disyembre otso

not soooo fancy photos of me grabbed from the usual suspect's account.
packer's team dinner at chicken house and at bliss

40 minutes

A is for AGE
** 25

B is for BOYFRIEND's name
** miko

C is for CAREER
** teacher :)

D is for Dog's name:
** gelo

E is for ESSENTIAL item to bring on an airplane
** white flower or barf bag

F is for FAVORITE song at the moment
** anything from gin blossoms

G is for GIRLFRIEND's name.
** fifay

H is for HOMETOWN(S)
** cebu, davao, general santos, bacolod

I is for INSTRUMENTS you play
** none. kalooy pod nako.

J is for JAM or JELLY you like
** guava jelly, raspberry jam from knott's berry farm

K is for KIDS
** kenji of course!!!

L is for LIVING arrangements
** domestic partnership..

M is for MOM's name
** mudra. hahaha. mita. lol.

N is for NAME of your best friend(s)
** fifay/anvi/narda

O is for OVERNIGHT hospital stay
** chonghua forever..

P is for PHOBIA[s]
** ear infections

Q is for QUOTE you like
**

It’s strange you never start out life with the intention

of becoming bankrupt or an alcoholic or a cheat and a thief.

or a liar.

R is for RELATIONSHIP that lasted the longest
** this relationship will last the longest..

S is for SISTER(s)
** dich and shobe

T is for TIME you woke up today
** 10:30 pm hongkong time

U is for UNIQUE trait
** i've quirks that can only be found in me. i thunk. :)

V is for VEGETABLE you love
** brocolli, tomato, cucumber-ambut if veggies ni, celery, malunggay, okra

W is for WORST habiT
** spending and not saving

X is for X-RAYS you've had
** as many as the jobs i have in call centers

Y is for YUMMY food you make/bake
** pesto? carbonara-premade.

Z is for ZODIAC sign
** icthus.

 

sad.

sometimes you meet the most interesting person a little bit too late.

 

gelo getting his 2nd tattoo

yuck.
30dec2007

in this city, i'm awake

photos from the 22nd til 30th of this month.
[bcd-ceb-mla-iloilo]
sue me, fave dresses nako ning purple and this peter pan collared ones. :)

city streets.

"Everybody's trying to make every minute of the present last forever. Preserve every second." (choke)

gelo and i were just back from iloilo. saturday afternoon we sporadically decided that we visit iloilo. we boarded ocean jet, got ourselves a room at midtown hotel, bought stuff (that i might need to bring to my next trip) at robinson's, had lunch at sbarro's cuz it's the only decent place we could find at the mall and they don't have a franchise in bacolod. :) we checked their sm city & did very little shopping, i scored me an aqua blue stretch denim hoodie from kamiseta. :) we checked smallville, had dinner at bigby's(shrimp/crab pasta and chicken-filling and really good), met one of gelo's gal pals who lives there and ended up meeting the kewlest new people who reminded me of chinese school boys and girls. i'm allergic to vodka. found that out while in olio that night. i turned beet red and was scratching the itch from my leg and wrists..gelo had a crush on one of the gals..natatawa talaga ako.. he looks like a little boy who kept glancing sideways and telling me about the girl.. ssssssheeesh competition.. :)

sunday morning, at robinson's, gelo had another tattoo done.. i hope this would be his last.. i hate to think that he might get sick becuz of these tattoos.. and man, it did bleed big time, plus it looked like a hematoma(spellcheck) with a huge face.. then we had brunch at afrique's, the place looked neat and sooo americana-castillan era, however, it smelled funky i almost wanted to throw up their pizza that tasted like condensed milk.. then we headed to the port for bacolod. we had at least two hours to do nothing, we thought to spend the idle time at coffee break in robinson's place, then finally, boarded at around a quarter past 4pm.

am glad we're back in bacolod. but, overall, iloilo is a quaint tiny happy place to be in.

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friday, i've been down with fever. that's why i am working today, on a sunday to cover what i missed. again, everything is surreal, all the trips are making me realize how i should experience the travel account hands on this way i'd have better understanding of the job that i will have in the next 12 months.. anyway, i still hate terminals(ports/pier/bus stations/airport terminals), they're a sad lonely place to be in, and i hate having to hold my pee in whilst in transit.. why am i borne with a bad bladder?

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we will have 3 hours in seoul, south korea on the 5th. and half a day in honolulu, hawaii.. excited. :)

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spending the new year with gelo's family. but, will show up for  work still.

happy 6th gelo. i'm glad you're around.

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all the precious happy little things..

all the precious memorable little happy things,

all the precious wonderful things..

they're from You who's wonderful in so many ways..

thank You Lord for a superrrr 2007..

the nephew and the littlest sister

photos swiped from shobe

elsewhere.

see, when i got approved, i immediately told my sisters that i got the visa.. after a couple of hours of being a nervous wreck..

i recalled walking thru the gates of the us embassy wednesday early morning and almost wishing that i never had to go to their country; as a person(lol), i'm not one who lives on travel or who gets most excited when there's opportunity to travel, yes, partly i am excited, but, honestly, i am scared of new places and scared of the fact that travelling can be mahal or magastos.. plus, the embassy people seemed sooo stiff and scarey..

my hands/palms were shaking and wet when i had been finger printed..

then i wuz asked 4 or 5 questions by this BEAUTIFUL consul:

1. why are you going to the united states?

2. what is your job?

3. how long have you worked for that company?

4. do you have relatives in the united states?

then she said, your visa is approved go to the main pavillion and ask about delivery..

surreal. dizzying.

i ate the most breakfast when i got back to the hotel. promise.

my sisters' reactions:

dich: achee, i am proud of you(i thunk for getting the job:)

shobe: wag sana magsurface ang pagkaignoramus, at si donita rose lang ang naging highlight of your whole trip there.

twenks. i saw donita rose on the lift of the hotel and told shobe. :0

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i never realized that domestic violence can be real too. (sooo many things are happening) at times when you see bruises, you are still compelled to touch them even if you know they will surely hurt. i just hope that those bruises were not mine. :( haaaayers..

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Elsewhere - Gabrielle Zevin
There will be other lives.
There will be other lives for nervous boys with sweaty palms, for bittersweet fumblings in the backseats of cars, for caps and gowns in royal blue and crimson, for mothers clasping pretty pearl necklaces around daughters' unlined necks, for your full name read aloud in an auditorium, for brand-new suitcases transporting you to strange new people in strange new lands.
And there will be other lives for unpaid debts, for one-night stands, for Prague and Paris, for painful shoes with pointy toes, for indecision and revisions.
And there will be other lives for fathers walking daughters down aisles.
And there will be other lives for sweet babies with skin like milk.
And there will be other lives for a man you don't recognize, for a face in a mirror that is no longer yours, for the funerals of intimates, for shrinking, for teeth that fall out, for hair on your chin, for forgetting everything. Everything.
Oh, there are so many lives. How we wish we could live them concurrently instead of one by one by one. We could select the best pieces of each, stringing them together like a strand of pearls. But that's not how it works. A human's life is a beautiful mess.

hello 2008!

2007 had been a rollercoaster ride.. learning how to adapt to the way people lived in a tiny city that never in your life would you have dreamed of moving into, and being aware of how wonderful a creator He is and though life (and some days) seemed to break us, we will still be beautifully recreated.. and how, in the end, things will work out best for those who loved Him.

my own 10 year multiple.

so i spent christmas day alone in some city that i cannot identify myself with| hotel accomodation's great though| but, the best thing about being there is shopping/going around alone for half a day| having a room for myself for a night| and actually hoping that 1 day, i'd get my own pad that would look like linden suites. hehe.

but, best of all i got my visa.

the stress.

happy holidays.

printer queue's christmas party

grabbed from grace|gelo|czar. dell's christmas party.
dec 21, 2007

i quit QA today

the boss officially lemme go and gave a little speech today.. and mentioned that i've made good and congratulated me.. the QA people left on the pod actually applauded.. hahaha.. tears..

today, i am officially a TRAINER..

and boss claire mentioned that she's proud cuz the people who got in were actually from bacolod..

:)

 

happy holidays

tears..will be spending the 25th alone not in cebu or in bacolod but the smokey mla.. the thought would make me want to hug gelo the whole time cuz he too will be going back to bacolod from cebu alone.. this is a terrible terrible Christmas, i somehow had an encounter with a Christmas grinch or a hag who could not celebrate the holidays w/out making other people feel miserable becuz, she could've had miserable holidays growing up..

but, i still have the holiday spirit.. after all Christ wasn't borne in a hotel room like Linden Suites, but, he was born in a lowly manger.. this thought somehow kept me warm thru all the Christmases..

seeing my family come sunday, off for a visa on tuesday, back to gelo on wednesday night.. life as a corporate slave is tough, today, i realized..

gelo's mean drunk today, i'm with menstrual cramps, and a looooooong to do list..

happy holidays cebu, bacolod, & davao.. God Bless..

*photo from porto fino last month- eeeeewness ako..

cebu, last month

of my sisters|gelo|ken and mita|dessert factory|tmac|gelo's squid|porto fino last november

♥

kenji, shobe, and dichee--> more kenji photos here::
http://cayeel.multiply.com/photos/album/23/kentoot_in_a_hardware

in my place

kami ni gelo. ü
hahahaha. sha ang mohawked cutie. haha.
image source: us weekly.
too kapoy to create a new blog entry. anyway, today's dell's party. it started in installment, 12 am for the evening shiftees? and 6am for the morning crew.
we had lechon and much more.
i don't care about the pounds. it's kyepoy to even think about it. i can lose weight after the holidays.

"You are not superior just because you see the world in an odious light."
-Vicomte De Chateaubriand

okay, i'm stealing wut this blogger said about this quote, she liked the quote mostly because it puts her in her place. i'd like to think that too. i'm to negativity maxadow today.. hehe..

iloveangie. i don't like brad. but, he's better than tom cruise-the weirdo.
hala oi, kahater pod ani na statement. hehe.
happy holidays. i might be away..





kami ni gelo. ü
hahahaha. sha ang mohawked cutie. haha.
image source: us weekly.
too kapoy to create a new blog entry. anyway, today's dell's party. it started in installments, 12 am for the evening shiftees? and 6am for the morning crew.
we had lechon and much more.
i don't care about the pounds. it's kyepoy to even think about it. i can lose weight after the holidays.

"You are not superior just because you see the world in an odious light."
-Vicomte De Chateaubriand

okay, i'm stealing wut this blogger said about this quote, she liked the quote mostly because it puts her in her place. i'd like to think that too. i'm to negativity maxadow today.. hehe..

iloveangie. i don't like brad. but, he's better than tom cruise-the weirdo.
hala oi, kahater pod ani na statement. hehe.
happy holidays. i might be away..

baile.

♥ 

You Dance

I won't face another day
I won't wait until tomorrow
I won't spend another night without you
let me carry you away
let me wake you every morning
let me wander every day beside you

'cause you dance in my head, in my heart, in my everything
you belong

you won't worry 'bout a thing
you can sleep a little longer
you can dream another dream beside me
I could walk another road
I could sing another sad song
but I could never make it home without you

'cause you dance in my head, in my heart, in my everything
you belong

'cause you dance in my head, in my heart, in my hands..

--

i never thought i am ever gonna be capable of loving a person like this..

 

Share Your Soles ~ Children Caring, Children Sharing.

http://www.shareyoursoles.org/
What if you could change the world?

Would you?
In 1999, Mona Purdy traveled through Central America, and saw children painting tar on the soles of their bare feet so they could run a race during their village's festival. She happened to meet an American orthopedic surgeon who was visiting the village. He told Mona that if these children had shoes to wear, there would be a lot less need for him to regularly travel to the region to perform amputations of children's infected limbs.

ahateit.

if they knew wut ostracize means.

sana some people with bad days don't take it out on other ppl.

blog nalang.

emergency appointment

Start:	Dec 26, '07 07:45a
Location:	us embassy, mla

interview for nonimmigrant visa. please help me pray that i say the correct things. if i don't get it, no problem. but, i kinda needed it. hehe.

you see, the more you learn, the more places you can go daw.. by dr. suess..

the holidays

Start:	Dec 23, '07
End:	Dec 25, '07
Location:	cebu,cebu

home.

gawk.skeezes.

hahahaha. i had 21 mean things to say to people who mattered and did not really matter but would pronounce yes with a yessh or it'll come out like skeeze..

but, i'm too pms-dehydrated that i'm doing myself a favor before my mind does a rigor mortis.

at least, i fully understand how i should love gelo now.. not complain, keep my mouth shut, and when our relationship gets skeezes, i would tell him to grow up or go out.. di bitaw.. i just understood how things should be.. out of tummy cramps and my pasingit stints if he would ask me wut am feeling.. reply: huhuhuhuhu, sakit gyd yah, daw mapatay ko, huhuhuhuhu.

& maybe get over girls who are too much of a copycat cuz no one is really original, or girls who do not say anything nice or make things they say seem nice, but, they're really not nice at all, or guys who look at you like you're bootylicious and would say it; so instead of shying away, you may as swell krump like a ghetto girl-they'll be scared, or boys who thunk they own the call center industry, but, men should really be looking into their almost bankrupt hacienda cuz the cane industry is in bad shape.. enuf.

plus only about 3 hours sleep, 2 pain killers, and bacolod chicken that's drier than dry wine.. add up the fact that flight is sooo exorbitantly priced becuz of the holidays, plus, that damn schedule for a visa just right after new year, this all spells pms skeeze.

dearLord, on some days, this lovely gawdforsaken city can be full of smelly skeezes.

self check again

get over being insecure or if you're not insecure, get over yourself.

 

self check too

i thought only gals i know from my old all girls high school had ringleader syndrome.

pati pod diay guys who came from nowhere school..

 

oh yeah, pride goes before a fall.

self-check

today, i asked gelo whether some people were loved as they were growing up cuz they wind up too critical, & do not know how to use positive words or euphemism as adults.

 

some things well loved..

some days, when work seemed a bit blah, things at home are perfect.. and it's ironic cuz when gelo and i would have a spat, work seemed to be the most delightful place to be in..

today's great.. i got him his birthday present--finally..

a chino cargo shorts from guess kids.. ♥

& i got me a denim bubble skirt from the store too.. altho jill jill is positive that i'm preggers, i think she might be wrong.. cuz, i'd actually fit in a 14 year old's skirt.. (bitaw, oi, american size man sad anyhoo :)

so, i heart guess kids.. :)

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i love miko for not getting himself drunk today, altho he asked if he can go boozing with the guys from work.. i told him he can but i will go home.. at least he curbed the urge to drink because of me.. char lang oi.. i would just want to think he'd limit alcohol becuz the relationship mattered.. (sharooooooot)

anyway, i don't care if he drinks, as long as he won't ask me to go along cuz it's makadehydrate ng skin to wait for him and see him wasted tas ako nagtanga.. diba..

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fastfood today. (chowking gaisano:)

i miss cooking for gelo. i miss amapola. somehow.

--

i also love hayden panettierre? spell check.

Britney: Hey Amber.
Amber: Hey what?
Everybody: Introduce yourself!
Amber: No way!
Everybody: Introduce yourself!
Amber: Ok... 1,2,3,4,5, my name is Amber and I say "hi". 6,7,8,9,10, back it up and meet my friend. Hey Winnie!

"He must love me, I thought, amazed. A faint whiff of nausea hit me at seeing pain as proof of love. But it seemed true. Unavoidable."

- Katherine Dunn, Geek Love

lucy liu ad campaigns

from asianmodels(blogspot)
images from gap fall and iamafrican

the bleak house too

before the party.. the guys bought booze, i went along.. lopues south || L square dormitory..

self lurve

last friday.. nazel's phone..a stolen santa hat..14dec2007|eyebags|

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nindut ko magcapture the moment, regine and sly- newspaper dance...

sidewalks of life..

it was awful at the mall today, some local do-gooders held a gathering where they'd give free lunch and gifts and other dole-outs to cebuano/bisaya-speaking aetas..

1. washroom, in queue with like 6 or 7 of them, the washroom was jammed, but, they all patiently wait for their turn, wut apalled me was the washroom personnel of robinson's place, she would after at least a minute or two knock on each of the cubicle's door and ask each of them people to go out cuz they seemed done.. one older woman didn't even finish zipping up when she was asked to go out, none of them even had the chance to wash their hands.. to think i totally like the idea of that sensored soap dispenser and faucets, and some cute chinese guy thought that robinson's washroom is kewl.. i looked at them helplessly..

2. they all had to pass thru the escalator, each of them did not know how to use it- if i had to put it bluntly.. disgustingly, the guard on the escalator just looked at them, that's when anger boiled up inside me and felt the need to tell the guard that he cannot just look at them like that, already furious, i told him to assist those women and children going down/using the escalator to avoid accident/injury..because i could not do that myself because i am scared that i might end up slipping with them too..

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gawd, am like, eto bah ang pilipinas? when this is supposed to be a Christian nation how the feck can we all just stare and not do anything.. we stare because some people do not dress like we do, or some people's color are way darker than our's..

i never stood up for anything or anyone in my life, and i never felt how colored people are discriminated, altho i have been discriminated by people who never had the idea that the person that they are asking to go thru their isp bills is a college graduate, an asian who knew better than them but, for someone who's kapwa mo pinoy to look down on you and not let you use a public washroom properly, not grudgingly would just stare and grunt cuz you don't know how to use an escalator.. parang, that's too much..

and i hope clubs like the rotaract wutever they are, altho they meant well, should've given clear instructions this way people who are not used to the urban jungle would know how to go about it in a safe, merry way..

the bleak house..

our dormitory's christmas party.. sayang, wala'y photo sa lechon na amo gisponsoran.. ü no photo of dave too.. photos grabbed from czar, awaiting nazel's uploads..
december|15|2007
gelo's early birthday celebration too.. ü
i slept earlier than the rest of them nevertheless, it's fun..
peace on earth.. hehehe..

more of the street rats

(according to shobe, she liked the street rats daw.. it took me a sec to realise that she meant the street kids who called me rainbow:)

raen: hala amo ng bata nga naghikap sa kamot ko gina o, hambal niya masunog daw balay namon..

streetrat: nge, bay-e na bajaw na..

& so may racial discrimination din pala sa ghetto :)

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streetrat: te, daw koreana ka..

raen: indi ko koreana yah, pinoy ko yah..

streetrat: ayteh, tsakto ko, daw bisaya ka..

(shit. kalinti. bisaya-lookin' jud ako fez if diko koreana..)

bitaw oi, it's almost 5am na, i should've done half a dozen of calls na, but, i'm slacking terribley cuz the night shift is doing something weird to my system..

& segway..

congrats jace.. don't limit yourself to UP.. the world is huge..

mud coffee..

coffee from dunkin donuts tastes like mud.

21

happy birthday langga..

So much held in a heart in a lifetime. So much held in a heart in a day, an hour, a moment.

..We open windows to each other but we live alone in the house of the heart. Perhaps we must. Perhaps we could not bear to be so naked, for fear of a constantly harrowed heart. When young we think there will come one person who will savor and sustain us always; when we are older we know this is the dream of a child, that all hearts finally are bruised and scarred, scored and torn, repaired by time and will, patched by force of character, yet fragile and rickety forevermore, no matter how ferocious the defense and how many bricks you bring to the wall.

-By Brian Doyle
From the AMERICAN SCHOLAR

sick.

some gal was raped and slaughtered last weekend and got thrown at a vacant lot right across our dorm's street.

how sick is that?!?

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saturday, at taste station lasalle, while waiting for miko to get the bill, i spent some time talking to some kids who were loitering on the streets, one kid asked for my name, told her, it's raen, she replies with, ah daw rainbow, i said tsakto, daw rainbow. :) she beamed. i asked them where they go home to, the older girl told me she stays at grace pharmacy.. i was like, ah, that's near.. then miko joined the conversation and asked her you mean you sleep right there? she nods..

i asked miko if the kids were homeless, he said, yeah, one of them kids sleeps right in front of grace pharmacy..

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the holiday's a bit depressing knowing there are people who live like that.. and there are people who become broken because of poverty or crime..

this week, more than anything, i pray for safety and i hope somehow one day soon hunger, uncleanliness, illiteracy would just go away..

10 years multiple..

gawd, i never had gone thru getting a visa, getting the passport 5 years ago, right after my college graduation was a harrowing experience in itself.. i ♥ how cecile zamora wrote how she got her's..

read on.. start from 10 years multiple, part 1 and move on to the final chapter.

here..

perfect day

"Woke up with a full realisation that I had never been human in all my life. By that I mean I never reacted naturally according to my emotions. Of course, it was self-protection, which I rationalised as human: not to hurt others. Cruelty, cheapness, meanness, that is human. Human is evil. Being jealous, indiscreet, possessive, lazy and dependent, exploiting others, that is human. Having compassion and understanding, patience and helping others, all of which is considered human, is ideological goodness. Faithfulness in love is unnatural. Not only god and religion, immortality and morality, is man-made ideology, but love too. The man who acts in reality like a woman - who is a woman following her instincts, he alone is human. It is not because he is evil that the woman likes the "bad man" but because he is natural. It would be more human to throw away all therapy and to be free, not to be bad but to be human, natural. The self-denial which is necessary in order to be good, human, is denial of the bad natural self and is therefore not a sacrifice at all but self-protection, and it is the most selfish thing of all. On the other hand the seeming sacrifice for others is really domination, protection against being too human, and is still giving in to badness by still pretending one is good."

The Diary of Anais Nin, Volume Two, 1934-1939, Anais Nin

 

• she's just simply galing.. (above author), to be au naturel is to be human.. i guess..
• we did not miss the bus today.. our gameplan is to wake up at around 4:17am (5 minutes ahead of tp time) then, take a shower and get ready in just 15 minutes, by, 4:42am, we're already waiting for the bus..gelo's right, if we take the bus, we'd have more reason to not be late and be ready for work early..
• listening to perfect day of collective soul repeatedly..
• it's going to be a week before Christmas, today's 13th month payday!!! :)
• two more Christmas parties to attend to.. the dorm's and the accounts.. maka yopaks..
• well, at least during the holidays even if the air seemed a bit chilly, more and more people are trying to be warm and nice..
• one of our food concessionaires, papa giorgio serves goulash.. the dish sounds so funny i would not order it..

tp holiday stills

grabables from czar's account

uptraining

nov. 23, 2007
grabbed from picasa

the work place

tp's pantry, view from the top


bacolod.



tp's pantry, view from the top
okay, to be fair, food's not great. ahate it.