like grass

It's strange how your mind plans ahead for such an eventuality while simultaneously hoping against hope that it will not happen.

i forgot where i got this quote, nonetheless it speaks the truth.

okay. i got a fancy illness and the doc calls it upper respiratory tract infection. :)
and i just got back from a 2 day sick leave(make it 3.5 days of which if i include last week's)..

and all the mean-ness in the world gets me. like being poor is not noble and nothing is cute with being frugal.

okay masama akong nilalang.

and that i will not marry s.o. if he doesn't make me a housewife. simply put noone will be my husband if i cannot be a homemaker. i don't want to be a career person or a business partner. all i want out of my life is to be a house wife.
yawn lang.

so help me Lord dapat ang prayer ni s.o.

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at first i thought i felt empty. but living alone made me realize how nice it is to have the bed to myself. bow.

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i got all sorts of food craving these days. it's making me go crazy.
i want crabs. boiled ones. crispy crablets. i want grilled veggie pasta. i want celery and carrot sticks.
hayers.
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i made pork tips and broccoli the other day. s.o. tells me i can cook. charmus.
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tuesday- absent. i cooked and did some housekeeping.
wednesday- absent and almost went ballistic cuz i miss angelo big time. pero sige nalang.
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i hate my sisters. i miss them tons. and they make me miss them tons more cuz they keep smsing me tons of maka jelly things such as lunches at ding quaqua and kenji eating his booger or tmac yaya-ing kenji and kairi not popping out of her mom's womb because she doesn't like hand me down crib/strollers/ rocker/walker.

i miss them.

i just lost a first cousin. it's sad. we're not close because of age gap. pero kahet na. it's odd how one can lose someone.

God Bless.

i think i now understand wut it means to have that God shaped vacuum in your heart. i'm awfully touched by one elderly agent who looks out to see if i'm in church during sundays. and tells me to have lunch with his family next time. that's the kindest gesture i've gotten thus far na walang halong politics.