she moves in her own way

i wonder how long will i keep this ummm quasi-relationship with --. whilst it is fun and safe and it's all about movies, and nietzsche, and books and the kooks, and keeping promises and him pin-pointing all the crazy flaws i have, and starting to hold hands and kissing. it scares me.
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mambukal was fun yesterday. it's so impromptu. i wish we took pictures but we wind up sleeping and staying inside the cottage all day.

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my heart is just about to explode. i've been depressed lately. it's weird.

..but the first week of August is motionless, and hot. It is curiously silent, too, with blank white dawns and glaring noons, and sunsets smeared with too much color. Often at night there is lightning, but it quivers all alone. There is no thunder, no relieving rain. These are strange and breathless days, the dog days, when people are led to do things they are sure to be sorry for after."

-Prologue, Tuck Everlasting by Natalie Babbitt