank you, you see the world
anew.

 

And as Meister Eckhart so eloquently
stated:

"If the only prayer you ever say in your
whole  life is 'Thank you God', that would suffice."

to let go

To Let Go...
To let go doesn't mean to stop caring, it means i
can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization
that I don't control another.
To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning
from
natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try change or blame another, I
can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be
a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the
outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own
outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective, it is to permit
another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny but to accept.
To let go is not to nag,scold, or argue, but to
search out my own shortcomings and to correct
them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires
but to take each day as it comes and to cherish
the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone but
to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past but to grow and
live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more...

best Christmas day SMSs

hi rain. merry Christmas. Ü

4am

it's wonderful knowing you raenyberry

1pm

hehehehe

anicka

i would've wanted to tell your dad that i am sooo mad at him right now.

i hope you guys have a happy life.

hohoho!!!!

the luckiest gal there is: the pass 2 christmases, i haven't taken calls during christmas eve

it's fine if i do take calls during the christmas day, but, christmas eve would've been a different story.

 

first time to have noche buena in cebu, spent it with the family and the boyfs of my two sisters, hehe.

i were the only one without a guy in tow. THE PRESSURE.

my pad neighbors likewise came by and had dinner at my place.

 

friends sent sms wishing a great holiday. i miss anvi and jace and verlaine. verlaine who never celebrate Christmas. do you girl? hehehehe

 

happier to receive an sms from teej. now we are talking.

a bit. i guess. at least i now can laugh at the relationship blunder i had with flounder.

 

we had the usual stuff. pasta/ tinola (why tinola i wouldn't know) / hamon/ and buko salad. pamilyang pinoy.

Christmas day: i picked up the tab at bigby's, i realised i am all grown cuz it used to be my folk's call. saw jason a. having an early Christmas day dinner there too.

 

i love traditions. i love family. i would've been raen lam. but, regardless. hehehe

tito jimmy and tita lucy are the other parents i had when i was 4 or 5 years old.

 

twas the best Christmas i had thus far. thank You Jesus. the holidays had been more meaningful.

 

 

ps: no news from wari.

my resex team

holidays and wa ko apil sa pix

happy holidays multiplyers

happy holidays people from multiply

 

TL pie: i hope to cu when i cu

Kaith: ah mishu i hope you and pip would have the best Christmas

mikel: next time i cu frap's on me, hehehe..pag sweldo time, kaw dapat kabalo mag timing ü

riggy: at sna ai magpakita ka, kapitbahay lang tayu kaya

mishy and sher: magpakita kayu sa cebu as a person or sna sa davao i'd get to cu PS gals

and chin and ashley: hava hava happy holidays...kitakits din

leen: ilove yer posts, you have the prettiest face din ü

 

 

and to the rest of multiply community.... hugs hugs hugs

malamig ang simoy ng hangin

 

i realized i love Christmas months more than i love summer months .nonetheless, the holiday spirits' bug hasn't bitten me yet. i am just left jaded.

 

some realizations:

* i do not like Christmas shopping, this i found out today. the people flocking the malls is a bone to pick on

* i love most people i met during the past month

* you know it's Christmas because you could actually smell it in the air

* this whole frenzy started on a manger, so it should be a manger party. hehehehe

* it's not all about the money, altho you need some, but, it's not the be all and end all of the holidays and of life itself...hehehe

* and so i would not ask to marry rich. i will marry love, ehem.

* i miss kantata, i miss davao, i miss my churchmates, ilove them to a million lil pieces.

*yesssss, my folks are here. ü

* not trust people too much, lalo na braceface insik guys, hehehehe

 

one prayer for tomorrow dawn and christmas morn:

 

dear Lord,

let no one carry a heart that's cold, a tummy that's empty, a wishlist that's long and hopeless.

i wish we go back to the manger story so we know that you were once cold, hungry, and that yer parents had a long journey to take too.

amen.

 

i did not make sense. hehehe.

adore thee

  

ai nku minamahal.

the happiest girl

ü because gal pal steph and i reunited at mcdonald's JY this morning when i logged out

ü because after a month the person whom i wish to sms with did sms, sooo ki-at

ü the parents are in charged of the HOMEWORK, hehehe

ü naa ko'y peanuts from iligan courtesy of kathra (asa na?)

ü new kachika thru flickr, cuz i've no use for my outlook cuz it's such a slowpoke

ü sira ang avaya so am not taking that much calls, yipee

ü life is beautiful

ü beautiful person: ronski floorwalking sa fifth floor at 6 am, hehehehehehe

ü the gals at expedia, i miss them

 

arf arf

song in mind: stranger by the day

mood: sleepy

wanting: a hug

longing: for a one hour sleep

missing: glam gals xoxo days

beautiful person: armand sa 3rd floor, eating chicken lollipops

minamahal: isang batang magdodoctor, weeh

wishing for: gals pals like stephie and joey

happy because: i spent the sunday afternoon with magi ü

loathe: billing calls, soooo confusing

feeling: inadequate

almost: broke

 

 

sooo mingaw

mingaw cuz i haven't seen steph at work

but: sabay mi ni armand lunch so hershey happiness hehehe

 

billing calls are labad...it is killing me..argh.

 

and nakita ko si minamahal sa pantry

argh

i feel totally inadequate today

strawberry shortcake

love bling pink gals

factory

dinner wit cpus and dich, gala afterwards

raspberry shortcake

halo halo pix wit mi familia

milk studios

wala mabuhat during the holidays, mag picture picture Ü

etel christmas party

12.18.2005

life as it is

i love the way things are at the moment.
things could not get any perfect.

i just wish that not one heart would break during
Christmas eve.

Cuz it's supposed to be like so.

kermit

>Ü< 

 

 

am sorry.

"I'll ask you forgiveness though I don't really know what I'm asking for."

to a broken person.

 

And I'm afraid
Afraid
Somebody told me that You would wash all my sins
And cleanse me from the scars that are so deep within
So I'm calling You
If you can hear me
I don't know how
I was wondering can you hold me now

 

i came across this song, i do not even know how it goes, but...it hit the heartstrings...Ü

 

life as it is

Dec. 16th, 2005 | 08:55 am
mood: awake
music: oh baby i love your way

i love the way things are at the moment.
things could not get any perfect.

i just wish that not one heart would break during
Christmas eve.

Cuz it's supposed to be like so.

 

stupid, sarah mclachlan

Night lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
but steady there now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
sleep has left me alone
to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
it's all I can do to hang on
to keep me from falling
into old familiar shoes


*how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you



everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know

and you know that you know

 Last] letter of ur FULL name
>> G hehehe (ling*)

[ Last ] thing you ate?
>> meatbread, i haven't had a decent meal since november

[ Last ] thing u drank?
>> strawberry iced tea

[ Last ] song you listened to?
>> the musical score of maritess vs. the super friends

[ Last ] thing u did?
>> took my last smoke break

[ Last ] movie you watched?
>> i wish i would have the time to catch just like heaven, ilove reese

[ Last ] TV show you watched?
>> kay imang last night Ü

[ Last ] person who sent you an sms?
>> anwar, smsd the new rule: I WAIT daw.

[Last ] time you cleaned your room?
>> not lately. it's a pig pen at the moment

[Last ] CD/Cassette you bought?
>> i don't have a player, but i do have aol radio now, cheers Ü

[Last ] Travel?
>> today, mandaue city to lahug, cebu, cebu

[ Last ] time you cried?
>> last night. moping over the new rule of anwar.paetch.

[ Last ] time you smoked?
>> 17 minutes ago.

[ Last ] person who you chatted online with?
>> tanciong on my buddy list. a couple of days ago

[ Last ] person u added to ur friendster list?
>> no recollection. quite a few added sa flickr though...hehehe

[ Last ] website you browsed?
>> aim. loyal eh.

[ Last ] time you shopped?
>> i so will after i draw my budget. i need a good pair of shoes and a trusty

     jacket/ hoodie for work.

[ Last ] person you hated?
>> hehehe...myself.last night.

[ Last ] person u were thinking?
>> wari. i think of him a whole lot. it's sick.

[ Last ] time u felt sick?
>> last night. i'm sick now, nag cge ko tingsi.

     i have been blessed with chances of knowing really great people.

[ Last ] person u chatted on the phone with?
>> a co-agent. dry run ng phone skills. hehehe

[ Last ] digit of ur home phone?
>> 7, sa gensan. and it's disconnected. hehehehe

[ Last ] place you went to?
>> ground floor ng etel. Ü

[ Last ] clothes u wore?
>> my fave flannel PJs

[ Last ] book u read
>> at the moment, a million little pieces. wako copy ui

am just reading excerpts over and over again. ilove james frey

[ Last ] person u adored?
>> wari. adore thee

[ Last ] person u got annoyed with?
>> ang tindera ng mais. and the prinsisitang pink inappropriate kay

    gaya gaya ug fave color.

[ Last ] person u bought a present for?
>> myself. am buying presents for myself. hehehe

[ Last ] person u said happy birthday to?
>> anwar. 22nov 2005. arg. maau pa if wala. hehehe

[ Last ] dream u had?
>> i did not dream any. but if dreams lang eto ang vivid: a chevrolet trailblazer nga

     pink and a driver's license. weeee.....

raenyberry
"love has made me a fool, set me on fire and watched as i floundered, unable to speak except to cry out and wait for your answer, and you come around in your time speaking of fabulous places, create an oasis that dries up as soon as you're gone, you leave me here burning in this desert without you." - stupid, sarah mclachlan

an sms

it was nice seeing you again.

 

i missed you.

 

 

 

atoot raen, to-o sad ka?

what happened?

i feel like i lost someone. a gal pal lost her ex boyf to cancer. and it's the holidays.

and she's all about him the previous year. first love. first all. aaaaaaarg.

yikes, how will one go about an ex who died anyway?

i shouldn't have opened her blog, i ended up tearing my heart

too... (ang title pa sa entry: i can't believe this is happening)

 

it's not like i lost wari. i didn't. pero, it is sooo much better to

lose yer guy to something as ghastly as cancer kesa naman

to some girls. weeeh. hehehehehe (hehe, all ex boyfs go to heaven)

 

i'm sad. understatement.

 

and it's pay day! napapas ako ngisi when i came across lovekewl's

blog... she loved the guy. understated.

 

the past few days i've been laughing like a dolt for no reason,

the littlest things made me happy, extremely. yeah, and life at home had been

beautiful.plus my folks are gonna be here for the holidays, so things are just

super perfect. and He loves me.

 

seeing anwar last night didn't make me though. i am baffled. i do not know

where to go. all i know is that when he is around, i would come running.

it's sooooo SARAH MCLACHLAN, hehehe.

 

double-jacking with the vet reps made me extra giddy. and i know

i would look like an idiot should i take calls tomorrow. yet, am doubley glad

i got to talk to and mingle with ppl i never thought were nice. ako juds....

bad judge of character. Ü

 

my mind is a different entity. it separates from my systems when we are

on training sessions. gakabugo ko kalit. punit my wits. sos!

 

much needed: sugar rush.

 

current cravings: gambas pasta

 

best thing i got today: a loaded debit card *grins* and the hugest hug. weeeh.

 

beautiful person: armand on the elevator Ü

 

cutest gilik moment: mr. luy cupping my chin, jejejeje---> ki-at! (sa act ko na giliks.)

 

what i will not do: continue wallowing and weeping like a widow over waryu.

tama na, hubag ako mata going to work. labad pa ako ulo.

daghan pa in queue. weeeh. Ü

 

what i will do: EAT.

                     take calls. be better at it.

                     reclaim sundays.

                     quit smoking.

                     pa clear sa WATS, sheepish grin*

                     pay DEBTS Ü

 

missing: joey and steph. big time.

 

raenyberry
When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow.
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close
Cos you know and you know that you know. Ü

inappropriately silly.

i could barely think, i've nothing good to write, but, the need, no, the urge to pound on the keyboard doesn't go away. i know things are turning out really good for me,so i am left grateful.

i wonder why am in a generally happy mood, despite the frivolous setbacks and maka-irits pips i find lurking on friendster and making statements such as: he loves me like a fat kid loves his cake.ai, ewan.

someone left me the happy gas.

i miss *&^%$ but then again, i've to blame the fates for turning the constellations wrong side up every so often.

and yeah:

"love has made me a fool, set me on fire and watched as i floundered, unable to speak except to cry out and wait for your answer, and you come around in your time speaking of fabulous places, create an oasis that dries up as soon as you're gone, you leave me here burning in this desert without you." - stupid, sarah mclachlan

i guess that's the way things are. for the mean time.

 

-- love, indeed, is strong.  it could even break one's heart. ripped from leen's journal. Ü

flea market

my tuesday night: adto mi mercado sa ako manghud, shobe was on her happy mode, tagged the wet market as THE FLEA MARKET, para when asked where we went to, we could just say, we went haggling sa flea market....Ü

 

sighs.

ang nakuha, 20 bucks worth of good finds...hehehehehe and mga kati-kati sa kaka-ukay.

 

i sometimes love my sister...hehehe

tuesday

midterms for the client...bombed it cuz i over slept, took the wrong puj this am, ended hailing a cab....maka-irit ang nawung ni lj na ginapanindigan ang pink, weeh....ewan idol ako....

 

am the happiest girl in the world right now.

 

and broke.

 

and so alanis is right, am broke but, i am happy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"I am nothing special, of this I am sure.

I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life.

There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten,

but I've loved another with all my heart and soul,

and to me, this has always been enough."
Nicholas Sparks (The Notebook) ­

yay, weekend

 

the week went by sooo painfully slowly, but, yeah, wadaheck, next week would be my fourth week at work....ang saya. it's totally being taken back to soft skills in sykes, only, i've made better friends at sykes(some i believe, hehehe)

ilove the value thingy they incorporate in us, sooo true, knowing that we have to set people's expectations correctly, unlike my previous call handling/troubleshooting steps where i am compelled to fib....yahoo! karun palang jud ko ka feel like am gonna like it here...i mean, am gonna like how my account works, plus the pay is better, way better...so no complaints whatsoever thus far....troubleshooting happiness as of now....Ü

 

still...no intimate gal pals, inom buddies are found anywhere though...but, i want another stephie and joey....bad....no, badly.....

 

yay, it's weekend....merry holidays.....

 

Raen
 
He was like an angel, you know?
I never knew life could be like that.
He was the one thing I followed through in my life,
the one thing I didn't give up on. 
I was good at loving him. [The Untamed Heart]

cassiopeia

This beautiful constellation at the edge of the Milky Way has definetely the shape of a "W". It is assiociated with the Perseus constellation family.
Sweeping this region with binoculars (or even an opera glas) is rewarding (especially the region around delta Cas).
It is located between DECL=+50 and DECL=+60, RA=23h and RA=3h. Once you found Cassiopeia or the Big Dipper, which is located opposite of the celestial pole, you can easily locate other constellations of the northern hemisphere.
In arabian countries this constellation is called Caph, which is also the name of beta Cas.

tong sabado

KAY GISUNDO KO NI ARMAND Ü weeeh....giliks

hehehe, am announcing a major giliks moment, hehehe, pagka wa'y lingaw.....

cuz 1: he called up(after mga 2 hours ra man lang mi gipahuwat sa starbucks!)

ug ang script: raen, am really sorry, let's go out na....

ang tubag ni fairy: aw, katug naman ko....

xa: come on it's saturday....i'll pick you up

fairy: so....so....stutter stutter, you'll you'll, ah basta sunduon ninyo ko?

[sa dihang di ko kibaw mu-english!]

 

 

------------------------------>

gi-puke rasad ang gi-inom.

 

 

northern sky

I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you're here
Brighten my northern sky.

I've been a long time that I'm waiting
I've been a long time that I'm blown
I've been a long time that I've wandered
Through the people I have known
Oh, if you would and you could
Straighten my new mind's eye.

Would you love me for my money
Would you love me for my head
Would you love me through the winter
Would you love me 'til I'm dead
Oh, if you would and you could
Come blow your horn on high.

I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you're here
Brighten my northern sky.

 

nindot bitaw lyrics marsi Ü

serendipity

- confuses fate with faith, naconfuse nasad ko should i have faith or should i trust the fates? pasabta kuno ko?

- i have to say i will not watch that movie again, will not purchase love in times of cholera(tama ba ang title????) masking supah sale pa na, and will turn the radio off should waiting in vain is playing on the radio or northern sky.....

- yeah, i will name my kid casiopia...ambut unsay tinood na spelling.....Ü

weeeehhhhhh......

serendipatious: Ü

 

i want

a cheese burger meal from mcdo...

 

 

now na.....

at the beginning

training has been really helpful so far...my wavemates are normal, hehehe....the call center is great, hassle though, cuz if you wanna go eat/drink, you have to take the lift pa...doesn't save you time....more ops rules are bones to pick on: for instance, peeing, no personal breaks, only 5 minutes, and you've to email a workforce guy, then you can't do fast breaks, no acw for us, but....maaaan, we have like an hour of avail time once we auto in, murag ga aux zero ka, as sykes pips would put it...the queue, in other word is, bearable.

okits, no posse, clicks---spell check, intimate gal pals xoxo at this time....okay ra sad, don't go for people mode ko at the moment...take it as the americans take it: am friendly but, that wouldn't mean friendship....sighs...i miss PS days, i've BDL and the glam girls, i miss joey and stephie muchos...drats.....

 

i've drinking buddies from the other team though, hehehe: lowdown: puro kids....Ü

 

para sa new year, hehehe

minimize fashion faux pas

not get really started on smoking

love unconditionally but, not recklessly

be a better friend

not associate with people i will end up not liking in the end

not go for people

not put up with someone who mistreats me

not get Über-wasted

save, weeh

keep my job, double weeh

 

 

 

 

 

Raen
He was like an angel, you know?
I never knew life could be like that.
He was the one thing I followed through in my life,
the one thing I didn't give up on. 
I was good at loving him. [The Untamed Heart]

chinese lotuses