life is a circus

i chose to stay at home last saturday but, mac smsd and told me to go out cuz he will cover the bills for moi, so i went with the other half of the wave and had vid-k and booze at cafe brazze then we went to mo2 to go dancing. i was having fun when well, am not gna take this against him cuz i know he is looking after me and all else from cebu, but, he said that maybe i shud stay away from mac cuz someone is jealous na daw and eto pa ang worse, i had to tell them if mac would sms. we had been friends since training, and quoting mac, can't a guy and a gal be platonic about things without having people think something is fishy with em? grabeh, sbe nya pa maxadong malicioso ang ibang tao. there. but, i still had fun tho, cuz i sang my heart out and danced and had vodka and beer....soooo, am good. Ü to think i did not pay for anything.

then we went on with the alcohol binge at home, girl's quarter until neal called that i go get him from their place, am like another mayor na kaya ang mayor ng subdivision mo, he was being a pain na parang kid, so i yielded. ayun, sooo much for being incognito, half the training class already saw us together.

mac told me he hadn't seen me this happy. ang sarap sabihin can one person make you happy and miserable at the same time. neal does. and am staying away.

the rest of the guys who stayed for more booze til 6am of sunday were mac/ rich--- who passed out then viktor, tl sly, niki, belle, and neal who ended up hogging my bed, i was compelled to stayup til noon nalang and cleaned the topsy turvy tsunami stricken living quarters, only to be told that my bed is hard and the dorm is an oven. gago talaga. hehe.

and so sunday's worship i did miss,but the gals at the dorm bought booze again and another tagay started na sad...all gals///

today, am grateful i told cee stuff, she would not judge me or take things personally, i hate having to face sandra and tell her i did not steal neal away. he is not mine, he is not hers either. i hate being in the office later and having to explain if i should explain wut's us.
hahay.

and dear Lord only you know my heart and if i am hurting anyone and if it will be a circus at work today cuz everyone will be talking abt me and neal You hold our hearts. we will only explain to You, and Lord tell em we are not romeo and juliet or tristan and isolde. we are rabbits and hermits who needed a break.

and neal davey sancho cordova. hati 25th bertday. heads up parin, iknow i met you somewhere in kindergarten, ur one of the most beautiful ppl i met in my lifetime. i won't regret anything done with you, but i will stay away until you know wut you want. ;(