still.

i find myself restless these days, it is as if i have got so much at hand, that i disregard the little things such as answering emails, sms, writing letters/keeping snail mail correspondence, or making important phone calls. i snap at people who i am previously really friends with [yeah, i am good at screwing palships, sooo am], and even with callers, i am impatient, i seem to cut them off in the middle of their explanation. [expediting resolutions, charness. ü]

my thoughts would fly elsewhere. i do not bother to check the updates from my sup. things seemed depressingly empty these days. and when asked how i feel about being in billing i would endup crying.argh.

 

imiss my email conversations with verlaine, i miss mike ty's sms, tootsie's late nyt 20 questions, i miss jezrel asking me how i am.i miss by bessie anvi.

 

i miss my parents.

 

drats. everything is just über-depressing.

 

xoxo

 

 

i wanna stand still just for some time

let the world go about its daily ways

without bothering me.

let me just sleep and dream and not wake up

from my slumber,

lemme just linger in stillness for awhile.

 

let me be still.

 

[bad poetry night]