because it's lonely taking a jeepney alone//

duol ko niya and asked him to drive by rosario so i could go home with him//ana pa sya: raen, lapit ila house sa amapola & let's avoid issues... am like, no, i need a ride home... he said, where's jeremy? upod kay jeremy... i said, wala si jerjer na// and he said: gaan taka pamasahe o,ten pesos// am like::: indi ko gusto gani magjeep// he asks: wala kana kwarta haw? i reply with: wala eh, gaan moko?

he's like: the best that i could do to help is twenty. am like: no, pang cab gne.forteeee// and he haggles with thirty bucks, reaching for his pocket counting his change...

and eventually gives me forty. i won. Ü (grimaces)

told him am paying back friday. but, i'm not gonna. unless, he asks for it. buang sya//

one of his promises before was::: if we were on the same sched raen we can go to work together and i could drive you home. asa naman toh beh?

he applied for the dsl sup post. i hope he will be TL.

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and yeah, i've this weird dream, it's like a saturday when we would meet pero we weren't really kewl at that time, and i burst into a confrontational mode spewing: why were you hitting on nikki? and he replies::: wouldn't you think WE were hitting on each other raen? and i ended up hagulhuling....masking when i woke up, i woke up crying. omfg. i've never had any confrontations with him, masking masama na loob ko how i'm being treated at work i usually keep it to myself or tell my friends// i would sms him that he makes me sad and how i wanted to make the whole thing okay, he says after the weekend things will be okay. and then the same thing would happen again, until eventually things went up in the air and i found out he has a real girlf. murag where was i when the kaguluhan happened?// i never wrote all these as clearly... it's sooo happened that am being pointed to a dead end. when he becomes TL, it's uber clear that he will be moved to another account and the whole point of learning to let go should be there.

itold karya i hate boys, they're jerks(like her ahia mark who is a jerk as well)// but, xempre i should've learned to ask money from him earlier it'll make him look like he knew charity works at least softening the impact of his being a jerk. sayang.

today is odd like no other.

muah.

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oh, he asked for the 30 bucks back cuz wala daw sya pang lunch. gago gyd.