they don't call it a crush if it was easy

from 300loveletters.

big brown bag

'God is love,' she said. 'And He
respects love, whether it's between
a parent and child, a man and woman,
or friends.
...Live your
life right... Love with all your
heart. Don't hurt others, and help
those in need. That's all you need
to know.'

Burned, Ellen Hopkins

♥

gelo asked me to wake him up before i go to work today. i almost felt bad that our rest days don't fall on the same day but, i got over it thinking that we might need time for ourselves and yet, when i am at work i feel like i'm a storm wrecked ship that is not anchored. i feel more grounded knowing that he is around. (charootness!)

i hate doing groceries lalo na when when  the bill rings up and you see that you are paying at least 1/8 of your hard earned moolah and you'd get 3 plastic bags. onions cost p29 and a head of lettuce costs p28! incredulous. i asked gelo why, he said it's because of the oil price hike. sa isip ko lang baket nisasaute bah ang gulay sa gasolina?

hayers.

so to end consumerism and cut cost i decided that i'll bring lunch to work. i told gelo i'd make sandwiches and microwave them. and just bring pamasahe daily. this way i can cut my  spending on coffee from bob's/ pepsi- am addicted/and food- and most food from our concessionaires are food from the looney bin and so!!! magbabaon nalang ako. on a daily basis i can spend 100-150php on food, parang sayang when i know that i can make my own lunch.

i lacked sleep. or feel like i lacked sleep so i skipped yoga lest i fall asleep on my own mat.

dear shobe,

i wanna see kairi na gyd. and i wanna see kenji. hayers.

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wala! di nako magshopping cuz i needed to save for kairi's diaper creams. kaloka ang request ni shobe. and her onesies. but, i don't think i can afford to buy onesies for her. ü

-- i'll miss christian. i have no friend when i am not on the same sched with him. i like the fact that he is such a gentle giant and a really intelligent creature. it rubs in on me. mabright pod ko. :)

i got over the hurt hurt. i am being oa lang talaga yesterday. plus the fact that i am supposed to take calls two hours a week. all crazy things would act up.

vienna waits for you

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Tonight...

Too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong, you know
You can't always see when you're right. you're right

You've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize..Vienna waits for you?

And you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get half through
Why don't you realize, Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

tsa moe mile.

pardon me if i clogged your multiply inboxes once again.i did some housekeeping last saturday and screened most of the blog entries from a few years back to network only, for one apparent reason. most of what i wrote were plainly cheesey and embarrassing.
i will continue writing like a dolt and wearing my heart on my sleeves but, i shall retire them entries somewhere more secured so i don't embarrass myself altogether.

low: and downright crappy.  notice how some people can be soooo nice to you one minute and treat you differently the next? eiwan ko wut i did to be treated like a leper. oh gohd. some people in this city are just too pulubi when it comes to manners and keeping things real. that's why i don't like people who grew up with soooo much hang ups, namimirwisho.

♥: sunday morning gelo and i had breakfast at mcdo. where you see elderly couples and i begin to be wistful that one day we will turn out like them.

♥: we have clean linens today. i even managed to turn the smallest room in the house as a yoga room! with incense sticks and the works. (nge, it's not that fancy pero, it's indeed a yoga room na)

♥: i did a 20 minute yoga routine. haha. eiwan. i am stiff as a board. but, as they say practice makes perfect.

♥: i wish shobe would name her baby as cait instead of cate. wala lang parang lait. milk diba meaning ng lait?

low: it's sad how other people would need to hurt you this way you can appreciate who it is that you have. at times, we all should know a good thing when we have it. i am saying goodbye to someone today. it's a whore to cut strings off, but, some people deserved it cuz they're huuuuuuuuuuuuge eejits.

♥: sunday afternoon gelo and i dated. we had pizza at yellow cab sm. tao na talaga baby ko, he finally realized yellow cab is food.

♥: i made a groceries list. made me a bit happier now that i know what to do in gaisano supermarket instead of being lost amongst the aisle and aisle of consumerism.

♥: i am grateful gelo has a new bff in iver. haha. they're soooo metro and so akin to each other it hurts. i wish he'd stop hanging out with older guys so he can act 21.

♥: september! am seeing kairi. ü

God is steadfast. pero i wish he'd cut people's head off or poke their eyes if they purposely ignore me. if they ignore me the more, panget talaga sila. panget.

haha. kaloka ang fits.

"Can a man who's warm understand one who's freezing?"

~One Day In the Life of Ivan Denisovich, Aleksandr Solzhentisyn.

photo inset: my primary pic in friendster. told gelo that i made our photo my primary photo and captioned it with hey hey love looked good on you. kaso i told him he's blurred out. ü

edits: i took calls during the day cuz i have nothing to do but think about how pathetic i were the past month. I WERE. that means being pathetic is a WAS. i wish i can just live some mis- tooks down as easily. pero hindi. some things would really hurt. and today i am hurting. i could not even spell out the manner of my HURTING. but noone i say noone has the right to treat me like a leper. bweshet.

crrrrrrrrrrrrack

i honestly considered cebu with you.

now that i think of it, you are not for me as i for you.

love is totally punked rock

earlier tonight
photos from anime.
8/1/2008
complete set::

http://anniemay.multiply.com/photos/album/106/08.01.08_Sly-less_Office#

homeward bound and melt.

If I could, I would move mountains to reach you. You must know that. If you are reading this, the mountains have proved beyond my strength.

--J.L. Carrel,  The Shakespeare Secret

the rain doesn't stop. it's a huge hasslefeck.

gelo and i decided against going out cuz we only have 1k left to stretch over the weekend. bwaha. so we made lunch. i liked team work. and i like it when we make up after a bad fight.

oh, i am in a more peaceful place now. i once read that God is just kidding and making fun of us and telling us to take things lightly when we are pmsing. :)

i told gelo i will stop crying over the tiniest things and i am tons more "normal" now. until i asked him if he were familiar with the letter of the main character in message in a bottle and then big fat tears suddenly were rolling on my cheeks.

he then gibed "i thought normal ka na, cry ka naman haw?"

i said in between tears "what if you lost me, what if tomorrow i'm dead? or byuda nako?"

boohoo.

haha. the other day he told me to stop being melancholic. kaloka these things he comes up with.

melancholic/ barbaric. he's like a 3 year old learning how to talk. ü

--

i wonder how long will i keep assisting the nesting wave. some gals i liked lalo na those gossip girls kinda gals, pero those with mongoloidal smack on their faces, i wanted to tell them to just die during their calls. haha.

--

dear little sister,

keep kairi cate safe. i want 2 babies early next year.

happy weekend!

God's been great.

JAKATLA! I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU. I MIGHT NOT HAVE LOAD SO I WANNA WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE. LOVE YOU TONS.♥

edits:

i know i should not take people oh so seriously but agents who take their jobs as if they were in uni would really eat all the niceness in me. asking a question once is okay, asking twice i might reconsider but, asking the same question thrice would really say something about you.

i am not nice. and i am lazy. so i guess they should just get a new nesting sup and reconsider sacking me.

gahd, i don't need this job.