In November 25, found out we're pregnant as I tested positive on a home HCG kit. The baby, after J and I discussed about plans of getting married by October of 2011 wasn't a part of the deal. We decided to move to Cebu in Jan. 2011, and go about life as a married couple without a child. I've been on potent and strong medication since summer of this year. I've been diagnosed with a couple of ills- ones that will plague me for the rest of my life if I am not careful about the way I eat and the things that I do to myself- so I thought I might wind up barren. I've so much substance in my body that a zygote will not think about surviving inside me. I'm wrong. God has ways, unimaginable.
All sorts of thrill winds up inside me now. I've no way to go but be happy about it even when the imp is really going to ruin our life plans. But who cares, I wouldn't ask for our circumstance to be any different.
November 29, went thru my first Trans-V Ultrasound. Found out that I am 5 weeks along- and I've been clueless. I've been taking steroids, antihistamines, painkillers, and been hanging around friends who smoke. I'm ultimately an idiot for not asking for the print out of the sac. It's looks like a balut, so round, the result says it's just .14cm in diameter. A tiny, tiny yellow sac that'll change both J and my perspective about a childless marriage. ;p Down side is: I've a cyst on my left ovary, and I am hemorrhaging. Tomorrow, it'll be a gyne visit. I am not so scared anymore. I know the kiddo is alive.
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fallen rain. (: