forever angel too

Mood:	cranky
Music:	forever angel-corrs

my am totally lucky to be doing what am doing mode is gone. am supposed to say am grateful cuz i found ppl who cared enuf in this gawdforsakenland. to be a friend, to love when i've the chance. pero, mainit na ulo ko. leche.

i saw how she's described na. she's perfect, i guess. no, not perfect. she's right-too too right. i could not get over the whole thing. 
hay ako ai isang sourgrape.

now i rarely open my windows to look at the stars. i would end up feeling idiotic. i rarely look at my phone cuz i might end up leading somebody on-again that i truly truly cared. siguro, reflex lang jud nako to care and to like stare with fondness and to ask ppl how they are, lalo na those ones who would voluntarily be there for you. how can you not reciprocate diba? all i wanted is this person to share the same Jesus with me. mahirap meet half way if yer SO doesn't know the God that you serve or the God that you think is God. am not making sense. i want SO to have my God. yun. then things would fall into place.

sighs. Lord know my heart. hold it down. no, keep it. it's Yers. take it agen. it  is Yers. You got me. 

i wouldn't openly say i've backslid. it would hurt. <3 i'll find my way back to You, promise. 


hay, iam in the crappiest mood tonight. sooofooootah. lami magbitch fit! surang surangon ko sa shift. paetch.

oh, am the happiest camper today errr after shift....third wheeling naman. not me not cee not ej, ilike it when i go out by threes.... we had breakfast at mcdo. masaya. it's like having friends in cebu, not quite but, ihave friends. haha.

then cee et moi in stilletos, spell check and wedges came by the public market and haggled for a soft broom/ clothes pins/ and plastic hangers. ang babaw ko. pero masaya.

<3

petiks kami today, walang monitors. yay! ;)

the technicians will listen to their own calls. lipay ko, wla ko buhaton. :)