tell me a bed time story

"Dreams don't come true. Dreams die. Dreams get compromised. Dreams end up dealing meth in a booth at the back of the Olive Garden. Dreams choke to death on bay leaves. Dreams get spleen cancer."
The Gum Thief

i really want good books above anything for next year. masking pa mainstream. i just want hardbound novels. good literature. cheap literature. as long as culture and literature is there.

i finally ordered the couch yesterday. :) i've to buy a throw or pillows. actually it's just a long bench made out of gemelina wood. and at least when am older when someone would ask me where i got the couch, i can say i had it made. :) lowl.

we had the dance rehearsal yesterday afternoon. it was raining. and dich and i did errands(sent snail mails) in sm in the morning tas ordered the couch, then i had to show up at the practice. i cannot dance. i liked dancing whilst clubbing because noone is minding you when you are happily dancing. but, a choreographed one, i can't. it's embarrassing.

i got asked(finally) to go to the ball game. and i had to take a raincheck cuz of the dance practice for tonight's Christmas party at work.

:)

i thunk i spent the whole weekend exchanging sms with this one person who if i keep being a "to be" i might wind up plainly being a to be. grabeh ka densed. but, am not complaining. densed and slow and oblivious is good for me. God made nice guys that way i guess.
:)

i still hold a huge anger on this ex gal pal. and that's the last reaction i will act out when she's around. i think mahal ang moisturizer. if i carried on a contentious attitude, am gonna be like her who seems to make a contest out of the littlest things. so am done. i hate her but, that's just it. i just hate her. yawn lang.
:)

okay. congratulations bacolod. you finally won yourself a ticket to coffee consumerism and all kinds of consumerism now. we have STARBUCKS. our first. :) hehehe. mackoy told me they served jalapeño bread. and finger food on the opening that's per invite only. so mga city socialphiles and layshosness lang ang naa didto this afternoon.

well, i will have coupons from him anyway.

:)

i want a dog. i wish i can get a jack russel. timing when i told him i want a jack russel his pa got one this afternoon. inggit big time. :( i want a pug man gyapon. forever.

today, i went out with dich. i played scarlet's part in the nanny diaries, bacolod version.. went with kenji to the play house in sm. we stayed there for an hour and i let him play. he was nice, when older kids would get his toys, he'd let them have them. it's good that he can start learning how to share at an early age. m tells me to read proverbs to my penguin cuz a child would learn the discipline of a parent is for his own good.

i guess i can start reading to keken when am still his for the mean time nanny.

he'd be a nice boy one day. and not a player who makes tuhog all your friends and make up excuses for his actions and calls to say sorry to his ex gal when he is drunk. waaaaaah. puot? (sorry gyd naz, nakisali naman ko.. :)

christmas party series starts today. we danced. i embarrassed myself gyd yah. bow. i can live up to the retro ensembles but, cannot live down that dancing part.

saturday, i finally showed up at the small group. for the first time in 4 years, i finally have a small group. i was elated, a bit timid(for some time-kaloka), and felt blessed to make time for Him. it's odd how pala-away i am and how maldita i can be and stressful as a friend or an enemy. but, God always tells you to come as you are to His party. so you don't pretend to be anything that you are not. that's just how it is with Him.

we had dinner at dana's house. and had exchange gifts. we brought lampoy gifts. i got french fries mallows from dana's mum and i gave her my gummy worms. her dad facilitated the lecture. it was about the 2nd coming and the rapture and all that jazz in revelations and m asked me to share after i go home. i told him wut i learned and how confusing some stuff are.

and i kinda thought na parang from hope christian school those kiddies and guys and gals am with. i am just uber happy i got invited and ricky did not give up on inviting me to the small group when i was reluctant to join at first. ''

my life is slowly changing a bit. i have a family in this city. a nephew to look after until he gets a nanny, a sister to be a sister to and share stuff with, a lola..
and a saturday night to look forward to. and proverbs. haha.
i just might hafta learn to completely let go of that family i had last year. and it's okay. :)

"dream a little dream of me.."
gunyt.
Raeyna.