it's a bitch when it rains

i finally will start taking control of my OA self...iknow i still am letting myself go, altho some days i try to doll up as much as possible. pero minsan impossibleh lang talaga. today, nagkulong lang ako sa shoebox apartment ko, nilysol uli ang mattress ni neal, tas, natulog ng natulog gigising lang when someone would sms, such as cee, who was pissed because she dint get the sched she wanted, poor baby. but, it's fine sweetie, sabay ta magtrain for printers and i will listen na talaga cuz the whole week iam not paying attention. then he smsd and asked if i deleted his testimonials, i said yes, cuz they were stupid. then silence, then again he smsd that he would be in a different shift. am like i know. parang ang sarap sabihin please go away nalang. i wake up wanting to throw things that would break. ;p tas thinking na noone had ever made me feel this insecure about myself until you....so there.

so wukits, i slept and ate, oo nakakahiya to admit that i actually made a premade mac and cheese diko pa maitamang gawin. grrr. una laundry, then cooking, send smore!

oh before imiss this: this morning i've a new school bus. akala ko cj would bring his old auto, he brought a new one....hahaha...drum roll please...a brazilla! i almost died. and before we even got out of TP, the car broke down. nyahahaha. sayang my phone's busted i could've documented the whole thingy.

sighs i miss ayala.....

When you're alone
And life is making you lonely,
You can always go downtown
When you've got worries,
All the noise and the hurry
Seems to help, I know, downtown
Just listen to the music of the traffic in the city
Linger on the sidewalk where the neon signs are pretty
How can you lose?
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares and go
Downtown, things'll be great when you're
Downtown, no finer place for sure,
Downtown, everything's waiting for you

 

potcha i do not know where downtown is....