possible is mandatory.

"Good. For a moment I thought you were going rational on me. Always remember: In an infinity of worlds, anything is not only possible, it's mandatory."
InterWorld by Neil Gaiman and Michael Reaves

i adore gaiman. <3 and will one day buy all his books. ü

i lost appetite on food. eating by my lonesome after the sister and the penguin left isn't that nice anymore. doesn't anyone loathe pms? my tits are swollen and my arse is painfully annoyingly humongous these days. imagined or unimagined all the same.

today i picked up glass castle again cuz am not too ready to read allende, or start it cuz it's a depressing story of a gal and a photog-and suddenly i have this theory that i might not really want to pick it up for later. i kinda felt really stupid and stagnant these days because i haven't been reading. i can now conclude that i like memoirs more than any made up stories. cuz memoirs are real.

but, i liked gaiman's cuz they're grown-up fairy tales. i liked the morbid snow white where the stepmum gets to be roasted in the end with goose grease and i haven't slept thinking about it. i even told angelo the story months back. it's repulsive.

i am digressing. i managed to cook up a whole pms-woe-is-me afternoon because all i had without food is caffeine and water and showbiz chismis and learning wut cliff diving is and sketching and wanting a real sketchpad and pencils. and not to leave out the fact that i've been watching too much koreanovelas that i could not even follow really well. and then thought it would be great if i read about the wallses again cuz i am still waiting for dich to hand me her hardbound copy of angela's ashes. dich had a different interpretation of the main character's parents. she tells me they were irresponsible and lazy, i'd say the wallses were taught well. in a slight unconventional form of parenting. maybe when one becomes a parent everything would become immaterial except for your relationship with your partner and your kiddies.

so it struck me that i was wallowing. thus i have bolinggit on both eyes. and i've been asked one too many times tonight whether i have been crying.

haha. letseng hormones.

and it rained late afternoon. i am still awfully scared of the pitter-patter of the rain. hayers.

nazel forgot the pasalubong. nalooy nako niya. i don't want her to be the ears for all season when i kept blabbering.

i wonder how manille cd team could ever think that i can collate all stuff by eod? bow.

dich tells me ken is self-disciplined. he would point his pointer finger up and would say "no, no, pank!" hahaha. dili daw kay maspank sha. too cute. and he liked kamikaze(?). my pag-umangkon knows his pop culture.

love,
Raen