de facto

Main Entry: de facto
Function: adjective
1 : ACTUAL; especially : being such in effect though not formally recognized <a de facto state of war>
2 : exercising power as if legally constituted <a de facto government>

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johnny made me google de facto.. nothing is too factual except the fact that the screaming and yelling this afternoon was the most embarrassing situation i've ever been in as a grown up..

tahtah..

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"There is no safe investment. To love at all is to be vulnerable.Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the caseket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket-- safe, dark, motionless, airless-- it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetratable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell."

--- C.S. Lewis (jacel's homepage)

But what if you're the only resting point you know of? What if you are absolute zero? What if only you can catch yourself? prozac nation

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