fine, i caved in...

pagkatapos mo sinabi sakin yun, or you blatantly asked for that which i do not want to yield kasi masasaktan ako ng di hamak.... sabi ko tsoks lang. kakayanin eh kse kse mahal kunwari kita.... tapos kong burahin lahat ng texts mo, lahat din ng call logs mo, yung miscol na di mabura bura kasi kala mo nawala nko sa hacienda libertad na to this day natatawa pa rin akong isipin...yung mga hoy maligo ka ng todo na mga text, kasama narin yung, oo nga miss din kita kse nakakainis mga tao sa class, tsaka yung true true tsakto bad mood ako...and yung lahat ng ihope you don't tell anyone then you make bawi na you were trying to see my reaction. how can you see? nagtetext ka lang?  i will miss getting the ahay messages.

pero kanina i woke up with this weird weird hurt/pang na parang i wanted to puke like i puked last saturday+ended up sleeping with my head on the toilet seat...ganung klaseng want to throw up na feeling na gi-atay....kse tingin ko nasasaktan na pala ako. ilang weeks yun? mga five weeks, apat na weekends. sadja promise pero kagabi pa ako naiiyak. oo iniyak ko na lang. i wanna throw up but am thrown na.

tas eto pa dika lang naman ang nag-go go thru ng quarter life crisis(or in yer 50year expected life span, midlife crisis toh), ako Q2 ko na eto this year. tapos na pagiging habitat for humanity slash salvation army volunteerism ko. tas na ang assurance of help speech such as: am here, am here lang...or oh no, you're loved, am sure it isn't that bad.

 

tao pa ba ako?

promise last entry na toh 'bout you, artista kana. <3

 

Her heart was ripped in two and she was struggling to breathe, but somehow she knew that if she had the choice, she'd go back and do it all again. That's how pathetic she was.That's how weak-minded and desperate she had become.