today my fave little person left me for cebu and eventually will be bound for davao next week. kenji, for the past almost 3 years had been my compass to being maternal. yes, whilst in my "watchful" eye, he had bumps and bruises, he would not dede his milk, i've learned so many things about yielding, waiting for hugs and kisses on the lips that are not pugos or asked, and about child-rearing in so many ways.
i just wish that i can always remember how his breath smelled and how the washroom smelled like milk/powder after he bathes.
i now wish for a boy from the stork. i simply wish that in due time, the loss i feel for my nephew will be replaced with fondness for my own child.
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on the other hand, i'm almost done packing. the apartment is almost bare now. can't believe i kept so much junk through the years. i hope in our own house we don't wind up keeping junks that collect dust.
yesssssssssss, we still need tiles, and a sink, and exhaust. kadaghan pa. kapoy think.
and we'd need to save for the baby. and the mini-van. ambot.
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i'm just so frakken tayerd and sick lately.
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right after we bade gbye to kenji and dich today, j and i had breakfast at kuppa. i felt that we needed a treat. and jending, we ended up in an argument, to the point of almost yelling at each other amidst the crowd of insiks having breakfast there. at the end of the meal we made up.
naaaaaaaaaah. kabuang.
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i hope married life and motherhood would change me for the best. and that i'd feel anchored. sana ganun lang.
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