hot summer nights

wow. it has been a week since the sulfur springs of mambukal, i so wanted to keep my relationship wit Him, keep my worldliness at bay, i've been trying to, though my workload and the dailiness of just being sways me from remembering Him 24/7 and my accountability for certain ppl in my life(read: my family and friends who should know Him and the 3 guys whom i've been with during my encounter with Him the past weekend...)...

Where do i start and how do i stay true to whatever covenant i made a couple of weekends ago? And how dyo unflailingly and unceasingly pray when you could not see signs that He is actively listening? How dyo know/discern when you couldn't hear any verbal nods?

awww shucks. i suddenly had a family dinner to go to.// another refreshing experience.// my ma talked about how she convinced my lola to eat oysters becuz her religion forbids her to eat anything that burrows and feeds on dirt.// i miss my grandmothers. i wish i've known them quite better and how they were when they were younger... i wish i'd become the women they became-magnanimous, loving, resilient, firm, spirited, and patient....

i'm trying to write a coherent entry, and yet, am overwhelmed with much love and the richness of experience the past few days, that i couldn't glue my thoughts together.

how lucky or maybe even blessed can i get? i wanted my mom's intelligence and commitment, i wanted dichee's serene nature and simplicity, and i wanted shobe's charm and humor...

pede pala maging ganto kasaya without hingeing yourself to anyone but yer family...pede karin maging kumpleto.// toinks. realization 101.

no, i freaked out becuz nakakapester diay kung someone would give you the 3rd degree or would constantly ask you for yer whereabout. ha!

wukits: my weekend was grand: cocktails wit jerjer//czar//bryan, we started at the eastblock, we had screwdriver, ordered a pitcher of strawberry daiquiri-na naula kay bryan, toinks. diether ocampo wuz even there! wa mi nastarstruck cuz nigawas ko sa tv on sunday. hahaha. baliwag,bulacan.

then we headed to pepe's sorrento, had lychee margarita, lawlaw had to catch up cuz nag mamun mamun pa man ang insik. bumped into vincent with timothy raymond and tim stephen, wow, namemorized ko friends nya! i've to admit i miss how we were: mag sige eat ug mag sge tsa. but, priorities would change and one can always get used to absence...

afterwhich, we headed to mo2, (and as useless, we could not miss dancing-though pathetic kme ni czar cuz kami ra two ang manayaw... :) i remembered jeremy telling me someone smsd him and asked where he wuz, he didn't reply cuz am with him daw...promise, wala na gyd ko bala issues with anyone or any jerk. enuf na gyd ya.

sat afternoon, my ma na dili patuo na dghan taw sa SM wanted to be there and check the place, all right, the interiors where awesome but the number of ppl who came to see it scared us. mao lagi na merese sa mga ignoramus. :)

sunday: my family had dinner at pala pala, cpus' treat...i asked kermit how do i go about choosing fish/sea food to which he replied with: kinsa imo kuyog? toinks. i informed him na murag police sya. then i could not let cpus and dich go back to cebu without ever trying bobs' coffee ang barato ug lasaw na frappe from bobs' hehehehe. :) then we walked towards sorrento, where we had cocktails. pansin ko i've imbibed muchos. it's about time that i quit.

oh, my penguin can roll over and i'd teach him how to fetch.jawk. :) may relationship issues na sya between me and his biological mom. hehe.

have the best work week everyone! Colossians 3:23-24

God Bless you and keep you.

 

strawberry daiquiri

03marso2007// washroom photos forever//longlive wastedness.

love weekend

of sundays//coffee at bob's with cpus+dich, of pathetic after shift faces, mother-son relationship//lychee margarita and discovering piayaland.//03-04marso2007

/Countdown to my 25th/

 

 

After shift payat and I gave a QA dept. talk to the teachers who are currently trained by Chris/ I hope I did not talk too much and I hope we made sense/am makwento like that/ I guess being around people and chitchatting would be my skill/lol/ I so wanted a team, my own team to work with, yet God did not give me 1 becuz He knows that at this point I can only be accountable for myself and it would be above my head if I were to be accountable 4 other people, not withholding the fact that am not even speaking to like 5(if the number is right) people on the ops floor. I guess it’s not about the technical or administrative skills (to which I often would snap back to when certain individuals would doubt my lack of which) that I may find wanting, He may be more concerned of my at times (maybe, even most times) horrid attitude. That brings me to this incident (wow. Again to each his own man daw- pero muchika ko gyapon though) this mwning… there’s this tech who got promoted, it somehow got to his head that he is now a SOMEBODY despite the fact the others fared better on the phones than he did/ it’s not a question of who is better, actually, any1 can get promoted or would deserve a promotion, however, he took the promotion too seriously that he ended up offending quite a few people. (again-this is being quoted- pede din naman that he offended just one person :) anyhoo, at times the universe would give us the best things in order for us to become stewards, be gate keepers, be blessers, and that we may humbly accept a bigger task knowing that there’s a bigger Guy who knows better and who entrust certain tasks to us. Maybe people should just know that PRIDE GOETH BEFORE A FALL. :) I will be 25 in a week, the previous year is more than life-altering; I’m now saying hello to semi-permanence, too much change had been going in for me since the Ateneo// am learning goals and deferred plans, acceptance and forgiveness in a painfully slow process. Wukits, if there’s one thing to believe in, malawak ang mundo-there’s much for all of us…and there’s nothing too overwhelming or too ridiculous for our hearts not to accommodate to- it’s always going to be wide enuf.

 

Have a great weekend. God Bless. (see you mactan)

 

<3 HIS GRACE IS ENUF TO MEET THE SMALL THINGS-THE LITTLE PINPRICK TROUBLES THAT ANNOY/ THE INSECT WORRIES/ BUZZING AND PERSISTENT/ THE SQUEAKING WHEELS THAT GRATE UPON OUR JOY. - A. FLINT

♥

Raenyberry

You can become blind by seeing each day as a similar one.
Each day is a different one; each day brings a miracle of its own.
It's just a matter of paying attention to this miracle. <3 Coelho

 

my nathaniel

my after shift indulgence- ako piglet with mita//

dear mum

i know wko life, kaning penguin lang. :)

clara's eyes

Thanks, beautiful. Hehehe  I am proud of you, you just don’t know how…

Claire

 

Our site director’s email made my day// it’s true that noone labors in vain if it were done for Him//eventually people will see//

And again, I’ve written or maybe said this a gazillion times//Boss Claire is beauty and character personified.

 

♥

Raenyberry

...I shambled after as usual
as I've been doing all my life
after people that interest me,
because the only people that interest me
are the mad ones,
the ones who are mad to live,
mad to talk,
desirous of everything at the same time,
the ones that never yearn
or say the commonplace thing...
but burn, burn, burn
like roman candles across the night.