sugar coated Christianity, past forward.

i know, i've whined too much about accomodations and setting the correct expectations when i learned that i would've to be sharing the quarters with the management team of dunkin donuts cebu and i'd be sleeping on the lapag. i threw the hugest temper fit friday night, i wailed, stomped my feet, and even swore my head off saying milk, milk, milk. i even smsd vincent and told him i was having a hard time on the boondoks of mambukal, murcia. bow. however, God was actually testing how far my patience would go, and when will i snap, and how will i stand patient for Him.

i realized that most of those who claim they are Christians are actually losers...we are truly going to be losers because we will lose this gift if we do not share it, if we'd still let our own ego and selves steer our wheel. kaya nga siguro may song na Jesus take the wheel.

i am came to a fork in the road right now when i've to choose whether i've to live alone this way my mom wouldn't have a say in anything that i do with my keep or with my actions. but, i guess God wanted me to know that i needed my family near this way i'd know how a family works.

the past weekend i spent in mambukal with eds and johnny, little did i know would actually revive my relationship with my God. and how i actually belittled His ways when i thought that "these ppl are clueless of who YOU really are, some do not have a personal relationship with YOU. some might've heard of YOU, but, WHO will YOU be in their lives during this camp? when we are all expecting some machiavellian way of leadership or of maximing our influence..." yet, as always, the little that we know is an idiotic measure of the greatness of the Maker.

the speakers were a great team, pastor roy versoza, rex resurrecion, and cito beltran.

saturday, we ended up having a team building. we endured 2 hours of running, carrying ppl on our shoulders, racing back and forth to certain points in mabukal, rowing, figuring words out, and putting together our country's map.

sunday's dawn worship stirred me, when we were praying, a sudden gust of wind blew.

andoy mentioned that he thought he came just so he could be a better manager of his shop, then he learned that the bible is actually the instructional manual of our lives.

mak, refreshed me with how it is to be the salt.  (while we were waiting for the guards to let us in, after dinner at bcd chicken house, andhoping that he could find the soonest way to cebu)...

eds and johnny, iknow that out of the 500 ppl in TP. we were sent not just because, we were sent because HE works.