life lately- regret is a bitter pill

i regret i can't smoke now and moving forward and that i regret ever having started on marlboro red around 5-6 years ago.

ugh fcuk, actually.

currently i'm taking these antibiotics and pain killers. i hope the whole thing goes away. if not, i hope i go away before the docs had to tell me they're drilling my jaw bones. i'd rather be a quarter of a million peso or half a million peso than a living unpretty sight because of a lopsided face. no, no, no.