Friday, June 28, 2013

1,2,3 Marlenas

Tweets

  1. “They call you heartless; but you have a heart and I love you for being ashamed to show it.” – Friedrich Nietzsche // Quoting FN bec of JJ.
  2. I'm sooo excited to let Taffy see that I've gotten her a huge pump bottle of bubble bath and baby lotion. She can waste it whenever.
  3. Whenever Taffy cups her hands on my chin/cheeks or wraps an arm around my neck, the world seems better.
  4. “The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it.” – Henry David Thoreau
  5. Kokaks, I don't have load. That explains the nada response.
  6. Most books I read or tv series I watch have coffee as one of their key elements. My life involves watery coffee too.
  7. Taff: Mami is that pekpek? R: Yes Taff it's my pekpek. You came out of my pekpek. Taff: Ipik Ewwwwwww. (Kagaga nga bata!)
  8. On free tv: ANTM C4 contestant says she's being real. Tyra says yes you're real but no one's going to hire you bec of your haughty attitude.
  9. No, you didn't grow up with wealthy parents even if you say so. Klaro how you speak about things. Baduy ra.
  10. Took the yuckiest chewable vitamins. Serves me right for getting ones from the kids' aisle.
  11. Finally finished picking toiletries for Taff. Went to J Center Mall alone and then had to go back to Ayala. Kefoy.
  12. But, the only shapes she knows are diamond and star. Ngeks.
  13. Taffy can actually speak in sentences. Ex: I will wear heels. Or, It might cry. I'm impressed.
  14. hahaha dwarfed coconuts if I may say. Lol. Hahahahaha.
  15. I thunk anak kos Gaisano dili Kimball lels.
  16. hindi na nila ma take na lumaki ako sa tatched roofed house with a swimming pool. And longgan trees and coconuts. Haha.
  17. "Love somebody today. Whether it’s messy, uncomfortable, awkward, or undeserved. Just simply love them."
  18. ang akala ko anak mayaman ako kay pang Twitter lang na na info, hindi yan makaya tanggapin nga FB crowd. Lels.
  19. Getting Taff her bubble bath, her lotion, and the rest of the toiletries she needs. I hope I won't be lazy.
  20. Starting another book I got from Fully Booked. A collection of daughter stories.
  21. Gipaligo-an nako sa drammm si Taffy last night, she was so elated to go swimming kuno, although she coughed out some water a few times.
  22. "Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." Heb 10:23
  23. Men are disturbed not by the things that happen, but by their opinion of the things that happen. - Epictetus
  24. - I tell myself are more ridiculous than the actual circumstance.
  25. -you'd rather have them get it. Gaaaaaaah, I have a way of making myself see the good in ridiculous situations. Even if the things-
  26. ..Then perhaps that's God's way of telling me, they don't know what a venison is and they might get depressed if they don't get a promotion-
  27. ..and sometimes those that get chosen are ummm mediocre and do not dress well. Lels. And do not even know what a venison is.. Haha.
  28. I have not gotten a promotion in 5 years sometimes I'm like why wouldn't I get picked sah when I know that I can be faithful when working..
  29. It's admirable how many of these call center worker ants are extremely hardworking. But, yeah they're not as lucky as I am.
  30. And I go to work to just wait to collect my paycheck. And that makes me different fr the hardworking and sipsip gehls here. Haha.
  31. ..bec I can't find anyone as relatable as the friends I've made in my old city. Orr perhaps the crowd her are all coming to work to work..
  32. Talked to over the phone and convincing her to move to Cebu. I probably don't have friends at the work place..
  33. Now that I think about it, morag boangra.
  34. I've been in the worst of moods the past two days. Crying over nothing and being sad over anything. Tas I yell at Taffy and the mermaids.
  35. Yuwi is sooo cute whenever she says I'm gorgeous. You just want to bite or pinch her.
  36. If I get sacked bah, mao najud siguro nang time when I can say, good riddance lels.
  37. These kids do not know what headsets are for.
  38. ..need to resubmit documents from the spouse if we need to renew our offspring's HMO coverage.
  39. Thank God I didn't have to go to a lawyer for a document re being separated fr my "spouse", our HR office finally decided tat we do not..
  40. Mubuy nalang ko'g cake kay Taffy oi. She wouldn't probably think I'm weird not throwing her parties I can't afford diba?
  41. Looda aning sinusitis oy. I need to see an ENT najud. Been putting it off for 3 years now.
  42. Another dyo want a sibling question for Taff. Now her answer is: No oi, it might kyay. Huhuhuhu.
  43. Kenji upon opening his lunchbox: Oh no, it's getting worse every day!
  44. tried to call you, the call won't go through. :(
  45. My Twitter account was compromised dawwwww, so Twitter reset it. Nge.
  46. I sometimes wish for a sibling for Taf. Piper Levon would be a fitting name. Boy or girl.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

whilst i wile away my time..




i want the whole ensemble from d&g a/w 2011!!!

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

The sads that take time..







fml. my heart is once again broken, broken and i am like watching them cut it in half and as if they were waiting for fairys to come out. grrrrrafack..

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Life lately




I've promised my daughter that I will memorize a song just for her, that I'll read her Dr. Seuss, that I will be a present mother. But, I've been putting things off. I wish I can find more conviction in trying to realize my promises.

I've discovered collage! Haha. They make photos more pretty and somehow more meaningful when put together. Of late, I've been having 2-3 lunch dates in a day, I'm stuck in an office where I just wait for time- and I am not complaining. It's pleasant. I don't want hard work. I just need money. I've been doing hard labor since 2011, it's time that I take a breather and be able to just sit. Be a bit more friendly, listen to life stories, read good/shallow news, ensure that I just absorb good vibes, be a friend who can show up, I'm grateful that I don't have to deal with tyanaks. 

Above photos were from 2011-2012. I miss my sisters daily. I'm grateful my folks gave them to me, otherwise I'd go through motherhood alone. :(

Monday, January 14, 2013

I just don't want coffee tonight..

Though I am small I've seen things far beyond these city walls
The land is flat and it rolls for miles
I don't know much I know I've many places yet to see
I know I've been here for a while

Wouldn't you know just when I thought I had this figured out
I'm back at my first day at school
Trying not to think too loud I raise my hand to scratch my head
I've no ideas of what to do

'Cause something's changed today
And what it is I just can't say
And if I don't seem okay, well I'm okay
So sue me, sue me, if I just don't want coffee tonight

Back in this coffee house where we just met a week ago
Now we've been friends since we were young
But all our conversations are hitting walls we can't ignore
We can hide but we can't run

And I can't run from you
Or what we've run into
Now regardless what I choose, we both lose
It must be getting late
Where's my head
Where is my head
Where is my head

I still hear you telling me what a big mistake I've made
funny that's what I've been telling you
I can lead a horse to water
You can even make him drink
But you can't change his point of view

Tonight as I was driving home I passed a coffee shop
You know I wrestled with the truth
And how I'd explain to you what you could never understand
And how I'd keep my mind from you

But that's the price I pay
Your way is not my way
Today's another day and it's okay







My 2012 in photo collages. 

God I love Caedmon's Call!

Sunday, January 13, 2013

“He thinks about her, at this moment, in her house, a few thin walls away, packing her life into boxes and bags and he wonders what memories she is rediscovering, what thoughts are catching in her mouth like the dust blown from unused textbooks. He wonders if she has buried any traces of herself under her floorboards. He wonders what those traces would be if she had. And he wonders again why he thinks about her so much when he knows so little to think about.”


― Jon McGregor, If Nobody Speaks of Remarkable Things
Almost 9 years into the BPO Industry. So many fxcking things happened. Yes, that's because I am Raena Chulalongkorn, bxtch!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

So far, where I've been..


The last 6 months of 2012 had been hectic. I barely made time for myself, for Taffy, or for anyone even. I was just going through the motions and did not know how I actually lived. I wasn't a good friend, a good TL/co-worker- who was truly truly there, and what sucks was the fact that I neglected to see how Taffy grew. Yes, I took photos of Taffy but one time amidst the chaos of my dailys it dawned on me how I miss holding her hands and kissing her toes that smelled like staled popcorns!

At times the sucky-ness and supposed failure at work turn out to be huge blessings. My manager deemed me unfit for the program. Laaaah. I'm not going to begin to discuss how I work and what kind of work ethics I bring to the table. All I know is that my dedication does not boil down to just sucking it up because I am a grown woman who can speak her mind. And can say, oh well screw you.. (: And so now, I'm free from work! I am partly employed but acting unemployed. I wish I can easily call friends to meet me in Ayala for coffee.

I'm trying to gather my bearings and then maybe I can be more fun in 2013. And the best Mummy to my little joey!

x

“It seems to me now that the plain state of being human is dramatic enough for anyone; you don't need to be a heroin addict or a performance poet to experience extremity. You just have to love someone.”
― Nick Hornby, How to Be Good