paranoid thoughts at bay

"People like it when you tell them things, in suitable portions, in a modest, intimate tone, and they they think they know you, but they do not, they know about you, for what they are let in on are facts, not feelings, not what your opinion is about anything at all, not how what has happened to you and how all the decisions you have made have turned you into who you are. What they do is they fill in with their own feelings and opinions and assumptions, and they compose a new life which has precious little to do with yours, and that lets you off the hook. No-one can touch you unless you yourself want them to. You only have to be polite and smile and keep paranoid thoughts at bay, because they will talk about you no matter how much you squirm it is inevitable, and you would do the same thing yourself." --p 73


Out Stealing Horses
by Per Petterson

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true. it's another i don't understand why submission are for girls sobfest.. his plus my neurosis would mean disaster. i am losing it.

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oh, nazel, grace, and my boy had breakfast at business inn. they were talking about their calls. how long ago was my last call? i miss having team mates.