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oh sweetie you crack me up....

jang: raen nagmodel ka before mcdo?

 

runaway with my heart

 

Mood:	content
Music:	i love you more today than yesterday

finally, we graduated last night...november 4, 2006, after 3 months of intensive(care) training. the photo slideshow of people who came in and out of the wave gave me shiverrrrs.... saturday night was supposed to be a pool party, but, the rain ruined the luau/poolside thingy we were having, they moved the tables inside and we had dinner in the lounge instead. but, it was fun.... the morning class 6-2 sang, wouldn't it be nice. Christian that was great...and thank you for asking how am i. Jeremy, was on the drums. ayuns. Nikki looked pretty last nyt. well, she is usually pretty lalo na when we are going out. ;) wukits, the 2-10 class presented as well, this is cee's class... i am not sure wut wuz the song's title, but, it's deooo mee deoo i think that's how i heard it. then Javin did this yoga stunt. haha. and some of the guys sang a line or two. then my class, (i joined along with imports from other class) sang turn around....hahah, the walang kamatayang turn around. boo...di pla turn around yun...total eclipse of the heart yun. dinner was decent talaga. i sat wit cee, nikki, toria, billy, teacher slash dalai lama al, and mac. then the iloveyou more today than yesterday, ayala sureseats played. i almost wept. gawk...imiss the love mall slash cebu.....wukits, am glad czar's wukits na. am starting to get depressed wit the situation, plus the fact that some b*tch or b*stard wuz trying to promote my lj account. wow. 

best sms i got last night:
i am starting to hate her werewolf na rin raen. take care. 

haha.

<3

kilig thingy: claire, the site lead had her speech, then i extended my hand, then she gave it a squeeze. oh yes, when i grow older i wish i'd know leadership like how she knows it too well. 

after, the certificates were given it sunk into me that we are gonna start ops monday. training had been cumbersome but, it sure was a learning experience for most of us kids. and xempre it taught me to become more patient and impatient with ppl. awwww, cut the mush raen. you can't wait for ops. yer wicked. ;)

<3

then i went out with cee. because iloveyou, i won't say no. mo2, then hooshi, then some ewan, san yun where it smelled funky.... but, i can tell i cannot force myself to have fun when am tired, i went home, and dang...my knob was busted. i could not get inside my place. 20 minutes, i tried unlocking the door, and then uttered a Lord ipa-open sesame mo na toh please. and it opened. haha. ;)

funniest reply i got last nyt: 
raen: nyt .... 
xa: k

natawa ako. 

saturday morning, eric showed libertad to moi. it's not as scarey as i thought it wuz, but, it smelled funny, to think, as we were walking around, i was eating bichu-bichu. spell gross. tas pansin ko si eric namimihasa na, ginagawang malaking lavatory bahay ko. jawk. i appreciate the fact that you listen and you confuse me eric. haha.
hapon, out with cee, robinson's...she got me two pillows. yay. ;) and then we had facial. hahaha. my nose feels out of proportion today cuz of the poking. (ano daw?)
mother banig, am sorry i did not get to see you yesterday, it's a roller coaster.



and today, i think i will miss church na naman. haaaay.
help.

runaway with my heart
runaway with my hope
runaway with my love.

x0x0

gia-atay. namimiss ko na kayo.

photo one- ian mot dave mark toping---- mingaw nku ninyo
two-my sisterrrrrs, shobe it's a bitch to know that the canary top looks great you...dichee, the holidays will be different this tym, ilove this pic wit you...best holidays spent talga ang 05
three- joey and fifay. glam united damak amplified.

p.l.a.k.

payday at pera lang ang katapat....

but, my heart woes because i am paying the rent,rent can be indeed taxing....then the groceries...then i remade the windows cuz i got the black cartolinas already.... piayaland seemed empty. plus wut's scaring me now is the fact that ops launch would be next week. i don't know how long will i be able to tolerate the ppl here. mejo, lahi jud sila ug kinaiya...or is it moi? eiwan.

ilovelovelove bryan boy. bwaha.

cee came by, we had jajollibee jujoin lunch cuz pay was credited late. sad ako cuz it's the first pay day that we did not get to have dinner together. ;(

i talked to my therapist today. let go. live. and have fun. and for now, it's always supposed to be the thick film called selfishness that should come first. no sharing of ragdolls din. and well, some ppl are meant to be the waste of the earth.

 

ang lungkot talaga. malungkot kse wala na naman akong pera. boohoo.

iam beginning to get sick of my liking for lavender. my house smells ummmm grassy. plus eric greenpeace came by to do the number okits, i should stop...haha. but, anyhoo, we bought bichu bichu sa mercado then walked around the block for cheap kainan. saya.

 

haaaay, i now feel for her. ;(

ewan i wanted to go home too.

at my fave sms so far....

into nya ko ara sya sa beach,

gle electric fan lang. haha. Ü

sighs. paramdam. alive.

 

 

petix na naman.

i just realised today that i should've bought black cartolina to block the sunlight coming in my room because the curtains that i made doesn't really serve their purpose. grrrr.... l wukits, him jerk smsd that the taong grasa version one might just climb up to my room thru the broken windows, and to think lawrence and i tried to figure out whether someone could really break into my apartment thru the windows... l sue me if i recount my day to day mishaps, cannot help it.... cee smsd that we go out for lunch l today we had lunch at cattlefarm ranch, the place is not a fave, one i don't like the interiors tas two super ka rubbery sa tangigue, yun lang l cee is on a woebegone mood today, i wonder if i helped cheer her up, eh sobrang wala ako sa sarili this weekl and i've had this incredible tummy ache since last night, on the way home sa cab palang i broke into real cold sweat l then i did the laundry, if some years ago stress relief for me was planting cactus and repotting them, now it's laundry, bwaha! l then i made bolognese for dinner, waaaah... hindi parin ako marunong magluto, please. l androgynous- i wouldn't want ppl to think i could pass for one, kascarey. haha. l oh yeah someone told me i liked an agent na naman daw. parang hellomoto, i'm liking everybody who i think are my friends, ma OA na. come to think of it, if mahal nila work nila they shouldn't be crossing me. the pen is a mighty sword. boohoo. maling gamit ng idiom. if only i weren't too kabus, i would not make mantinir here. pero iam, it's work and subsistence, but, if i were greta i'd take a sabbatical and go to borabora,french polynesia and not mingle with the commoners. dang! l and powta, ang mahal ng avent, ang sterilizer would cost 7k l i learned that a part of the negros province are cebuano-tongued, tas most part aren't, and there's no negros city, hehehe, and well victorias is a beautiful place to be in. boohoo. ;) l i just remembered that in college there's this docu about sugarcane plantation tas some kids would lose their limbs while working. tas i did mycrayola-over OAemote for like days because of the docu. now, i remembered negros na. l and i actually know the last name of dave, hahaha, talk about stalking big time. l and dave, dave from addu dave did send a friendster reply saying he's alive...and talk about major kilig.  Ü bwahaha. [missy, after 3 years of pining for him in addu, wagi ako, we went out..... misent: hehehe...raen, may work ka? ------>kanino na send? xempre sa pinag-uusapan...minsan utak poodle ako!]

oh one kakatuwa thing today....i talked to some gals from the supposed dispatch queue, they were like being protective of me tas they loathed one TL cuz the TL gave me an IR. kahilarious. and someone mentioned i gained tho. ;( huhu.


cee, the song's for you. haha. hugs. wuvyah.

 

and all we did today is petiks. and calibration, which was helpful. ;)

 

Tuloy Pa Rin

 

Sa wari ko'y
Lumipas na ang kadiliman ng araw
Dahan-dahan pang gumigising
At ngayo'y babawi na

Muntik na
Nasanay ako sa 'king pag-iisa
Kaya nang iwanan ang
Bakas ng kahapon ko

CHORUS:
Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo
'Pagkat tuloy pa rin

Kung minsan ay hinahanap
Pang alaala ng iyong halik (alaala ng 'yong halik)
Inaamin ko na kay tagal pa
Bago malilimutan ito

Kay hirap nang maulit muli
Ang naiwan nating pag-ibig (alam ko na 'yan)
Tanggap na at natututo pang
Harapin ang katotohanang ito

CHORUS:
Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo
'Pagkat tuloy pa rin

Muntik na
Nasanay ako sa 'king pag-iisa
Kaya nang iwanan
Ang bakas ng kahapon ko

CHORUS:
Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo
'Pagkat tuloy pa rin
Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo
'Pagkat tuloy pa rin
Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko (tuloy pa rin)
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo (hugis ng mundo mo)
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo (hamunin)
'Pagkat tuloy pa rin (tuloy pa rin)
Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo
'Pagkat tuloy pa rin
Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko (tuloy pa rin)
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo (oh..hoh..)
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo (handang harapin ang mundo)
'Pagkat tuloy pa rin
Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo
'Pagkat tuloy pa rin

dear tl lance

diba bawal ako magisip. or diba bawal pag pinag-iisip nla ako?

nagnonose bleed diba ako sabi mo? ayan na. nose bleed nako sa printers pa lang ha.

 

amishu.

yer fave agent na nagresign. bwahahaha.

raeny

 

i cannot fax.the city of angels. lonely as i am together we cry.

Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	california here we come

 

wukits, we did goth today, but, the agents did better than us. ang saya ng stuff that they came up wit, but, not everyone came in costume.

 

i guess am getting better at sleeping. haha. cee, smsd that we go to gaisano city, but, i read it like really late na. then ended up sleeping again. ;( impossible na toh.

 

at blocked na ang lahat ng proxy, disabled narin ang tools link. malaleche. huhuhu. i can be found at marchraenmaker.livejournal.com.... dun na naman. lonely nga lang. huhu.

 

 

1 Chronicles 4:9-10

9 Jabez was more honorable than his brothers. His mother had named him Jabez,  saying, "I gave birth to him in pain." 10 Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, "Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain." And God granted his request.

good thing that you asked. now, i remembered. ;)

 

kermit smsd. so did wari. haha, dear Lord, you have a funny way of making ppl remember me. today pa of all days. haha. the guys from etel are doing okits, tiney's on hr, wow. pogi ila temporary HR, then moy's doing okits with matrix he mentioned some best practices on the floor. ewan. everything is above my head and i am under the weather. ;( dichee signed the JO for PS. yey! gawd, amiss my sisters.... ;( shobe, well i haven't heard anything from her today.

<3

years back, there's this reality show about yuppies on mtv from allover asia. i just remembered one gal from hong kong who is getting thru life in a shoebox apartment tas the only real connection nya to the outside world is the mobile phone, and then she eats wanton noodles tas she cries muchos and i thought she is pathetic. now, i feel like am in her shoes. potcha.

okits, now am worried. i hope jeremy's okay. ;( hay Lord. be there before we break.

 

am trying to figure out the recorded call, but, then again, with the noise in the background, all that i can gather is the tech making a really long hold. grrrr.

notes on living alone:  a rice cooker would work wonders. pang heat ng water l make soup l cook yer rice l you can make noodles or canton l boil eggs l do stuff except toast bread.

tas when yer flush breaks, ummm yer in trouble, then you'd think, payback sa sins ko this week.

tas the window locks break din, oh well, magnanakaw alert!     

according to joe's tarot card reading, w/c i wouldn't really take seriously, i'd end up with a messed up week. sighs. it's such a sweet, sweet november. lemme soak in the starrrrs.*****

oh wari, hehe, have a good 25th year. do a good turn daily. as if you'll endup reading this. thank you for turning 24 wit me. am sorry it happened badleee. everyone needs someone. know that. ;) am sorry i gave up cebu too soon. yaaaay. ;( dili sultion kay anogon if you didn't mean it. tama ka, i guess.

love,

raenyberry

"When you're down to nothing, God is up to something."

Cyrano:
“—You have never heard til now
My own heart speaking!”

 “Cyrano de Bergerac,”
by Edmond Rostand.

...I would stare at the grains of light suspended in that silent space, struggling to see into my own heart. What did I want? And what did others want from me? But I could never find the answers. Sometimes I would reach out and try to grasp the grains of light, but my fingers touched nothing.


(Haruki Murakami - Norwegian Wood)