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it was nice seeing you again.

 

i missed you.

 

 

 

atoot raen, to-o sad ka?

what happened?

i feel like i lost someone. a gal pal lost her ex boyf to cancer. and it's the holidays.

and she's all about him the previous year. first love. first all. aaaaaaarg.

yikes, how will one go about an ex who died anyway?

i shouldn't have opened her blog, i ended up tearing my heart

too... (ang title pa sa entry: i can't believe this is happening)

 

it's not like i lost wari. i didn't. pero, it is sooo much better to

lose yer guy to something as ghastly as cancer kesa naman

to some girls. weeeh. hehehehehe (hehe, all ex boyfs go to heaven)

 

i'm sad. understatement.

 

and it's pay day! napapas ako ngisi when i came across lovekewl's

blog... she loved the guy. understated.

 

the past few days i've been laughing like a dolt for no reason,

the littlest things made me happy, extremely. yeah, and life at home had been

beautiful.plus my folks are gonna be here for the holidays, so things are just

super perfect. and He loves me.

 

seeing anwar last night didn't make me though. i am baffled. i do not know

where to go. all i know is that when he is around, i would come running.

it's sooooo SARAH MCLACHLAN, hehehe.

 

double-jacking with the vet reps made me extra giddy. and i know

i would look like an idiot should i take calls tomorrow. yet, am doubley glad

i got to talk to and mingle with ppl i never thought were nice. ako juds....

bad judge of character. Ü

 

my mind is a different entity. it separates from my systems when we are

on training sessions. gakabugo ko kalit. punit my wits. sos!

 

much needed: sugar rush.

 

current cravings: gambas pasta

 

best thing i got today: a loaded debit card *grins* and the hugest hug. weeeh.

 

beautiful person: armand on the elevator Ü

 

cutest gilik moment: mr. luy cupping my chin, jejejeje---> ki-at! (sa act ko na giliks.)

 

what i will not do: continue wallowing and weeping like a widow over waryu.

tama na, hubag ako mata going to work. labad pa ako ulo.

daghan pa in queue. weeeh. Ü

 

what i will do: EAT.

                     take calls. be better at it.

                     reclaim sundays.

                     quit smoking.

                     pa clear sa WATS, sheepish grin*

                     pay DEBTS Ü

 

missing: joey and steph. big time.

 

raenyberry
When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow.
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close
Cos you know and you know that you know. Ü

inappropriately silly.

i could barely think, i've nothing good to write, but, the need, no, the urge to pound on the keyboard doesn't go away. i know things are turning out really good for me,so i am left grateful.

i wonder why am in a generally happy mood, despite the frivolous setbacks and maka-irits pips i find lurking on friendster and making statements such as: he loves me like a fat kid loves his cake.ai, ewan.

someone left me the happy gas.

i miss *&^%$ but then again, i've to blame the fates for turning the constellations wrong side up every so often.

and yeah:

"love has made me a fool, set me on fire and watched as i floundered, unable to speak except to cry out and wait for your answer, and you come around in your time speaking of fabulous places, create an oasis that dries up as soon as you're gone, you leave me here burning in this desert without you." - stupid, sarah mclachlan

i guess that's the way things are. for the mean time.

 

-- love, indeed, is strong.  it could even break one's heart. ripped from leen's journal. Ü

flea market

my tuesday night: adto mi mercado sa ako manghud, shobe was on her happy mode, tagged the wet market as THE FLEA MARKET, para when asked where we went to, we could just say, we went haggling sa flea market....Ü

 

sighs.

ang nakuha, 20 bucks worth of good finds...hehehehehe and mga kati-kati sa kaka-ukay.

 

i sometimes love my sister...hehehe

tuesday

midterms for the client...bombed it cuz i over slept, took the wrong puj this am, ended hailing a cab....maka-irit ang nawung ni lj na ginapanindigan ang pink, weeh....ewan idol ako....

 

am the happiest girl in the world right now.

 

and broke.

 

and so alanis is right, am broke but, i am happy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"I am nothing special, of this I am sure.

I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life.

There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten,

but I've loved another with all my heart and soul,

and to me, this has always been enough."
Nicholas Sparks (The Notebook) ­

yay, weekend

 

the week went by sooo painfully slowly, but, yeah, wadaheck, next week would be my fourth week at work....ang saya. it's totally being taken back to soft skills in sykes, only, i've made better friends at sykes(some i believe, hehehe)

ilove the value thingy they incorporate in us, sooo true, knowing that we have to set people's expectations correctly, unlike my previous call handling/troubleshooting steps where i am compelled to fib....yahoo! karun palang jud ko ka feel like am gonna like it here...i mean, am gonna like how my account works, plus the pay is better, way better...so no complaints whatsoever thus far....troubleshooting happiness as of now....Ü

 

still...no intimate gal pals, inom buddies are found anywhere though...but, i want another stephie and joey....bad....no, badly.....

 

yay, it's weekend....merry holidays.....

 

Raen
 
He was like an angel, you know?
I never knew life could be like that.
He was the one thing I followed through in my life,
the one thing I didn't give up on. 
I was good at loving him. [The Untamed Heart]

cassiopeia

This beautiful constellation at the edge of the Milky Way has definetely the shape of a "W". It is assiociated with the Perseus constellation family.
Sweeping this region with binoculars (or even an opera glas) is rewarding (especially the region around delta Cas).
It is located between DECL=+50 and DECL=+60, RA=23h and RA=3h. Once you found Cassiopeia or the Big Dipper, which is located opposite of the celestial pole, you can easily locate other constellations of the northern hemisphere.
In arabian countries this constellation is called Caph, which is also the name of beta Cas.