facebook and fridays

i can't approve friend request on facebook. it wouldn't just load. eiwan ko. facebook is my waterloo of all waterloos. haha.



mejo may masakit sa aking pakiramdam today. uno: a gal got terminated in qa becuz of underperformance. lain oi, pasko. if ako toh, malain sad ko. cuz i honestly don't need the job, i TRUTHFULY need the money.. at salamat sa work may moolah na panggastos sa holidays. if not, kawawa ang anak ng dukha. i'm really scared of destitution cuz i am not mother Teresa of the gutters.



and then at this point, i realized that the utilities bills and the groceries bills are doubled. and recessionista badgettt ni enday ai di na magkasaha. nakasalalay ang future sa mapapangasawang mayaman na hindi pa rin nagpapakita.



i have the darlingest nephew. ganiha when we were in gaisano, we grabbed cheeseburgers and fries from jollibee, when his mum would say, jollibee, he would do this kilig shiver and a huge smile would be plastered on his face with dilated eyes. tas we'd make him face jollibee, the kilig would be upped to the nth level..



sana magkayaya na si keken. maloka nako if i'll do this til the end of the month. and he doesn't eat anything that i'd feed him. i even fed him with a 48 hrs. old milk. i did not know that milk should have a shelf life of 24 hrs. and you can't feed a 2 day old refridgerated milk to a kiddie.



my life is slowly changing. ganiha, i kinda felt the need to begrudge some stuff that goes on with it. and you know how i feel about pay days. i could openly admit that i miss paydays with gelo, pero, at some point when i was on queue in jollibee, i realized that it's all a matter of being contented and grateful for wutevs circumstance that you are in that counts most.



at shempre ghost nanaman ako(pede sad leper..). gisultian ko ni lovelife na naa sila team dinner this saturday, tas wa ko gi invite. lain sha. haha.




we're dancing this monday. and will embarrass ourselves in front of 2 accounts. sayang dance rehearsal will be on sunday. i can't make it to the ball game. and again, like i expected an invite.




happy weekend!

love, peace, craziness(so retro),

Raeyna




I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,

or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,

in secret, between the shadow and the soul.



I love you as the plant that never blooms

but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;

thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,

risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.



I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.

I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;

so I love you because I know no other way



that this: where I does not exist, nor you,

so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,

so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Neruda