dorkdom and being an urban hermit

It's obvious she's having a hard time sipping her coffee. No matter how delicately she raises her hand or how straight and elegant her posture, she can't help looking awkward when she drinks. Half the damn cup of coffee is trickling its way to the spreading brown stain on the front of her white blouse.

It's her fault, really.


-Jeremy Robert Johnson, Angel Dust Apocalypse

i kinda feel as above.literally and figuratively. yesterday, i smsd angelo asking what i did to us after seeing at least 5 pairs of his soiled black socks in the mini hamper. i broke down after. i couldn't help it.

tas i tried going to church in a jeepney, then realized all the restaurants in lacson street have memories of angelo. and that almost all of my food memories are with him. i did not even dare eat at shakey's or tater's because i know i might end up disprespecting whatever we had if i had someone else in tow..

ganun kalala.

and at church, his uncle spoke about his great aunt. and again i smsd him telling him his uncle is sharing a testimony.

things will not go back to how it were. i will and am leading a different life now. and somehow, i am holding someone else's heart precariously in my hand. i may not even notice it, try as i might to take good care of it, i might wind up giving it back to this person sooner or later.

tama siguro ko when i told gelo that the grass might not be greener on the other side. people are not contented. i have been with us, as far as i can remember until last month..

i kinda miss our rock and roll lifestyle. but, maybe both of us should be battling our own monsters without each other.
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on the other hand..

friday- i've been absent because of my fever. my upper back hurts, as if i were carrying a knapsack.

saturday- stayed at home, groceries at sm, and some people mistaking me for someone's wife. kaloka.

sunday- had cbc, had medical check-up at riverside after church and the doctor ruled out influenza but, i had to watch what i eat and go back 3 days after to see if it's not dengue, lunch at pepe's..

monday- got to play with jb and then bought a new umbrella.

ayyyyyy nako, how anti-boring this life. :)


God is awesome.

please include shobe in your prayers. she's about to give birth to kairi anytime tonight, tomorrow or within the week. kairi at 31 weeks is 7++ pounds. she's a big girl.

i even dreamt that she'll look like her mommy. :)

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got back to teaching for csat. one of the managers told me, i thought mahinhin ka, ang lakas pala ng boses mo.

bwahaha.

and i got one of my boys promoted to tier 2.

and s.o. also got promoted. yipeedeedo.