post-it heart

Mood:	exhausted
Music:	the world spins madly on-the weepies

nag moments na naman ko sa banyo when i woke up// gisundog nako si shobe, gahuwat if magtulo ang shower if wa diko magwork// wala sya nitulo// but, i took my tush to work. i hate waking up mid afternoon and not being able to go back to sleep right after//

yknow how back in the day when sunday school would tell you that each time you sin, your heart gets filled with tiny black dots// i even kept a heart post-it to track whether i fibbed//backstabbed//did something i thought was bad, each time, i'd draw tiny dots on that post-it// literally, that heart got filled, cuz i know that each time i harbor envy or hatred, a black dot creeps into my real pumping heart. and then i quit putting dots cuz i found out how His forgiveness works.

Ganun yun. the heart is wide enuf to accomodate anything you put into it, so you must filter what you'd want to be in it// if this year i'd want maturity, self-control, positive vibes, and appreciation for others, then i must choose my heart to beat that way.

i did not say i'd be mary immaculate cuz that is so not gonna happen, most times, i'd react in a blitzkrieg-like manner and inwardly i'd cringe in regret for having said or done stuff i've done or said earlier. and in so many places i'd meet difficult people or it's going to be me who's gonna be difficult; then again it's always how i should choose to place my emotions correctly.

kurt vonnegut died april 11// wife reported death(naslide ata tas nacomplicate-ingnan lagi e-dry ang washroom floor) // sad week for literature, too bad i haven't read any of his works yet, i should've back then. you know that the ateneo has a 4 or 5 floored library, why didn't i seek him  there?

you know how some1 said he didn't like being in cebu becuz he couldn't speak the language? that's how i felt in accounting classes or mandarinchinese classes.-digression.sorry.

my buhi mole did not act up anymore// kadireeeeee najud magthink about it.

this week am grateful for nazel's opinion, even if she's a year younger than i am, she thinks like johnny-old enuf. :)
oh speaking of johnny, i would openly gape at how he manages his team//people should see him. but, it would be better if he brings yza to work and let her run around and i can ask her who's dora's friend and she'd reply with- i've got toys.

i miss my penguin who wouldn't drink milk. and my sisters. i'm uber excited for the new things in stored for dich. He gives jud promise. i wish cpus et shobe would get their promotions this year. oh i dreamt of shobe and cris. and how they are okay. iwish they are. unta eh.

nothing to get excited about my existence this week. 

over 7000 promises are in the Bible. isn't that great? :)

 

iwannawakeupwhereyouare(incebu),

Raen♥