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dear baby,

i was in the strangest sense of shock yesterday. i let myself cry knowing that you are already a realization of all the longing and wishing and praying of my past, younger self. i am a bit unprepared. knowing that your mother and daddy had their lives mapped out for 2011 and for the rest of their lives. that they know that they loved each other and promised to be together, forever soon. and then there's you. and it's not only gonna change things in a tad way but in a major, astronomical way.

nonetheless, we both promise that we love you despite being unprepared, despite being weirded out by the circumstance. i guess, now i couldn't quite imagine if things did not turn out the same way as now.

mama, promises to be happy while you're inside and to eat well while you're turning out to be the little one we both had wished to eventually have. mama promises not to put you at risk while you're so tiny. and today, being the 2nd day that i've learned that you are alive, i wanted to tell you that you already have a name and again, that you are truly, truly loved.

in 20 years time, you might no longer need mama and daddy. but, i know you'll be awesome. cuz you already are giving me all sense of awesome inside me now. thank you.

waiting in anticipation,

mama

november 26, 2010