aiiiiii bitaw...

"At that time in my life, no conclusion was a bad conclusion.

Something ended, and you stopped wishing and worrying.

You could consider your mistakes, and you might be embarrassed by them, but the box was sealed, the door was shut, you were no longer immersed in the confusing middle...

Of course, I didn't imagine then that I could have had a real relationship with any guy. I thought that by virtue of being me I was disqualified. None of which justifies how I acted. I was wrong, I screwed up—how else can I say it?"

prep- curtis sittenfield