catch 22, again

The sad thing about life is that dreams are usually so cookie-cutter perfect, that people just settle for the closest things to them. They don't believe in the existence and sheer possibilities of their own desires.
Trina Dela Rama, Runaway

it poured last weekend. we spent our saturday night at home as opposed to how we intended to spend it because of the storm. the rain still scares me, but, not as much now that i have a roommate. :)
woke up very early sunday morning, phoned a cab to drive us to mcdonald's lacson, amidst the downpour, we had to get out of the house because we had no electricity and cannot cook food.
our steps were oddly directed to church. grace invited us to attend either the 10am or 4am service of victory, at first, we were both hesitant, but, strangely the Spirit worked Himself thru the both of us who were absent from church for almost a year now..
the message last Sunday revolved around winning souls. that as a Christian, God can fullfil your agenda if you served His agenda first. That He'd promise you that You can command Him to do things for you, if you did what He is asking first. I'm confident to say that I know that if i were to die tonight, I know where I am going, and I am not scared, however that part of my faith convicts me of one thing- being complacent. I feel as though there's no need for me to do anything else cuz i could always use 1 John 1:9 as God's promise to keep forgiving me each time I say I'm sorry. Yet, the pastor pointed out, that in any case, we should always try to win someone for Him.
i'm blabbing. i'm just happy to share worship time with Gelo. i hope we keep it this way til we are married.
i hope that one day, if i continue training, out of the 4 weeks that i have with the trainees, i'd give an hour for Him as well- this way they would know, prior to taking on a job that requires them to be up all night, they'd know someone is also praying for them that they continue doing their jobs in good health.
sunday still: we had lunch at shakey's and saw this german-filipino, specifically ilonggo speaking family, they've 3 kids, and has a set of twins. the eldest hannah, told me, her sister and brother are named louise and lucas.
hayers. kids are love.
then gelo and i saw made of honor.
two hour long.
okay movie. :)
today we dated again :)
and we both completed our errands and even bought two more laundry basins and clothes clips.

i have so much concerns about work. some things make me soooo angry, i wanna walk away from this company.
i know i can walk away when i have the answers and i have lawyers to talk to.
at times, rich people think they can easily manipulate people working for them. but, then the heavens have good ways of making them pay back.
am praying for answers.
am not praying for other people to tell me that i am not doing well because CSAT says so.
they're all full of crap. and are sooo good at blaming others. they're not even half as good as i am cuz i know that when i'm doing my job i have my heart into it. i prayed for it. but, it's makayofax with the dramas. i'm surrounded with people who had soooo much bull.
i hope they be happy when i finally step away from them. teleperformance needed to know how to value people. they should learn how to deal with people's tenureship. and not have faggotry in motion daily telling us to speak english in our own country when they do not pay agent's salary on time.
and cannot make a decent and consistent contract.

4 years ago i wanted a 25k pay per month, my own apartment, now that i have these, i didn't know it SUCKS.